If You Ever Get Lonely Chapter 12, a bloodlines series, richelle mead fanfic

Sydney POV

For the next for days I decided to mope. I've never really moped before. Even after my sister died, I just threw myself into my work. Moping was weird, because nobody in their right mind WANTS to be sad all day, but there's something comforting about walking around in sweats and not giving a crap. Trey defiantly hates the fact that I've been moping. Not because we're besties or anything, but when he brings some whore home I'm always sitting on the couch. They always try to ignore me, but I always end up ruining the night. It's kinda fun to mess with him, and it's mean, but it's also the only joy I've had for weeks.

"Okay! I'm done, It's over! She has to go." Trey shouted from the kitchen.

"Oh, what now" I heard Ivan ask.

"The milk is gone again! I thought you said that if she's not gone in a week, then she'd at least be easy to live with!"

"She's going through a rough time.." Ivan tried defending me, but Trey cut him off.

"No! You can't use the same excuse every time, She's been going through a tough time for about a month now. You know what.." He stopped talking, but I heard his footsteps coming towards my room. The door flung open. I looked up at him from my sitting position. His blue eyes flared with emotion.

"Look Sydney, I know it sucks to lose someone, but.." That's where I cut him off. What the hell did this guy know, he was nothing but a playboy.

"I'm sure you mean well Trey.."

"Ahh! Shut it and listen," I guess this was the day to not let people finish their sentences.

"But you didn't really lose this guy. He's still out there, alive and kicking. You wanna talk about loss try having the person you love," Trey's voice got higher with each word,

"Not remember who you are, not even your name!" I had forgotten until now what Ivan had told me about his roommate. Trey and his girlfriend got into a car crash a few years back. Trey was driving and he obviously survived, but his girlfriend got the worst of the hit. His voice was almost a whisper now.

"I visit her everyday. Hoping her memory will miraculously come back..." Trey chocked up and to be honest I was close to crying as well.

"The point is you still have a fighting chance. From what I understand this guy really loved you and love like that just doesn't fade. So get your ass up, beat the information out of that Russian guy if you have to, and go find Adrian. Cause if you don't you will NEVER forgive yourself." I looked up at Ivan and he shrugged.

"Couldn't have said it better myself. We'll leave so you can have some privacy." I heard both of them leave the house. I was alone. I must've stared at Dimitri's name for hours, before I finally hit the call button. I took a deep breath, well here goes nothing.

Adrian POV

It's been a week since Dimtri and Rose got to Russia. I've been lying since the moment they got here. I played off that I was fine and I was over Sydney. That couldn't be further from the truth. It's true that I have been getting better one day at a time, but I'll never truly get over a women like that. Being with the Belkiov's helped a lot though. I've always had what you'd call a dysfunctional family, and the Belkiov's were far from normal, but they cared about each other. Olena made breakfast every morning, Victoria helped with her niece and nephew with little complainant, and Yevea... well she was just kinda creepy. Don't get me wrong I love her and she incredibly wise, but seriously she's one of those old women you'd believe to be a witch. Tonight was good though. I finally finished my song and I was singing it at some bar outside of St. Petersburg. Weirdly a lot of people spoke English in this area. Sadly the whole band couldn't make it so it was just gonna be me and my guitar on stage tonight. It'd been a couple months since I've sung in front of people, and I was nervous. Of course it didn't help that the song was mostly about Sage. Once I was on stage the lights dimmed. Here goes nothing.

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

You can't give up, (when you're looking for) a diamond in the rough (cause you never know)
When it shows up, (make sure you're holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

When the song was over I felt out of breath and empty. The clapping of the crowd seemed distance. Dimitri locked eyes with me. His were filled with an emotion I couldn't quiet place, then he left the bar, answering his phone as he went.

A\N: Sorry it's very late and it kinda sucks.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there