SasuNaru, yaoi, m-preg, OOC, OCs and unbeta-read

Sasuke owns Naruto.

If it's not then it's my PC giving me problems. -sighs- Forgive me for the late update.

Chapter 30: Despair

What Sasuke like the most when he was sleeping was not the rest that came with it but the warm body pressed against him throughout the night. His body had grown attached to its heat and his mind had long accepted the fact that it was his anchor not only in reality but in dreams. So when he felt cold, he immediately started looking for that wonderful warmth but when his subconscious told him that Naruto had been pressed against him all the time he became instantly alert and awake.

He opened his eyes and found Naruto's staring at the ceiling. "Are you cold?" he asked and lifted his head a bit to look at his wife only to find dilated blue eyes. With that, Sasuke knew something was wrong with him but instead of panicking, he took the situation calmly. He checked his pulse and found it beating slowly but it was there. He then left for Yuuzuki's room.

"What?" Yuuzuki muttered sheepishly. He was sure that it wasn't yet morning because his body clock told him so. And he didn't want to be disturbed in his sleep especially when his body was still tired from his first mission as a chuunin. He never thought that the job of a squad captain could be that tiring.

"Chichiue is sick," Sasuke informed him calmly. Hearing this, his boy became instantly alert and unlike him, there was panic and worry in those blue eyes. "I'm going to take him to the hospital so I want you to look after your siblings, okay?"

Yuuzuki nodded and before his otousan slipped from his room, he asked, "Will he be okay?" "Yes, he will be," Sasuke replied. Even though truthfully, he didn't know what happened to Naruto, he wanted to believe that he would be alright.

But what if he wouldn't be? a little voice in his head asked.

I'll die while darkness will fall all over Konoha, was his reply.

-SasuNaru is love-

Luckily, when Sasuke burst into the hospital carrying Naruto in his arms, Shizune was still on shift while Sakura was just about to leave home. The two medic-nins immediately attended their hokage and friend.

Sakura mentally frowned at herself. She was a professional and no matter who her patient was, she never let her emotions affect her yet feeling Naruto as cold and unresponsive as dead almost made her an emotional-wreck. She gripped her hands just to stop them from trembling. She tried to withdraw herself from any personal feelings she had but found herself failing.

Please, she whispered mentally, don't let me fail this time.

Checking Naruto's vital signs, she frowned as he realized that he had almost none. Was death trying to steal the sun and pillar of Konoha quietly?

Naruto, don't go like this, she continued to beg silently as her vision started getting blurry with unshed tears.

"Sakura –" Shizune never get to finish her sentence because Sakura, who understand what she was trying to say, nodded. With their own chakra glowing around their hands, they donated their own chakra to boost Naruto's vital signs. And the second they did this, they were thrown off from Naruto by an unseen force. They let out a gasp of pain and surprise as their backs hit the wall hard.

Sasuke who remained inside the emergency room because he didn't want to leave and both medic-nins were too engrossed in attending Naruto to convince him to get out, looked alarmed then scared like the two women as they saw reddish steam evaporating from the blonde's body.

"Shit!" Sakura couldn't help but cursed. Somehow, Naruto's body temperature had increased, causing all his body fluids to start evaporating. Shizune immediately moved and applied her chakra to decrease the temperature only to find herself knocked against the wall again. It was now obvious that his body was resisting any chakra applied on him.

"Sakura, I'm performing a seal around him to slow down the evaporation," the dark-haired medic-nin said and her hands flew quickly to form signs. "I need you to send word to Tsunade-sama."

Please, please let the seal work. Give us some time.

Sakura nodded. They had no choice but to send for their master who was the head of the Konoha medic-nin. Although she had stopped treating people because of her old age, she had explicitly made known to her students and subordinates that she would deal Naruto's medical situation anytime until death.

The pink-haired medic-nin glanced at Sasuke hoping to give him an assurance but she couldn't because she also needed one badly and worse, she didn't know the situation Naruto was in so she just nodded to him and left to fetch for one of the legendary sannin.

When Tsunade arrived, the first thing she did was to order the Uchiha out from the room and the man had no choice but to follow. After that, she listened to Shizune about Naruto's situation before sending someone to fetch for Hinata. While her two students were concocting the medicine Tsunade ordered them to, the greatest medic-nin thoroughly scanned Naruto with her chakra then frowned as she found something out.

Just then, Hinata walked in.

"Just in time, Hinata. I want you to look at his chakra coil system with your byakugan."

Although not completely understanding the whole situation, she did as told. "His chakra coil system is enlarged and overflowing with chakra but it's not his. It's the Kyuubi's, I'm sure of it because it's red and very powerful," she said a moment later. "Tsunade-sama, are they merging?"

"Something tells me that they aren't merging," she replied. "I read from a scroll that every hundred years a demon fox's power increases twice than their current power. But I never thought it is still possible considering that Kyuubi is locked inside him."

"His body is already showing strain of this increase of power so if you would let me, I could close his pressure points to…" Hinata trailed off as she realized that there was no way she could do that because the chakra that was flowing in Naruto's system wasn't his but Kyuubi's. "More importantly, Naruto is-"

"I know and that's why I'm worried more."

"Tsunade-sama, the medicines are all ready," Shizune informed just as she and Shizune arrived carrying bottles containing different medicines.

"Naruto's body is reacting to any treatment using chakra so we have to treat him in an ordinary manner," Sakura explained to Hinata when she looked confuse why they weren't using any chakra.

The three watched as Tsunade injected different medicines into Naruto's body. Through hand seals, she made the room damp and misty hoping that it would keep Naruto's skin from drying too much.

Satisfied with her work she looked at the three, "I want him to be monitored especially for the next three hours. If after three hours, his body didn't react negatively then I want another shot of these medicines to be injected every five hours and I want him to be intravenously fed with dextroglucose. Make sure this kind of mistiness is maintained here."

The three nodded. "Good, now I want each of you to perform a seal to contain any power backlashes that may occur. Each seal must be powerful than the one before it." After that she left to talk to the blonde's spouse.

-SasuNaru is love-

Sasuke knew the moment he walked with Tsunade into her office together and saw her gulping three cups of sake immediately that Naruto's condition was worse than he had thought. He steeled himself when those honey-brown eyes looked at him with so much seriousness.

"A fox demon's power increases twice than their current power every hundred years and this is what's happening to Kyuubi now despite the fact that he is sealed into Naruto," she informed.

Kyuubi, Sasuke thought. Did he anticipated this and told Naruto who didn't inform him or did Kyuubi thought it was impossible considering that he was nothing but a spirit now?

"If this continues for a long time," Tsunade continued, "his chakra system will then be damaged and some of his internal organs are already showing signs of strain."

"Kyuubi will heal him, right?" he asked hopefully. There was no way the fox demon would let Naruto die not after all the things the two went through together.

"I'm not so sure of that, Sasuke. Even if the fox does, not all damages can be healed by Kyuubi's powers especially if such damage is beyond repair. Rest assured we are taking all necessary means to keep him alive."

"Alive?" Sasuke echoed with his voice hollow and shaky. "What do you mean by that?" At that moment he wanted sake so badly but refused to ask some from Tsunade and even when the woman offered him, he refused because not only will the alcohol could dull his fear but would also muddle his brain, something which he could not risk right now. He knew the situation would call for his decision and when that time comes, he wanted to give a very good one.

Tsunade nodded, "When Naruto turned 15 years old, Jiraiya had told me after supervising his 3-year training that his body is already showing signs of strain under the fox demon's power. With this new development, there is a big possibility that his body won't be able to bear it much longer."

Naruto's going to die, he thought and he didn't know whether to cry or laugh hysterically. He was now a rioting mass of emotions and wished that this was just nightmare he could wake up. He almost jumped in surprise when a warm hand covered his now cold ones.

"And Sasuke, Naruto is almost 3-week pregnant."

Pregnant?

If only his wife wasn't in a critical condition, he could have smirked in happiness at the news he just heard but God, Naruto was going to die and if he dies then so is their unborn child. He'd not lose one person but two. He clasped him hands to stop them from shaking more and clenched his jaws to make sure no sounds like sobs would come out. What had he done to deserve this? He didn't want this. He'd rather face thousands of rogue ninjas with Itachi's strength and cruely rather than face this. At least in the latter, he knew what to do, he knew how to deal with the opponents.

"I want you to be fully aware of everything and I'm sure you wanted to. With the intensity of the chakra flowing inside his body, there is a possibility that the fertilized egg will be suffocated to death. And in the worse case, you will lose both of them."

Sasuke just nodded afraid that if he opens his mouth, he would be raving against some sadistic gods. And he couldn't even cry because the news hadn't completely sunk in yet and even if it did, would tears be enough? What was enough?

"Thank you," he said absent-mindedly as he left the room in daze, in pain and confusion.

Somehow the word about Naruto must have reached Iruka because he found the teacher together with Kakashi in the hallway outside the emergency room. He nodded to them.

"Sasuke?" Iruka said as he saw his very pale son-in-law. He was about to hug him when Sasuke shook his head. "I'm fine," he said. "I'm going to get some coffee for us." Coffee was good. It might now be as effective as sake but at least it would calm his nerves which seemed to go hay-wire any second now.

Kakashi frowned as he looked at his former student. Sasuke looked so calm and strong like a pillar but the jounin knew how close that pillar was to crumbling so he excused himself and followed the ANBU captain.

Without any warning, Kakashi pulled Sasuke into a hug. The younger male resisted at first but the arms tightened.

"It would never be enough. It will never be fine," Sasuke muttered as tears finally fell on his cheeks and dropped to the pristine ceramic floor. "We'll lose our unborn child or I'll lose both of them and it will be just the four of us and it will be lonely. "

"Naruto's pregnant?"

"Three weeks and there's nothing I can do."

Kakashi rubbed his back, "No, there's something you can do – believe."

But would believing be enough? Would his hope not be shattered in the end? Would his wish be made to reality? Would his prayers reach to heavens and would he be given a miracle?

-SasuNaru is love-

Dread and uncomfortable silence hang in the air as Yuuzuki cooked their breakfast in the morning. He didn't like the fact that he still hadn't gotten word from his otousan or from any of his uncles or aunts informing him of his chichue's situation. He also didn't like the fact that he couldn't leave the house and go to the hospital because he was tasked to look after his siblings.

For several times now he had told himself to calm down and that despite the lack of information, his chichiue's condition wasn't critical and anytime soon, his chichiue would be home and be his usual cheerful self. But his efforts couldn't vanish completely the aching and dull fear throbbing in his soul and he couldn't put on the calmness he always manifested during missions because he knew this was different. Utterly different.

"Morning, chichiue," he heard his five-year old younger brother greeted sleepily although he had already washed his face. Akemi then frowned when he realized that it wasn't his chichiue who was in the kitchen. Frowning, he asked, "Where's chichiue?"

Yuuzuki didn't feel like dealing with his brother's nasty morning mood at that moment because he wasn't in his usual good mood.

"Eat your breakfast now," he said and smiled behind his brother where his three-year old younger sister was standing on her shaky legs. "Good morning, Mi-chan," he greeted and immediately fetched her in his arms and placed her on her baby chair.

"Where's chichiue?" Akemi once more asked as he settled on his chair.

"Out," he lied because if he told them the truth he didn't know how to reassure them that their chichiue was fine.

"You're lying. I won't eat until you'll tell me the truth."

"Otousan took chichiue to the hospital last night because he was sick."

"How sick is he?"

"I don't know." He was surprised when instead of asking further as he expected Akemi to do, the latter bowed his head and started eating. It was only few seconds later did he realized that Akemi was trying to hide his sobs by eating.

He placed a hand on his younger brother's left shoulder, "You'll choke yourself if you're going to cry and eat at the same time and I'll be sad."

"I'm not crying," he mumbled between sniffs.

"Yes, you are." Then Yuuzuki offered him a glass of water, "Here, drink this."

Cerulean eyes met another pair of cerulean ones and the gentleness on his brother's eyes made him cry more. Before he knew it, he had flung himself to his brother who immediately wrapped an arm around him.

"It's all right. Chichiue's going to be fine," Yuuzuki said in a soothing voice. "You have to stop now before-" he was cut off as Miki, who was still too young to understand the whole situation but old enough to understand the heaviness of the atmosphere, followed Akemi's suit. Having no choice, he grabbed Miki who was already bawling her blue eyes out and settled her in his lap. Somehow in the middle of comforting two of his precious persons, he found himself just wanting to cry together with them.

TBC

Look, I am digging my own grave and no need to push me because once I'm done, I'm gonna jump into it. Yuuzuki is so responsible -coughs-