A/N: Sooo, I found The Sims 3 in my computer, you can guess the rest of my story xd

First of all, I would like to thank all of you for your great reviews and that you are actually able to put up with me. I love you all so much and just felt like sharing it

just to clear things out:

this is everything that happens in Spencer's minds - memories, flashbacks and the events in The Room

this is THE VOICE in the flashback

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Only the plot and my OCs. And part of them is dead so...

"Spencer, you have to understand it was not your fault..." Hotch tried to persuade his young subordinate, who was sitting on the bathroom floor next to the sinks.

"Logically I do understand it. It's just... You know, sometimes when we're not able to save someone from the UnSub, we feel guilty. Why? We couldn't help them, we did everything we could to prevent it. And even though we logically know that, we still blame ourselves. It's the same situation..." Reid mumbled, trying to make sense out of his words.

"But in this situation, they were our UnSubs. Yes, no one deserves to die. Your mother didn't deserve it and yet they killed her. I'm not saying that they deserved it either, I'm saying you did the right thing. You didn't torture them, their deaths weren't painful." Hotch smiled softly, putting an arm around the boy's shoulders in a soothing gesture.

"I'm sorry... You don't have to be here for me, I will handle it." Spencer said quietly as if he was afraid to say anything too loud.

"What?" Hotch looked at him with shock in his eyes. "Spencer, why would I want to leave you? You need comfort, you need someone to be there for you and I just happened to be the one person honored with this function." he smiled and hugged the smaller man closely. "Believe me when I say there's no place I'd rather be at that moment or ever really." when he received a nod, he smiled and kissed the head of the person he so deeply cared for. "Let's go, I think you have some explaining to do." he winked at Reid and laughed at the terrified expression on his face.

"Oh shit..." the genius mumbled, gaining a big grin from his chief.

"Yeah well, let's go then, my Prince." Hotch exclaimed. trying to regain the professional look on his face. Trying, and failing when he saw the pout forming on Spencer's face. They went out of the bathroom and took a seat on the coach in Kingston's office, patiently waiting for everyone else to arrive to listen to the story.

Once they all gathered in the room and each of them took a seat, which was not an easy task with the place being too small for all of them, Spencer started talking.

Setton ended his torture for the day. It'd been almost four years in that hell, Spencer was slowly breaking, slowly fading. He wanted to see his mom so bad... He wanted to make sure she was okay, because if she was, he would be as well. He'd been begging Setton to let him see her non stop but he never answered his pleas.

What if she was dead?

What if she left him?

What if he was all alone?

What if he never saw her again?

Where was the point in living without her?

"Hello there, little thing, how are you?" someone asked. But who was it? Spencer looked over the whole room and saw no one. So who was talking to him?

"Oh, don't bother looking for me. I'm in your head. You can't see me with your eyes open." Spencer closed his eyes and was immediately sent to a perfectly white place. The place without shadows. Without pain. Without sadness. There was just... The soothing atmosphere. Spencer felt the pain fading away from his tortured body. He felt all the sad and creepy thoughts disappearing from his mind. All he felt was... Calm, ease, maybe even happiness.

"Who are you?" he asked the small figure sitting in front of him. He still couldn't see it clearly but didn't feel afraid of it either.

"I'm you." was the answer. Spencer looked puzzled at the figure.

"Then... Who am I?" he asked, confused by the answers The Voice was giving him. The figure smiled at first, then grinned and finally started laughing. It was a clear, beautiful laugh, it wasn't mocking, it wasn't meant to hurt.

"Spencer. I am you. You are me. And if I am you and you are me, I am me and you are you." he answered, confusing poor Spencer even more.

"I don't understand..." he said, looking resigned.

"You will, Spencer. You will soon enough. Look, I know what you were thinking. There is no point in living? Well, maybe you misinterpreted things. Your mother is alive. She will survive it. But will you? All the things Setton is doing to you, you're not strong enough to survive it on your own. And here's why I came. What would you say if I offered you a deal?"

"A deal?"

"Yes. I will take the pain from you. You won't be able to break from pain because it will not be there. I will make your life worth living as long as you have a reason to live. But as fast as you lose the reason, all the pain will return. Because what is the point in living without a reason to live? I bet you agree. So what do you say? You in or you out?"

Spencer looked at the figure. It made sense. As long as his mother lived, he would live as well. And there was no point in living without her being around anyway. The deal seemed to be perfect. It would allow him to be strong for his mother, he wouldn't be able to break. It was the only way to survive.

"I'm in." he answered quietly. The figure smiled and turned into a black fog.

"We're one indeed. You're me, I'm you, Spencer." and with that the voice flew into Spencer. It was like Spencer swallowed it completely. And that was it. Spencer didn't feel any pain when he opened his eyes. He felt nothing but calm.

"So yeah... Pretty much as long as my mom lived, The Voice kept all the bad things as far from me as possible. But then, she died. There was no deal anymore because there was no point in living." he ended the story slowly. Everyone looked at him startled.

"So what? You feel the pain that Setton caused all these years ago?" Morgan asked, not understanding the whole situation at all.

"When Setton got me, he didn't only torture my body, he also tortured my mind. He would show me the torture on innocent people. Once they were dead, he would leave them in The Room and let them rot. After a while, I stopped fighting him so he decided to stimulate my powers to the point they would hurt people. Basically, after a year or so he stopped torturing people, he made me do it. The Voice took the memory of their bodies and the guilt. Now i feel the pain, see them and feel guilty, all at once..." Spencer corrected quickly.

"Oh man..." Simon groaned. "Kid, why didn't you say anything? We would..." he started but was interrupted by Spencer's mocking.

"You would what? Figure something out? But figure what out? I made a deal with myself. There was no way out of it. I have to deal with it. It will take time but I will adjust. Really, it's not that bad..." Spencer tried to smile through it all.

"Spencer... It is not 'not that bad'. You're hurting badly. It is bad enough." Hotch sighed.

"What can we do?" Rossi asked, wanting to help his young friend really bad.

"I don't know... It-it's not something that will disappear, you know..? I have no idea what can be done to... help..." Reid stuttered. It was so frustrating, being genius but not knowing a solution.

"There has to be something we can do." Kingston argued and looked at Scarlet. "Maybe you will be able to help?" he asked her.

"Well, I might be able to reach The Voice inside Spencer but I'm not sure if it's safe." she hesitated.

"Don't worry about me being hurt and if anything happens to you, I will help you, I promise." Spencer convinced.

"Alright then..." she answered, but there was still slight doubt in her eyes. "I would like everyone to leave the room for now." she stated and then sat next to Spencer.

"I need you to close your yes. I will not do anything but help you find a connection with The Voice. Maybe you can somehow convince it to keep the memories as far as possible from you again." when she received the nod, she reached to touch Reid's head.

They were both instantly in The Room again.

"Hi Spencer, long time no see." said The Voice.

"Hello there. I wanted to talk to you." Reid started slowly. The Voice laughed.

"You want me to keep the memories from flooding into your head even though it was not the deal you agreed to."

"Look... If the memories don't stop, I'll undoubtedly die. And as you said, we're one. You can't live without me, we coexist. If I die, you die. That's the truth and you know it." Spencer confronted The Voice.

"Spence... I would love to be able to make it all disappear. I can feel how weak you're growing. I try to keep the memories as long as possible but they eventually come back. There's nothing I can do... It's all on you. We had a deal - the memories for the reason to live. All I can do is to advise you to find a new reason to live. I saw the looks SAC Aaron Hotchner gives you. And, what's more important, I saw the looks you give him. Maybe if you can... make him be your reason to live, the deal will be back?"

"Wait... You can't cancel it?"

"No..." The Voice laughed. "It's actually quite pathetic. Making deals this big is all it takes to tire me. Even though I'm almost as powerful as you are, keeping these memories was too much for me, too much for everyone actually. The deal was the only thing holding them back at one point. You need to make the deal work again, okay?" it asked softly.

"Will do. I have one more question though."

"What is it?"

"Why are you different? I mean, you've changed your attitude towards me since the last time we've met."

"Well, I told you, I am you, you are me. You change, I change. You become soft, I become soft. You fall in love, I fall in love. That's how we work." Spencer could hear the smile forming on The Voice's mouth as it said it.

With that he opened his eyes.

"Okay. Thanks Scarlet. I know what I have to do. Will you call Hotch in, please?" he asked calmly. He was pretty sure he knew what should be done. When Hotch entered, Spencer smiled and patted the seat next to him, gesturing Aaron to sit down.

"What is it, Spencer?" he asked.

"I've had a little chat with The Voice. It seemed to notice some things. It also said that it is possible to keep the deal going." he started, looking at Hotch. "I have to find a new reason to live. And you know... I think that it won't be that hard with you sitting right in front of me." Spencer smiled softly. As fast as Hotch understood the words, he let a moan escape his lips and a second later he was kissing Spencer with all the passion in the world.

The kiss was perfect. All around Spencer seemed to disappear and they weren't even in The Room. All that mattered was the kiss and its giver. Spencer closed his eyes and kissed back. Aaron's lips were so soft. He could do it all day. And just when he thought it couldn't be any better, Aaron slid his tongue in Spencer's mouth. It utterly blown Reid's mind somewhere far far away. A moan escaped his lips and Hotch took it as an inviting to kiss him with even more passion. Their tongues started kissing each other, every cell in their bodies was focused on that kiss.

The kiss.

The kiss.

Aaron.

Lover.

His lover.

They broke apart and looked each other deep in the eyes.

"You don't even realize how long I wanted to do it..." Hotch breathed. Spencer chuckled and put his forehead on his boss' forehead.

"I think I can sympathize." he answered and they kissed again.

It took them ages to break apart.

"I think we should get back." Aaron whispered, still smiling.

"Yeah, you bet" he laughed but then looked into his lover's eyes. "Aaron... Thank you." he stated, clearly grateful but for what, Hotch didn't know.

"Why? What did I do?" Spencer chuckled at the confusion in Hotch's eyes.

"You gave me the reason to live. This nightmare is gone. All thanks to you." he answered and kissed his cheek.

"Oh, honey, if you didn't give me permission, I would never do it. It's partly your achievement. But I agree, the nightmare of me not kissing you EVER is gone for good from now on." they both smiled and left the room, holding hands, not wanting to ever let go.

"I take it the case is over?" Kingston asked, smiling at the pair.

"Looks like it. It was a pleasure meeting all of you." Rossi answered, smiling as well. Hell, they all had grins on their faces as if Christmas came earlier.

"Spence, don't forget to write. At leas once a week, you understand?" Scarlet asked, threatening him with her finger. All of them laughed at that.

"I promise to write at least once a week and if we don't have a case I will write even more often, ma'am." Spencer smiled and hugged her.

"You all better treat him well or else I will crush you. No matter what!" Simon looked at the team in a dangerous way but then his features softened and he started laughing. He gave Spencer a big bear hug, almost crushing the poor man.

"It was great to see you again, Spencer. You haven't changed at all and keep it that way or else I will tell Agent Hotchner to fix it." he also 'threatened' and gave Spencer a fatherly hug.

"Thank you all, I will write at least once a week, they will keep an eye on me and I will do everything I can not to change." he laughed and with more goodbyes the team left.

"I'm going to miss them..." Spencer admitted once they were on the jet.

"Well, I'm afraid they won't let you forget them easily, what's more, I bet they will make you regret the words you've just said. They will do everything to annoy you, Simon is just so like Morgan sometimes!" Rossi stated with an amused grin.

"Hey! Just because we both call him Pretty Boy doesn't mean anything!" Morgan yelled, also smiling.

"Yeah, and your behavior isn't even slightly similar." JJ mused with a smirk on her face.

"Children." Hotch cut them off with a little smile of his own.

This was so typical.

This was just the right place for them.

In the jet, together, smiling, joking, happy.

Happy, because together.

A/N: So, so, so! Did you like it? I think that's how it should end...

Thank you, all of you, who stayed with the story and with me until the very end of it. You're great, I love you soooo much. So now, I'm working on a next story, this time without powers (XD why did I write once with actual powers in the first place!?) I hope you will like it (if you decide to read it XD)

So yeah... This is the end of the story!