Sooo it's been awhile, huh? Yeah, sorry about that wait just a lot of stuff going on my end so yeah, sorry. Also while I am sad that the show has been cancelled I do not intend to let that affect my ability to write this story. I love these characters and I want to see them to the end. Also, can you pls review? i don't know, the lack of response kinda has me disheartened
Amy was, for the lack of a better word, breaking down. It'd been two weeks since her first sonogram and since then it felt like there was a knot in her chest, tightening with every passing day. Every day she lied to Karma, to her mom, to nearly everyone in her life.
It made her sick, well that and the fact that her morning sickness was god damn awful, and she felt like she was breaking down—she wanted to tell them. She didn't want to wait till a baby bump outed her or a slip of the tongue did.
She wanted to tell them—she owed her parents that, she owed Karma that.
"Amy this isn't—" Lauren sighed "You're 2 and half months pregnant. We have more time to hide this"
"That's just it, Lauren!" she yelled out, frustrated "I don't wanna hide it anymore! When has keeping a secret like this ever went my way? The answer is it hasn't. Lying just gets me into trouble and I don't—I just don't want to lie anymore"
The shorter blonde jumped a little when Amy's voice rose passed causal talking tone but quickly regained her composure—she knew that it sucked to lie to people you loved. She knew what kind of hurt it could cause and she knew that to top off Amy's guilt, she had hormones surging through her.
Carefully she laid a hand on her step-sister's arm "take a breath, Amy cause I can't talk to you when you're freaking the fuck out" Amy huffed but did as told and sucked in a deep breath and let it out slowly "great now on to you wanting to spill your guts to everyone"
"Lauren—"
"Please just listen" Amy nodded and Lauren continued "I get it, okay? I know you want to tell everyone so you can stop feeling like the world is on your shoulders but telling everyone isn't gonna help—tell Farrah and, maybe, Karma but realize once this is out—there is no taking it back"
Amy looked down and let out a shaky breath "I just—I don't want to lie anymore. I don't want to feel like this is all—" she cut herself off and Lauren looked at her step-sister, curiously
"Like what, Amy?"
The taller blonde sighed and looked up, locking eyes with Lauren "Like this is a mistake"
"Amy—"
"I know it's not. I love this—this baby, Lauren. I do but—I just want to do right by it and lying just doesn't feel like I'm doing right by it. Does that make sense?"
Lauren nodded "kinda"
"I just, I at least want to tell my mom"
Lauren nodded again "then let's do that"
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Amy waited a whole week before actually telling her mother. She was already going on three months and she wanted it to, at least, be out in her own home. She texted Liam the night before
Hey, u up?
She got a response a second later
yeah whats up?
She tapped out a message, deleted it, and then tapped it out again
im telling my mom tomorrow. just thought you should know
He responded fairly quickly oh, okay
A second later, another message came through
Do you want me there?
She considered her options—she could either have Liam not be there and deal with her over dramatic mother on her own or she could have Liam there and, at least, show her mother that the dad is there and he's in.
Only one option sounded good to her so she tapped out a message without a second thought
yes
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"Are you sure you're ready for this?" Amy looked over at Liam—they had ridden to Amy's place after school together since Amy told Lauren she didn't know how this would go and she didn't want the blonde to get into trouble for not saying anything, so Lauren decided to stay after school for a little while.
"no" Amy said truthfully "but there's no turning back, right? Like this is—this is it"
"Well, we can leave if you want"
"no, don't dangle the option cause I'll take it"
"okay then" he took her hand in his "Let's go"
And so she did.
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"Mom!" Amy called out as soon as she pushed the door open "Mom, where are you?" there was a pause and then
"In the kitchen, baby!"
Amy looked over at Liam "Wait, here. I'm gonna go get her" he nodded and went over the couch where he sat down, while Amy walked through her living room and into the kitchen.
Farrah was washing left over dishes from last night's dinner, the older woman looked over and smiled "hey, baby. What's up?"
"I, um—I need to talk to you" she looked around "is Bruce here?"
"No, he had to stay at work a little later than usual"
"well you can tell him, I just—we really need to talk"
Farrah stopped what she was doing and looked over at her daughter—she may have not been the best mother on the planet but she could tell when her own child was in distress "okay, baby" she turned off the sink and wiped her hands on a dish towel. She walked over to her daughter and put her hands on Amy's shoulders "What's wrong?"
"Um, come to the living room" she took her mother's hand and gently tugged her over to the living room where Liam sat, his knee bouncing nervously.
Farrah's back stiffened and her head cocked "Amy, why is he here?"
Amy sucked in a deep breath and turned to face her mother. She felt tears burning her eyes already but pushed them down as best she could—she didn't know how this would go but she could do it. She's got this.
"Mom, at your wedding—you know how I told Karma I loved her?" Farrah nodded, she knew little about what had happened between Karma and Amy other than Amy was in love, Karma wasn't but they pushed past it "Well she—she rejected me, mom and I just was—just so heartbroken and—and I got really drunk"
Farrah put a comforting hand on her daughter's shoulder, she didn't like to see Amy so upset "Amy—"
"Please mom, just wait" Amy sucked in a breath and continued "and—and I was just so incredibly drunk and—and so was Liam" she vaguely gestured to the boy behind her "and—and we slept together" Farrah's eyes grew wide "and—and I'm pregnant, mom"
Farrah felt her stomach drop "oh" Amy's lip wobbled
"I—I'm keeping it and—and Liam is all in and I know we're young but we want this and—" Farrah wordlessly raised her hand cutting Amy off. No one spoke, no one breathed for what felt like forever "Mom, please say something"
Farrah looked up at her daughter and opened her mouth to say something, to say anything but nothing came out. She couldn't find the words to come out of her mouth so Farrah did what she did when she was younger and the pressures of being a mother were too large—she spun on her heel and left the house.
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"Oh—" Amy's physically jumped when the door to her home closed, Farrah hadn't slammed it but she might has well because Amy jumped like she had "Oh—Oh my god" Liam moved so he was in front of Amy and immediately took notice of her tear filled eyes and how her lip wobbled "I—I—did she just—" the blonde couldn't hold it in any longer, she felt her whole body shake and then tears were spilling down her cheeks.
Liam was quick to wrap Amy up in his arms and hold her tightly so she didn't fall being she went limp as a sob tore itself from her throat "hey, hey" he whispered softly "I got you, it's okay, I got you" he gently moved over to the couch and sat down, Amy's body fall next to his and he just held onto her tightly.
He tired reaching for his phone to call Lauren but that would require Amy calming down enough so he could reach it and that didn't seem to be happening so he just held onto her and let her break.
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Farrah didn't know where she was going till she got there. She looked over at the house she sat in front of and her vision went blurry—sometimes a girl, even when she's a woman with a baby of her own, just needs her mama.
The blonde climbed out of her car and went to the door and knocked on it, hard and fast. She felt tears threaten to spill and did everything she could to make sure they didn't. It was only a minute before the door opened and Farrah came face to face with her mother
"Farrah what—" she didn't get to finish her sentence before she flung herself on her mother and let out a little whimper
"Mama, I don't know what to do"
Kathleen Raudenfeld felt like ice water was being poured down the back of her neck—her daughter never willingly came to her mother for help and now here she was, a whimpering mess, and it scared the hell out of Kathleen.
"Farrah" she managed to pry her daughter off her, she gently tugged her inside and sat the woman on her couch. She closed the front door before going over and sitting next to her daughter "Farrah, baby, what's wrong?"
"It's Amy, mama—" Farrah's whole body shook "She's—she's pregnant"
Kathleen sighed heavily, she wanted more for her granddaughter and being pregnant certainly wasn't a part of it but she was also happy that her grandbaby wasn't hurt or anything like that "Oh, Farrah" she moved her daughter off her and cupped her face "Baby what do you mean you don't know what to do?"
"I just—I am so sad, mama. She—I wanted more for her. I wanted her to leave this place and go somewhere and make something of herself—I didn't want this"
"Farrah Grace Raudenfeld—"
"Mama, it's Cooper"
"Not when I'm talking to you, it's not" Kathleen looked her daughter in the eye "Farrah Grace Raduenfeld—you will, and I mean it, you will help your baby through this. You will hold her hand and you will hold her if she cries and you will finally be the mama she deserves"
"but mama—I just—I don't know how to react"
"You're mad, Farrah" Kathleen said in a 'duh' tone "I was mad as hell when you told me you were pregnant but you were already an adult so there wasn't much I could do but Amy is still a baby—you are going to go home and love your child, Farrah" she took her hands off her daughter's face "You are going to love your baby"
Farrah nodded "I do love her, mama. That's not the problem"
"the problem is you're mad well, honey, get over it—she made the choice now it's your job to be a mother and support your baby so she's not alone" Kathleen put a finger under Farrah's chin and made her raise her head to make eye contact "You hear me, girl?"
Farrah nodded "Okay, mama"
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Amy's sobs reduced to whimpers and soon after that she passed out, her body giving in to the complete and utter exhaustion that it felt. Liam slowly and very carefully moved his hand and body so that he could grab his phone, he jostled Amy a bit but it seemed she was too deep to care.
He unlocked his phone and quickly dialed Lauren's number, not bothering with text "Hello?" Lauren's voice came through within the first two rings and he could hear the worry.
"hey" she could hear the exhaustion in his
"What happened?"
"Her mom—" he sighed "it was weird. Amy was stuttering and once she was finally out with it, she didn't say anything she just—she just left"
Lauren didn't talk for a second before "God damn it"
"I don't know what to do"
"Where's Amy?"
"asleep"
"asleep?"
"She was crying pretty hard and she just kinda passed out"
Lauren sighed "You're with her though, right?"
"yeah"
"okay, don't leave. I'm on my way" he didn't get to say 'bye' being Lauren was quick to end the conversation. He sighed and threw his phone next to him, he looked at the girl who was still holding onto his shirt and, even though it was a bad time for her, he felt content.
Having Lauren, Amy and the baby (even if the baby was still in Amy) made him feel content and like he could finally, maybe, be happy and let someone in. someone who wouldn't lie to him or screw him over.
And while he felt content, he knew Amy was far from so he just sighed, held onto her tightly and promised both her and their child that he'd do anything to help make them content. To help make them happy.
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Farrah sat outside of her own home for ten minutes. She was parked, the car wasn't running and she could begin to feel the sweat dripping down her forehead but she still didn't move.
Her mother's words rang in her ears and she knew the woman was right—Amy made her choice and now it was time for Farrah to be a good mother and support her.
So with a deep sigh she opened her car door and stepped outside only to be stopped by a very small blonde—Lauren.
"Hold it right there" Lauren put her hand out "Why are you going inside?"
"Because I live there now move" she moved to go around Lauren but the girl just took a step to the side
"No—I need specifics because I won't let you go in there and hurt Amy" there was a fire in Lauren's eyes and Farrah knew that look—it was the look of love. The two girls obviously bonded over something and finally, actually, loved each other like sisters should.
And Farrah wasn't an idiot—she knew what that 'something' was.
"You know" she stated dumbly "You know my baby is pregnant"
"I knew before she did" Lauren shrugged "that's not the point though—you are going to tell me why you're going in there or you aren't going inside"
"Lauren , don't be ridiculous " Farrah moved to go around Lauren again but, once again, the blonde just simply blocked her path
"I need to know what you're gonna do to her—I need to know if you're gonna go in there and be a good mother or if you're gonna go in there and make me hate you" she points to the house "I need to know so she can be taken care of—so tell me"
Farrah sighed and crossed her arms "Amy's made a choice and—" she raised her head and swallowed the anger she felt "and it's my job as her mother to support it"
Once again Farrah moved around Lauren and this time the blonde didn't stop her.
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Farrah felt tears prick her eyes at the scene in front of her. Amy was laid out on the couch, her hand all fisted up in Liam's shirt and her face blotchy from crying. She let out a deep sigh and walked over, she fell to her knees and moved hair away from her sleeping daughter's face "Oh, Amy" she sighed out "I'm sorry, baby. Mama is sorry" she looked at Liam who was eyeing her and she nodded "It's okay. she's okay here. You can go"
"I don't think—"
"Liam!" they both turned to see Lauren standing in the doorway "Come on, you feed me while she sorts her shit out" he looks at Farrah one last time before slipping out from under Amy as best he can and following the short blonde out the door.
Farrah waits till she hears the door click shut that she softly shakes Amy's shoulder "Amy, baby, wake up" she speaks softly "Come on, honey"
Eventually Amy's eyes slowly crack open, she pushes herself up and looks around and her eyes land on her mother and at first she's fine and then it all comes back to her and Amy grows stiff under her mother's eyes
"I—"
"I'm sorry, Amy" Farrah says quickly and softly, she gets up from the floor and sits beside Amy "I'm so sorry I walked out. I just didn't know how to react, you know? I just—I need a second"
Amy looks down and Farrah feels anger dissipate and guilt come in—she had hurt her baby. Her only baby and it looked like Amy didn't trust her mother "Just—please look at me, Amy" the younger blonde doesn't and Farrah sighs
"I'm sorry, sweetheart—I just—you told me you were pregnant and I felt like every dream I had for you died. I felt so sad and just—just angry"
"You don't think I'm sad?" Amy looks up at Farrah sees the fresh tears "Mom, I'm sixteen years old and pregnant—of course I'm sad. I'm sad that my life has just been drastically changed, I'm sad that I was so stupid to make this mistake and I'm so sad that my mother feels like I'm never going to do anything with my life now" Farrah inhales sharply "I'm sad too, mom"
Farrah reaches over, slowly and grabs Amy's hands. A shaky smiles settles on her face as she locks eyes with her daughter "We shouldn't be sad, baby. A baby is a blessing and—and despite what either of us thinks, I know you and I know you won't let this stop you from doing whatever you want in life"
Amy sighs "I just—I need you, mom" she squeezes her mother's hands "I need my mom"
Farrah smiles and gathers her daughter in her arms, gently rocking her "I'm right here, baby. You got me, Amy. You got me"
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