Gravitation

Title: Silent Yet Deadly

Chapter 5: Tohma Takes Action: Silence Before the Storm

Summary: Yuki's a simple romance novelist and Shuuichi is a cold-hearted, blood thirsty assassin part of a gang by the name Bad Luck. Shuuichi's had a rough past and trusts no one except for his gang members and would never find himself in a relationship especially not with a guy because he's homophobic. Yuki accidentally discovers him and falls in love but with Shuuichi the way he is what is Yuki to do? The story is better, I just suck at writing summaries so please read! Thank you.
Warning: In this story Hiro has long brown hair (refer to the OVA), Shuuichi has long, red, messy hair (refer to the manga) and Fujisaki has black hair pinned back into a small ponytail (similar to Miroku's from Inuyasha). Strange I know. But it's a cute image I came up for them. Personally, I think they look cool together like that XD. Also, Yuki and Shuuichi do not act like themselves, I think its called Out Of Character o.O? But if anything, their personalities are switched. laughs nervously Well I hope you enjoy it anyway

Disclaimer: I only own the plot because Maki Murakami-sama owns Gravitation TT

Normal POV

Shuuichi sat on the rocks looking out into the ocean of the beach early the next morning. He watched the sunset as the rays of light played with the color of the salty water below. Shuuichi listened to the noise of the soft tide as it gently hit the rocks. The smell of the sea always seemed to relax him. He loved that smell. He'd often come here when he was troubled or wanted to be alone. Although he fell asleep pretty fast the night before, he had a rough night and decided to come out now before Hiro or Fujisaki tried to stop him, had he woken up any later. Right now, he had enough problems to deal with and didn't feel like bringing up the topic as to why they lied to him, why they don't want him with Yuki and set him up with his fiance on purpose. He didn't want to deal with their lies and excuses and didn't want to fall into another one of their traps again. He wasn't sure if he could trust them anymore, expecially not if they're with Tohma and after he admitted there was more to his plan then just Ayaka.

Ayaka was engaged to Yuki but still dated him. Yuki was engaged to Ayaka and even though he didn't like her, it's still wrong to hit on someone else while you're involved in an arranged marraige. He knew they didn't care for each other but, how can he be sure that they cared for him? What if it is as Tohma says, that he took a liking to Yuki to escape it all? It seemed easy to get a normal life, too easy for comfort. And at the same time, he didn't know who he loved more or who loved him more. Even if he did, would thier parents break off the arranged marraige so one of them can be with an assassin? That's crazy.

One thing he knew for sure is that he had to let Yuki know that he didn't know about his calls and that he was too busy to talk with him. Of course, if Yuki asked with what, what could he say? "I was dating ur fiance?" How would Yuki react? Imagine the hurt after Shuuichi supposedly cared for him and trusted him. Well, he would cross that road when it happened and so he got up and walked to Yuki's house.

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Shuuichi arrived at Yuki's house soaking wet when the calm of the sea suddenly turned rough and it started pouring out. It was seven thirty a.m. when he knocked on the door and a woman answered. She opened the door and revealed herself. She had long brown hair, brown eyes, wore lipstick and was dressed in red. Shuuichi cocked his head to the side in confusion. Did he move on that quickly? He thought. He really wasn't the one to talk, he went out with Ayaka behind Yuki's back. She raised a questioning eyebrow. "May I help you?"

"Uhm. . . Is Yuki home?" Shuuichi asked as he looked passed her into the house and saw Yuki sitting on the couch talking to. . . Tohma? Not waiting for a response, he ran in. "What are you doing here!?" He pointed angrily at Tohma.

"Oh, so you finally decided to drop by after. . . How long has it been since you've been ignoring Eiri-san?" Tohma smiled.

"It's not like that! Yuki, can I talk to you, please? Alone?" Shuuichi shifted his gaze to Tohma.

"He's right you know. You told me you would be back and you never even called to tell me you weren't coming. When I tried calling you because I was worried, you ignored my calls." Yuki stated, hurt clear in his voice.

"I-I was busy. . ." Shuuichi trailed off.

"With what Shindou-san?" Tohma questioned as if he didn't know. Shuuichi glared at him and Tohma frowned.

"Seguchi told me everything. If I recall correctly, you were dating my fiance?" Yuki raised a questioning eyebrow at Shuuichi.

Shuuichi froze under his look. It was one that was never directed at him before by Yuki. Had it been anyone else Shuuichi could care less.

He didn't know what to say. "But. . . I . . . Tohma. . . ." Shuuichi studdered for the right words to say. "I didn't know she was your faince. And. . . How could you hit on me when you are engaged!? Have you no shame? Were you using me!? You never even told me you were engaged. Besides, Tohma set us up!" Shuuichi blurted out finally. "Me?" Tohma asked innocently. Yuki seemed hurt when Shuuichi assumed he was being used.

"You honestly believe I would use you?" Yuki asked. "Well, if you cheated on Ayaka, what would stop you from using me!?" Shuuichi screamed and immediately regretted it. "So, that's how you feel. I was wondering if I meant anything to you, but you were probably the one using me in the end. You cheated on me with my fiance and technically, I wouldn't be cheating on her and she wouldn't be cheating on me because we have no feelings what so ever for each other. It was just something set up by our parents, nothing more. And here I thought you would never do that to anyone considering your past. Or, did you make that up too?" Yuki's eyes were cold as he said this and Shuuichi started shaking. He felt helpless. Tohma did a number ths time around, getting to Yuki before he could. Tohma smiled triumphly.

"What do you expect from a cold-hearted murderer who's never been loved? They can't love anyone and they just use you and back stab you in the end." Tohma paused. "Well, now that that's settled, I trust you won't be involved with each other anymore, ne?" Yuki shook his head and Shuuichi didn't know how to react but he didn't want to give up on Yuki. "Shindou-san? You know, if you continue to go after Eiri-san, I'm going to have to take things further which will only complicate things more for you." Tohma smiled. "So, I advise you to stay away from him."

"It's in your best interest." The woman added. Shuuichi had forgotten she was there. But, he ignored Tohma's comment as well as hers. "Yuki, please, just talk to me." Shuuichi begged. He was on the verge of tears. "Give me a chance. How do you know you're not misunderstanding me? You trust Tohma over me?" "Yes, when Tohma is my Brother-in-Law and Mika is my sister. I have to believe them. Besides, I wouldn't want your friends coming after me and killing me off. It's dangerous being with an assassin who I don't even know." He said without looking at him. "But, I told you everything there is to know about me!" Shuuichi screamed. "How do I know it's the truth?" Yuki paused. "I have nothing more to say to you. So tell your friends not too worry and to leave me alone." "But, I'm not talking to them and I came here to talk to you but you won't give me that chance!" Shuuichi shouted back.

"Well, it looks like you're on your own now. You used Yuki, dumped Ayaka and ignored your friends. I wish you luck. Now, if you'd excuse us. . ." Tohma got up and opened the door. At this point, tears were falling down Shuuichi's face. He looked at Yuki, hoping he would stop and talk to him, but he just looked away. It was then that he could've sworn he saw regret in Yuki's eyes. . . Or, was he reading it wrong? It didn't matter, he was being rejected at this point. "Fine. But, if I walk out this door and you don't stop me now, it's all over. Everything that involves you and me. And I can't say it'll be too good for the people you know either. . . Or if I'll be okay. I never thought I'd be hurt by rejection again since I've been through. . . It my whole life. . . But I trusted you." Shuuichi paused. "But, if this is how you want it to end then so be it. . . Farewell." Shuuichi managed between sobs and ran off. Yuki didn't want to let him go but if he didn't, there's no telling what Tohma would do with his connections. Shuuichi and Ayaka both were better off without him.

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After about fourty-five minutes of running in an attempt to be far from Yuki, Tohma, Hiro, Fujisaki, and Ayaka, Shuuichi stopped to catch his breath and didn't recognize where he was. He really didn't care either. He was in some sort of abandoned place with beat up apartment buildings and dirty alley ways. He wandered through it aimlessly and took a seat against the wall on what seemed like the cleanest part of the floor. He clenched his eyes shut tightly. If this is how Yuki wanted it, then so be it. As long as he was happy, no matter how much it pained him. Yet, at the same time, he didn't want to. Up until he met Yuki, he only knew how to live for himself but now it was different and he learned to care for someone. Two people at that matter.

That's right. up until now, he was living to survive within the brutal training and blood stained life of an assassin. His entire life, his purpose was to kill off his enemies and seek revenge. Only then, he could die happily or attempt a normal life. But now he saw it was pointless. It's not meant to be and now he would have to live knowing he had betrayed the only man who had ever expressed any love for him and the only woman who had any genuine feelings for him. He had to live with the knwoledge that he was an assassin and didn't take the right measures he knows he should've. Living for revenge, hate and regret. Not for love and a normal life. No, he gave up on it now and lost sight of that dream. He wanted to have a new attachment. To live for Ayaka, who gave up on her first love and wanted a second chance at happiness. To live for Yuki who was the first to love him for who he was. Live for Fujisaki and Hiro for the sake of the gang. Live for the innocence of kids who would cry their innocent eyes if they suffered the same as he did because of the family they were born into. For the few people who did respect him. He wanted to live for people who knew of him and his legacy, his sacrifices. To live for himself. He never lived for others before and wanted to. He wanted to be dictated by others. But then again, he liked living without rules and being ordered by Hiro and Fujisaki. But now, he knew for sure he would just get hurt. No one can ever accept an assassin. They'd always fear him.

Now, Shuuichi was a single step away from what is known as depression. He was going to find out how the depressed reacted to such situations because he was going to do the same. He couldn't stay like this. It's surprising enough that he stayed sane this long after everything he's been through. At this point, he couldn't stay in that house with those two. With people who'd only further hurt him instead of comfort him in his time of need. Yet, he didn't want to be the one to hurt his friends. He needed to go back to the comfort of his arms. But he couldn't and wouldn't want to be with him like that anymore. He couldn't run to Ayaka either otherwise he'd just be using her to escape. Shuuichi was someone who needed to be loved by someone and needed a lover. He needed someone to protect him and needed someone or something he could protect. But he lost it. He lost the comfort of her warm arms and lost the man who would never leave him alone because he was in love with Shuuichi at first sight.

Closing his eyes, Shuuichi screamed as loud as his voice would let him after crying so hard. He strained himself too far and he started to taste blood but didn't stop. Then, silently he whispered Yuki's name. Yuki, who was the only one could make it better but would never be there for him again. He needed Yuki back. It was like a villian who craved immortality. Shuuichi could feel the hot tears fall continuously down his cold cheek.

'. . . Shuuichi. . .'

Shuuichi looked up, searching for the source of the voice, for the familiar form the voice belonged to. However, no one was there. He was just hearing things. Then he realized how late it has gotten. Where has the time gone? It was alredy six p.m. and it was so dark out. He sniffed. He couldn't see that shinny yellow hair glow under the moonlight and what he knew to be soft yellow eyes were now cold, heart-piercing ones. All he wanted was to be loved by him but it was asking too much. "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor touched. . . But are felt in the heart." He whispered to himself. He didn't deserve it, he knew he didn't. But atleast he was able to feel it for a short period of time.

To love and be loved is to feel the the sun from both sides but he knew it was a one sided love and he was the one doing the loving and not rejecting it for once. Drifting away from his thoughts, Shuuichi fell asleep in the desserted alley way and continued to cry for his loss in his sleep.

A/N: Sorry for the long wait. I kind of forgot what I wanted Tohma to do and this chapter is really just a filler but so much stuff happens in the next chapter it'll be insane. Well, I should have that chapter posted by the end of this week or sooner since I've gotten everything together. Please read and review. Suggestions are welcome.

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Waking up to a loud scream, Shuuichi jumped up, alarmed. He tried to figure out where it was coming from. Creeping around the walls of the abandoned buildings, he stalked to the scene of the crime. He wanted to see what was going on. He had to. If he didn't, it would drive him crazy and he'd feel guilty because he's able to do something. He hasn't fought in awhile and if he stops, he''ll lose his will to live on. It's all he has going for him. He wouldn't have the confidence to live on because he'd be lost and alone and vulnerable. A shadow of his former self, the one he hated and tried to rid of. Because he was an assassin and someone unknowingly dared to play his game, he would take part in it and win.

Arriving to the scene, Shuuichi stood shocked from the scene before him. The people who had comitted the crime. . . Was this possible? The victim. . . How could this be? Shuuichi fell to the ground and let the tears he'd been holding back, fall absent mindly. They poured from his purple orbs and flowed over his pale cheeks. This is where Shuuichi learned yet another leasson in life. . .

. . . The fear of death is more to be dreaded than death itself. . .