A/N: I was told in a review that using 'do not, let us go etc...' makes the writing choppy and should use 'don't and let's go etc..' and i will make an effort to but since that is how i speak i will inevitably slip up a few times.

A Love Confession

Chapter 3

I let my shirt slide down when I felt the stares of my team. "After he attacked her I came to and chased him out. Instead of going after him I stayed and tended to Kensi's wound. The next day I followed his scent trail but after two days of endless searching his trail went cold. I never stopped looking for him but after the 3 year mark I figured he either died or moved on. And here we are." Cara finished. I could see the guilt in her eyes.

"You need to stop feeling guilty sister, you did everything you could. He couldn't be helped."

"I know. And clearly staying away has failed at keeping you safe." She brought a hand up and placed it on the spot where my neck met my shoulder, something she had been doing since we were little. Cara's eyes moved to Deeks who stood behind me. I saw a silent conversation between them and Cara finally nodded.

"So how do we find him?" Callen asked.

Hetty spoke up. "We go about normal life, clearly Jack is watching not only Ms. Blye's movements but also Mr. Deeks. The note warns to 'say good-bye' indicating that Jack will go after him first. I turn to you Cara, I know little of what Jack Simon is capable of."

"As you said everyone should go about normal life and I will have wolves from my pack watch over everyone but I will have quads within striking distance of Kensi and Deeks at all times. I will be with Kensi at all times and my brother in law Chris with Deeks at all times."

"And what of the rest of us?" Sam asked, his posture was more relaxed at seeing Cara's determination but he was still on edge that someone was threatening two members of his family.

"Well seeing as how Eric and Nell have more at the tips of their fingers than my wolves I would like you to try and locate Jack, where he has been. He has been dark for years but being a vampire has more than like made him sloppy, I least I hope it has. Sam and Callen follow up on any leads that they find. Kensi and Deeks will go home hang out when they normally hang out. Come to work but not leave the building. Jack Simon is unstable and highly dangerous and will do whatever he can to follow through on his threat."

"Sounds like a plan, if he is watching we should stay here for the time being and lead him to think we are working a regular case." Callen said.

"That should work. Jack more than likely thinks that I'll not tell you because even when we were together I was never a big sharer." I said, my voice still small and Deeks' arm still around my waist.

"Well," he said his voice light. "You still aren't a big sharer." I elbowed him but couldn't stop the small smile and blush.

"Mr. Beale, Ms. Jones please begin your tasks. Everyone else get some rest." Hetty ordered leaving no room for argument. Sam and Callen went to the bunk room while Deeks and I went down to the bullpen while Cara went to make some calls to set up the over watch.

"So, you have been lying to me." Deeks stated. I swallowed past the lump in my throat. "Vampires, werewolves? Julia is a werewolf! The mother you had me protect when you went after Clairmont! Hell did she even really need protecting, or were you just getting me out of the way?!" Deeks voice slowly rose. I sat at my desk just staring at him as he paced running his hands through his hair. I knew this would happen so I kept my mouth shut. "A sister! Damn it Kensi how could you keep something like this from me. I thought that after the whole Sidorov thing we had stopped keeping things from each other…" I needed him to stop talking; I needed him not to be mad at me so I got up and stood in front of him.

"I didn't say anything Deeks because I'm not a part of that world my sister is. And how low do you think of me if you think I asked you to protect my mother just because I wanted you out of the way? She may be a werewolf but she is not invincible she is not a strong wolf, her wolf was always sickly. So I had you protect her because I knew that she couldn't protect herself!" now my voice was rising. I knew in the back of my mind that everyone could hear us but damn it I needed him to understand.

"I kept this from you Deeks because I was trying to protect you and for selfish reasons as well, I was so scared that I would tell you the truth and you would hate me, that you would think that I was a monster! Yes after Sidorov I stopped keeping everything bottled up with you, but I was still scared!"

"You're damn right you were being selfish Kensi!" he yelled. "And now we both have a target on our backs! I can protect myself so that is an invalid reason to keep me in the dark. So tell me the real reason!" I opened my mouth but nothing came out. He should know why, he heard the letter. Admitting I loved him in my head and saying it aloud myself was two starkly different things. I opened my mouth again but quickly shut it looking to the floor. I heard Sam and Callen walk up but that didn't faze Deeks in the slightest. "Damn it Kensi tell me why!"

Something with in me snapped. "Because I love you Deeks! And if you died I wouldn't be able to keep living! I would hate myself because that isn't me, I don't cry over anyone but you… I love you and if you die I die. It is as simple as that. I can't live without you, I can't breathe without you Deeks." I whispered the last part. "I need you to be safe." I whispered.

I saw all of the fight leave his body at my confession but I kept talking. "I'm sorry Deeks, I know my reasons were selfish but I need you. And now you're in danger because of me and that is why I called my sister. She will do everything she can to protect both of us, all of us because she knows what you all mean to me but she knows what you mean to me."

"How can she know?"

"Because it is the same way she feels about Alex, her husband, he mate. I may not be able to change but I still have the werewolf gene Deeks, I am as werewolf as you get without sprouting the fur and teeth. And one day something could trigger something inside of me that initiates the change and I thought you wouldn't be able to even look at me…" I was cut of my Deeks moving within an inch of me. I looked up into those eyes I fell in love with.

"I could never look at you and think you were a monster Fern." He smirked at my eye roll. "You're the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and yes it is a bit weird that you have a sister that looks just like you but I don't think I could think of her as a monster either. She is doing everything within her power to protect all that matter to you." He took a breath and entwined our hands. "And I am in love with you too Kensi." Then he leaned his mouth to my ear and whispered, "I would kiss you but Sam and Callen are watching."

Before I could reply Eric came rushing out of OPS and Cara walked back into sight. "We have something." He said before running back to OPS.