Burr started to pace as he drank the brandy that was in his hand as Mandy walked in teary eyed and cleared her throat. "What is it?" He barked bitterly as Mandy didn't shrink back. It has already been a week since Theodosia went to the Lord and her master grew bitter every day since that day.
"I finished prepare her body sir… Would you like to see her before they close the lid?" Mandy asked softly as Burr nodded.
"You are dismissed." Burr said as Mandy gave him a curtsy and hurried away. Burr put his glass down on the mantle and started to walk upstairs as he came to her room. He brushed off his black vest and walked into the darken room and saw the coffin waiting in the middle of the room. He walked slowly to the large wooden book and looked in as he held his breath and saw his Theo. Her face was blank as Burr shook his head. Theo never had a blank expression. She always had a smile on her face. Her dark curly ringlet framed her dark caramel face so neatly as her eyes were closed to look to be as if she was sleeping. She had her mother's locket around her neck and around her finger was her wedding ring that Hamilton gave her. Because of that stupid boy. He lost his Theo. He lost the one person that would ever be smarter than him. He froze as a memory hit him like a ton of bricks.
"Papa?" Nine-year-old Theodosia said peeking into his study as the older Burr looked up as she ran straight to her father.
"What is it little Theo?" Burr asked as he picked up his little girl and sat her on his lap.
"Why are you always working?" She said with child-like intrigue.
"Because I am trying to make sure I lay down a strong enough foundation. That when I am tired of working non-stop then you will take the reins and make things better then what they are now." Burr said as Theodosia giggled and looked at her father's work as she grew quiet.
"Papa? Do you think that I will ever be smart like you?" She asked as Burr looked at his daughter shocked.
"What do you mean Theodosia?" Burr asked shocked as Theodosia looked down into her lap as one of her red hair ribbons fell into her lap, she wiped her face as Burr lifted his daughter's face and saw tears running down his little girl's face.
"What is the matter Theo?" Burr asked with his heart breaking to see his little girl's face streamed with tears.
"Some mean boys in the town said that girls aren't smart. They said that girls are never going to be smarter than boys!" She said as she grew angry.
"Now you know that is not true. You will someday be smarter than those nasty boys and will be smarter than me someday." Burr said brushing the tears off his daughter's cheek as she shook her head.
"Really?" She asked timidly as Burr nodded.
"You will. I promise you Theo. You will blow us all away with how smart you are." Burr said kissing the top of his little girl's head as she rested her head against his chest.
"I love you Papa." She said sleepily as he looked down at his daughter and smiled.
"I love you too Theodosia." He said as he went back to work with her nearly asleep in his lap.
Burr wiped his eye as a tear fell down his cheek from the memory as he touched Theodosia cold hand as shook his head. "Theo, why did you go with that boy? I would give anything right now for you to be by my side. If you would have stayed with me that afternoon, then you would be by my side with little Aaron." Burr said as he looked at her and saw her wearing a black dress as he shook his head. "She always hated the color black." Burr thought to himself as he kept himself from crying as another memory hit.
"But Papa do I have to wear black?" Theo pleaded as her father nodded.
"Theodosia, you must wear black. It is required for the period of mourning." Burr said as his eleven-year-old daughter cross her arms.
"But black is so ugly." Theo whined as she sat on her bed.
"I know you hate the color but it is what is expected to wear black for the year." Burr said trying to explain to Theodosia as she shook her head.
"Mama hated the color black." Theo said as she looked down and her father sat next to her.
"I know Theodosia. But please just make peace with this." Burr said as she nodded.
"Yes sir…" She said as Burr kissed the top of her head.
"No, go get changed." Burr said as she nodded.
"Yes sir." She said as he looked at his daughter and walked out of her room and sighed.
Burr wiped away a stray tear as he heard his grandson crying.
"I dedicated every day to you. You changed my life, you made my life worthwhile. And when you smile, I know a part of my lives on. I know I can go on. You came of age with our young nation. I bleed and fought for you. Sometimes it seems that's all we do, and you and I built a strong foundation. And I'll was there for you. The way was clear and you blow us all away." Burr sang to himself as he broke down into sobs, he fell to his knees in front of the coffin as Mandy knocked on the door. "Leave." Burr said harshly as Mandy stood still.
"Sir… they are here to close the coffin sir…" Mandy said as she bit back her tears. Burr finally composed and got up.
"I will deal with them. Go take care of Aaron." Burr ordered as she nodded and curtsied and left as she brushed her tears away. Burr wiped his face and looked at his daughter's face one last time and kissed her forehead.
"I love you so much Theodosia Burr. I swear that your son will grow up and you will be so proud of him." Burr said through his tears as he finally took a final glance at his daughter. Burr finally turned away and walked out of her room and closed the door. Burr walked down the hallway to the nursery and saw Mandy holding his grandson as she looked at him.
"Would you like to hold him sir?" She asked as Burr nodded and took his grandson carefully and saw his Theo.
"You look just like your mother, little one." Burr said as he looked at him as little Aaron smiled at him. "I am going to make sure you make your mother proud Aaron Philip Burr." Burr said as he kissed his grandson's forehead before he handed him back to the maid. Burr walked out the nursery and watched as the men from the church walk out of Theodosia's room with the coffin that held his daughter in it as he held his breath and followed behind the men as he watched from his porch as they put the large box in the back. It was going to the church to stay for the next day or so before the funeral. He watched the horses drive away as he closed his eyes and walked back inside.
"Master Burr?" Sarah asked as she brushed off her black skirt.
"What?" He asked harshly before realizing it was the young girl. "I'm very sorry about Miss. Theodosia." She said as she had a stray tear run down her cheek.
"Thank you. Go do something to keep yourself busy." Burr said dismissing her as he went to his study and closed the door. He locked it as he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He walked over to his desk and saw a letter wrapped in a hair ribbons, it was from Theodosia. He opened it and recognized the child like hand writing from when she was learning how to writing when she was seven years old. He sunk into his desk chair and read the note.
"Dear Paqa,
I love you very very very much!. I am happi that you are my papa! I cant wait four you to see me grow up!.
Love yourse
~ Theadosia Burr 3"
He chuckled to himself as he felt a tear slide down his face. He remembered that note and when she gave it to him. She was so proud that she got herself an ink pot and a quill and started to write like her Papa she said as he replayed that memory in his mind. Burr put the note down and wrapped back into its scroll and tied the ribbon back around it as he tucked it into his drawer and looked at all the work that was left. He took a deep breath and started to work. He was going to get everything done and pretend that the sting of death was not hurting him anymore. "I have so much work to do." He said to the picture he had of Theo on his desk.
Aaron Burr stood and watched as he held his grandson close to him as men lowered Theodosia body into the ground next to her mother. After everyone tossed in a scoop of earth to fill the hole, the priest started to say prayers and dismissed us as the rest of the graveyard workers finished filling the hole in the ground where his daughter laid. He handed his grandson back to Mandy as he laid down a single rose on her grave stone
"Here Lies
Theodosia Burr-Hamilton
June 21, 1783 ~ November 24, 1801
Mother, Daughter, Sister, Friend
Loved and Missed by All"
He read it and put his head and shook it. "You did everything just right, Theo." Burr said as he turned and saw he was alone. He started to walk back home as he walked in and went straight to his study to work non-stop.
"Master Burr?" Mandy asked knocking on his door.
"Leave." He said not looking up from his work.
"Sir, it's almost midnight." Mandy said as she walked in with a tray of food. "Leave it and get out." He said not looking up for a second as she nodded and put the tray down, Mandy looked at her master worried. The funeral for Miss. Theodosia was at noon today. Master. Burr came straight home from the grave yard and went straight to his study, she stood there in her spot. Burr didn't hear the door shut till he looked up and saw Mandy stand there. What are you still doing here?" Burr asked bitter as Mandy looked down.
"Master Burr. I am truly sorry about your lost. Everyone in this house is suffering because of Miss. Theodosia's passing but sir. You are starting to frighten me and Samson, sir, ever since Miss. Theodosia's passing sir. You have become different." Mandy said worried as Burr shook his head.
"I am fine. Thank you for the concern now you are dismissed." Burr said looked back down as Mandy curtsied and hurried out of the room and closed the door right behind her.
"Momma?" Emmanuel asked his mother as she walked back into their small living quarters.
"Yes Manuel?" She asked sitting on her bed.
"Do you think Miss. Theodosia is watching us up in heaven? Like she taught us from the Bible." He asked as he crawled into his mother's lap.
"Of course boy. She is watching over us, just like she taught you and your sister. She is always watching over us." She said stroking his head as he shook his head.
"Then why the Lord took Miss. Theodosia? She did nothing to anybody." Emmanuel said as his mother shook his head.
"I don't know. Now go get ready for bed and say your prayers." Mandy said as her son got up and hurried away. She shook her head and looked to the sky. "Lord why did you take Miss. Theodosia? She was the sweetest soul to tread this earth. She never did any wrong to you and was too kind. Why Lord?" Mandy asked to herself as she laid next to her husband and sighed. "Lord, please strike down whatever man hurt Miss. Theodosia. She didn't deserve this." Mandy said as she said amen and started to drift off to sleep while she remembers the distant memories of her oldest friend and most caring mistress.
