6. Heart Break
AN-Warning or attempted suicide.
Everything seemed so perfect at first, no one knew the pain hiding behind the deep brown eyes, no one knew the pain behind the unnoticeable fake smile of their very own fire dragon slayer.
Natsu hid it all, until one day he couldn't keep it inside anymore, of course he was alone, or so he thought, no one saw what he did but a small blue exceed heard it. Happy heard the loud sobs that night, he wanted to rush into the room to see if his friend was okay but decided it was probably best if Natsu was alone for now.
Natsu didn't sleep that night and the next morning sure did show that, he still got up and checked his face in the mirror to see if his eyes showed any signs that he'd been crying, once he deemed himself sensible enough to go out, he left, without happy, the exceed had already left to go to the guild hall. Happy had decided not to tell their friends about what happened last night, he was going to wait and see if Natsu tell's them himself at some point.
Natsu made his way to the guild and once again pretended that he was okay.
Some one did notice the falseness of the fire mages cheerful ways, Gray fullbuster could read him like an open book. He knew exactly what was wrong with Natsu, just like himself the Salamander had plenty of heart breaks, First he lost Igneel, Then he lost Lisanna, sure she came back but the pain of losing her is still in his heart, after that he'd gained Igneel back only to watch him get killed right in front of him, that killed the dragon slayer inside and Now Gray had stabbed another hole in that shattered heart, he wouldn't be surprised if Natsu had gone into depression and was just hiding it for his friends sake.
Was Gray even able to still call Natsu his friend, he'd screwed up pretty badly, and he deeply regrets it. He loved the dragon slayer, more than friends.
Natsu decided he didn't want to be around anyone anymore cause pretending to be happy was getting too much for him to handle. He stood up and told them that he had to go on a job, that was a lie he wished he didn't need to tell, but he didn't want to let people know he was hurting. Not yet.
Gray over heard the dragon slayer say he was leaving to go on a job and he knew right away that was a lie, he thought to himself that Natsu must need to be alone right now, 'I'm seriously getting worried about this idiot' , he got up and decided to walk out before Natsu could leave, maybe he could talk to him.
Natsu walked out of the guild hall and immediately ran into Gray, the one person he wanted to avoid. Just looking at the ice mage brought up the awful thing he did.
-Flashback-
Natsu was walking into the guild cheerful as ever, well half happy but he would never let that show, he had wanted to talk to Gray today.
He scanned the room until his eyes landed on the ice mage sitting at the bar playing with a glass of ice. Natsu walked up and grabbed Gray's arm, dragging him out of the guild, he got a quite a few protests from the ice mage.
Gray was led to the river where they would fight, of course he thought he was dragged here to fight the dragon slayer again but what Natsu did next was not what Gray was expecting. Natsu had looked away, a bright blush dusting his cheeks before looking straight at the ice mage, Gray took a step back at the nervousness in those brown eyes, Natsu had never been this nervous before. Suddenly Natsu's lips were pressed against Gray's, out of shock Gray pushed Natsu away with a look of disgust on his face.
Natsu Stepped away "Gray... I ... I'm SO Sorry!", That's when Gray broke his heart once more.
"The hell Natsu! That's disgusting! Ugh! Get away from me!" Once the words left Gray's lips he covered his mouth and then tried to apologize but Natsu had already run away.
"Natsu please! I'm sorry! I shouldn't have said what i said! please, forgive me!" Gray shouted as Natsu ran away from him tears in his eyes, Natsu ran to the guild and snuck in a back door to avoid getting caught, he made his way to the back and sat on a window ledge and stared out at the rainbow cherry blossom tree, 'why Gray..'
Once Natsu got home, that was when he broke down. One more heart break.
-End of flash back-
Natsu had run away once again. Gray thought about chasing him but decided it would do no good, and he really didn't want to hurt Natsu anymore, he sighed and decided to head back home.
the next week at the guild everyone noticed something changed with their cheerful dragon slayer, he would only show up for an hour or less now and when he did he looked so worn out, he didn't even bother to hide his bloodshot teary eyes anymore, everytime Gray would see him a huge pang of guilt would wash over him.
One day Natsu didn't show up at all, Gray got scared and ran out of the guild straight to Natsu's house, he opened the door but couldn't see him, he searched everywhere but couldn't find the dragon slayer, his panic grew and he bolted out of the house and searched the forest.
Gray finally found him sitting by a small lake and a knife in hand, He ran to him.
Natsu slowly brought the knife to his neck but before he could do anything more strong arms wrapped their way around him, he then felt tears fall onto his shoulder. "Don't do it Natsu! Please! I'm sorry! I'm sorry you've been through so much and i'm sorry i've put another hole in your heart! But please don't do this! I didn't mean what i said! I love you! Don't leave me!" Gray tightened his grip on the fire mage.
Natsu was so shocked he lost his grip on the knife and it fell to the ground. He started to cry again at Gray's words. He was a broken mess, he needed someone to say those three simple words to him, and coming from Gray it meant so much more.
"I love you so fucking much Natsu!"
Natsu covered his face with one hand and held onto Gray's arm with his other, he was still broken but now relieved that the ice mage didn't hate him, he didn't even notice that most of the guild had followed behind Gray after a while and was crying as they almost lost their friend forever.
AN- The next chapter has yet to be decided. but there will be another one!