Chapter 10: Midnight Conversations
Ezra woke up in the middle of the night, only to be expected, he went to bed pretty much after they got back from the diner. He grew guilty at the memory of what happed at the diner. Kanan had ignored him ever since he they got back to the home. Or was it the apartment? Was Kanan going to kick him out in the morning? Was he going to bring him to Ahsoka and just tell her that he was done with him and to put him somewhere else?
Ezra clutched Tobi tighter to his chest. He didn't think he could handle being rejected by Kanan, not now. Even if it's been barely over a week they connected so much.
Ezra just had to know. He had to know if Kanan was going to give him up so he could prepare himself mentally and emotionally. No use being a crying mess when he was brought to Ahsoka. He wondered where he would be sent. Would he stay in the city, or would he be sent to a completely different part of the country?
Ezra slowly got out of bed, holding Tobi close to his chest, he slowly and softly approached Kanan's bedroom. He carefully opened the door and slid in.
"Kanan?" Ezra soft asked, softly closing the door behind him. He strained his eyes to see Kanan, who was sleeping soundly in his bed.
Ezra approached the bed slowly, his socked feet silently stepping on the carpet. "Kanan,"
Kanan shifted and sat up, "Hm, Ezra, what is it?" he rubbed his eyes. "It's, it's nearly three thirty."
There was no turning back now. "Are, are you mad at me?" Ezra cautiously asked.
"Why would I be mad at you?" Kanan asked.
"Cause I yelled at you back at the Asteroid Belt," Ezra explained. "And then we got back here you ignored me." He purposely said 'here' instead of 'home' not sure if this small apartment would still be in his home later on this morning.
"I wasn't ignoring you." Kanan replied. "I thought you needed space. I thought you were mad at me."
"Oh, so, you aren't mad at me?" Ezra asked for confirmation.
"Of course not," Kanan said.
"And you aren't going to give me up to the foster agency?" Ezra asked.
"Never," Kanan promised.
"Oh, okay." Ezra said with a small smile at the reassurance. "Sorry for bothering you." He rubbed the back of his neck, before turning around to go back to his own bed.
"Ezra," Kanan called.
Ezra turned around.
"Would you rather stay in here?" Kanan offered.
Ezra headed back towards the bed, biting his lip slightly. "Are you sure?"
"I wouldn't offer if I wasn't sure." Kanan smiled, holding the covers open for Ezra to crawl into. Ezra promptly did so.
He snuggled up to Kanan's chest; Kanan placed an arm around his charge with a smile.
"I love you too much to let you go so easily." Kanan promised.
"You promise?" Ezra asked.
"I promise." Kanan replied, kissing Ezra on top of the head. "What happened at the diner, I was just trying to have some fun with you."
"I'm so stupid for thinking that you would just abandon me." Ezra muttered.
"No, no, no." Kanan said. "You aren't stupid. Never think otherwise."
Ezra looked up at Kanan.
"You aren't used to having someone there to care for you. Of course you would think that the smallest thing would get rid of that care." Kanan said, as he rubbed a hand through Ezra's hair. "Real care, real love, you never stop feeling that towards someone. Nothing you do will ever change the fact that I love and care for you."
Tears of joy came to Ezra's eyes, he quickly buried his face back into Kanan's chest and dampened his night shirt.
"Kanan," Ezra said.
"Yeah?" Kanan asked.
"Thanks," Ezra replied. "Thank you for, for, for loving me. You, you don't know how much that means to me."
Kanan smiled. "It's no problem Ezra. Anyone who would get to know you would love you."
"You're the first person in a long time to take the time to get to know me." Ezra said.
"That's really a shame." Kanan replied, running his hand through Ezra's hair.
"I love you Kanan." Ezra said.
"I love you too Ezra." Kanan said. "Now get some sleep, I'll be right here."
Ezra snuggled closer into Kanan's hold.
"I'll never let you go." Kanan promised as Ezra drifted off to sleep. He smiled as he felt Ezra's breathing even out. He placed another kiss on top of Ezra's head. He closed his eyes and drifted back to sleep himself.
He wasn't lying when he told Ezra that he loved him. He would love the boy forever, no matter what.
OKAY Important author's note.
I'm getting real sick and tired of people who review just to correct my spelling errors that I miss because I hit a wrong key, or I get two words that are very close mixed up. Seriously I got at least 3 reviews on my last update just telling me my errors. Please guys, it's annoying enough when I catch them after I post it, it's even more annoying getting reminded every day for a while from a review.
P.S. for those who complained about the Sabine and Ketsu relationship because you have a problem with non straight and/or non cis people? You might want to stop reading or get over it before Ezra gets to school, because there are going to be LGBT+ remembers out the wazoo and I don't need 3 complaints every chapter about having a trans kid or a gay couple. Get over it, Gay and trans people exist. Heck the story is even rated 'T' even though gays and trans should not have to be censored. Seriously, cry me a river, build a bridge and get over it!