Ellie…

"Hey, Hux. It's me, Ellie. This is just a message- I can't risk talking to you in person or face to face. But...I just wanted to talk to you. Tell you what's going on.

"Ever since I broke free from Kylo Ren, my mind has been confused with what thoughts were real and what was not mine. One real thought was that the cooks there were stellar. Much better than the Rebellion's cooks. Give them props from me. At least, if my name isn't taboo by now. But anyways, another real thought was my feelings for you. I don't know what your feelings are, but I really like you.

"That's why I'm giving you an invitation to visit me. I'm taking a break from this war and going to visit Endor. I don't know how long I'll be there, just until I feel at peace. But I wanted to see if you wanted to come visit. I understand that as a big, bad general of the First Order may not grant you as much time off as I can get, but I would understand if you had to leave early.

"Please don't use this opportunity to bring me back with you, because I won't go. And don't bring Kylo Ren with you either. I want nothing to do with him after what he's done to me. If you do decide to come alone just to spend time with me, go ahead and meet me on Endor. I'm going to be on my way when you get this, so yeah...just meet me on Endor, near the old base. See ya. Bye."

I ended the message, feeling worse with every word I said. I sent it off, hoping I didn't sound foolish or infatuated. A knock came on my door, and Poe came in. He sat down on my bed and patted a spot next to him. I went over and I sat, leaning on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me.

"You sure you don't want me coming with you?" He asked. "I would kill for some one-on-one-on-Ewok time," he said with a small chuckle. I laughed a little bit as well.

"Sorry, Poe, I want to be alone."

"Then why did you just invite Hux?" He asked calmly, an undertone of concern in his voice.

"I'm working on finding out what's real and not real. Poe, I may have fallen in love. I won't know until I see him again."

"Is that the only reason you're going? For him?"

"No. I'm going to gain some peace of mind."

"Inviting him won't do that."

"What do you know? It might!" I exclaimed, standing up.

"Ellie-"

"He was the only person who seemed to care about me besides our mother during her final breaths." My eyes filled with tears. "Kyle Ren killed her, and I didn't do anything. He comforted me. He was the only one who I cared for there. Mast- Kylo Ren attempted to love me, but he's not capable of that."

"Ellie. Listen. I don't know what you did there. I don't blame you for anything. You weren't in your right mind. No matter how he acted, Ellie, he was only taking advantage of you being under that son-of-a-bitch's control."

"How do you know that? He's human! He has the ability to love. And if I'm wrong, I'll come back and let you say 'I told you so'." I sat back down, and he wrapped his arm around me again.

"Alright. I won't force you to do things against your will. Remember, Ellie. I love you."

I smiled and leaned on his shoulder. "I love you too, brother."