immortality
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Dazai doesn't remember how many times he's tried to die. He lost count long ago; there have been too many attempts, too many failures, too many nights glaring at the ceiling in frustration because the aftermath is always the most painful and bothersome part and his body won't listen to him and insist on healing.
"What if I can't die because I'm immortal?" he asked Chuuya one night, carrying him on his back and trying not to slip on the blood splattered on the ground, even though his partner was most likely unconscious after using his ability to his limit once again.
A grunt coming from somewhere close to his left ear proved him wrong.
"You're a lucky idiot, that's what you are."
Dazai tripped over a leg that had once been attached to a body. He wanted to leave the place as soon as possible; the smell of death always made him nauseous after surrounding him for a while.
"I'd be lucky if I actually managed to die, don't you think?"
Chuuya's arms tensed around his neck. "I can solve that." After a second, though, he dropped his limbs over Dazai's shoulders. "But it's not worth it," he muttered. "I'd have to walk."
Eyebrow raised, Dazai turned his head to look at the mop of hair that was all he could see when his partner had his face buried into Dazai's shoulder like that. The fiery locks were dirty, messy and stained with blood that probably belonged to Chuuya himself.
"You are making a mess of my coat," he pointed out.
"Bad luck, vagabond."
Dazai briefly considered leaving Chuuya there. It wouldn't be the first time, and dealing with a potentially angry Chuuya was easy when one knew his moves by heart. The only problem was they had let some people escape the slaughter and being annoying was about the most dangerous thing Chuuya could do at the moment; Mori wouldn't be happy if half his most precious weapon suffered the survivors' revenge.
Dazai groaned, started walking faster. Chuuya didn't deserve such a considerate partner.
"You're not immortal." The words, though hoarse, sounded unexpectedly soft, and Dazai knew Chuuya was drifting off. "You're just important for the right people."