Warnings: Drug use, bad words and sexual situations

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Chapter 2

It was eight o'clock the next night. Reid was standing in front of his living room window and his whole body was shaking from the withdrawal of the Dilaudid. He had woken up not feeling too great that day and he knew it was going to be a rough couple of days as he fought the withdrawal from the Dilaudid. The problem Reid was currently having was his mind screaming at him. Everything that had had happened to him since being held captive for two days was just playing over and over again since he had woken up that morning. Reid couldn't help, but remember how it felt to be high from the Dilaudid. He couldn't help, but remember how everything was quiet and he didn't have a care in the world. He hated the memories coming back to him, but it didn't happen every time and it wasn't like he didn't have the memories in his mind anyways. Reid was trying to tell himself all of the negative facts associated with drug use. He knew them all off by heart as easily as it was to breathe. The problem Reid was facing right now was the fact that those facts meant nothing to him in that moment. Reid didn't want to be doing any drugs. He knew it was never a solution, but at the same time his mind and body was screaming for it. He just wanted to forget what had happened to him, but his mind never lets him forget. The only time he was able to get his mind to stop was when he was high and that was what was tempting him so badly. The fact that he could forget what he went through back in that shack. Reid tried to focus his mind on what had happened that morning at the hospital.

Flashback

Reid was woken up by Morgan at eight in the morning. Reid knew he had to go to get the second CT-Scan done, but that didn't make him want to do it anymore. Reid was in a great deal of pain from the large cut across his left side and his three cracked ribs. Not to mention the bruising that littered his body and the cut on his forehead. Reid was hoping he would be able to get something for his pain at the hospital. It didn't have to be a narcotic. It just needed to be something stronger than over the counter medicine. Reid could also feel the tremble in his body as the withdrawals were beginning. He could thankfully say it was from the pain currently if someone asked him. Reid knew that true withdrawals would take two weeks, but it wouldn't be that bad, because he had only been given the drug for two days and not two years. It would just take a couple of days to get his body used to it being without the drug, but that wouldn't make the cravings stop. He had just woken up and he was already craving the drug. Reid just wanted to sleep and be left alone, but he knew that wasn't going to happen until he went to the hospital.

Reid forced his body up and sat up in bed. He knew he had to do this so he figured he might as well get it over with and then he could come back here and be alone and just sleep this feeling and pain away. Reid got up and went over to his dresser and pulled out so clean black sweat pants and a black t-shirt. He put those on as he was just going to the hospital for a scan. Reid headed out of his room and over to the bathroom to use it and brush his hair and teeth before he went out into the living room to see Morgan already dressed and waiting for him. Morgan gave Reid a smile before he spoke.

"Morning Pretty boy. How are you feeling?"

"Horrible." Reid simply answered as he put Morgan's jacket on the back of the couch before he went over to grab his shoes so he could put them on.

"Ya don't take this the wrong way, but you look kinda horrible. You have more bruising on your face and arms and your eye is still swollen pretty badly there. Do you have a headache at all?" Morgan asked with worry.

"I do, but that doesn't mean that something is wrong. I took a lot of hits to my head so it would be shocking if I didn't have a headache." Reid said as he put his shoes on.

Morgan held out the jacket to Reid and Reid looked at him confused.

"You should wear it. It's a little cold out this morning."

"I have other jackets. You don't have one besides that one, you'll get cold yourself." Reid said confused.

"I know, but I also know you like my jacket. I'll be fine and you hate hospitals so it's okay if you want to wear it." Morgan said calmly.

Reid gave Morgan a shy smile before he reached out and took the jacket from Morgan. Reid put it on and Morgan gave Reid a smile.

"Do you want some coffee along the way?" Morgan asked.

"No I'm good right now. I just want to get this over with and go back to bed."

"Ok. Well I texted Hotch and he is going to meet us at the hospital. He has your prescription for your anti-biotic as well."

"Has he heard from Gideon?" Reid asked as he tried to keep himself from being hopeful.

"I didn't ask. I'm sure Gideon will be back today. He probably just got caught up closing everything off with the case and lost track of time. I'm sure he'll be back today it wouldn't have taken him that long to drive."

Reid just gave a nod and he grabbed his keys and wallet before him and Morgan headed out of the apartment and headed down to Morgan's truck. They got in and Morgan helped Reid get his seatbelt on as he was still having a really hard time turning to either side. Once they were buckled in Morgan took off for the hospital. He made sure he didn't go too fast so if he hit a bump it wouldn't hurt Reid too much. He could see that his body was trembling slightly and he knew that Reid was in pain. Morgan didn't say anything on the way to the hospital as he could tell that Reid was not in the talking mood. He couldn't blame Reid after all from what they had seen Reid had been beaten, mentally tortured and killed. It wasn't something that would be easy for him to go through and Morgan knew it was going to take a long time before he was able to be fully okay once again after everything.

They arrived at the hospital and Morgan parked the car. Once the car was turned off Morgan unclicked Reid's seatbelt before he did his own. He then got out of his truck and went around to the passenger side. Reid got out of the truck and Morgan made sure he walked closely to Reid just to make sure he didn't trip or his legs gave out on him. They walked inside the hospital at the emergency entrance and they both walked over to where the receptionist desk was. They both saw that Hotch was already there waiting for them and he came over to them before he spoke.

"I already checked you in Reid. They said it should be about twenty minutes and they will be able to get you in for a scan." Hotch explained.

Reid just gave a nod and Hotch could tell he was not feeling too great.

"Let's sit down Pretty Boy." Morgan said gently as he guided Reid over to one of the seats,

They both noticed that it was painful for Reid to bend and sit down and they knew he wasn't going to be very talkative right now. They both sat down on either side of Reid and were just a silent support as they waited for when Reid would be called in. He was called in twenty-five minutes later and Reid slowly got up and made his way over to the nurse to follow her to where he could get his CT-Scan done. Reid followed the nurse and once in the room he removed his jacket and the nurse allowed him to stay in his own clothes as it was just a quick scan of his head. He sat down and waited until he would be able to go into the actual room so he could get this over with and just go back home.

Morgan and Hotch were sitting down in the waiting room waiting for when Reid would be done with his scan so they could take him back home and he could get some more rest. Morgan was the one to break the silence.

"Reid asked me if you had heard from Gideon yet. I told him I didn't ask and he would probably be back today. I hope he doesn't make me a liar."

"He won't even answer his phone right now. I don't know where he is. If I don't hear from him by this afternoon I'll have Garcia look up his phone and see where he is. I'm sure nothing has happened to him, but I need to know where he is."

"I still don't get it. I don't get why he just took off like that. Reid is seriously injured. You saw him he can barely walk around. He's got a lot more bruises than we know about and he didn't get any pain medication last night."

"They didn't give him any? That doesn't make any sense. Reid would have been in a great deal of pain, why wouldn't the doctor give him anything?" Hotch asked more to himself than to Morgan.

"I don't know, maybe Reid didn't feel the pain from the adrenaline and shock. Maybe this doctor will give him something for it. It doesn't change the fact that Gideon shouldn't have left like that. Reid doesn't deserve that."

"No he doesn't, but you know Gideon. He doesn't handle this type of situations very well. It has put stress and distance between his own son because of it. I'm not sure where his mind is at, but he'll come back and be there for Reid."

"What if he comes back and he isn't there for Reid?"

"The rest of us will be there for Reid. I think Gideon just needs some time to get his mind around what has happened. He wouldn't just leave Reid like this."

"Did you ever think he would leave Reid in a hospital after being beaten and held captive for two days?"

"No, but I never thought that situation would come up. I'm more worried about Reid than Gideon right now. We don't know what happened while the cameras were off. Reid could be more injured than we know about. There is no telling what he had to endure while he was with Hankel in that shack."

"We'll need to get him to talk about it, but I don't think he's going to be doing that any time soon. Reid and emotions don't really go hand in hand. I'm worried he is going to self-destruct after this. There's only so much a single person can handle and after being bullied practically his whole life plus his mother's condition. I'm afraid this is what is going to break the horse's back. How much can he take before his mind says enough is enough?" Morgan said with worry.

"I don't know. He doesn't handle emotions well, because no one has been there to teach him how to handle the harder emotions. Reid's mind is exceptional and rare he is going to be playing those two days over and over again and he won't have any control over it. Gideon was the one to find Reid. Gideon was the one to mentor him and mold him for this job. Gideon should have taught him how to handle the emotional aspect of this job, but he didn't. He assumed Reid would learn some other way or just figured his mind would be strong enough to handle anything. The truth is Reid's mind is truly more fragile than any of ours. I neglected to teach Reid how to handle emotions. I let him down in that regards."

"We all did Hotch. Any one of us could have helped Reid with his emotions and not being afraid of them. He just doesn't understand emotions and how to handle them. We all could have done something and we all let him down on that. He's going to need help this time around. He won't be able to bury this and keep going. He'll want to, but he's going to find out real quick that he won't be able to this time around. I don't know how he is going to handle this at all. How is he supposed to handle it? I mean really if it was me I would be having problems and I don't have an eidetic memory playing on an endless loop. How the hell is he supposed to handle this?"

"I truly don't know Morgan. He's young, he's only twenty-four and he has been held captive and tortured for two days. I don't know how he's supposed to handle this. This is the situation I was worried about with him being so young when he joined. I warned Gideon that his age was a bad idea. He was only twenty-one and his mind would remember every single thing he would ever see would stay in his mind. I warned Gideon that it could be too much for someone like Reid. That even though he was rare and exceptional that didn't mean he should be subjected to the evilness that we see each and every day. He wanted Reid here though so I trusted him and I kept Reid out of the field on purpose. Now this has happened and I don't know what the right thing to do for Reid is." Hotch said with frustration and uncertainty to his voice.

"You mean not let him come back." Morgan stated.

"I don't know if it would be the right choice for Reid. I care about Reid just as much as I care about the rest of the team. But you are right Morgan, how much do we allow Reid's mind to see before it turns against him? How much death and violence should Reid put himself through before he can't take it anymore? As much as I would hate to lose Reid from this team maybe now is the best time for him to try something that won't leave him so scarred mentally. It is his decision, but I am not going to be standing in his way if he wishes to leave."

"I'm not either, but I would hate to lose him. He's an amazing person and he deserves to be happy and have a good life. Hopefully he lets people in and we can get him through this in one piece."

"I hope so. And as for Gideon hopefully he shows up today or gets in contact with me. If not I will get Garcia to see if she can track him down so we know where he is at least."

"Well hopefully he shows his ass up here, because Reid doesn't deserve this shit either."

Hotch silently agreed and they continued to wait for when Reid would come back out here to let them know how the test went. It was just under an hour later and Reid was sitting in the small office for the doctor to come in and inform him of how the CT-Scan went. Reid was hoping he could just leave right away and not have to do any more tests. He just wanted to be alone and try to sleep this pain and withdrawal away. He was relieved when the door finally opened and a doctor walked into the room.

"Hello Dr. Reid. I am Dr. Hill and I have just reviewed your CT-Scan." Dr. Hill said as he closed the door and went over and sat down in the chair.

"What was the result?" Reid asked.

"You do have some bruising on your brain from your last assault. It is nothing serious in the sense that I need to keep you here. There is one section of your brain that has some bruising, but it will be able to heal with time. You just need to be careful that you don't get hit to your head again for at least three months to ensure that the bruising is completely healed. Obviously you will get headaches from time to time as the bruising is healing, but all in all you will be alright." Dr. Hill explained.

"So I am cleared to leave now?" Reid asked with a blankness to his voice.

"Yes you are cleared to leave. Just be cautious in vehicles and make sure you don't get into any fights. If you experience any extreme headaches then please come in just as a precaution. I will also be giving you a prescription for some Tylenol 3s to help with the pain from any headaches or any of your other injuries. I saw that you were not prescribed anything yesterday." Dr. Hill said as he handed Reid his prescription paper.

"I'll keep an eye on it. Thank-you for your time." Reid said as he took the paper and stood up.

"You're welcome Dr. Reid and I hope you feel better."

Reid just gave a nod and headed out of the room and back down to the waiting room where he knew Hotch and Morgan would be. Sure enough they were still sitting in the same spot and they both stood up once they saw that Reid was coming back towards them.

"I'm fine." Reid said with exhaustion in his voice.

"So there was no bruising?" Morgan asked.

"No there was, but there isn't any severe bruising that would keep me here. I just have to be careful for the next three months not to further injure my head. I'll have headaches from time to time, but that's all."

"It's good that we now know that, but it's not good that you have bruising on your brain. Did he give you something for the pain?" Hotch asked.

"Some T3's. I have to get it filled along with my anti-biotic. I will on the way home."

"I'll take you to the one near your house." Morgan said.

"What about work? When do I need my report done for?" Reid asked Hotch.

"I'll speak with Strauss, but I would imagine she will need it by the end of the week, Monday at the latest just so she can have this case completely closed and done with." Hotch answered.

"When can I go back to work?" Reid asked.

"Reid you just got home late last night. You shouldn't be worrying about work right now." Morgan said calmly.

"Even if you were ready, you can't with bruising on your brain and with your ribs cracked. It'll be at least three months before you could even begin the evaluations to come back. Take the time to deal with what happened and get better Spencer." Hotch said gently.

"Sure." Reid simply said.

"Come on Pretty Boy, let's get you your prescriptions and then home. You look like you could use some serious sleep." Morgan said gently.

"Get some rest Reid. I'll come by and see you in a couple of days." Hotch said.

"Sure." Reid said and it was clear he was just saying that to please them.

The three of them walked out of the hospital waiting room and over to Morgan's truck. Hotch walked them to the truck before he headed for his own car. He saw Morgan making sure Reid got in first before he went around to his side of the truck and got in. He once again helped Reid with his seatbelt before he took off for the pharmacy near Reid's place so he could get his prescriptions and then he would be able to get home.

After thirty minutes they were back at Reid's apartment and Morgan unbuckled Reid.

"Thanks for the ride." Reid said.

"It's no problem. Do you want me to come in with you? I can keep you company or just hang out as you sleep." Morgan said not really wanting to leave Reid alone.

"No that's okay. I'm just going to take my medication and sleep. Thanks though." Reid said sincerely.

"If you need me just call or text and I'll come over Reid. I don't care what time of the day or night it is, do you understand me?" Morgan said in a serious voice.

"I understand. I'm just going to sleep mostly."

"Alright. Get some rest and remember I'm here for you. I care about you Spencer. You're like the little brother that I never had. Don't hesitate to call me."

"Thanks Derek. You're like the older brother I always wanted. I'm just gonna sleep, but I'll text you tomorrow to check in."

"Please do that so I know you are okay."

"I will. Thanks for last night and this morning."

"Anytime. Now get inside and get some sleep Pretty Boy you need it."

Reid gave Morgan a small smile before he got out of the truck and Morgan watched as he headed inside his apartment building. It wasn't until he knew that Reid was safe and inside did he put his truck back into drive and headed for his own house.

End of Flashback

Now it was just after eight o'clock at night and Reid couldn't stop the shaking in his body. He was craving like he had never expected to be. He just wanted the quiet and release that the Dilaudid gave his mind. It didn't help that Reid wasn't an idiot. He knew D.C, it was his home. He knew how much Dilaudid went for on the street and he knew what areas he could get it from. After all he studied these streets for his job. He knew them better than anyone so it wouldn't take long for him to get it. Reid always had cash on him in his apartment just because he wasn't one for banks. Reid knew he shouldn't be doing drugs. He knew the side effects, he knew the downsides, he knew it all and yet he wanted it. His body and even worse his mind was screaming for it. He wanted the sweet release that it would bring his mind. He wanted the images to stop playing over and over again in his mind on this endless loop. He wanted the pain in his body and in his chest to go away. He didn't have any choice in the matter he couldn't resist any longer. He knew what he wanted and he couldn't deny his body or mind anymore.

With shaky hands Reid put on Morgan's jacket once again and got his shoes on. Once he was ready he took his cell phone and just the cash he would need to get his drug and he headed out of his apartment and down to where he knew he could get what he needed. Reid walked down the streets for a good thirty blocks before he was finally in the right area. He didn't know names of drug dealers or really what they look like. All Reid knew was their profile so when he finally reached the area he stood off to the side and just watched the people in the area. He could see some in side alleys and he could see prostitutes moving around with their clients. Reid knew which ones were drug dealers easily, but he didn't know which one would have exactly what he needed. He would have to ask someone as he assumed Dilaudid wasn't requested much on the street. Reid didn't know who he was to ask. If he asked the wrong person he could be lead the wrong way or he could be attacked. Reid knew he had to ask the right person.

Reid stood there watching and profiling for a few more minutes before he went over to a prostitute that had been standing there waiting for a client to come along. Reid had saw her interacting with other younger prostitutes and she was friendly and kind to them. So Reid was hoping that was her natural personality and not some kind of loyalty to the younger working girls. Reid approached her slowly and shyly. This was not in his area at all and it wasn't like he was here for a case. He was here to find a drug dealer that could give him Dilaudid. This was new territory and a territory that Reid never thought he would ever be in.

"Um excuse me?" Reid said unsurely.

The prostitute turned to face Reid and she gave him a warm smile.

"Well hello there. Are you looking for a date or something more?" She said friendly.

"Um… I'm looking for someone who would have Dilaudid?" Reid said with complete nerves in his voice.

She gave him a sweet smile as she spoke. "You need J.D sweetie. He's over two blocks from here he's wearing a black baseball hat with a black jean jacket tonight. He's the only one on this half of the city who can get his hands on it."

"Thank-you."

"No problem Sweetie. Stay safe."

"You too." Reid said with a very small smile before he moved down the street.

He was getting more nervous now that he was getting even closer to getting the drug that his body desperately needed. Reid knew he shouldn't be doing this, but he just couldn't get his body to listen to him. He continued to walk down the two blocks until he arrived at the side alley where the dealer, J.D. was supposed to be. Reid noticed how this end of the block there weren't that many people here. Reid figured that the dealers that offered specialty drugs were away from the main herd so they could ensure their clients would continue to come to them instead of them going someplace else. Reid saw the man he was looking for leaning against the wall. J.D. looked over at Reid and he smirked as he could see that Reid was clearly nervous and clearly looking for him. He could see the trembling in Reid's body that was easily recognizable as withdrawals. All J.D. needed to know was what drug Reid was looking for.

"You lookin' for me?" J.D asked with a knowing smirk.

"Um…are you…are you J.D?" Reid asked nervously as he looked around to make sure no one was there.

"Ya, what do you need?"

"I was told that you um… had some stuff." Reid said not sure how he was supposed to be doing this.

"I got a lotta stuff, anything you had in mind or should I just pick?" J.D said in a teasing manner. He loved the newbies as they were the easiest targets.

"Dilaudid." Reid said as he looked around again.

"Ya how many vials?"

"Two."

"It'll cost ya three hundred."

"I have the cash."

"There's also a handling fee." J.D said with a smirk.

"Oh how much?" Reid said not expecting that.

"Oh you can afford it. Come on." J.D said with a nod of his head in the direction of the alley.

J.D walked down the alley part way and Reid reluctantly followed behind him. His shaking was getting worse and he could feel himself getting sicker and sicker. His body was craving and calling out for the one thing that would make him feel better. The one thing that this man had.

"Cash first." J.D said.

Reid dug out the money and handed it to J.D with shaky hands.

"Now the handling fee. Dilaudid isn't easy to get a hold of so you get to do somethin' special for me." J.D said with a smirk.

"What?" Reid said clearly unsure of the situation.

"Suck me off."

"What?" Reid asked confused as he had no idea what J.D was talking about.

"All of the Dilaudid clients have to pay me somethin' extra to make it worth my efforts. So suck me off or no dope for you."

"I don't know what you mean by that." Reid said confused again by the lingo.

"You don't know what suck me off means? What are you a virgin? It means give me head, put that mouth of yours around my hard dick and make me cum. You gettin' the picture yet?" J.D asked in annoyance, but at the same time he was enjoying this new client.

"You want me to… to perform oral sex on you? Here in an alley?" Reid asked shocked and horrified. He had not expected that to be a part of the deal. He just wanted to give the money and get the drugs in return. He didn't expect to have to do anything sexual to get them. That was never how it worked.

"Very good. You gonna tell me you've never done it before?" J.D teased.

"No I haven't. I don't… I don't do those things." Reid said embarrassed at having to have this conversation with a complete stranger. He had only kissed a few people he was very much so still a virgin and it never bothered him.

"Well you've had it done to you so I'm sure you'll figure it out."

Reid looked down now even more embarrassed and J.D just smiled.

"Oh you are a virgin. Well isn't that just rare. Don't worry I'll tell you what to do." J.D said in a slightly condescending tone.

"Can't you just take the money and give me the vials? That's how it normally works."

"Bought drugs before have you."

"No, never."

"Then you don't know how it always works. I go through a lot of trouble and effort to get Dilaudid. It's not heroin, not everyone is cooking it. I need somethin' for my effort." J.D said as he took out the two vials and placed them down in a stack of crates next to him as he continued to speak. "Look at chya, you're shakin' and sweatin'. You're gonna be sick in the next hour. You got hooked on the drug somehow and I don't care how, but you're body needs it. It's right here all you gotta do is suck me off and then you can go back home and shoot up. It'll make you feel all better. You can even take my number so the next time you need some you just halfta call. Now what is it gonna be?"

Reid looked over at the two vials sitting there on the crate. He hated it, but he wanted them so badly. He wanted them more than anything else in the whole world. He knew it was wrong to be doing this, to be buying drugs. He knew he would be sick for a week or so and then he would feel better, but he also knew the cravings would still be there. The memories of what happened to him would still be there. Tobais' cold dead eyes would still be there looking at him. He needed the escape more than he needed oxygen. He was a scientist after all this could be like an experiment. He was twenty-four and it was natural to experiment with sexuality and sexual orientation. It didn't have to be anything more than that and then he could go home and have the escape that his mind desperately needed. Reid gave a reluctant nod and J.D just smiled and undid his pants as he spoke.

"Come here, get on your knees and just pretend that it is a popsicle. You've eaten popsicles before. You just lick and suck it until the gooey middle comes out and watch your teeth."

"Here? What if…what if someone sees?"

"Then I suggest you do it fast."

J.D pulled himself out and Reid let out a shaky breath before he went over and got down on his knees, J.D wasn't hard so Reid took him into his shaky hand and started to rub him, like he would with himself. Once he was starting to get hard Reid slowly went over and gave the tip a little lick. Reid didn't taste anything so he began to lick along the hardening shaft and J.D was hard in no time.

"There you got it hard now stick it in your mouth." J.D said as he put his hand through Reid's hair and brought his head down closer to his hard on.

Reid licked his lips and opened his mouth slightly so he could begin to take J.D's hard on into his mouth. J.D didn't push once Reid's mouth was on him and Reid slowly began to take J.D all the way into his mouth. It took a few tried, but Reid was able to get all of J.D inside his mouth and he began to move his head up and down along J.D's hard on. J.D let out a small moan and Reid figured he was on the right track so he tried to remember every book he's ever read that had anything to do with sex so he could make this go faster. Reid tried to lightly suck as he moved his mouth up and down and that made J.D moan so Reid knew he enjoyed it. Reid moved his right hand over to where J.D's balls were and he began to rub them softly to help provide more stimulation as he went and sucked on the tip of J.D hard on tasting the precum in his mouth.

"Fuck there you go. You're a natural talent there Doll." J.D said with a husky voice.

Reid continued on and made sure his movements got faster as he could feel J.D's hard on getting even harder as he got closer to cuming. As J.D got closer he began to thrust into Reid's mouth as he moaned.

"Ah fuck you're gonna get a nice big drink here in a second."

J.D thrusted into Reid's mouth a few more times before he held Reid's head down all the way as he cam hard in Reid's mouth and down his throat with a loud moan. Reid could taste and feel J.D's cum in his mouth and he had no choice but to swallow the salty fluid. Once the pulsing was done J.D let go of Reid's hair and Reid pulled his head off the softening cock. J.D went and put himself back into his pants as he spoke.

"You might be my new favorite client Doll."

"Why are you calling me that?" Reid asked as he stood back up and moved back slightly as he looked around to make sure no one was there still.

"Cause you look like a doll. All sweet and innocent just waitin' for someone to play with you. You got a phone?"

"Not on me."

"Think you can remember my number for next time?"

"I remember everything." Reid simply stated.

"Good then you'll remember how good I taste all night. 905-932-0265 text me when you need more just say it's Doll. Go ahead and take em. I'll see ya next time Doll." J.D said with a smirk.

Reid went over to the crates and took the two vials and put them in his pocket before he headed out of the alley and quickly walked back home. He couldn't believe what he had just done. He couldn't believe he had done something like that. He never thought he would ever do something like this. He never thought he would buy drugs. He never thought he would perform oral sex on a man in an alley. Reid just couldn't believe what he had done tonight, but part of him made him walk even faster to his apartment so he could get high. So he could find that sweet escape and shut his mind off where he wouldn't think or feel anything. Reid got to his apartment and quickly went up the stairs and into his apartment. Reid got into his apartment and he closed and locked the door before he went down the hallway to his bathroom. He grabbed the first aid kit that he had under his sink and he opened it. He had an extensive first aid kit because you just never knew. He had two clean needles in it so he grabbed one and he went into his bedroom with it and sat down on the bed. He took off his belt and tied it around his arm before he filled the needle to the right amount from the vial. Once he was ready he took a slow deep breath and inserted the needle into his vain. He slowly pushed down on the plunger and emptied the liquid into his body. Once it was empty he carefully pulled the needle out as quickly as he could and removed the belt. He could feel the heat of the drug going all throughout his body and he kicked off his shoes and laid back on his bed.

All of the pain his body was in was melting away as the drug took over his body. In that moment Reid didn't care about anything. He didn't care about what he had to do to get the drug. He didn't care about what he went through while in that cabin. He didn't care that Gideon wasn't there for him. He didn't care about killing Tobias. He didn't care about anything and Reid couldn't help but love the feeling. He had finally been able to get his mind to shut off. He had finally been able to make everything quiet and he could just exist. Reid felt like he was floating and he never wanted to come back down from it.