DISCLAIMER: I don't own rights to glee nor it's characters.
also congratulations to Amber mf p Riley for winning the masked singer, that girl don't lose at shit lol.
I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Mwah.
Sam and I didn't have sex until we got married. Quinn always liked to make fun of me by saying that that was the reason why he asked me to marry him so soon. But it was never like that. My mom always valued abstinence from sex until marriage so that's how I was raised. When I began college, I knew I had the choice of losing my virginity if I wanted to.
My mom had done her job by teaching me her values and as an adult, it was my choice whether I wanted to follow them or not. I didn't really decide, it just never really happened with anyone. I was busy with school and I didn't meet a guy I really wanted to do it with-until I met Sam.
The thing is that I knew he was the right guy for me and I decided I wanted to wait because I wanted a good, innocent relationship with him. He respected me and never suggested that we did anything. It was like he knew that I wanted to wait for marriage without me saying anything.
When Sam and I first made love on our honeymoon, I wondered how I had gone my whole life without him and tonight, I feel the exact same way as he hovers over me and presses his naked body against mine. He places his hand in between my breasts as he looks down at me. I arch my back, wanting him inside of me already. When he does, I let out a satisfied moan as I pull my head back against the pillow.
"Oh ba-baby." I moan as I grip his bicep.
His mouth covers mine hungrily. "You're my wife," He says in a low voice and then his thrusts become hard and angry. He kisses my mouth, my neck, my chest as he moves faster and faster. He grabs my leg and pulls it over his back and we both moan as he buries himself deeper inside of me.
The sound of the bed hitting the wall fills the room and I'm so glad we're alone in the house because I don't hold back on my moans. Sam isn't gentle and I love it. He isn't holding back. It's as if he wants to make up for all the time we haven't made love in one time. He moves his hips hard against mine and it feels so good.
He's possessive and angry and I feel his desire for me in the way he makes love to me. He covers my nipple with his mouth and he grunts against my skin as he begins to come. He slows down and his hand travels down in between my legs. He touches me as he continues to move, giving me so much pleasure--I explode at the same time he does.
He kisses me breathlessly and then he wraps his arm around me and pulls me onto him as he lays on his back on the bed. I rest my cheek on his shoulder as I try to bring my breathiig back to normal I still feel the sensation of my orgasm inside my body and in between my legs. I have no idea how I've gone these past three years without this, but it was so worth the wait.
Sam and I lay there in silence for a moment and then he tightens his arm around me. I look up at him, curiously, and he crashes his lips against mine and suddenly I'm on fire all over again.
He's more gentle the second time. He takes his time kissing every inch of my body. His hands and lips are all over me. He kisses me and caresses me gently. It reminds me of our first night together. He was gentle and patient with me that night.
He made me feel so loved and so valued. It hurt the first time we made love on our honeymoon, but somehow he still found a way to make it pleasurable for me. He was so perfect and he reminds me that night as he makes love to me for the second time tonight.
It's a weird thing, to feel the exact same way I felt when I lost my virginity especially after the rough sex we just had, but it makes the second time even more special. We barely have any sleep that night and the next morning, I look out the bright window as I think about our lovemaking. I can still feel the sensation of him inside of me when I press my legs together.
What a memorable night. I know I won't forget it any time soon. Now I'm even more sure that I can't live without him anymore. I don't want to. I want you to stay, his words repeat in my head. He wants me to stay. He still wants me despite all the pain I've caused him. I feel him stir next to me and then he puts his arm around my waist and pulls me towards him. I feel his lips against the back of my head.
I smile as I look at the bright sunlight coming through the curtains. Will it work, though? If I stay...will we work? I'm scared to come back and then everything going back to the way it was before I left. I don't want to go back to that life again. I don't want to be Mary's victim. Mary...I haven't even thought about how she's going to react when she finds out that I came back to her house or Sam's life for that matter. I'm sure she was been the happiest woman alive when she found out that I had left and even more happy when I didn't come back as the days passed.
"Good morning." Sam mumbles behind me.
I half smile. "How did you know I was awake?"
He extended his palm against my bare stomach. "Your breathing."
"Right, doctor." I tease
His arm tightened around me and kisses my shoulder in response. We lay in silence for a moment, just enjoying each other's company. I love feeling his body against mine. It's the best feeling in the world. I had forgotten that. I don't have to say good-bye to this feeling. Sam wants me to stay. I can stay. Yet..
"Do you forgive me?" I ask him, breaking the silence.
"Forgive you for what?"
I turn around so I'm facing him. "For leaving," I say as I look into his green eyes, "Do you forgive me for leaving?"
He frowns, "Mercedes-
"Answer me." I Interrupt. "Please. I need to know."
He looks at me. "I have nothing to forgive you for. I am to blame"
"Yes, you do." I gulp. "Sam, I was selfish. It's okay to admit it. I hurt you. So I want to apologize to you for running away. I know that I made a mistake. I was selfish and I shouldn't have done that. I'm so sorry."
His face softens. "Mercedes-"
"Sam." I interrupt again, a smile playing on my lips. "Stop trying to justify my actions. What I did was wrong. So, do you forgive me?"
He half smile as he reaches out and puts a strand of hair behind my ear. "If you insist.."
I smile. "I do,"
"Of course I forgive you," He says. "Do you forgive me for being a shitty husband?"
"Your job is demanding and I get that."
He traces my lower lip with his thumb as he looks into my eyes. "I neglected you," He says and there is sadness in his voice.
I place my palm on his cheek. "It's in the past now."
He half smile and he looks hopeful. "Does that mean that you're staying?"
I bite my lower lip. "I do have to go back to Arizona," I say slowly.
Sam frowns. "I was afraid you were going to say that."
"I'm sorry," I say. "It's just-Jane only has a few weeks of school left. She already has her prom dress and she's graduating in May. It wouldn't be fair to make her move. I want to do things right this time. I'll need to sell the house, quit my job." I trail off, thinking about how this is going to take a lot more work and time than anticipated.
"I'll come with you."
I smile as I look at him. "Sam, I appreciate that but it's not necessary. Besides, I'm pretty sure you can't leave the clinic alone for two months."
He hesitates. I can tell he doesn't like the idea of me going back at all. He seems distressed as he sits up on the bed, leaning against the bed rest. He's shirtless and his hair is messy from all the times I've ran my hands over it during our lovemaking. I press the white sheet against my chest as I sit up as well. I look down at the floor but don't see my clothes anywhere.
"Sam." I say and wait for him to look at me. "I know that it's not easy to trust me..but if we're going to do this, then I'm going to need you to trust me," I say slowly.
He nods. "I know. I just hate that we have to be apart."
I smile. "I know..but it'll be worth it."
He reaches out to kiss me. "I do want you to have something," He says pulling away.
"What is it?" I ask suspiciously.
He pecks my lips and then gets out of the bed. I watch as he slips on his boxers then walks into the closet.
"Sam?" I call from the bed.
He comes back with something in his hand and sits back down next to me. He looks at me."I want you to have this back," He says as he takes out my silver wedding ring from the box.
"Sounds to me like you want to mark your territory." I tease him.
I'm flattered that he kept my ring and even more that he wants me to have it back. Looking at it again makes me think back to the night I took it off and left it on the nightstand next to Sam's side of the bed. That was the only thing I left him. I thought nothing else needed to be said.
"That's because I am," He says with a smile as he reaches for my left hand.
He puts in the ring then he brings it up to his lips and he kisses it.
"I want everyone to know that you are my wife."
I smile down at the ring. "Okay, Mr. Evans.
He pulls my chin up and looks into my eyes. "I'm serious, Mercedes. I-." He takes a deep breath. "I'm scared of losing you again."
I bite my lip then put my arms around his neck and press myself closer to him in an embrace. "That's my fault. I'm sorry." I pull back ehough to look at him. "But you're not, Sam. Not because of a ring but because I love you and I want to be with you."
I feel heat rushing up my cheeks. Why is it embarrassing to declare my love to my husband? There is a smile playing on his lips.
"Okay..but it'll still help if you kept your ring on."
I laugh. "Okay, then. I'll have some explaining to do to my coworkers though," I say as I look down at the ring. It has a beautiful diamond in the middle with tiny ones to the sides. I will have some explaining to do..to Matt..oh Matt. What was I thinking when I started dating him? I never should have. Now I had an awkward conversation coming with him.
"You put yours too," I tell him.
He smiles as he reaches inside the box. "Gladly."
My smile fades a little. "I wanted to ask you something." I say slowly as he puts on the silver wedding band on his fourth finger.
"What is it?" He asks looking at me.
I hesitate. "Yesterday you said that you were tempted to, uh, be with penny..."I look at him. "How tempted were you? Do you still have feelings for her?" I'm scared of his answer but I have to know. Those words are still lingering in the back of my head.
Sam winces and then he runs his hand over his hair. "I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I was angry and jealous about you dating someone else-it was an impulse. I was speaking without thinking."
I study him. "Are you sure? I would rather you be honest with me now."
"I'm being honest." He promises. "It was just one night a really long time ago that I was in a bad shape and Penny...well, she was there but I swear that nothing happened. I couldn't be unfaithful to you. I'm sorry for the horrible things I said last night. I was angry."
I nod slowly. "Okay. I believe you." In a way, I feel relieved. I have to trust that he's telling me the truth even if my jealousy wants to convince me otherwise.
Before he can say anything, there was a soft knock on the door.
"Cedes?" Jane calls. "Are you awake?
"Yeah, what is it?" I call as I get out of bed. I'm not wearing any clothes, so I tighten the white sheet around me. Sam seems amused by my reaction. There is no way l'm going to let Jane see me like this. The thought alone is embarrassing. I know she's an adult but she's still my little sister.
"Oh, just that the campus tour starts in an hour. Are you still coming?"
"Oh, yeah. I'l be ready in twenty."
"Okay."
I hear her walk away.
"I forgot about the tour." I murmur to myself as I make my way to the bathroom.
Sam stands by the bathroom doorway. "You know, we could save a lot of time if we showered together."
I smile as I turn on the shower. "Not to mention that it'll be good for water preservation too."
I laugh. "Water preservation, huh?"
He grins. "It's an inportant issue."
I let the sheet fall for the floor and then get in the shower. "Well, what are you waiting for?" I ask smiling at him.
Sam joins me in the shower and we kiss as the water runs over our naked bodies. Then he reaches for the shampoo and began to massage it into my hair.I help him rinse my hair and when I open my eyes, Sam is looking at me intensely.
"Sam..." I say as he takes a step forward. He puts his arms around my bare waist and kisses me. I want to say that we shouldn't because Jane is waiting and we don't have time but it's too late to care about anything when he was kissing me like that..so I don't say anything at all.
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Thirty minutes after we'get out of the shower, Sam and I are finally ready.
"About time," Jane says from the couch when she sees me. She has her phone in her hand. "I like that top." She compliments before averting her attention back to her phone.
I looks down, suddenly forgetting what I had picked. I'm wearing a rose pink blouse that I left here with jeans and my slip-on Vans. It feels weird to dress down but we're probably going to be walking all afternoon so I want to be comfortable.
"Thanks," I say.
"Good morning," Sam says to Jane as he makes his way to the kitchen, He, on the other hand, is wearing a black suit. God forbid this man dressed down for just one day.
"Morning" Jane raises her good hand at me and points to her fourth finger. "Ring?" She mouths.
I roll my eyes at her. "Shut up." I mouth back.
She bursts out laughing and Sam turns to look at us as he opens a water bottle. "What's so funny?"
I look at him and the images of everything we just did in the shower come flooding through my head. I feel filthy thinking about that with my little sister in the room, so I'm glad when Quinn walks in through the front door.
"Morning, love birds." She teases.
Oh God. She is not helping.
"Alright." I sigh as I reach for my purse. "Should we go?"
"Nice ring." Quinn comments as we walk to the car.
"Shut up," I say with a smile.
The weather is nice outside. The sun is out and it's pleasant now but I know it's going to get hotter as it gets later in the day. Quinn puts her arm around my shoulders, like she used to back when we were in college. "Just teasing, Mercy. I'm really happy for you, homegirl." She teases, ruffling my hair.
"Quinn!"I complain pushing her away.
She laughs while I try to fix my hair. Sam unlocks the car, giving his sister a look of disapproval. Quinn just shrugs it off and we all get in the car.
"You are going to love UCLA," Quinn says to Jane in the backseat. "Man, so many good memories in that school. One look at it, and you're going to forget all about that New York fever."
I shake my head with a smile as I reach for my phone. I notice I have a few notifications. Some from work and a few text from Matt...
Hey, been trying to reach you. Call me when you can :) That's his last text. I start typing something and then delete it.
"Everything okay?" Sam asks as he drives.
I lock my phone and put it away. "Yeah," I say looking out the window."You're not working today?" It just occurred to me that he isn't at work.
"No," He says. "I took the weekend off."
"Wow," Quinn says. "First weekend off in, what? Four years?"
Sam rolls his eyes at Quinn through the rear view mirror. "Not necessary, Q, but yes."
"Aw, did you do it for Rebecca? Jane asks.
"Jane." I shake my head.
"I did, yes," Sam smiles as he reaches for my hand. He intertwines his fingers through mine and rests our hands on his lap.
"Goals."
"How is that goals?" Quinn asks Jane.
"He's taking time off his job for the first time in four years! For his wife! Who also happens to be my sister sot that gives him extra points too!"
"She's his wife. It's his obligation to spend time with her." Quinn argues.
"Wow, thanks Q." I joke, making Sam laugh but they both just ignored me.
"So? People almost never do the things that are expected from them. So it's nice when they do, Jane says.
"Oh God." I murmur turning to look at Sam as Jane and Quinn begin to bicker in the backseat.
"Somehow we have children." Sam jokes making me laugh.
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We arrive late to the tour but it's not hard to find a group of people following around a guy who is walking backwards around the campus. There are about 15 of us which makes it hard to hear the student guide. We join the group without saying anything, almost as if we were afraid the tour guide student is going to call us out for being late.
"Don't even know why you signed up for this." Quinn tells Jane. "I could have given you a much better tour."
"Shh!" Jane hisses, looking amused, as she pretends to pay attention to the tour guide.
The group is mostly parents with their kids. They are all holding school maps and other papers. I look around. It feels nice to be back on campus. As Quinn said, there are so many good memories here. We follow the tour guide around as he keeps talking and pointing at buildings.
Sam holds my hand as we walk, reminding me of all the times he would walk me to class. It wasn't very often because he was also in school, but it was always nice when he took the time to do it. I'm really going to miss him. I also don't like the idea of leaving him alone with Penny. Not because I don't trust Sam.
It's Penny I don't trust. I can't forget the voice of authority she used when she spoke to me about Sam the other day. The tour guide stops outside a small campus store to give everyone a break.
"You want anythíng?" Sam asks me.
"Water, please."
"Anything for you," Sam says winking at me, making me smile. It's always funny and weird to see him act silly. He smiles before he follows Quinn into the store.
"So are you guys back together?" Jane asks as we sit on a bench outside.
I turn to look at her. "I guess so, yes." It's sort of hard to put a name to it. 'Getting back together' sounds like a teenage phrase considering Sam and I are adults who are married, but I guess that's what we're doing, We're getting back together or trying to, at least.
She nods slowly. "But we're still going back to Arizona, right? I'm happy for you and everything, but I don't want to move a month before school ends."
"Don't wory." I smile. We're not moving. I'm going to wait until after you leave to New York to come back to California. I'll need to quit my job and sell the house in the meantime."
"Oh, okay," She says then reaches for my hand and squeezes it. "I really am happy for you, Cedes. I'm glad you guys are working things out. Sam is a really good guy and I can tell he really loves you."
I smile, blushing a little. "I love him too...I never thanked you." I turn to look at her. "For calling him, I mean." It's crazy to think that if Jane wouldn't have called him that day and told him where we were, I wouldn't be "getting back together" with Sam right now. What a stubborn and selfish idiot I would have been to let him go. Though I doubt I would've thought of myself as that. Being around him and spending the night together with him has reminded me of what I gave up.
Jane smiles. "You're welcome."
I put my arm around her shoulders. "I'm going to miss you when you leave. Promise me you'll be careful."
"I'm not leaving tomorrow, you know."
"Still. Promise me you won't do drugs or sleep around with guys. Promise me you'll respect yourself and your body."
"OMG, Cedes, I swear." She laughs nervously. She looks around to see if anyone is listening to us but we're apart from the group.
I smile. "I know you don't want to talk about this but we have to. I know that keeping your virginity is up to you but I want you to promise you"ll be responsible-"
"Okay!" She says standing up. "I promise, just stop talking, please."
"What's going on?" Sam asks as he and Quinn come back from the store. The group is starting to get together again to continue the tour. I stand up and take the water from Damian.
"Nothing." Jane says quickly.
"Why don't we ditch this and go eat somewhere fancy?" Quinn suggests.
Jane nods. "Yeah, let's go. This school is not that impressive anyway."
Quinn takes a deep breath, as she pretends to be deeply offended. "I'll let that one pass,"
"Whatever." Jane laughs. "Let's go!" She says turning around.
Quinn and Jane begin to walk in front of us. I like the way Sam's hand searches for mine to hold as we walk. It's so natural, as if he had hever stopped doing it. It's ike we picked up right where we left off in our marriage. Before things turned bad. But the reality is that the last three years did happen and it feels like this is too good to be true.
"How long do you think it'll take for Jane's arm to heal?" I wonder as we walk.
Sam shrugs. "It depends on how fractured her arm is and how fast her body works to repair it. Normally, it takes around 2 to 3 months."
I nod slowly. "I hope it's healed by the time she goes to New York."
He squeezes my hand. "I'm sure it will."
I smile up at him. "If you say so, doctor."
"I do say so, Mrs. Evans." He smiles then looks at me as we continue to walk. "Tell me about your life in Arizona."
There's really nothing much to It to tell. "It's just work and taking care of Jane, not that she needs me as much as she used to."
He nods slowly. "Okay. Tell me about this Matt."
I gulp as I turn at him but he's looking straight ahead. "I don't really want to."
"I want to know," He says slowly. "Please."
I bite my lower lip as we walk in silence for a moment. We had walked way more than I thought. "Okay. I met him through my coworker about three months ago at her son's birthday party. He is a mortgage counselor at another bank. He is really nice and when he asked me out-I just went with it. I didn't really think about what I was doing."
Sam is silent for a moment. "And it's not serious?"
"No," I say quickły. "Weve only been on three dates in the past month. He has been really respectful and hasn't even tried to kiss me."I decide not to mention the kiss on the cheeks. They seemed innocent at the time...now, not so much.
Sam looks at me. I can tell he's glad to hear that. "You're not just saying that to make me feel better right?"
"I'm being honest," I say with a smile.
He grins. "And you'll talk to him as soon as you get to Arizona?"
"I promise I will."
He seems to relax a little. "Okay. Are you sure you need to go back?"
I laugh. "Yes, I don't want to do the same thing I did when I left California. I need to do things right."
He nods slowly. "I'll try to visit you."
I smile up at him. "That'll be nice."
We reach the parking lot and we stop walking. Sam leans down and presses his lips against mine.
"Gross! Can you guys not?" Quinn calls out from the car, making us laugh.
"And just for saying that" Sam says before he deepens the kiss.
Hey boo's yal miss me yet lol, anyways I hope you all enjoy this chapter, plz excuse any grammar errors that may occur.
And just a little heads up I know things being going smoothly with Sam and Mercedes and getting back on track buttttt DRAMA IS COMINGGG. So just be prepared.
I might give ya a missing chapter from when Jane hung out with Quinn to see what they got into. Mmmmm I'm still thinking tho.