Floating endlessly.
Not knowing who or even what he was.
Well besides "The Pilot"
He knew he wasn't more than that,
He wasn't more than this,
He was.
Wasn't stronger.
Despair settled in
It took him one second to register what he already knew,
this was never gonna end.
Ever
He heard it.
At this point, it was simply a whisper.
Oh no, plea2e not thiis agaiin…
Whispers of what maybe, had been the past...
And than her voice,
"Just surrender already, It's easier than fighting me. I don't want to hurt you."
It spoke of kindness and empathy, hiding the true malice underneath. The true malice she had never allowed him to see once sealed inside the helmblock.
2hut the fuck up!
He'd surrender his identity sweeps ago. WHY WAS SHE STILL ASKING? He knew he really meant nothing now. Just a husk someone was draining for power. He'd stopped fighting, so why was she still there?! He would have called out for help. But he knew it was fruitless. It always had been in the first place. Her Imperious Condescension had stripped his memories of anyone in his past when he'd gotten to close to killing everyone in the ship. Now, It was being taunted in front of him. Simple outlines of figures so familiar, yet right where his memory ended. or sometimes the smell of hope, (He still didn't know how the fuck it was possible, It filled him with such empty happiness. Whatever had caused such a smell was definitely long dead...) and…
….Voices….
Warm and kind, playful , everything it took for him to simply break down mentally crying.
Why. wHY WHY?!
He yearned to remember, to know these familiar face and whispers of the past.
Waiit….
He whispered back to them
Take me wiith you….
For a split second, It all comes back to him.
And he feels so alive, like he can breath.
And Then,
It All Goes To
NO! SSSSS
TTTTT 2TOP!
LET ME REMEMBER! AAAAA
TTTTT PLEASE!
Waiit IIIII
CCCCC
_ SYSTEM DETECTS INTRUDER IN HELMBLOCK
He stopped even looking forever ago. He knew what was next.
Election to the poor soul who probably was at the wrong place, at the wrong time…
"MITUNA!"
Who-
It's no one important…
Is that-
Shhh, It's no one-
For a simple moment,
Everything,
G
Comes back,
Vividly, Fluently,
He-
AGH!
Pain flooded through his body. He knew why this was. He'd gained some control and thus memories and of course it had to be yanked out from under him. What the hell did he think he was doin-
"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!"
He saw his own body shake his best friend off,
Waiit! No, Kankrii! Come back! II'm 2orry! I can't control what he does!
The 'he' that was in the conversation was, "The Helmsman." The crack in is psyche that had driven him to delusions, on more than one occasion. Sometimes…..
Sometimes…
He'd…
When he would (BE FORCED TO) destroy a planet…
He'd
L
A
U
G
H
A moment of pure euphoria,
He couldn't help it.
And when he would,
He cry afterword.
WHAT WAS HE BECOMING?!
I'm a monster
"It's what we are made to be"
You?
"Me?"
"US?"
OH, FUCK IT STILL HURT!
Huh?
Oh Gog, WAIIT KANKRII! PLEASE DON'T-
"I TOLD YOU TO LET ME TAKE CARE OF THIS!!"