Sweetie, I know when you are reading this you will be crying because you heard the news... Riley I could not stay any longer I was depressed, I could not help it so many things were happening to me I just wanted to be dead. Hey I guess this was the one thing that worked out for me... I'm sorry I had to go. I'm Sorry that I can't be there with you to help you through this time. I know everything is going to be okay you are going to be okay. Get Ranger Rick to help you, ask him out be the one to be there. Don't ever think this is your fault because it's not none of this is your fault it's no ones fault. I was depressed... and I could not just stop being depressed it was not a choice if I had a choice I would have chosen to be with you and we could have lived our dreams, I'm sorry I had to go but it was my time and I could not wait to get this life thing over with. Forget about me and live on with your life i'm not someone you should ruin your life for... just know I Love You!

~Love Maya

Riley read the note to Lucas Farkle and Zay once they heard that Maya was gone and how she was gone Lucas got up from his seat and walked out of the door Riley started to cry while Farkle and Zay help her trying really hard not to cry.

"Riley i'm sorry..." Zay started to talk but he knew if he talked he would eventually cry

"How could she have not told me that she was going through so much things." Riley had tears pouring down her face, her face was red and soaked with her tears

"I don't know why she did not tell us... Riley everything is going to be okay I promise..." Farkle just wanted to see Riley happy again he hated that she was like this he always wanted her to be the way she was when they first met her weird little goofy self.

Riley started to breathe normally she was starting to calm down "Let's go see Lucas." Riley said before everyone noded and stood up

"Lucas?" Riley knocked on his bedroom window with Zay and Farkle standing beside her on the fire escape "Are you in there?" Riley cuped her hands and looked through the glass his room was dark and she only could see some figures.

"Go Away Riley." Lucas said loud enough that Riley could hear but she could not hear how his voice was cracking and he was breaking down

Maya was the only person that held their group together no matter what happened Maya went on a trip for a month and Riley stopped talking to Lucas and Farkle and Zay because Maya was not there to bring them together like she always does "Lucas are you okay?" Farkle yelled from behind Riley Zay moved Riley and Farkle out of the way and opens up Lucas's window anyway

"Stop trying to push us away Lucas, I don't care if I see you upset I was crying just a little bit ago because Maya is gone it's okay to cry it's okay sometimes it's okay to cry." Zay sat next to Lucas on his bed while the rest of them climbed into the window "What are you looking at on your phone?" Zay questioned while clearly seeing he is looking at the camera roll

"Just some old videos and Pictures of Maya that we took..." Lucas's voice cracked so he stopped talking he did not want Riley to see him cry

Riley and Farkle go sit with Lucas as well and they all gather around to watch the video of their close friend

"GO RILEY!" Maya yelled from the bleachers at a cheer leading competition behind the camera you can hear Lucas laugh a little bit before pointing the camera at Riley and screaming for her.

There was a picture of Maya at the top of the bleachers looking at the sun set and the sun hit perfectly to where you could just see the outline of her body and her long blonde hair

"I miss her." Lucas turned off his phone and moves around to face the group "I knew what was going on in her life..." Riley opened her mouth at how Maya could tell Lucas but not her "She talked to me about Suicide I never actually thought she would kill herself... She asked me questions... I told her that everything was going to be okay... but I guess she did not believe me or did not want to believe me..."

Riley jumped and hugged Lucas "Thank you for trying to save my best friend." Lucas hugged her back

"I wish I was there to protect her..."

Latter on the news it said there was a Suicide from a 18 year old boy brown/blonde hair Green eyes he was originally from Texas he jumped off of a bridge and left something behind when he fell, It was a picture of him with another girl that committed Suicide months before she was 17 had long blonde hair and 5'1 Maybe they had a connection in each other that caused them to do this. His friends are devistated that they lost a close friend.

Sorry I know this was depressing I was just feeling depressed lately so I wrote what I felt... Hope you guys liked it :)