I just sat there trying to think of any excuse that wouldn't be lying I didn't want to be lying to her. If I'm honest I am going to need her throughout this whole journey. There was no to get out of this but maybe I could stall.

'Why would you think that.' I inquired looking out the window, Do not look at her eyes do not. Donut. hehe ok Riley focus.

'Because we are friends and I can read your mind. Also your pregnant. Shaboom I just blew your mind.' Maya proclaimed like she had just said that she found a leaf or something. I tilted my head clearly confused how she read my mind like damn. I know Zay
/didn't blab because I've been with him since the announcement. She wasn't at the drugstore or hotel. The restaurant was far away from New York and she had a doctors appointment how weird.

'Why would you think that am I getting fat or something.' I divulged trying to be oblivious. Maybe she didn't actually know she just like assumed or was joking oh my what if she was joking well fuck me twice and call me stupid. Actually don't fuck me
/I'm already pregnant.

'Well you know how I had that doctors appointment at Greenford hospital.' Maya spoke starting her story. Why does greenford hospital sound so familiar.

'So I'm sitting in the reception and suddenly I hear the receptionist say Riley Matthews age 18 OK. Obviously interested I kept listening and the next words were "for pregnancy ultrasound and all 5 tests were positive oh great" So I brush it off waiting
/for you to tell me then I realise you didn't tell me yet. So Zay called and I came.' Well hot dog hot dignity dog I did not see that coming fml'ing for sure. I released a sigh and went to my bathroom and showed her the five pregnancy tests I didn't
/miss the way her eyes light up as she saw them. The rest of her face stayed passive I could see a little bit of anger but I knew Maya. She wouldn't be gone for too long.

'My birthday night. Found out this morning. Planned on telling you after doctors appointment. Only Zay knows' I answered before she got the time to ask. Maybe we can read each others mind. She released a light smile before pulling me in for an abrupt
/hug. I fell into her embrace and rubbed her back slowly. I don't know if it was the magic of being in your best friends arms that sent your walls to come completely crashing down cause that's what I did. The hot tears fell down my face and I started
/sobbing into her shoulder.

'It's gonna be fine a Riley. You and Ranger Rick can get a job once you tell him. I totally support you not telling him by the way I mean he could react two different ways and we will just make sure everything is official.' Maya encouraged her smile lighting
/up the room. I just continued to sob into my best friends shoulder mumbling random phrases like "what am I gonna do" and "he's going to hate me". It wasn't until Maya abruptly stopped rubbing my back and I felt her heart beat speed up that I decided
/to look up with watery eyes to see none other then I quiet zay and a very confused, very mad Lucas friar.

I immediately blinked away the rest of the

tears and try rush to the bathroom but an arm like force hits my chest stopping me from going any further. He pulls me into his chest and I inhale his cologne. Just being in his chest just made me want to him everything. But instead, I choose to start
/sobbing again into his shoulder. I could hear the frantic movements of presumably Zay leading towards the window and I didn't know if they were uncomfortable or lathering up the entertainment. The latter seems more likely to me. Brightness overwhelms
/my eyes and I open them to see a pitiful Lucas friar staring right back.

'What did the doctor say I was worried about you' I squeak, I knew being worried about him wasn't a liable excuse for why I was crying considering I was laughing at him when it happened but it was worth a shot.

'Mild concussion princess. I know you were worried about me but that's not why you were sobbing.' He replies studying me face, the pity in his voice was prominent and it just made me mad. I know that when people feel bad for you most of the time it's
/because they care not because your weak but my brain likes to see the bad side of life. I search the lying files of my brain for anything that would be convincing enough and interest Lucas in discussion so he gets distracted. Maybe if I tell him the
/half truth he won't detect a lie and I'll get a little bit of worry away.

'I'm worried about our future. What if we don't work out. What if I get all a bit too much for you and you leave me. We are getting older and things will change and I don't know how to do this life thing without you at all. I don't want to lose you and
/I know I'm annoying and we will face bumps but what if that bump is too much and I really need you through that bump and you leave.' I truthfully say realising a long awaited breathe. I managed to leave out pregnant and replace it. Needless to say
/I am proud that I got that out and it will work as an excuse. I look over at Zay and Maya who are both smiling widely and giving me two thumbs up. Ahh I love them.

'Riley I don't plan on leaving you, I love you to damn much. And even if something got too much I like to consider myself a good guy and I would be there for you if you need ME. God forbid anything horrible happens to us Riley but I think together we
/can get through it because I love you too damn much to be without you.' Lucas' words hit right in the feels and my eyes sting from the inevitable tears about to fall. I hear a synchronised awe come from near the window and I laugh lightly before
/burying my head in his chest. I wish I could've told him but not yet.

'Lets go to bed shall we, you're tired in tired.'

'Aren't you supposed to not sleep after a concussion.'

'Well give me a bandana and call me a rebel cause I do what I want.'

Oh no the father of my baby is a bad boy

CHEESESOUFFLECHEESESOUFFLECHEESESOUFFLE

THE NEXT NIGHT XXX

Zay Maya and I all had our arms linked was we strolled into the doctors. It wasn't hard to get Lucas to leave, all we did was call Lucas' mum and tell her Lucas had concussion and mother mode kicked in making her send him right home for some attention
/the full day.

I sat down in the uncomfortable grey waiting room chairs. So you can spend a bucket load but you can't make the chairs a little more comfortable. I couldn't complain though because at least I knew that the money was going towards people's health.
I awkwardly

sat there twiddling with my thumbs. I couldn't bring myself to do anything but just sit there and wait. Once this was over it was certain. There was no maybe it was wrong. Maybe I'm just sick. No maybes just babies. Oh my that was funny I'm gonna
/say that once I get out. I am forcing Maya and Zay to stay in the waiting room.

After deep thought I realised Zay would faint and Maya would stress making me stressed and then the ultra sound machine would light on fire and we would be screaming Maya would be screaming, HARAMBE from heaven would be screaming. So after that not dramatic
/at all and completely realistic thought I decided to not let them come.

Maya and Zay were giving me inspirational and supportive thoughts and comments but they just went straight through my brain. What if I couldn't provide for my baby. What if it didn't like me. What if I wasn't a good enough mum. Now usually with these
/thoughts you try flip them to good ones but I couldn't. There were so many positive but in this deep dark time none of them came to mind. Being a mum is a dream of mine but I wanted to be ready. Life what did I do. I'm sorry.

I heard my name from across the room and I slowly stood up and sauntered over to the doctor. She seemed about 35 and she had really lovely glowing skin and her smile almost blinded me. I was worried I was gonna have a mean old grouch that would judge
/me. Maybe the universe heard me sorrows. Better yet maybe HARAMBE heard my sorrows.

The walk to the ultrasound room felt like forever but it was probably only 10 seconds. She directed me to sit down on the cool electronic chair thing, yeah you know what I mean. I watched her sit down push her glasses back and pick up her clipboard. The
/nurse scurried around in the back setting up the ultrasound stuff that I did not know anything about.

'So Riley Matthews nice to meet you. I am Abbie Freeford I will be with you through your whole journey long or short depending on today. For the young patients they Set young doctors so here's my number and call me with anything. Now I don't want to scare
/you but with your young age complications are higher risk so there will be more check ups and you'll have to be a little more careful. Not only that but we would like to drug you in the labour because your body is a little more fragile I guess. Anyway
/we will learn as we go and cross bridges when we are at them ok. If this is any help having a baby young might suck now but when you and your baby have such a close relationship when you're older and you still understand each other at 30 and 12 you
/will never want it any other way. This might be hard but it's nine months and if I do say so myself the end result is pretty worth it. Now onto the ultra sound.' I gave her a wide smile knowing I was going to like her and she got the weird remote?
/I don't know I'm going to call it that. I shivered a little from the gel and she laughed lightly, well if you know it's gonna happen why you not warm it up. She moved the remote around my stomach and looked at the monitor, which I refused to look
/at.

'So I assume you haven't told your partner? Are you guys close if you don't mind me asking.' She questioned still moving the remote around.

'We are very much in love and it's not a fling I'm assuming that's what you're asking haha. I'm just a little scared to tell him. I know he won't run for sure but I'm still scared. If I tell him it makes it real, this will be a thing. I don't know if
/we are ready.' I was pouring my heart out to a doctor and I didn't even know her. Oh what my life has become.

'That's understandable and is really helpful. Don't tell him too late though because you need him to support you ok. Plus soon it will be kind of obvious. Even if he needs a break for a little bit afterwards I have no doubt you have friends to support
/you through this.' She concluded now writing stuff on the clipboard. She had probably seen a lot of young mothers so I was going to take her advice on board. I had still yet to look at the monitor too scared of the result. I could tell what the result
/was by the glowing look on her face emphasised even more then before.

'Well I'm happy to announce you are 1 month pregnant. We measure from your last period and not conception. Your next ultra sound is in two weeks and I advise you tell him by then. My number is on the back don't hesitate to call even if it is just advice
/on how to tell him I've seen this stuff before.' She declared and I gave her a nod in agreement. I walked out into the hallway and Maya and Zay immediately stood up. I felt my eyes fill with water once again. I walked into a group hug.

We might not be ready for this baby but it is going to be so loved and have amazing auntys and uncles. It's going to nurtured and so spoiled and Lucas and I can do it I Believe in us.

The things that come from these terrible nights

A/n

I updated ugh. Thankyou for all the support I really appreciate it as I am really proud of my work on this.

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