Violated Chapter 16, a csi fanfic

Dreams Can Come True

Title: Dreams Can Come True

Author: MYBIGBLUEBOX

Series: C.S.I

Rating: T

Genre: angst/comfort

Spoilers: none

Characters: Gil Grissom, Sara Sidle

Disclaimer: God knows how many times you've all read these disclaimers but I'm going to say it all again just coz. I don't own these characters they are all property of channel 5, CBS productions and the writer.

Summary: Sara has some big new for Gil.

Dedications: To everyone who has reviewed this story through out it's course. Thank you so much you guys!

Warnings: very violent and a strong reference to rape. Bad language and despair. Explores the feelings of rape victims so please mind the rating, if you are affected by any of these subjects.

Note: The song used is Gabrielle's Dreams. Also if you don't remember Alice see chapter 5.

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Grissom's POV

They can come true, yeah
They can come true

I hold her hand as her name is called. I smell the harsh disinfectant in the air, I hate hospitals. She got so much worse last week, I'm frightened for her. The scan shows us nothing out of ordinary, there's out baby perfect, beautiful. I squeeze Sara's hand, she gives me a small smile. The nurse glances at the screen, I watch in dismay as her face contorts into a frown. Oh God, please, please there can't be anything wrong. She looks up at me, an unreadable expression across her face.

'Mr Grissom, are you in a very stable financial situation?' I stare at her dumbfounded, what has that got to do with anything?

'Yes, we're both on a steady income. When Sara goes on maternity leave she'll receive pay.' Sara glances over at me, worry etched into her face. The nurse smiles at us.

'Mr and Mrs Grissom, they may be a bit of a shock okay so I'm going to ask you to try and remain calm. Your expecting twins.' Our mouths fall open. Twins? I glance over at Sara, her hand covers her mouth. Doesn't she want this? She looks over at me.

'Oh Gil. Two babies, two babies!' She almost laughs out the words. I lean over and press a gentle kiss to her lips.

'The extra stress of another child is putting more pressure on your body and causing the extreme nausea your experiencing.' Sara glances over at her.

'But that's normal right?' The nurse gives her a reassuring smile.

'Perfectly, I have no doubt that in six months you'll have two healthy babies. Would you like to know the sex?'

'No, thank you.' We'd already talked about it, it's better as a surprise, what ever we get will be perfect.

The exam finishes and we leave the hospital, we walk home in the half light of the early December evening. Taking the night off work was probably the most sensible thing I've ever done, twins.

Move a step closer
You know that I want you
I can tell by your eyes
That you want me too
Just a question of time
I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine
I want you here forever

I make us a coffee when we get in, Sara moves to the fridge and tapes the scan of our children onto the door. I walk up behind her and wrap my arms around her. Her tummy is already slightly larger than usual. Sara runs a finger of the heads of our babies and leans back to place her head on my shoulder.

'We've got to think of some more names now.' I nuzzle her neck in reply. We drink our coffee and settle together on the sofa, Sara idly flicks through baby name books, and I wonder how I ever got so lucky.

Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings
Because they are true yeah

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Sara's POV

5 1/2 MONTHS LATER

I cannot believe how big I've got, how much room do they need in there? I finally took maternity leave last week. Gil has been pestering me for ages, he says eight and a half months along is way too close to the due date to be working. The case I was working was big for me, a rape. I knew I'd get one sooner or later, I begged Gil to let me have it, he only gave it to me when I said I wanted him to work with me. After a never ending stream of sleepless nights and frustrated tears we cracked the case and I could finally go home and just be a mom to be. I lay across the couch a hand resting on my stretched, swollen tummy. Soon I'll be able to hold my babies in my arms, I can't wait, I pull myself up with difficulty and move into what used to be the spare room. Two cots greet me, the walls painted a dim yellow, mobiles hang over the cribs. I lean on the doorframe and imagine my babies sleeping in the cribs, the walls covered in pictures of the four of us together.

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Grissom's POV

THREE WEEKS LATER

I'm woken from my dreams by a harsh gasp in my ear. I sit bolt upright and reach for my wife.

'Gil?' Her voice is strained, oh God maybe this is it.

'Gil, their coming' Panic and excitement rush through me, I freeze suddenly forgetting everything that I'm supposed to do. Sara squeezes my hand hard and gasps again in pain, bringing me out of my comatose state.

'Alright honey, take it easy okay. I'll get your bag ready and we'll get to the hospital, okay?' Sara can only nod in reply as another contraction rocks her. I grab as much stuff as I can in my panic, I sling the backpack over my shoulder and gently, slowly help Sara to her feet. The walk to the Tahoe is long and laborious, I help her into her seat and clamber in beside her. As I speed towards the nearest hospital I can't believe this is happening, my wife is about to give birth to my children.

I've seen you sometimes
On your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you
My hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side
And I feel so good
I've nothing to hide
Don't feel that I ever could

10 HOURS LATER

Her eyes dilate with every contraction so close together now. As each one washes over her I see each muscle tense and beads of sweat fall down her head. She doesn't want anything for the pain, I smile down on her admiringly, pride swimming through me. Her hand clasps mine tightly and I remember the first night I slept in the same bed as her, after the rape, holding tight to her hand. She groans deep in her throat and shifts forward on the bed. The midwife approaches us, checking everything over, she says Sara's doing fine and moves back to settle into a chair. Everything is so slow, peaceful, I never imagined it would be like this, I never imagined this moment would be mine.

1 HOUR LATER

She's fully dilated, tears of pain flow steadily down her face. She moans deep, the midwife has left her chair and comes to stand beside me. A particularly strong contraction sweeps over her, she panics, her breathing hard and fast. The midwife speaks to her slowly, gently.

'Sara... breathe Sara... slow... in...out... good girl, your babies will be here soon, in your arms.' I find comfort in her words, Sara relaxes back breathing in, out, in and out. A deep shiver runs up her spine, my hand on her forehead feels heat run over her. I lean down and whisper in her ear.

'Your so beautiful.' The midwife positions herself in front of Sara.

Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings
Because they are true yeah

'Okay Sara, your babies are ready, on your next contraction I want you to push for me okay honey.' Sara nods and strangled cry vibrates in her throat. Her heads falls into the cradle of my neck as I lean in behind her, head moving against my skin slick with sweat. My arm snakes around her shoulders, my hand feeling her hard, tight belly, the other still encased in hers. I feel the next contraction under my fingers, she pushes hard, groaning and whining in pain. The midwife looks up at us.

'I saw a little of the head that time, about two more should have us our first baby.'

Yet another contraction moves through her, she cries out, straining, pushing out our babies. She pants hard and deep. With one more frantic push she gives birth to our first child. Another young midwife appeared in the confusion and takes our child from the midwife and towels the infant dry. I turn my attention back to Sara, still in the throws of labour. She looks up at me and smiles wide, I lean down to hear her voice.

'One more Gil, baby.' She cries out again as another contraction comes and goes, I hold her steady in my arms. I hear the midwife.

'One more push Sara... one more.. I can see your baby... come on honey one last time... push your baby out now.' She pushes hard, crying, whining deep in her throat, as the little body stretches her she cries out one final time. Another shrill cry fills the air to match Sara and the baby's sibling. Sara rests against me, gasping. I crane to see my children. As they are passed to us, a girl and a boy, my eyes wet with tears. We sit together cradling our love and joy in our arms, tears falling. Our children at last here with us, at last.

I'm not making plans for tomorrow
Let's live for tonight
I know I want you baby
So hold me so tight
Put your arms around me
You make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear
That you're here to stay

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Sara's POV

'Gil' My voice sounds so small, serene, new. He looks up from our children.

'Yeah honey?'

'I was thinkin' I want to call our little girl Alice, after your sister.' I stare at her, she'd do that for me? I stand and take her in my arms, she sighs against me, I kiss the top of her head.

'Thank you.'

2 YEARS LATER

Our beautiful babes run around the apartment, their Daddy chasing them with a towel, bath time is always the best. Alice runs past me into the kitchen shrieking with delight, Nick clambers onto my lap and snuggles into my arms, reminding me of another man I know. We decided to name our little boy after Nick as we could only really stretch to three Godfathers, Warrick, Greg and Jim. Maybe three was too many but we have to make sure our babies have all the support they need, Catherine and Lindsey are Godmothers, much to their delight and take our kids out every Sunday for ice cream in the park near the lab. Gil stops near me to catch his breath. I look up at him.

'Your still one child short darling.' He throws me a dirty look, before marching into the kitchen, after a sires of squeals and muffled gasp of breath my husband emerges triumphant holding my child aloof like a trophy. I pass Nick to him, twins bathing together I laugh at the man that agreed to take on the task over unloading the dishwasher, easier my ass. I kiss him on the cheek and whisper in his ear:

'Have fun baby.' Earning myself another evil glare in my direction. I snuggle up on the couch and listen to the sounds of my family exist around me. I can't believe how lucky I am to have the love and support I do. To have the greatest blessing, a family of my own. Gil brings Alice and Nick out to kiss me goodnight, I whisper that I love them so much and allow my husband to take them away to bed. I lean over to the coffee table and pick up a picture of my family at the lab surrounded by the team, I'm in there surrounded by friends and family the way I always wanted my life to be. My husband slides down next to me on the couch and pulls me to him.

'What are you thinking?' I look up into his eyes, brown meets blue.

'That dreams really can come true.' We smile at each other and kiss lightly. Gil pulls me to my feet and takes me off to bed. I snuggle into his side, he places a kiss on my hair.

'I can't believe how far we've come since the first night you shared my bed.'

'I know, I love what we've done with our lives. Do you remember that you promised to stay with me?' I detach my head from his shoulder to make eye contact with him.

'Did you plan on making that a promise for life?' He keeps contact, honesty and love shining in his eyes.

'For life and beyond, forever honey.' I smile wide and settle back into his arms, ready to sleep, just like that first night. Except, this time life is so much better, this time my dreams have all come true.

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong
Dreams can come true

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Okay here you go, the end to my episode long saga. What do you think of my finale? Review me and let me know. Thanks to everyone who's reviewed this piece, this story would be nothing without, thank you so much for your criticism and support.