Chapter 14

A/N: *Waves..

Clarke's hand landed heavily on the dressing table near her bed. It took a few fumbling attempts to silence her alarm. Once that was done though she couldn't help but steal a few more minutes that she desperately needed. Clarke was never an early riser. And things hadn't changed much except the times she couldn't go to sleep or she woke up early only to find long, slender fingers holding her closer to them. Even though nothing overly intimate had happened with that certain someone, Clarke was happy with the cuddling. Each one of us dreams about finding a person, with whom you feel content just to be around with. A person that grounds you and at the same time makes you feel like you are flying, soaring into the sky. Clarke had dreamed about finding such a person, soul mate even, and hoped maybe that person would feel the same about her. She just hadn't anticipated it happening this early in her life. It was amazing and scary as well. The worry of would it last was always on back of her mind. Then she would just dream about forty years in the future. In those dreams everyone around her including herself would be tired, old, wrinkly versions of themselves, but never Lexa. Even her unconscious mind couldn't picture Lexa anything other than the perfection Clarke's eyes saw her to be. This morning Clarke was waking up to a similar dream of Lexa. The backdrop was weird to say the least. They were in a place surrounded by large trees, deep forest and green mountains. Lexa was a leader of some tribe and Clarke was a visitor the said tribe caught trespassing. In the dream, Lexa's face and body was covered in paint and tattoos. Clarke was about to caress and explore these tattoos when the damn alarm made it's presence known by ringing loudly. As Clarke silenced it, she tried going back to this weird dream which was a totally new addition to her usual fantasies. Closing her eyelids tightly didn't help as the dream was gone. All she could remember was Lexa's green eyes but this time, green eyes with a heavy black eyeliner, making their color even more prominent. She sighed and got up slowly. As she rubbed her eyes, she wondered if she could convince Lexa to put on a costume and makeup like that. She laughed out loud as she imagined Lexa's response and the eye-roll.

Clarke was brushing her teeth and simultaneously texting Lexa good morning and asking if she had plans or can they have a breakfast together. She put her phone down and went to take a shower, dreaming about Lexa and shower. Yes, Lexa was in every situation and scenario. Clarke just couldn't help it. About an hour later, Clarke and her room both looked quite presentable. She checked her phone and there was no reply from Lexa.

"She must be busy with something" . Clarke thought to herself. She then sent a text to both Octavia and Raven. Seeing if they could join her. Raven wasn't in her room snoring like usual. Clarke didn't expect a reply from Raven, but at least O would reply back. But to her luck, apparently everyone was busy. She decided to skip[ the breakfast, read some notes and carry on with her classes. At lunch time, she was sitting at their usual table when a body landed on seat opposite to her. Raven looked like she just woke up and going through a massive hangover. Raven closed her eyes and rested her head on the table. Clarke ran a hand through Raven's hair. With calm and comforting voice, she asked Raven, "How bad is it?"

Raven responded with a grunt.

"Raven?"

"Pretty bad." raven almost whispered.

"Drinking only helps you forget for a short time Raven."

"Not if I keep drinking".

Clarke rolled her eyes. She tugged on Raven's shoulder and made her look up. "she hasn't talked to you since the kiss?"

Raven shook her head.

"Just give her time. Okay? I know you love her and she does too." Clarke smiled as she said.

"You think she does?" Raven sounded like a child with hope.

Clarke laughed and nodded.

"Just stop scaring her and yelling. All that yelling. You know I would've gotten a better score at the test last week if there was no yelling across my room?" Clarke nodded and looked at Raven.

Raven laughed for the first time that morning,"yeah right Clarke, blame it on that. You would've gotten better scores if your tongue wasn't always in Lexa's mouth and you studied for a change."

"Oh shut up."

"Speaking of the devil, where is she now?"

"Busy with something I guess". Clarke's face visibly dropped as she said this.

Raven laughed."Awww… look at Clarke. All smitten and missing her girlfriend. Can you survive today without her?"

Clarke sighed. "I guess I can try."

Raven showed mock sympathy as she patted Clarke on the head. Clarke shrugged and swatted her hand back. The lunch went smoothly as usual after that.

2 days later..

Clarke was pacing in her room and Raven was watching her.

Clarke you should sit down. Clarke shook her head.

"This isn't like her Raven." Clarke rubbed her head. Raven got up and practically grabbed Clarke and made her sit down.

"How many times have you called now?"

"A few hundred I guess. She wasn't picking up yesterday and now her phone is switched off. I sent her countless texts too."

"Maybe give her some time to sort whatever that came up? She hasn't been in her room according to O. Something important must have come up Clarke."

"What was so important that she couldn't talk to me or just leave a message for god's sake."

"You are acting like you are married Clarke."

There was one pointy glare thrown at Raven and Raven backed down immediately.

"All I am saying is give her benefit of the doubt. Oh and have you called her sister or friend or whoever she was? What was her name?" Raven rubbed her neck.

"Anya. And yes I have tried calling her, She is unreachable too."

"She is a cop right?"

"Yeah."

"Okay, grab your stuff and let's go to the precinct"

Clarke nodded and quickly got ready.

After an hour so, they both exited the precinct, Clarke was angry.

"What the hell is a personal leave? Why Anya needed one now Raven?"

"Calm down Clarke."

"I don't know how to raven. I have … I have this feeling that something..."

"Stop Clarke. It's not going to help."

Clarke bit her bottom lip and stopped herself from saying something horrible.

"What do we do now?"

"You are going back to our room and taking a nap."

"Oh I am not going to.."

"Clarke. You need some rest. I will take O with me and ask few others to see if anyone has seen her."

Clarke sighed and nodded. "But if you hear.."

"I will call you Clarke. Okay? Now go.. Come on..."

Clarke had to pull her legs and body deliberately in her room's direction. Either didn't have any intention to move.

3 days later…

"I am going to kill her Raven." Clarke's eyes were all red and puffy. She was laying down on her bed, hugging her pillow.

Even the calm and usually carefree Raven looked shaken. She was being strong for Clarke though. She knew Clarke needed that badly.

"I am guessing she joined some trekking group or something last minute and she is now on top of some mountain, where there is no cell coverage." Even Raven knew how ridiculous that sounded, but she was barely keeping it together herself.

She was expecting a glare from Clarke but Clarke just accepted it and nodded. And then Raven knew how bad it was hurting Clarke. She was accepting anything to give herself a little hope. Raven moved towards Clarke quickly and hugged her tightly.

"Don't worry Clarke. And I am going to kill her before you do, for making you cry." Raven's voice was ferocious.

"Clarke nodded in the embrace and couldn't help but let go. Her chest heaved as she let go of everything she was holding back in.

Raven held her tightly and caressed her back, saying every other minute that everything was going to be okay.

They both really hoped everything was okay.

A/N 2: Things might get even more difficult. Just hold on. :)

- FringedOrchid