The apartment was quiet. Too quiet. Normally Lauren would appreciate the silence. In her opinion it's the perfect way to work. She was proficient in quietness. But this silence felt like it was suffocating her, sucking the life out of her soul. She wanted to go after Bo. She did, but she knew that it would be pointless, they had to face their own emotions about what had happened in the last few hours. Hearing that Bo wanted to have kids made her heart jump. She never knew Bo's stand when it came to having a family and never asked. She always thought when they were ready, when she was ready they could sit down and talk about it.
Her tears had dried up a long time ago, she sat on the couch with her elbows on her knees while her hands held her face. Her mind kept traveling to the world of what if's. What if Bo was pregnant? What if it really was her child? What if because of this one fail, Bo would never want to have kids? It started to make her feel sick. She didn't believe in "What if's." She has always been a woman of science and facts. She believed in what she saw based on experiments and evidence or what she saw with her own eyes. But if she really thought about it, she just didn't want to set herself up for failure. She'd rather pull away, than let a person she loved, choose someone else over her. It has always been her defense mechanism. And it has hurt her and Bo time and time again.
With that last thought she looked up, she would fix this. She wasn't the type to repeat her mistakes - she learned from them. But she had already made this one twice, and she'd be damned if she made it again. She vowed she would stand by Bo through everything they encountered. She was not going to walk away. She looked at the clock on the wall and it read 3:15 a.m. She got up from the couch and went to the center island to grab her phone.
Picking it up, she sent a quick text to Kenzi: Is she with you?
The response was immediate: Yea, what the hell happened, Doc? She's been crying since she got her over an hour ago, she just went to bathroom.
Lauren sighed, while pinching the bridge of her nose. She wanted to tell Kenzi, she is Bo's best friend and could help her heal, but the question is, if she should let Bo tell her or not.
She quickly typed out the last text: Ask her. Get her to tell you, Kenzi. And if you can, tell her I love her and that I'll be there when she's ready.
With that last text, she locked her phone and ran upstairs. When she walked back down, she wore a light t-shirt, sport shorts, and her running shoes. She needed a run to organize her thoughts. Once she made her way outside, she felt the cold crisp air on her face, she quickly slipped in her earbuds in and hit play. As the music started to flow she picked up a light jog, regulating her heart rate, and focusing on her breathing. When she felt warmed up, she broke into a run keeping her pace steady: not too fast or slow. And her mind started to clear.
Kenzi knew something big definitely happened from the Doc's last text. They were friends, but their main connection to each other was Bo. After several years, they've finally learned to accept their places in Bo's life. Kenzi as Bo's best friend, and Lauren as her lover. It made things much more civil and they both knew it pleased Bo to have them both in her life.
As Bo walked out of the bathroom, Kenzi could tell that she had tried to wash away the tears that she had been previously crying. But Bo's eyes were bloodshot, and puffy. She couldn't hide it no matter how hard she tried. It hurt to see her brave friend broken down. It just wasn't something seen on a daily basis.
"So," Kenzi said, deciding to just jump right in, "You going to tell me why you stopped by and cried your eyes out on my couch for an hour or are we going to just ignore the whole situation?"
Bo slowly lowered herself onto the couch, turning herself towards her best friend. She didn't really want to talk about it but at the same time she desperately needed to get it out of her system. It kept gnawing at her heart, causing her pain.
"You know how my last test results came back and how Lauren wasn't quite sure why they came back weird," when she got a nod from Kenzi so she continued, "Well, we went to see Trick and he thought that I might have been pregnant."
"Are you?" Kenzi asked quickly, with a hint of excitement in her voice.
"No," Bo sighed, trying to fight back her tears, "Lauren had told me before I came here. I just – I worked myself up, and I got so excited about having a family with her that I forgot to think that Trick could have called it wrong. And then I walked out on her…"
"The Doc texted me," Bo looked up quickly at this comment, "She wanted to make sure that you were here with me, and she said to tell you that she loves you and she'll be there when you're ready."
"Why did I walk out on her, Kenz?" Bo whispered, "She lost something too… I should have stayed…"
"Bo," Kenzi waited until Bo made eye contact, "She understands, she wasn't angry or aggravated, she was just worried about your safety."
"What did she do, call you?"
"No," Kenzi said with a slight smirk on her face, "I'm just really, really good at reading texts."
They both laughed at this. Over the years, they've all become a crazy, dysfunctional, but lovable family. It helped to know that you have people in your corner. People that would drop everything to help you out. When their laughter died down, Bo raised herself to her feet, and Kenzi followed.
"I should go home," Bo said, while giving a hug to Kenzi, "I want to be there when she gets back."
"Where could she possibly go, at," Kenzi quickly moved some pillows around trying to find her phone, when she got it she clicked the home button lighting up the screen, "4:30 in the morning."
Bo smiled at her friend's antics, "To see her best friend."
"Oh, yea, our good old wolf, can you still believe that those two became friends?"
"It depends on the day," Bo said with a little laugh, "Well, I'm going to go, thanks for the talk."
"Anytime, my friend, anytime."
And with those last parting words Bo made her way outside, climbing into her car, she started the engine and drove back towards her home.
When Lauren got to her destination her heart rate was up, her breathing unregulated, and her legs burned. But she welcomed all of it. After knocking a couple of times on the door, she took a step back. Moments later the door opened.
"Lauren?" Dyson asked with questioning eyes. What the hell was his friend doing on his door step at 4:45 in the morning.
"Hey, mind if I come in?"
Instead of responding, he just opened the door wider granting access. He closed the door after her, walking towards the fridge, he grabbed her a bottle of water. She gave him a thankful look, before opening the bottle.
"Is Bo okay?" He asked.
"Yes, no, maybe. She went to Kenzi's."
The wolf nodded his head but didn't say anything. Lauren would normally run to his place (literally run), after a fight with Bo or a disagreement. But this time he didn't see anger on her face, he just saw sadness.
"We went to see Trick about Bo's last test results. He thought she might have been pregnant. I ran the test; it came back negative. I didn't know how to feel, I was kind of in limbo until she came in talking about a baby, and how we were going to be mothers." Lauren took a deep breath, as tears started trickling down her face, "I couldn't get her to stop, Dyson. She just kept going, and then I told her. I swear I could hear a wall slam into place in her mind. I wanted to say something to get her to stay but she just walked out."
Looking into her friend's eyes, Lauren saw an understanding sadness in them. He wrapped an arm around her leading them toward the couch. They just sat there in stillness, thinking.
"Want me drive you back home?"
Lauren looked up meeting still blue eyes. She shook her head before responding.
"Can I take a shower first?"
He let out a deep chuckle before nodding his head, "Take your time."
"Thank you, Dyson."
"Any time."
Their friendship has always been a one of quiet understanding. One would spill their guts, while the other sat there quietly listening. And it worked perfectly. They've always liked solving their problems on their own but it felt food to rant about it with someone.
After, a long hot shower, Lauren emerged with wet hair, and a clean pair of clothes on. She always kept a set here for after her runs. When he saw her, Dyson stood up.
"Ready?"
Lauren nodded, and they made their way out of the loft.
When Lauren walked into her and Bo's apartment, her eyes immediately fell on Bo. She was sitting on the couch sleeping. There was a peace there that Lauren loved to see. No sadness, no aguish, no loss. After locking the door behind her she walked to the couch, sitting down beside her girlfriend. She wiped a piece of hair off Bo's face, slightly caressing Bo's cheek while she did it. When Bo didn't stir she placed a light kiss on her lips. Seeing Bo's brow furrow, she gave a smile.
"Come on, Love, wake up, let's get you to bed."
"Lauren?" Bo mumbled.
"It's me, come on. Let's get you upstairs and into bed. It's been a long day."
Nodding slightly, Bo raised herself upon tired legs. Lauren wrapped her arm around her succubus' waist to steady her. When they made it up to the second floor, Lauren sat Bo on the side of the bed. She took off her shoes, jeans, and shirt. Leaving her in her bra and underwear. Pushing on Bo's shoulder, she laid back as Lauren pulled the sheet and comforter over Bo.
"I love you." Lauren whispered to an already sleeping brunette. "We'll talk tomorrow."
When she looked to the clock it read, six o'clock. She sighed, but wasn't surprised at all. It had been a crazy twenty-four hours and she was absolutely exhausted. Stripping down, Lauren climbed into bed in the same attire as Bo. She molded herself against Bo's back, slipping an arm around her waist. Bo responded, leaning back into Lauren. It only took a couple of minutes before Lauren followed Bo into the land of dreams.
They were both home, and that's all that mattered. The rest they could figure out later. And they would. There was no way either of them would let this day pass without discussing it. But they loved each other, and both came back. They were home. Together they could get through anything, and that's exactly how they planned on getting through this.
A/N: Wow! Thank you guys so much for the reviews, follows, and favorites! I'm absolutely thrilled that y'all are enjoying the story! So I know some of you were disappointed that I didn't go with the pregnancy route, but I wanted to give you all something a little different. I will tell you that I want them to be parents, I think it would be really fun to write a crazy little BoLo family. But we have to get through this thing with Bo first. If you thought this chapter was a little slow I apologize, I've been trying to set up this story and next chapter things should start coming together. Please review! I really do take your comments into consideration while I'm writing!