Chapter 16

"So I thought we could head to Belltown and walk for a bit," Edward breaks the silence and pulls me from my thoughts.

"Belltown? I don't think I've ever been there," I question. Of course I haven't been much of anywhere since I moved.

"Well we can get to the Space Needle from there and Sculpture Park as well. It's a lovely place. There are some really nice places to eat," he explains.

"Edward, I really don't care where we go as long as I can hold your hand and enjoy your company," I say honestly. I feel like we spend so much of our time together dealing with all the stuff that comes with loving Natalie that we have barely scratched the surface of who we are as individuals.

"Well this will be perfect for that!" He assures me. "So are you ready to move into your new house?"

"Not even close. I mean I am more than ready to get out of that hotel but I do not want to have to go back to the apartment building with Natalie."

"Why does she need to go? I'm sure Alice would be happy to keep her while we move you and her out of there," he says, because he seems to always have the right answer.

"True. I just hate to impose. Maybe I can ask Alice to help out at the new house so Natalie can feel like she is helping. I want her to know it is her home too."

"Ok so when do you want to do this? I know you had only been in your apartment for a little bit when all this happened."

"Soon. School starts in two weeks. I have to be there before then to get her settled in. I will talk to Alice about it tomorrow," I say.

"Sounds good. I asked for the next two weekends off so I won't be able to help much during the week but I can do whatever you need when I'm off," he says, winking at me.

That little wink held so much promise. Promise of what I had tried not to focus on. Promise of fulfilling a need we both were trying so hard to ignore.

Suddenly I was less interested in the sights of Seattle or food. I didn't want to rush into anything but here we were a month into our relationship and aside from some amazing kisses and one very intense make out session we had not explored anything physical. I could feel my cheeks flush at the memory of the towel incident.

"What'cha thinking about?" he asks.

"You," I answer looking over to him. He swallows hard and I watch his Adam's apple bob. I want so badly to lick it.

"Edward, would you think less of me if I said, let's forget about Belltown and go to your apartment?" I asked, taking a chance.

He didn't answer me just started looking for a place to turn the car around. I started laughing. He was trying not to laugh but I couldn't stop. I hadn't laughed so hard in so long.

I was laughing at my boldness, my neediness. I couldn't help it. The whole reason for going out was to get to know each other but truth be told, we had spent weeks talking about all the stuff you talk about on first and second dates. We were basically sharing a child and planning our future to include us as a family so why are we wasting time.

"I have no idea," Edward says and it takes me a moment to realize he is answering what I must have just said out loud.

"So we aren't rushing things?" I ask.

"Hell no! I would have taken you out for a night alone weeks ago under different circumstances. Since the day with the towel I haven't been able to stop envisioning you under me."

The heat in the car must have risen ten degrees at the thought of that idea.

"Edward?" I breathed out.

"Bella, I want you. If I were less of a gentleman we'd be pulling off the road for a quicky right now."

That sounded awesome but I needed time to savor him. Just then my stomach decided to growl. I prayed he hadn't noticed but that was a prayer not answered.

"Is that your stomach?" he asks, laughing.

"No?" I try.

"Ha, liar! How about we stop and get a bite to eat and then head to my place? I refuse to starve you, besides you will need your strength."

I shake my head, "I guess so. Chinese sound ok to you?"

He nods and the first place he sees is where he pulls in. We order and have a seat. While we are waiting we make small talk about stuff neither one of us cares about and the tension between us just grows. If it weren't for the constant chatter from my obnoxious stomach we wouldn't be here right now and that annoys me.

Then I think about what is about to happen.

Really think about it.

I am going to have sex with Edward.

Edward and I are going to have sex.

Sex? Not sex. More than sex?

Edward and I are going to make love?

Do I love him? I mean I care so much for him. I plan to try to build a future with him. I can't imagine my future without him. I don't want to imagine it without him.

Oh, my, gosh! I love him! I am completely, head over heels in love with him.

When I realize I am sitting there with my eyes wide and my mouth open, I realize that I have to say it.

"Edward, I…" I start. What if he isn't ready to hear it? What if he doesn't love me yet?

"Bella, honey are you okay?" he asks.

"Um, yeah. I'm fine."

"Are you sure? Your cheeks are flushed but the rest of your face is pale as a ghost."

"I just realized something and it has me a little flustered." I say hoping he will drop it.

"You know I do love you. I mean I thought you knew that by now," he says.

"What? Oh God, was I thinking out loud again?" I whine, wanting to die right then.

"Yes, and it was completely adorable. Don't worry only the end of your little inner freak out was audible."

So he only heard me worry about whether he loved me. He loves me?

"I love you. This isn't how I envisioned telling you but here we are and I am sure that I am completely in love with you."

"Bella, I have loved you from the moment you broke down at the hospital and I held you in my arms. I wouldn't have ever done that to someone I didn't know but I just felt like I had to. I couldn't explain it then but now I know without a doubt," he says looking in my eyes.

I stand up from my side of the booth and move to his side, he slides further into the seat and I sit close to him. I want to kiss him so badly but the restaurant is so crowded. So I just lean my head on his shoulder. We wait in calm silence for a few more minutes before our food arrives. The urgency is gone but the desire is greater. We eat and share some innocent touches. Once we are both done we are on our way.

The drive to Edward's apartment is quick and to my surprise my nerves haven't become a problem. I am calm and ready. Edward parks and helps me out of the car. As we walk to his building we hold hands. My heart is beating quickly. He lives on the first floor so we are at his door in no time. He kisses me softly before unlocking the door. No words need to be said.

Once inside, I step out of my shoes as he locks the door. When we are face to face we both smile.

"Are you nervous?" he asks. I shake my head.

"Are you?" I ask. He nods slightly. "Why?"

"Because you are so important to me. I have pictured this a dozen times but…" I cut him off by taking his hand and kissing the back of it.

"It will be perfect for us," I say, knowing that there is no other way for it to be.

He pulls me to him and kisses my lips. I want to rush and pull but the desire to savor him is greater than the need to make it happen.

As he kisses me his arms wrap around me and his hands glide down my hips to my ass. He squeezes me to him and because of his height I am lifted off the ground. I let him lift me up, wrapping my legs around his waist. When he breaks our kiss to see around me, I trail kisses down his neck. I nibble and suck lightly at the rough skin of his chin. We are now in his bedroom but I am too busy to look around.

I let my feet reach for the floor because right now I just want to get this t-shirt off of him. I tug at it but he seems to have the same idea because he is already pulling it off. His chest and abs are so well defined I have to press my fingers into the ridges. I drag my fingers over his stomach and he fidgets so I know I have found a ticklish spot. I smile. He steps out of his shoes while I step back to watch him. Before I know it I have backed my way to his bed. I decide that when we lay down, I am not getting up again so I reach for the hem of my dress to pull it over my head. As I lift it I watch his face. He watches every single inch that is exposed. I hear his breath catch when I pull it over my head. Before I can even drop it to the floor he is on me. His hands are everywhere at once and I am on fire.

I begin pulling at his shorts, fumbling to remove them. He finally helps me and we are now both in our underwear. I have a moment of clarity and ask him if he has protection.

"Yes, of course I do. I guess we should have talked about that," he says showing me the stash of condoms in a bedside drawer.

"Edward I am on the pill but I haven't been with anyone in so long."

"I haven't either," he says.

"Ok, so how about we use one this time and then we both go get tested soon?" I offer.

"Sounds like a plan."

I was afraid that I had ruined the mood but he didn't seem bothered at all. I step up onto the bed with my knee and he leans over me. We are crawling up the bed without even touching. He is just hovering over me and I am trying to situate myself in the middle. Once I am satisfied with how I am laying he drops his head and kisses me hard. I begin to feel his weight on me a little at a time. I want it all. I want to feel his full weight on me so I pull him down by moving my legs wider and wrapping them around him. He lets his body relax into me.

"I love you Bella," he says before kissing me again. I bring my hands up his back and hold on to him with all my might. I never want him to move, but then he starts to move his body as he kisses me and I let my grip loosen. The friction his small movements are creating is divine. My body seems to be electrified and my skin is tingling. His hands move in a circuit from my shoulders to my hips and back up. He grazes my breasts but never really stops to pay them any attention. I push against him so he will back up a bit. His kisses are amazing but I really need him to touch me. He pushes up on his arms, extending so his elbows lock. He is flushed and his lips swollen. He is beautiful. His eyes have a sexy droop to them that is just as adorable as it is sexy.

I run my fingers across his chest and lightly scratch his nipples with my fingernails. He sucks in a quick breath. "Oh, God, Bella that feels amazing," he whispers.

I wiggle down a bit and lean up to flick his left nipple with my tongue. I suck it into my mouth and he hisses. It makes me smile. I move my attention to the other side and get the same response. I kiss and lick my way back up to his neck and when I pull away he has his eyes closed. I bend my knees and press my heels into the bed so I can arch my back. With my back arched my stomach is pressed into his and I reach behind me to unclasp my bra. He seems frozen in place so I lay back down and start to slide the straps down my arms. As my breasts become visible he is jolted into action and he grabs the bra pulling it from me and tossing it aside. I watch his face as he takes me in. His right hand cupping me and his thumb grazing my nipple. Before I know it he has one hand on one breast and his mouth on the other. I am so sensitive by this point that every single touch of his tongue or fingers is sending shock waves of pleasure to my very soul. I am rocking against his lower abdomen. His hardness is pressed into the bed and that is not where I want it. I need to feel him. I pull his head up and scoot down so I am more aligned with him. I suck at the sensitive skin behind his ear and elicit a hiss from him.

"Edward I need to feel you," I whisper desperately in his ear. He presses his hips into mine and we begin a slow rhythm. He is panting in my ear and I have to keep myself from biting his shoulder. The pressure on my clit is bringing me close to climax and we haven't even gotten completely naked yet. I try to push him onto his back but he isn't budging so I have to ask him to roll over.

He complies and soon I am on my knees next to his prone body. I decide to remove his boxer briefs. He of course lets me. Once I have an unobstructed view of his cock I am in awe. He's not huge or anything but he is so perfect. Straight and thick. I take him in my hand, softly stroking the soft, smooth skin. He jerks a bit when I skim my thumb over the head making me smile. I set a slow, torturous pace and he seems to love it so I get confident and lean over to taste him. He stops me just as I am about to lick the head of him.

"Hey, you don't have to do that," he says.

"I want to, do you not want me to?" I ask.

"Well of course I do but how about we save that for next time? I really want to touch you and I think if I have to wait much longer to be inside of you, I may explode," he answers.

"Well you don't have to tell me twice!"

I scooted off the bed and started to slide my panties down my hips when he stood up and placed his hands on mine. "I wanted to do that," he pouts seductively. I almost giggle. He drops to his knees and slides his thumbs into the waistband, slowly pulling them down. He presses his forehead to my tummy so that I can feel his breath on my newly exposed skin. I am not completely bare but I am neatly trimmed and the feel of his hot breath on that bare skin is unlike any other feeling in the world. As I step out of my panties he trails kisses over my hip bones and down the crease of my thigh. He slides his hand up the inside of my leg. I open up a little more for him as he goes. His fingers find my folds and he gently slips them through the outer lips. I am so turned on that my knees nearly buckle when he brushes up against my clit. He notices and purposely brushes light touches to it over and over. I am about to combust. I know I am soaked and he seems to be thoroughly enjoying his ministrations.

"Edward, I'm so close. Please?" I beg. I don't know what exactly I am begging for just something. Some way to relieve this building pressure.

"What do you want?" he teases. Although I'm sure he is just as ready as I am.

"You! Now! Please!"

He slides a finger inside me. It is lovely but not enough. He moves in and out of me and the pressure just keeps building. I am going to come so fast. I hum at the sensation.

"Like that?" he asks.

"Yes, so much," I moan.

"Do you need more?"

"Yes."

He slides a second finger in and presses them against the front wall of my vagina. I can't stop the loud moan that bursts from me nor the way my knees buckle. I practically fall into his lap. I am contracting around his fingers. I can feel the way my arousal has covered his knuckles.

"Oh my god, Bella, you are so wet."

He pulls his fingers from me slowly and I moan at the loss.

"Edward, please. Make love to me. I can't wait any longer!"

He stands us both up and lifts me onto the bed in the same way we were before. I spread wide for him. He sits back on his heels and puts the condom on, never taking his eyes off mine. He does look down at my pussy before he moves towards me. He grips his cock in his hand and presses himself to my opening. He is still holding himself up so I can see everything. I am sitting up on my elbows so I watch as he stretches me and drop my head back when he has sheathed himself completely inside of me.

We both have to pause to adjust to the feeling. He tells me how tight I am around him and I squeeze him with my walls to punctuate that feeling for him. He leans over me onto his elbows so I lay back completely. I reach up and kiss him while I wrap my legs around him.

"I really need you to move," I say, while rocking my hips as much as I can with his weight on me.

"Well if I move I am afraid I will come too soon. We are going to have to take this kind of slow at first," he says, a hint of embarrassment on his face.

"Babe, roll over. I've got this!" I say hoping he won't mind me taking control.

He pulls out of me and rolls over. I settle myself over him and take him in slowly. "I don't think I will ever get enough of that feeling," I say.

I begin to rock my hips back and forth, never pulling myself off of him. He is still buried deep inside of me. The head of his cock is rubbing that spot inside that he found earlier. One I didn't know could make me feel like that. I move slowly so as not to end this too soon. He reaches for my breasts and tickles my hard as diamond nipples. My clit is rubbing against the short hair on his pelvis. The combination of sensations is almost overwhelming. I press my hands into his chest and pinch his nipples enough for him to arch into my hands as a reaction. I move faster but not up and down. This feels simply amazing. I can feel the pulsing inside again and know I will be coming any moment.

"Baby, I am going to come. Are you close again?" he asks.

"Yeah, so, so close!"

I push myself up so that I am using his chest for leverage. He grabs my hips, digging his fingers into them. He pushes and pulls me as I rock harder and harder. I am exploding around him. It is so intense that I stop moving. He presses himself up into me and shudders. I watch his face as he comes. He opens his mouth and his eyes have this laser focus on mine. Once we are no longer contracting, I am overwhelmingly worn out. I collapse on his chest.

Our hearts are beating wildly. We are breathing hard. The only sounds in the room are the deep panting breaths we are taking. We stay like that for a few minutes until he starts to get antsy under me.

"Do you want me to move?" I ask.

"No but I need you to. I have to take this thing off," he says.

We roll to the side as he slips out of me. He disappears to the bathroom and emerges with a wash cloth. I shake my head. He is really thoughtful. I am so sticky. I take the cloth and clean up as discreetly as I can. He slips is underwear back on. As I stand to do the same he watches me. I sort of feel weird getting dressed so soon but then I notice he isn't getting dressed, just covering up a little. He pulls me to the bed and we cuddle for a bit.

"Edward, that was, well frankly it was amazing."

"It was pretty awesome wasn't it?"

"How are we going to be able to see each other without wanting to do that again? I feel like I could stay connected to you and never get enough," I say.

"I don't know but I'm sure Natalie would like us to spend a little time with her so we will have that distraction," he jests.

"Oh gosh, Edward, what time is it? We have to go get her," I begin to panic.

"It's only ten. We have time," he assures me.

"Oh, good."

We lay there talking and lazily kissing. After what seems like a long time we start moving towards getting dressed. I am ready to go get my little girl. I miss her.

"I'll call and tell Alice we are on our way," he says.

I am brushing my hair with my fingers. "Okay. I'll be ready in a minute. Just need to…." I gesture to the bathroom. He smiles and nods.

This night couldn't have gone any better. I am blissfully happy.