Amanda's POV
I sit on the park bench as I watch Zara and Gil chase Frannie around as they play catch with her, it is a cool day for it being July but the hot sun still beats down on the back of my neck, I smile as I watch their joy from playing and I subconsciously put my hands on my stomach, I am not very far along and still haven't even managed to get myself to the doctors but the morning sickness and three positive pregnancy tests speak for themselves, I am most definitely pregnant. Ever since finding out things have been different but it's been a good different, I have felt especially closer the kids and that's why I volunteered to let Nick work and give his mom a day off by taking them out to go have lunch and get some fresh air, I took a personal day but it was well worth it and even gave us an opportunity to make myself a doctor appointment. I check my phone again for both the time and to see if Nick had called me at all, he was supposed to be meeting us here so we could go together but the appointment is soon and it seems to be cutting it close. "Amanda" Zara runs over to the bench and Gil stands with Frannie by his side still in the grass
"What is it sweetie?"
"Look what Frannie can do" she trows the tennis ball she has in her hand and Frannie jumps up and catches it in her mouth and Zara explodes in a fit of giggles and Gil and the dog run over to where we are. Frannie runs up to Zara and drops the ball at her feet, she pets her head and smiles "Good girl Frannie"
"Did you teach her that?"
"Me and Zara have been working on teaching her that all day" Gil smiles proudly as Nick comes running over to where we are.
"Sorry I'm late"
"Hi daddy" Zara smiles up at him "Look at what we taught Frannie to do" she trows the ball and Frannie goes chasing after it, catching it in her mouth just before it hits the ground, they both come running back and I watch how Nick is sharing the kids excitement.
"Wow that's really cool" I stand up and Nick brings me in for a kiss, I smile against his lips "You ready to go?"
"Yeah" I put Frannie on a leash and let Gil walk her to the car, Zara holds onto my hand and only lets go when we get to the car. We drive to Nick's moms house and the kids run in with the dog following close behind and we watch as they disappear inside, once they are inside Nick backs out and steps on the gas trying to make it to appointment without being late.
"Sorry again for being late"
"It's okay, I work there too, I know how you can easily get tied up" I laugh and lean my head back against the seat.
"We had another rape victim today, Benson and me are on the case" it had been around two weeks since I found out I was pregnant and yet everyday has been the same, another victim always comes forward, and it's our job to get justice for the victims and it's a job I take pride in, but sometimes we can tend to fall into a pattern of predictability, as awful as that sounds. I let myself think about all that I missed at work today and hate the feeling it gives me, just knowing that I will probably have take a couple of weeks off after the baby is born is already enough to make me feel restless, I love spending time with the kids but I just know I could be taking down criminals at the same moment, something that makes a huge difference.
"Do you have any leads so far? Even a suspect?"
"We think it might be connected to a string of rapes, the woman said she didn't recognize his face but he had the same MO that we have seen before"
"Hopefully catching the guy will help solve some cold cases too then"
"That's the plan" he looks away from the road for a split second to look over at me "How was your day?"
"I got to sleep in a little bit, then I took the kids to lunch and then the park, nothing exciting"
"That's good that you slept a little later, I know how restless you have been lately" he was right, I had fallen into a pattern of tossing and turning most of the night and after finally falling asleep only to be woken up in the early morning to puke my guts out, this baby might not be very big yet but I can already tell all kinds of trouble it will be, just like everyone else in my family. "And I'm sure you spending some time with them meant a lot to them" Today wasn't the first time I had spent some one on one time with either of the kids, I remember right after me and Nick became public with our relationship and telling his kids about it, he had invited Zara over and while he was finishing up on one of his cases I had hung out with Zara, just us girls. We just watched a movie but it was enough to start a real bond between us. After that she was beyond happy to invite me into their little family, Gil was also very opened to the idea of me dating his dad. All around it's been very easy to slip into the role of almost like a step mom to them.
"We all had fun today. I was happy to do it" I give him a smile and he takes one hand off the wheel to put it on my leg, he smiles back. He pulls into the parking lot of the doctors office and turns the engine off, we get out of the car and walk into the building. Nick goes to sit down in one of the chairs in the waiting room and I go over to the front desk to check in. "Hi, I'm Amanda Rollins and I'm here for an appointment"
"Okay, I just need you to fill out this form and I'll call you when the doctor is ready to see you" she gives me a warm smile and hands over a clipboard to me. I walk over to the empty seat next to Nick and sit down, I start to fill out the paperwork as Nick looks over my shoulder.
"Can I help you with something?" I laugh slightly as I continue to fill out the forms.
"No, I'm just watching you, that's all"
"Well that doesn't make it sound any less creepy" he laughs at my response.
"I know this must sound crazy to you but I'm actually excited about this"
"About me filling out forms?"
"No, about our baby" he puts his hand on my stomach and I put my hands over his, I can't ignore the feelings he still gives me in the pit of my stomach after years of being together. "I may have two other kids already but this is still so new to me, it's me getting to go through this with you"
"Nick stop it, your going to make me cry" another side effect of being pregnant, your emotions run wild. Lately I have seemed to be over emotional about everything, a characteristic that I have never seemed to possessed before this.
"Amanda Rollins" a nurse comes out and calls out my name, me and Nick both stand up simultaneously and follow her down the hall. She leads us into a room and tells me to sit down on the table, Nick sits down in a chair right next to me. "So what brings you in today?"
"I recently took a couple of pregnancy tests that came back positive, just wanted to make sure everything was going okay so far"
"Certainly, congratulations by the way"
"Thank you"
"Have you been having any nausea or dizziness?"
"Just mostly feeling very nauseous. Mostly in the morning, it usually seems to be over by lunch time"
"And when was the last time you engaged in sexual activity?" I can feel my face go red and I can see Nick trying to hide a laugh. He is doing his best to contain himself, for gods sake we work in sex crimes, we're usually the ones asking these deep and personal questions.
"Last week" I bite my lip to hide my own giggles, Nick's laugh can be so damn contagious.
"And your last period would have been?" I think in my head of the last time I got my period, a few months ago maybe? Had it really been that long since it's happened? How did I not notice it sooner?
"I want to say I missed it about twice now, so maybe two or three months" she writes this down on her clipboard and then smiles at me.
"I'll be right back with the doctor, we can get you a scan today" she smiles one last time and leaves us alone. As soon as shes gone Nick goes into a fit of laughter. I stand up and hit his arm to quiet him.
"You are so immature sometimes"
"I'm sorry, I couldn't help it. The look on your face was so priceless"
"You could have warned me that they were going to ask me that"
"I though you would have known, I mean sex is how you make a baby" he laughs and I do my best to give him my famous death glare.
"I know that, don't be stupid. You can't make fun of me, I'm the mother of your child now" he takes my hand and presses it up to his lips.
"I know"
"I'm really glad we didn't bring the kids along, they shouldn't need to know about their dad's sex life"
"Thank god we didn't" We talk for a little while, just anything to fill the time waiting. It seems like forever when the doctor and that same nurse finally walk into the room. I sit up from how I was previously waiting and shake the doctors hand, he shakes Nick's next.
"You two must be the Rollins'" I hide my laughter as I watch Nick explain our situation.
"Actually I'm Nick Amaro, her last name is Rollins. She's my girlfriend" the doctor looks to be well into his fifties, probably stuck in the ways that he learned growing up, where a man and a woman needed to be married before having a child. Wait until he hears about Nick's other two children from two other relationships.
"Well it's very nice to meet you two" he gives us both a smile and instructs me to lay back down on the table. "I'll need you to lift your shirt a little so I can see your stomach" the nurse steps behind me and brings in a machine that I didn't notice she had brought with her. The doctor takes some gel and squeezes the cold gel onto my stomach, I shiver at the contact of my skin. Nick stands up and holds onto my empty hand, the other is making sure my shirt doesn't get any of the gel on it. As the doctor is turning on the machine he takes an object that I can only explain looks like a microphone. "Is this your first child?"
"It's our fist child, not his though. He has two other children"
"Well they must be excited to get a new sibling"
"Extremely" Nick watches intently as the doctor takes the little microphone looking object and places it on my stomach, spreading the gel around. He watches as if this is the first time he has ever witnessed such an action. The room turns quiet as the tool moves all around my stomach, the doctor is looking at the screen trying to find the baby. I don't even realize I was holding my breath until I let it go as the room fills with the sound of a fast heartbeat.
"That would be your baby's heartbeat" I feel relief wash over me, I was waiting for something to go wrong, and now that it hasn't I can relax. He moves quickly trying to pinpoint the exact location where we can get the best view, I watch as the screen shows flashes of my insides, the baby's environment looks as if it's a swimming pool. Finally he is able to give us the best view. It looks like a little bean, not even the shape of a baby yet, and still I have fallen in love. I watch as it moves and I feel the urge to cry, there is life growing inside of me, a life me and Nick created together. I might have screwed up so many times in my life before but not this time, this time I did something good. I made something good. Soon the doctor freezes the image on the screen and wipes the gel off my stomach, it's gone just as it started. "You seem to be heading into your 12th week, meaning you are almost done with the first trimester"
"Okay"
"Your baby's heartbeat is strong, I want you to start taking some prenatal's as soon as possible and be back here for checkups"
"Okay, I'll have to work that around our hectic schedule but that will be possible"
"Would you like to get some sonogram pictures?"
"Yes, can we get three?"
"Of course" the nurse and doctor both walk out the door and leave me and Nick alone.
"Why did you want three?"
"One for us, one for everyone at work, and of course one for your mom. You know she would kill us if we didn't get her one" he laughs
"Your right"
"Of course I'm right"
"Zara is going to be really mad she missed this" I laugh this time and stand up, I let Nick wrap his arms around me and I feel safe, I feel comfortable. I feel the happiest I have ever been in my life.
Authors note-Hey guys! Sorry that this update took so long, but school has recently been a little hectic and I have not only been working on some of my own original stories but have had some personal things going on that I have been dealing through. First let's just talk about that SVU twist with Amanda being pregnant! Anyone is currently up to date with the show knows that the first episode of season 17 reviled there will be a little Rollins running around soon, sorry for spoilers if you haven't seen the episode. But honestly I am super excited and while Amanda has already denied it so many times it's so fucking obvious that Nick is her baby daddy and there will be an Amaro junior born, I'm telling you Amanda can deny it all she wants but I know that baby will come out tanned and looking just like Nick. Anyone who wan't to argue with me won't succeed in trying to convince me otherwise, I will die believing that it's Nick's child and that my shipped sailed and there is a Rollaro baby. Also I think it's pretty cool that right as I started writing this fanfic the fanfiction came to life in the form of pregnant Amanda. Anyway I hope you liked this chapter, if so please leave me a review and until next time-Izzy