Amanda's POV

I walk into the prescient with Nick following close behind, we got called in earlier than expected and were a little late because we had to drop Gil off with his mom. I almost run into Fin as we come inside and I look around for Olivia. "Where's Liv?"

"She is in her office"

"She isn't mad we are late right?"

"No, no. You guys are fine" I walk into Olivia's office and Nick and Fin follow

"Sorry we're late"

"We just had to drop Gil off"

"It's okay" I feel relieved and now that I can stop worrying about that I can focus on our latest case.

"So what's our new case about?"

"It's a molestation accusation, a mother said her daughter confided to her about her father molesting her. There isn't any evidence yet, the mother hasn't taken the daughter in to get checked out yet so there is still a possibility that a doctor could find something. The parents have recently been going through a pretty nasty divorce and this could just be the mothers attempt to get back at the father, we will know more once we interview both parents and the child"

"How old is the child?" I can't help but ask

"She's five"

"Where is the girl and her mother now?" Nick doesn't seem fazed by age, he is still asking questions and acting like the detective he is. I can't help but feel different this time, usually I can handle this but suddenly I feel like I'm going to be sick, and not from the morning sickness.

"They are in an interview room" Olivia looks over and she must notice the clammy expression I have on my face "Fin and Rollins why don't you go and interview the father and me and Nick will hang back and interview the girl and her mom"

"Are you sure? We could handle talking to the victim" I try and sound confident and calm, I can't let them think this pregnancy will somehow interfere with my ability to do my job. I place my hand on my now round yet still small baby bump and let that try and relax me a little.

"Fin, Nick, you two can talk to the dad while me and Amanda will talk to the victim" they leave and me and Olivia make our way into the interview room. Inside sits a little girl with her hair in a braid, she is wearing a summer dress and her mother is sitting next to her at the table. I sit down across from the little girl and Liv sits across from her mother. "Hi, I'm detective Benson and this is detective Rollins"

"Are you going to arrest him? Are you going to arrest that son of a bitch?" Already I can tell this mom is high strung, she could easily be doing this as a tactic to work in her favor during their divorce, it isn't something I would cross out yet. She seems very eager to have her husband locked away.

"Before anything can happen we are going to need to hear what happened"

"I already told you..."

"Not from you, from your daughter" I cut it, it might come off as rude but already this woman is seeming to piss me off. "Hi sweetie, what's your name?"

"I'm Molly, what's yours?"

"I'm Amanda" she already seems to understand and respond to questions pretty well for her young age, it may not seem like a lot but the judge always looks for more than just a child's ability to tell the truth when they get up there on that stand.

"Nice to meet you" she gives me a smile and then a look at her mom, wanting approval for being so well behaved and using manners. It's already a warning sigh that she is seeking for her mothers approval for the littlest things, it's hard at such a young age not to want to please your parents but if she will do anything to make her mother happy she might just tell a story for her, or remember one as best as she can.

"It's nice to meet you too" I give her a smile back and soon Liv jumps in asking her some basic questions that will eventually lead to her dad, then is when we will see what her reaction is to the direct question of what her daddy did to her.

"Has your daddy ever hurt you? Or touched you somewhere that made you uncomfortable?" she looks to her mother for either support or the answer that she wants her to say.

"Tell her about where your father touched you"

"If Molly could answer, it's best to hear it from her" the mother looks pissed at what Olivia is silently accusing her of, she keeps quiet though as Molly goes through what happened to her. As I sit there and listen I can feel my heart begin to break, I listen to this little girl describe details about things that shouldn't ever have happened to her, to anyone her age. I wrap my arms around my stomach as if I could protect my little baby that is growing inside me from the dangers of the outside world. Even if her mother has coached her to make these accusations it doesn't change the fact that this is actually happening right now, it makes me sick just thinking about. Special Victims is already hard enough, but the children are always the hardest. When she is done talking Olivia looks over at me, she looks concurred and excuses us from the room. I stand up and follow her out, she pulls me aside from the constant chaos that is our prescient "Are you okay Amanda?"

"Yeah, I'm fine"

"Are you sure? It is totally understandable if this is hard for you considering the pregnancy"

"I have handled this for years, I am completely fine" It would have been so easy to tell her, but I don't want to make her think that anything has changed in me, I won't let this pregnancy effect my job, I can't.

"Okay, I just know after I got Noah it seemed a little harder everyday, especially when it was a case about children, but if you need anything or to talk my door is always opened"

"Thanks" I give her a smile, I might not tell her but its nice to know that she wants to be there for me.

"So what do you think? Those details sounded pretty real but we can't know if the mother coached her in advanced"

"I wouldn't put it past her, she seemed pretty upset with the father before we even got into the molestation accusations. I think we should see what information we can get from Fin and Nick about the father and see if anything comes up during the doctors exam" We both walk back into the room and go back to the table and take our seats.

"So what are we going to do next?"

"The best thing to do is get Molly checked out by a doctor, see if there is any evidence"

"If there is does that mean you are going to arrest him?"

"Yes, and we will see where it goes from there"

"Will there be a trial?"

"We will have to see, these kinds of trials are difficult with younger children like your daughter but we are going to do everything we can. Now why don't we take her to the hospital, I can give you two a lift. Amanda why don't you stay here and wait for Fin and Nick to get back" I give her a smile of gratitude, I don't think I could bear to go to the hospital and hear what the doctor has to say. They all leave the room and I wait a few minutes before walking out myself, I go out into the break room and go to make myself a cup of coffee, it is then when I remember I am pregnant and can't actually drink coffee. I fish into my pockets for a couple of dollars and buy myself a soda, I have a headache anyway and I sit down to drink it. I can feel the tears falling and I don't even bother to wipe them away, how could I be getting this emotional over this job? I knew what I was getting into when I signed up for special victims, it's in the title, the sexual abuse of children are under that category. I hear footsteps coming and fearing that it's Nick I quickly wipe them away and act like I wasn't just crying. Luckily it is just Fin, he comes over and sits down next to me.

"Where's Nick?"

"He went to the hospital to catch up with Liv"

"Okay" I don't know what else to say, he might have not even seen me crying. If he had he isn't saying anything about it.

"It's okay to be upset about this, I know how hard these kinds of cases are"

"Do they ever make you think of your son?"

"All the time, I mean he isn't little anymore but he was once, knowing there are sickos like that out there, preying on their own children, everything about it is screwed up"

"It's always been hard, every case has been, but now that I'm a mom myself, I mean I am facing everything I need to protect this little baby from every single day"

"Children are always the hardest, I get what you mean"

"I just don't know how Nick dose it, stays so calm about all of this on a day to day basis. I mean he already has two kids and one on the way"

"Maybe this is his way of trying to keep things safer for his kids, he may try and stay calm but I know how much he worries"

"How?"

"He's a father, that's what we do. We are always worrying about our kids" I don't even have to thank Fin, he knows. This is the kind of relationship we have always had, I feel so comfortable around him, something I have never felt with Olivia. He was the first to know about Nick and I's relationship and I trust him with my life. I take one last sip of my soda and then throw the empty can away, I wipe my face one last time and then walk out, back to my job, back to protecting the innocent victims.