Disclaimer I don't own Naruto, If I did I would have given Hinata the original role as heroin she was originally meant to have.

NaruHina: Love you or Hate You Rewritten

Chapter 2: I'll Go No Matter What

Summary: After Hinata's confession, Naruto is still smitten with Sakura. Desperate for affection he decides to realise his desires by using Hinata. After she finds out due to a misunderstanding, she leaves heartbroken leaving the village and the man she loves behind. Years later Naruto, who's full of regret and despair rushes to find the love of his life and fix his mistake.

Naruto was walking to Tsunade office, his eyes were cold and lifeless, but for the first time in five years' determination was lit anew.

He was the door, he requested Baa-Chan to let him look for his Hime many times since that fateful day, but every time he was turned down.

But nothing will stop him this time he was a man on a mission, he was going to find his beloved no matter what he has to do.

Naruto walked right up ignoring the Chunin guards, he marched with purpose in his step and with a big push he slammed the door open. The loud bang caused the two occupants in the room to jump, surprised at the sudden intrusion.

The Godaime Hokage Tsunade Senju and her assistant Shizune looked at the intruder with surprise, it wasn't the first time he barged in after the event with Hinata, but he seemed more serious this time to the two. Both women were extremely disappointed in the boy they saw as family after what he did to Hinata, but they still kept a close bond with the boy, but their relationship just kept getting worse every time Tsunade refused his request to search for the missing his missing Hyuga.

"Hokage-Sama." The hero of Konoha spoke coldly, his voice had no warmth like it used to when he affectionately called her Baa-chan.

Tsunade's brown eyes, surveyed the boy she saw as her own son. He just stood there looking at her, with those piercing blue eyes of his, he wore a blank face not a trace of the once brilliant smile he once had.

Frowning at her son in all, but blood, she missed that adoring smile of his, since that day she hasn't seen the boy now a young man, smile once. But what unnerved her the most was his face, no matter how hard she looked, she couldn't see a trace of emotion. It was as if the man in front of her was already dead, his soul destroyed, only the emptiness he feels seems to show anymore, the cheerful boy they all knew was gone maybe for good.

'When will you return to your old self Naruto; you have to move on, it's what Hinata would want.' Whenever she saw the man in front of her a pang of guilt, regret and sadness filled her heart.

She looked over the attire he now sported for over the past few years, missing terrible his once orange tracksuit. Now he wore pure black clothes, the jacket had the same style of armourer built into as the ANBU uniform, but had several seals woven into it for weapons and scrolls. He had black pants on same as the ones issued for ANBU and fingerless metal hand guards like his sensei.

The only bit of colour he wore at all was the red spiral of his clan on the back.

This was only one of the many changes the boy she once knew went through, every time she saw the outfit she was reminded of the days she had him in her ANBU hopping to keep watch and the disaster that unfolded as he went on one suicide mission after the other.

'Maybe I made the wrong choice.' She thought, sapphire blue eyes met hazel brown, the two blond remembered the day when the boy transformed into the shell he is now.

Flashback

It was a rainy day, in the Konoha hospital there was a single bed, sheets and pillows of pure white. Put what was important was the person sleeping on the bed unmoving.

The teen lying on the bed he had bright blond hair spiky, whisker mark cheeks and slightly tanned skin.

The person's eye opened slowly as he released a groan, revealing twin bright blue orbs. He sat up slowly while one hand went up to his head rubbing, as he felt a slight heavy feeling as his body woke up.

"Man…what happened?" He questioned still groggy.

His blue orbs surveyed the room, taking in the plan room he was in and the infuriatingly recognises where he is. "Fuck! The hospital how did I end up here, I hate hospitals." He moaned, his body protesting when he tried to get up.

'It feels like I haven't moved for a while, how the hell did I even get here?' And then it hits him, memories of what happened to him flashed through his mind at light speed. Sakura forcing herself on him, Hinata seeing them, her…telling him she him and then her teared stained face.

'Oh Kami Hinata-Hime needs me! 'He jumped out of bed, ignoring the heaviness of his body practically sprinting to the door. 'Hinata-Hime, I'm sorry it wasn't what you thought.' He thought worriedly, in his mind all he could do was see her crying sending a wave of guilt and concern for his beloved.

'I HATE YOU NARUTO UZUMAKI! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!' Was shouted in his mind, his heart broke into at that he couldn't image a life without his Hime by his side.

Tears formed in his blue orbs, at her hate filled words, but also the pure pain and betrayal in her voice as she said it. Blinking away his tears, determination shone in his red eyes. 'Don't worry him, I'll get you back, I love you and only you, I yours now and forever and I know that you feel the same about me.'

With his mind set he opened the door, intending to head straight for the Hyuga compound. But as he went through he bumped into something getting knocked backed landing on the floor.

Glaring at whatever was obscuring his path, about to shout and ready to tear into the person pissed from being kept from his distraught Hime. However, when he saw that person was his Baa-chan he stopped. Calming himself down, he offered his Baa-chan a smile of endearment.

"Hi Baa-san, sorry I'm in a rush I need to find Hinata-Hime pronto!" With his quick apology, he got up attempting to go through the door expecting his Baa-chan to let him through.

He was surprised to see Tsunade made no effort to move, looking at her face to face he couldn't help the twinge of hurt when he saw her giving him a disappointed look.

As he stared into her hazel eyes, he could clearly make out the disappointment and sadness expressed in them, but worse of all he was wounded because the look and emotions behind them was obviously meant for him.

"Baa-chan what's wrong? If I did something wrong can it wait until later I need to find Hina…" He was cut off by a punch from Tsunade it wasn't anything new, but this one was weaker than usual.

"Baa-chan want was that for!" Naruto growled, his Baa-chan just kept looking at him with disappointment.

"Brat how could you do something like that to sweet Hinata!" The fifth Hokage growled out half heartily. She was well aware of how much the girl loved the boy in front of her and was truly help for the two when they got together. They deserved one another, but she was absolutely horrified and enraged when she was informed what he did to Hinata it was just…cruel and she wouldn't let it slid just because she loved the brat like her own.

Naruto tilting his head in confusion just looked at Tsunade for a second. "Baa-chan I didn't do anything to Hinata-Hime now let me through so I can look for her!" He growled/pleaded now wasn't the time to argue he need to find his Hime and tell her the truth.

Tsunade just screamed back in fury. "NO! You won't hurt that poor girl enough, I'm forbidding you from searching for her!" The blue eyed boy glared at his Baa-chan, he slowly walked up to her, once face to face he didn't back down from the death glare the Kage was giving him.

"Listen Baa-chan, I am going to look for my Hime and I will let nothing stop me. Now move out of the way before I make you." He demanded coldly. He was no longer treating as his Baa-chan and family, he could allow himself to go easy on her. Every second he wasted was another second his Hime was in pain.

Her hazel eyes locked on the boy not backing down despite his demand. You could clearly see the mothers love she held for the boy. But like all mothers, she couldn't let this slide, she had to put her foot down and discipline him when he did something wrong. "Naruto! You broke Hinata's heart and CHEATED ON HER WITH SAKURA! I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO HURT HER ANYMORE!"

Shizune who was in the corner of the room, turned her head away in shame for the boy she saw as a brother, she didn't believe it at first. Her Otouto was a kind and caring person, it was so hard to believe that he would do that until she saw the results of his actions first hand. "Naruto I agree with Tsunade-Sama you'll only hurt Hinata more…" She started, but she was cut off from a roar of rage.

"THAT'S NOT WHAT HAPPENED NOW LET ME SEE MY HIME!" His roar boomed through the hospital room, shocking the two women as a dark orange aura with traces of red started to form around him.

He took a step past Tsunade his chakra raising by the second, preparing to fight his way out if need be. He relieved when his Baa-chan and Nee-chan didn't try to stop him. But as soon as he was about to exit the room a brown and grey blur crashed.

Before the hero knew it, he was pinned to the floor being punched one after another. He could feel the pain from his nose telling him that whatever attacked him broke it. Was only after a few punches and bruises was Naruto able to react and see just who was punching him.

"HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO HINATA, YOU BASTARD I'LL KILL YOU!" Roared one Kiba Inuzuka, who just kept pounding away, his fists bloodied, with Naruto's blood. The boy he was punching was bruised and bleeding, but the Jinchuuriki just ignored it, punching the dog nin back, sending him into the wall.

"BACK THE FUCK OFF I NEED TO SEE HINATA-CHAN!" Naruto roared, eyes slitted and his red and orange aura grew strong as he drew upon more of his tenant's chakra to heal himself.

Kiba just glared back, his own eyes slitted held the intent to kill growling like an animal. "Over my dead body you hurt her enough already!" After what this boy did to his adopted Imouto he wasn't going to let him get away with it.

He readied his claws, his Ninken partner, barking his own enraged threat, planning to make the boy who tore their pack member away from them pay.

Before the fight got under way, Tsunade put a stop before the two boys could destroy the room further. "Kiba Inuzuka, Naruto Uzumaki STAND DOWN AT ONCE!"

Naruto was the only one to partly listen, putting his fist down and once again going to leave the room, his search for his Hime was delayed too much already. 'I have time to deal with these guys at the moment I need to find Hinata-Him.' His eyes gave a faraway look, filled with sadness and longing. 'Don't worry Hime I'm coming.'

However, the enraged dog nin had other plans as he charged with a roar. "HELL NO! BECAUSE OF HIM HINATA LEFT THE VILLAGE FOR GOOD!" At this declaration, Naruto froze, Kiba's latest attacked hit dead on. But the boy didn't even notice, not feeling it at all, his body numb at the revelation that his Hime was gone.

'Hina-Hime…left because of me.' Hinata loved the village with all her heart and knew she could never bring herself to leave it. But she did, all because she couldn't…stand to see him any more…his beloved despised him.

His blue eyes went hollow, as Kiba punched him again and again, Naruto didn't fight back, he no longer had the resolve to do it. The person he loved most was hurt because of him, she left, leaving her family and friends behind. He ruined her life, his Hime's last words to him came to mind and sent a wave of pure agony through his soul. 'I HATE YOU NARUTO UZUMAKI! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!'

'I'm sorry Hinata-Chan, I never meant for this to happen, I never meant to hurt you.' The hero of Konoha didn't feel any of the beating he took from Hinata's ex-teammate. Not the enraged boy's claws digging in and tearing at his skin, not Tsunade and Shizune trying to pry the boy off, not his blood seeping out along with his life.

He just laid there, eyes empty, ready to accept his death, his punishment for failing his Hime, that was until a booming voice roared through his head reminding him he still had things left to finish. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING! HURRY UP AND FIND YOUR MATE ALREADY OR ARE YOU JUST GOING TO LET HER KEEP HURTING BECAUSE YOU AREN'T WILLING TO FACE HER!" Kurama roared to his container, unlike the other fools in the room he knew the whole story.

At those words the fire returned, his Hime still needed him and he couldn't let her live thinking she was betrayed, that his love wasn't real. With a shout, he blasted his tenant's chakra, sending everyone back Kiba crashed into the wall being the closest to the epic centre of the blast.

Orange and red chakra of the Kyuubi Chakra Cloak glowed briefly before it went out. "I love Hinata-Chan! I'm not going to let anyone get in my way, in finding her and apologising!" He spoke with purpose, thanking his fox partner for knocking sense into him.

Kiba fell out of the wall, coughing blood, the blast causing internal injuries. He scowled at Naruto. "Like you give a fuck about her! We all know you cheated on her with that damn slut Sakura!" He snapped pissing Naruto off, but the boy ignored him not wasting anymore time.

Kiba coughed up more blood. "You know we thought it was strange that you suddenly started liking Hinata, but you were just using her to get into that slut's pants." Word spread quickly, due to the help of one pink haired girl who thought, Naruto would be all hers now that her rival for his affection was gone.

However, her version was that Naruto, truly loved her all along and that he only was with Hinata, because he didn't want to hurt her and couldn't ignore her confession of love during Pain's attack.

She staked her claim to Konoha hero, despite feeling bad for Hinata, her own needs came first and figured everyone would forgive her in time, after all Hinata wasn't one to hold grudges and would come back.

Snapping, Naruto told the dog nin. "I love Hinata-Chan! I admit my reason for getting with her at first were selfish, but I truly love her and am going to get her back!" Before he left however, Tsunade stopped him.

"Naruto, Hinata doesn't want to see you! I forbid you from going after her! ...You may not like it, but Hinata doesn't want anything to do with you. She left heart broken and just want to be as far away from you as possible." Tsunade spoke, the shy Hyuga got permission to leave, giving her the reason why.

Tsunade was shocked when Hinata told her Naruto was only using her to get Sakura and tried to get her talk with the boy before making her final choice. But the Hyuga refused, saying she couldn't face him, she couldn't take him telling her it was over, but also that he made it very clear that he didn't love her.

Tears welled up in his eyes at hearing what his Hime said, knowing that after what she herself last said it made sense. But he wasn't going to let it slide. "I'm sorry Baa-Chan, but I need to look for her and tell her what happened."

With those words Naruto finally was about to walk out the door, before he felt a blow to the back of his head. His body went limp and with what little strength he could muster, turning his neck he saw Tsunade crying as she knocked him out her hand glowing blue.

"I'm sorry Naruto, but I just can't let you go after her, you've done enough already, let Hinata move on and find peace." Her pleads was the final thing he heard as the world around him disappeared and he entered unconsciousness once more.

The boy was on the floor lifeless unmoving. "Was that necessary Tsunade-Sama?" Shizune asked, looking her Otouto condition. Her master served the boys spinal cord, in a way that the fox couldn't heal it properly on his own quickly and would need some of hers or Tsunade level to get him back on his feet. Until then he would be paralysed from the neck down.

Tsunade gave her assistant a frown, not pleased with her choice, but there was no other option. "I had no choice, he would of heal too quickly and went after her. At least this way Hinata will have a month or two head start." She told the brunette.

"Besides, if he left Hinata is guaranteed to come back…" She trailed off her silent thought finishing. 'Especially when she finds out about…" She didn't' finish her thought, instead turning to the other problem.

Turning a glare on Kiba. "Now Kiba, you are forbidden to go near Naruto again. I can't have my ninja killing each other!" The dog nin looked ready to argue, but she wasn't finished yet. "You know very well Hinata would never forgive you if she found out!" At that point the dog nin admitted defeat.

Naruto spent the next month in a medical coma and then another month under house arrest followed by him secluding himself at home for the next few months. During that time each of the Rookie nine had a piece of him, not knowing what truly happened. Since that day Naruto was never the same, Hinata's leaving destroyed him, even more when he was prevented from going after her.

End of Flashback

Both blonds came out of their recollection of the events, that time was the hardest thing Naruto ever went through. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't just hide his pain behind a smile like he always did.

Tsunade already knew what he wanted, but she couldn't allow him to go after Hinata. 'I'm sorry brat, but I just can't let you go. I know it hurts, but you'll only make things worse.' The Hokage, didn't want to let Naruto go after Hinata, she wanted to protect the young girl from any further heartbreak. She held on to the position of Hokage even though Kakashi face was on the monument and everyone already approved and started calling him Rokudaime.

But she knew the one eyed nin would side with his former student if he was put in charge so she held on to the detestable job. 'Maybe I should have just let you go when it first happened, at least then you could have moved on, without destroying the new life she most likely has now.'

She once again doubted her choice to prevent Naruto from going after the wayward Hyuga, she believed he would have let the girl go. Especially when he started dating her apprentice, but that never happened, she didn't know whether it was out of guilt, but Naruto and Sakura never went out despite what happened between the two.

She didn't like what they did, but she thought the two would have started a relationship after what happened. 'However, the brat seems to hold it against Sakura what happened.' She was slightly proud the boy understood what happened and refused to go back to Sakura.

But also caused a few problems, her decision to keep him here was besides on the assumption that what she heard he did with her apprentice was true. That he would move on with Sakura no matter how much it disgusted her and let Hinata live in peace and build her new life.

She knew without a shadow of a doubt Hinata would have come back if Naruto asked her to, whether he loved Sakura or not didn't matter. Hinata would come back because she just couldn't help herself from loving the knucklehead.

"Hokage-Sama, I'm leaving to go and look for Hinata-Chan." He stated, being the Hokage out of her daze. Tsunade missed the real messaged behind his words and signed.

"Naruto I told you just let her go, I'm sure she's happier now, I am not giving you permission." She closed her eyes, these talks always took a lot out of her and she was reaching her limit.

She could hear Naruto's footsteps as he approached her, expecting another argument to break out she waited.

Shizune watched in shock as Naruto lifted hand up to his head.

The footsteps finally and instead of the shouting she was prepared for all Tsunade heard was a clang of metal hitting wood.

Opening her eyes, she was shocked at what laid on her desk before her. What she was staring at was a black cloth with a piece of metal attached to it, with the Konoha symbol etched proudly on it.

The Hokage turned her now shaken gaze to the blond, who wild hair was now untamed due to the absence of his headband.

"It seems you didn't hear me right. I am not asking for permission I am going to look for my Hime whether you like it or not, I'm not letting you stop me anymore." His cold blue eyes burrow into her as he stated what he intended to do.

Both Shizune and Tsunade had tears in their eyes, knowing exactly what he meant. 'No, please no, he can't…' Tsunade thought her eyes frozen on the head protector in front of her.

"Naruto… y-you can't be serious… if you leave the village you'll be branded a rogue." She stuttered, not believing the boy would go this far.

"Then consider this my resignation, if you don't want them to brand me a rouge like you promised you would if I ever tried to look for Hinata without permission." His words were calm showing how serious he was, Tsunade was cursing herself for ever threating him with that. Her own words were coming back to haunt her.

She only used it to keep him in line he never thought he would take it this far. 'Damn kid you can't be serious are you really going to throw everything away for Hinata.' Tsunade was afraid, she kept Naruto away thinking it was for the best, but if Naruto was willing to go that far she was dead wrong and might have made the biggest mistake of her life by keeping them apart.

Shizune was having similar thoughts, she didn't think her Otouto would go this far, but she couldn't say he was wrong, she watched every attempt, Naruto made to try and convince them to let him look for Hinata. She saw how much he suffered, but didn't say anything blindly trusting her master. 'I can't believe you're willing to go this far…but it's not like we gave you a choice Otouto.'

"Naruto do you understand what you are saying? What about your dream? You do realise if you leave, you can never achieve it." The Hokage position wasn't something he could have if he left the village, especially if he left without permission. She would need to resign him so he's no longer under the villages authority or mark him as a rouge for abounding the village.

If Naruto left, his dream would be over because he would no longer be Konoha ninja.

When Tsunade asked him the question all she received was an icy glare. "Tsunade, do you honestly think I give a fuck? What's the point of becoming Hokage and achieving my dream if I'm all alone without the person I love by my side? I don't care if I never become Hokage, Hinata-Hime is more important to me, without her there everything else is meaningless!" He told her hatred lacing his voice, it was just as much to himself then the two women in the room. He should have ignored what they thought and followed his heart, he should have chased after Hinata right away even if it meant losing everything and becoming an enemy of the village.

It was empty without his Hime by his side, he needed her, she was the light of his life, nothing else mattered. When she left, he thought lot that it would just be better if he died. Punishment for what he did to Hinata, but he couldn't bring himself to take his own life, knowing that his friends, his family and most importantly his Hinata-Hime would all disapprove of it.

So instead he joined ANBU and rushed right into every suicidal mission, he could, but no matter how close he came, no matter how dangerous he completed every one and survived.

He was easily the strongest ninja in the world at age 17, only Kage level shinobi or geniuses that could out smart him with cunning and experience could beat him.

But his days in ANBU changed that, he became stronger and faster than he was, he gained the experienced he lacked and sharpened his mind. All these just helped stay alive and there were very few who could beat him in a straight up fight now on their own.

At his words Tsunade and Shizune were both shocked to their very core, they were crying. The revelation hitting them hard, they made the wrong choice. That in the end all they were doing was hurting the boy they saw as family.

Tsunade looked at the boy, no man that became like a son to her. Drowning in guilt, because she finally realised that she did the one thing she should have never done. She played a part in Naruto losing the woman he loved.

She should have seen his pain; she should have coincided when he started distancing himself cutting himself off from the rest of the village. He did exactly what she did when she lost Dan drowning in sorrows trying to do whatever he could to forget about the pain.

Her teary hazel eyes looked at the boy. "Alright, you have permission, gather a team together and bring back our wayward kunoichi." The Godaime Hokage conceded finally admitting…that she was wrong.

She looked back at the blond and more tears welled up, this time not tears of regret, guilt and sadness, but tears of happiness because for the first time in five years Naruto gave a true smile. Sure, it was still far from its usual room brightening self, but it was a start. As she looked into his now sparkling blue eyes, she once more saw the will of fire burning anew and could see the image old brat that she came to love once more returning.

'I should have given him the ok years ok' She cried. Smiling, happy to have the old Naruto back, even if he was still just a shell of his former self it was a start. But her thoughts darkened and guilt once more consumed her. 'But what if it's too late, it's been five years'

Her musing was broken as she once more heard the words she longed for. "Thanks Baa-chan I won't let you down!" Her fellow blond shouted, causing the women to cry more. He finally called her Baa-chan after all these years, she missed his term of endearment so much.

Naruto turned to leave, but before he could. "Naruto! Wait!" She held out the man's forgotten headband.

Naruto just smiled sadly at the piece of cloth and metal. "Keep it Baa-chan, I don't intend to come back until I have Hina-Hime by my side." Both women in the room were shocked by his statement and knew what it really meant.

'I'm not coming back without her, even if it means I have to leave the village for good, I'll refuse any orders to return until she's back safely.'

"N-Naruto…" She croaked, the remorse of her action felt like a knife was stabbing her heart every time he said something, that just proved that her choice in separating the two lovers was the wrong one. "I'm s-sorry…I shouldn't have stopped you from going all this time."

Her words were filled with shame, the young man could only smile slightly. Even after the part she played in keeping his Hime away, he still loved his Baa-chan to bits.

"Don't worry Baa-chan, I know you only just wanted to protect Hinata-Chan, just wait I'll be back with my Hime in no time flat." He boasted like old times, causing the women to smile back.

Head bowed Tsunade thanked the man for his forgiveness. "Thank you"

"Don't worry Baa-chan I don't blame you for keeping me away from her, I'm sure she was in a lot of pain. I-I… was afraid of facing her again… afraid that she would reject me, so I followed your orders and didn't go after her. Hoping she would end up living a happy life without me, but in the end. I was just running away and that's something Hinata-Hime would never approve of that." He admitted turning around with a smile.

"I won't run away anymore." He stated, before leaving to face his past and get his beloved Hime back once more.

Tsunade looked up once more, tears still coming down her face. 'You don't understand Naruto, Hinata wasn't the only one I kept from you…I'm so sorry because of my choice, I hurt all those you cherished most and may have thrown away your only chance to truly be happy.' She cried once more, the consequences of her decision and action crushing her. She could only hope that everything will be alright, that Naruto came back and with the love of his life where she belonged once more.

Author's Note: I kind of cut the chapter short than what I planned, but it was the perfect place for a cliff hanger and I had no idea how long the chapter would become if I put everything else I wanted to in it. Also uni is keeping me really busy, it took me a week to get this done and I only got the chance to work on it a few hours.

The changes made from the original are that in the first Naruto left a year later, which then changed into five years the next chapter making it seem like Naruto has been looking for Hinata for five years when he just left.

He left after he overheard Kiba and Shino arguing with Tsunade to let them go and find Hinata. He then barged in requesting that he joins them.

I decided to make it so Naruto decided to leave of his own free will and that he didn't need someone to finally get him to go after Hinata. I also showed how serious he was and why he didn't leave sooner, by having him willingly give up everything else for his love.

Along with showing what happened immediately after the events and him getting into a fight with Kiba and why Tsunade was so adamant about not letting him go after her and describing a few of the changes he went through after he lost Hinata.

Note there may be quite a few flashbacks to describe the past and setting during this fic.

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