Sesshoumaru may act a bit ooc but fear not it will only add to the later situation. He may actually drop the almighty act. Wait Sesshoumaru isn't Sesshoumaru without the act. Never mind.
Chapter Five
Kagome had one of her ever relentless nights of no sleep. Her mind would not slow down. She was constantly thinking about what had happened that day. Learning the Ice prince was in love with her. That her friends still needed her and that little Rin thought of her as a mother. What should I do? I love Sesshoumaru. I do but am I ready to become his mate. I want to know him better first. Would he be willing to wait? Sesshoumaru I need to talk to you. She thought as if on cue there was a knock on the door.
"Who is there?" she asked almost scared. That was creepy. I was thinking I need to talk to Sesshoumaru and there is a knock on the door.
"Sesshoumaru to come and speak to you. I can't sleep also." He said she nearly laughed. Coincidence that neither of them can sleep and both wish to talk.
"Come in." she said and there in the doorway stood a very muscular and shirtless Sesshoumaru. (No drooling on the computer.) That made her ever so aware of her longing for him. She was certain he could smell the arousal in her scent. She bet it was not helping him fight the urge at all. She began to blush.
"May I sit next to you Kagome?" She nodded she couldn't trust her voice right now. She couldn't think straight.
He looked at her and smiled which made her blush even more. She loved it when he smiled. He looked better when he smiled. He leaned in and kissed her. He loved the taste of her. As he deepened the kiss she began to moan. He was making it harder for her to decide. She wanted to think more before she answered him. He stopped the kiss and moved to her neck.
"Sesshoumaru I…Have yet to decide whether I want to be …be with you or not." She barely panted out. She was slowly forgetting she hadn't decided he was already winning her body over. Now it was her heart.
"My sweet Kagome I think your body has decided for you. I can tell it wants me. Why not give in?" He said he needed her it wasn't that he was restless he needed her and no other woman would do. He was in need of the one he wanted.
"Sesshoumaru…No please…Stop." She said trying to sound serious. After the word stop and sensing the fear he did. His love and her trust were more important.
"What do you want first Kagome. I need you badly." He said and to make the point he made her feel him. He was so very hard. He must be in pain. She thought.
"I need to get to know the real Sesshoumaru. Not the fake that everyone sees. The one that I will see on a daily basis the one I need to know that I can trust. Meaning show me the real you the one hidden from site. Not the beast and not the Ice prince. The one that saw your mother saw." She said and Sesshoumaru thought. She wanted the true him the one that was starting to come back. The one beneath the emotionless mask. He wants her trust that would be the way to gain it. He would do it if it made her happy.
Inu Yasha wondered if he was doing the right thing in trusting his brother to handle Kagome's heart that now was so very fragile. He had been the one to make it that way though. Kikyo noticed her mate's distress.
"Inu what's wrong? You seem upset." She said and held him. He tensed then relaxed.
"I was thinking I still see Kagome as a friend and I wonder if Sesshoumaru can handle her fragile heart. I mean I was the one who broke it now he has to heal it." He said knowing Kikyo didn't care and would try and take his mind off it.
"She will be fine. Don't worry. Let's…Inu what are you doing?" he was going for a walk he couldn't concentrate with his mate hating his best friend. Maybe even sister.
"I'm going for a walk you hate Kagome because she is nothing but your reincarnation to you. She is my best friend. I can't stop caring for her because you hate her. I want her happy in a way I can't give her. If it is Sesshoumaru that can give it to her that is great but I think Sesshoumaru might go to fast." He said and walked off knowing Kikyo would be pissed.
She was furious she wanted him to forget Kagome but he wouldn't not until she was happy. Kikyo couldn't stay angry though the girl was willing to give her back her soul yet ask nothing in return because she felt no one was willing to give her the one thing she wanted. That was love.
Could that be why my mate is worried? He wants her to feel loved. I mean he said he wanted her happy. That is why but why worry about it. She will be happy once she realizes that Sesshoumaru is truly in love. Thought a confused Kagome. How can you hate the one that brought you life? Especially since she did it even though you tried to kill her.
Inu was going to be up all night.
He watched her as she was waiting for him to say anything. He had been so happy that she was willing to love him. The problem was that she wanted to know him. Know who he was. He thought she probably would want to know his past. I can at least tell her that. She would want to know. He looked at her.
"What do you want to know?" He asked calmly.
"What happened to your mother? I have heard a little bit about your father. What was she like was she mean nice. Was she beautiful? What was her name?" He smiled. That will be easy because it is a simple answer. He thought and kissed her.
"She was a lot like you. Her hair was long and black as night. She was beautiful. Her name was Kanome. Interesting that it sounds a lot like your name. She was a fan of this room to. She actually helped design the castle. At least this room and the gardens. Purple midnight blue and black were her favorite colors. She chose regular blue because it didn't blend to well with the black. She most of all loved it when everyone else was happy. Even in death she wanted me to be happy. Her dieing wish is that I found true happiness. Also that I find someone to share it with. I think I found that person she spoke of." He said proudly. Kagome was amazed. He walked to the wardrobe and found the hidden door where he hid his mother's portrait.
"Here this is her." He said and handed Kagome the small picture. The demoness was beautiful she had long flowing black hair. Her eyes a deep ocean blue. She had magenta strips and a beautiful violet and navy blue kimono on. The design was a black dragon that had its head on her shoulder. She had a blue crescent moon on her head signifying she was the Lady of the Western Lands.
"She is gorgeous. I don't see the similarity." She said making Sesshoumaru truly laugh for the second time. He held her and pointed out that she was more of a grown version but their hearts were similar and that the hair eyes and kind features were the same. Mother you sent me an angel. He thought. She leaned against him.
"Anything else?" She smiled.
"Why do hate your brother? Don't get made I just think that there has to be more to it. He didn't do anything that I know of. I just want to know." She said lost in his eyes. To ease him she kissed him.
"I don't…" She hushed him.
"If you don't want to right now it is fine I want you to know this I will ask again. I want to know." She said and leaned against him again.
"He didn't do it completely. Our father as you know mated a human and she gave birth to him well I found out that his mother only wanted to be My father's mate for his title. She mated him and then was sleeping around with other men. I hated her for it. When my father found out he was furious but the wench was already with child and was going to give birth. The man we fought was the one she was sleeping with when she found out she carried my father's unborn son. The man was furious so he decided to set a trap for my father. It worked sort of except he died as well. His mother lived and raised Inu Yasha with the memory of the man she betrayed saving her. She died on the anniversary of that day." Kagome was shocked. Inu Yasha is a reminder of her betrayal I get why he hated humans. Inu was just a simple reminder that you need to be careful how you trust.
"Thank you for telling me. I guess I just thought you hated him. You just hated what he represented. A betrayal of your father." She looked at him and saw his pain. He had bottled all the pain up and never let the truth set in that his father hoped that she truly loved him. But the question never got answered because he died.
"I can't let my…"She kissed him.
"Crying isn't a weakness Sesshoumaru. It is letting the weakness and pain go a way of recognizing the truth that we are alive. That we feel the pain be it physical or not. You need to let it out. You need to realize that though your father died he died for the one he thought loved him. She may or may not of the fact was he loved her." She said and kissed him.
He cried into her shoulder. For the first time in a long time he had cried. He missed his mother he missed his father and felt sorry that the human betrayed the family. He wished he could save his father. Kagome was right he was already feeling a lot better.
"Thank you for letting me do that. I needed o do that." He said and saw her smile. He loved to see that smile. She deserved so much more then she realized.
"I think that is all for now. Sesshoumaru could you sat with me tonight though? I would feel better if you did." She wanted him to stay. He couldn't deny that sweet innocent request. He would do that.
"Sure I will but then you need to move over." He said and laid down next to her. He would sleep next to her tonight. As he waited for her to fall asleep he noticed that she was lying extremely close. He felt her snuggling his tail Kagome you have no idea how good that feels. I don't think you want me to take you right now. He thought and let a pleasure filled moan escape his lips. She gasped and stopped.
"Sorry I had no idea it did that." She said but he just smiled. He grabbed her and held her. She was happy those arms made her feel safe and protected. She was invincible in these arms. What more could you want. She was loved and he was willing to wait till she was ready.
"Kagome I want you to know I will wait for all it takes for you to feel comfortable with me. I will tell you I need an heir though. I want that heir to be your pup. Not the kit but one you and I produce. I love you and only you." He said and she felt her heart stop. He was going to wait for as long as it took. He would suffer that long for her.
"Sesshoumaru what about you? I know that it could take me a very long time. I don't want you to suffer." He kissed her.
"My suffering is not at hand here. I did not die thinking that I was unloved and unwanted. You on the other hand did." He kissed her.
"I will wait for you to come to me and say that you are ready I can wait. I love you and I will prove it to you." He said and let her sleep on his well built chest. She fell asleep listening to his demon heart beat and wrapped in that ever so soft and fluffy tail.