Ruberts POV

Is this how feeling hurt and betrayed feels like. Because if it dose then im hurt and i was betrayed. I thought he loved me but obviously not when he banged my best friend. I gave him the best years of his life and he repays me like this how fucked up dont you think. I really don't have time to deal with this type of shit when there's a crazy vampire Hunter on the losse ready to kill every one i love. But im 17 in high school well on and off but still this type of stuff bothers me but as Damon says nothing is more important than killing the enemy. But I have such bad luck with love. everytime i fall in love i get hurt. Its like a curse. I'm tried of feeling lonely I want someone i can spend my life with . Who'll say i love you..and really mean it. I want someone who's not tired of my lips and my touch and my heart. You know i always used to get angry when Elena, Bonnie and Caroline told me i fall in love easly. But i guess I should have listened to every fucking word. But thats the past were in the present there's more important stuff happening that i need to deal with being im the witch since Bonnie became the link to the other side a couple of years ago. I need to mend this broken heart and carry on like always. You know what they say to get over someone you need to get under someone. Guess I'll keep my eyes open while I'm on a killing spree. I really want it, I don't want to be fuckin lonely all the time it's not fun. Every day I'm risking my life Killing, and it would be so fuckin awesome if I came home and someone was there ready to hug and and kiss me but I'll have to wait...again.