Severide strode into Chicago Med on the heels of the injured members of 51. A lump had formed in his stomach on the ride from the fire scene to the hospital. After rescuing Kidd and Casey he and the rest of squad and truck had extinguished the remains of the fire. Chief strode in beside Severide Kannell, and Cruz and headed to find out information and condition of Hermann, Mouch, Kidd and Casey. None of the men talked as they each contemplated the fate of the injured firefighters.

Chief saw Cindy Hermann hunched in a chair with fear etched into every corner of her face. He strode up and sat in the chair beside her then addressed her, "Cindy, how are you holding up? I can call Donna to come and sit with you if you like."

One tear streamed down Cindy's cheek as she looked into Boden's eye's "Christopher is ok he is being checked out. He asked me to wait out here for Trudy because Mouch died shortly after he arrived. The doctor's said they don't know if it was a heart attack or a stroke. Christopher is torn up but he wanted me to be out here to comfort Trudy." Then silence filled the room as the loss resonated with each of the members of 51.

Cruz put his hands on his knees as he sank into a chair opposite Cindy. His shoulder shook with grief but he stifled the sounds in his hands. Severide sat down by Cruz and put a comforting arm around his shoulder. Kelly's stomach dropped as he thought about his dead friend Mouch. The aching gnaw of the grief from Anna's death coupled with the loss of Mouch was just too much to bare. Cruz shrugged off Kelly's arm and mumbled something and walked out of the waiting room looking lost in grief.

Chief broke the silence, "Severide I am going to stay here with Cindy for a while, at least until I can have Donna come sit with she and Trudy. Can you go see how Kidd and Casey are? "

Kelly nodded and looked from Boden to Cindy and said, "I sure will. Cindy if you need anything just let me know. Chief, I'll text you the condition of Casey."

Kannell had been sitting in silence watching and listening since he was a new comer to 51. He felt like an interloper and so sat quietly waiting for something to do. When he saw Severide get up he said politely, "I'll go help the lieutenant. Ma'am if you need anything just let me know."

Severide went in search of some of the nursing staff that Anna had known to see if they knew the condition of Casey and Kidd. It didn't take long to hear that they were still in the ER still being stabilized. Severide asked to be able to go back and the nurse led him back to where Hermann, Kidd and Casey were. The first person he saw to his left was Hermann who was hooked up to an IV and had his head leaned back on a pillow. Kelly could tell that Christopher had been crying and was being evaluated by an ER doctor so he moved passed that cubicle to the next one.

Outside the next cubicle Kelly saw the shape of Dawson's back and he put a hand on her shoulder. She jumped as Severide greeted her softly, "Hey Dawson, Kannell and I are here to see how Casey is doing."

Dawson did not look like herself she looked pale and tears were running down her cheeks, "I don't know. They won't let me in there because they are trying to stabilize him. The doctor's have been coming and going from Matt's room for the last hour. Dr Halstead said Matt is not burned but the propane tanks sent shrapnel everywhere after the explosion. Matt has wounds in his lower back and legs because he threw himself on Kidd. They are talking about surgery but he has lost so much blood and are trying to find enough blood for a transfusion before they take him into surger.. He has to make it. Please tell me he is gonna make it, Kelly. Please tell me I am not going to lose him."

Kelly did not say anything but wrapped his arms around her as Gabby leaned in for comfort. Kannell stood back a few feet and watched as Kelly comforted Gabby. Grief overwhelmed him from all of the recent losses as Kannell thought about how Casey had went out on a limb for him. When he signed up for this job as a young man everyone told him about the risk of the job. And yet, Kannell had been on the job for years without a single loss. All of the talk and preparation could not prepare you for the losses that went with firefighting. Kannell was pulled out of his thoughts when he heard Severide speak, "Kannell can you stay with Gabby while I go check on Kidd?"

Kannell nodded and stepped to stand beside Gabby, "Sure thing. Come on Dawson let me get you a chair to sit down in."

"Gabby, if you need anything I will be right here. I am not going anywhere just to check on Kidd. Kannell is going to stay here right beside you. And if anyone can pull through this it's Matt. He has you to fight through this and live to tell about it." Kelly looked in through the glass and thought about Casey and all of hard times the shared. Matt had stood by him through so much Kelly would not allow himself to even think about losing another friend.

Severide strode a few more steps and ran into Bret coming out of Stella's cubicle. "Oh Hey Severide, Kidd is ok but they are getting ready to give her some pain meds and asked me to step out. She has a broken arm and a few shrapnel wounds but it sounds like she is going to be in paid but fine."

All that Kelly could manage was a nod as Bret went onto talk more about Kidd's condition. A heavy weight fell on Severide as the adrenaline and worry blended to make a dull ache. His stomach tied in knots at the thought of the carnage from the explosion and more death. Andy, Shay, Anna and Mouch were all gone and here he was still alive. Guilt and remorse mingled as thoughts raced through his head and then without notice Severide began to shake and tears ran down his cheek. He felt strong arms pull him close and at first Kelly resisted pushing the unknown person aside until he saw who it was. It was his dad, Benny who held him as Kelly practically collapsed into his dad's arms. Brett turned and went back to stand vigil of Stella's cubicle with Otis who was leaning against the wall looking down, lost in thought.

Benny spoke softly to his son, "I heard about the incident from a friend. I came as soon as I could since I didn't know if it was you. Kel, I am here. Thank god you are ok."

Chief and Donna were sitting beside Trudy who knew about Mouch. Her normally strong demeanor crumbled as the weight of the loss of Mouch hit her. Platt had waited so long to be married but had found total happiness with Randy. To the outside world he was goofy and awkward but to her Randy had been perfect. Before today, they had talked about retirement and travel to all 50 states in an RV. Movement out of the corner of her eye pulled Trudy from her grief and she saw Cruz kneeling down right in front of her."

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it. I should have saved him." Cruz could barely talk between sobs as he thought back to the last time he had seen Mouch.

Chief stood up and pulled at the back of Cruz, "Joe, come on. This isn't the time or place for this. Trudy needs some space.

Donna looked from Chief to Cruz and then saw Chaplain Orlovsky coming into Chicago med waiting area and pulled Trudy up while saying, "Come on Trudy the chapel is around the corner we can have some privacy." Chaplain was there as a counselor and clergyman for the fire department. 51 held a special place in his heart since they felt like the family he had never been able to have

Cruz looked wild-eyed at Boden and looked almost in a state of shock, "I didn't mean it. I swear. He was like an older brother. Mouch showed me the way to do things when I joined 51. I am sorry Chief"

Boden nodded and tried to find words of comfort for Cruz, "I know you didn't. I am sure Mouch knew it too. You helped get Casey and Stella out. They got to the ambo's quicker with your help. Come on, Cruz take let's take a walk outside and get some air." They proceeded to walk outside of the hospital as Chief tried to figure out the words to say.

Back in the ER Hermann and his wife waited for him to be admitted to the hospital for the night. The doctors felt it was best to have Christopher admitted overnight for observation.

"Cindy, I couldn't save him. He was my best friend and I couldn't save him. Damn it." Hermann said as he leaned his head on his wife's shoulder. She was sitting on the edge of the bed as she held Christopher's hand. After 20 years together they didn't need words to fill in the silences. By this point they could finish each other's sentences and thoughts. Cindy knew the risks of being a fire fighters wife and lived with worry always pushed to the back of her mind. Most days were spent trying to juggle marriage, family and life. But today when she had gotten a call from Donna that there had been an incident Cindy had lost it in the car on the way to the hospital. Cindy thought of Trudy's loss and held her husband even closer and whispered, "I love you Christopher Hermann."

All of a sudden the entire er fell silent as the call came over the loud speaker, "Code blue." Doctors and nurses whisked by as the alarm of someone coding screeched like a siren through the ER. All of 51 held their breath not wanting to think of more death and loss. No one wanted to face the loss of Matt Casey whose leadership reached far beyond the walls of the firehouse. Severide stood by Benny as the alarm sounded and watched helplessly all the while silently praying