Hell no!

Chapter 33. Apologising and forgiving (Nico)

I woke up from another nightmare. In essence it was the same as always, but it was different, it made me realize something. Bianca tried once again to stop the man, but she got shot. Only the police sniper was an idiot and missed. Then the crazy man started swaying with the gun again. Bianca had died for nothing, she hadn't needed to die…

Luckily the dream ended there, I couldn't have stand it if any one of my other friends or if Hazel would have died. It made me think. Maybe I should try and make up with Hazel. She had only tried to help… It isn't her fault I didn't want to talk about it, right?

So I go up, dressed in my favourite black jeans and shirt and grabbed my aviators jacket. I really love that thing! I went downstairs and me, Hazel and mom ate breakfast in silence. Then we got on the bus and sat not together once again. Piper and Annabeth were frowning once again. They still don't know the extent of our argument…

At school I got to my locker and grabbed my books. Economics first period, whoop dee doo. I hate economics. And I hate our teacher even more. Miss Dotts or Drots or Dodd or something. I don't know, and I most certainly don't care. I didn't listen to her and was daydreaming, and thinking about how to apologise to Hazel. Luckily Miss whatever-her-name-is doesn't care about the students she's teaching. So I didn't get in trouble with her for not paying attention.

Then was social studies. We were talking about how other country's school systems work. We started with Europe today. Luckily it was just a documentary, so if I dozed off for a few minutes, which happened more often than not, , which happened more often than not, , which happened more often than not, it wasn't really a problem.

At lunch, a girl, I later learned was called Drew, came to flirt with Jason. He didn't seem very amused and he was trying to hold his conversation with Piper, who grew more and more annoyed by Drew by the minute. Then finally Jason told Drew to piss of and we all had to laugh very loudly, attracting the attention of nearly everyone in the cafeteria. The rest of the lunch hour we just talked about what an idiot Drew was, and apparently she'd tried to flirt with Percy before too, but he didn't really like her. Lou and Katie also had a lot of things to say about her, none of which were very friendly…

After lunch I had double Biology. It was actually very interesting, considering I normally don't really like the subject. It's just that miss J. is so nice to all of us. It was about extracting DNA from a fruit, and we could choose which fruit. She first explained though. We were better to choose the one we hated, because we were to destroy it and squash it and then filter it and after some complicated steps, we could see the DNA with our naked eye. It was really cool. I didn't really hate any of the fruits miss J. had, so I just picked the one that nearly no one else picked, the strawberry. Everyone apparently loves strawberries. But at the end of double Biology, everyone together got to eat the fruit that wasn't squashed and had its DNA extracted. So it was a really fun lesson.

The bus ride home was kinda awkward. Hazel and I still hadn't made up and Annabeth and Piper were feeling awkward, I could just see it on their faces. When they got out they started walking and talking together. At our stop Hazel and I got out and at home we went to the kitchen to eat a cookie. Mom wasn't home yet, so we had the house all to ourselves.

''Nico?'' Hazel sounded unsure.

''Yes Hazel?''

''Could we, could we talk?'' Did she read my mind? I wanted to talk with her after finishing this cookie. Gods, this is a great cookie! Stop, focus Nico, focus!

''Sure.'' I answered once I regained my focus on the situation at hand. ''I actually wanted to talk with you too.''

Hazel looked up to me. ''You did?''

''Yeah, I wanted to apologise.'' I said the last word very quietly. I don't normally apologise, but this is Hazel.

''You… wanted to apologise?''

''Yeah. I wanted to say that I didn't try to understand your motives and that it was egoistic of me to not tell our friends about Bianca. I now understand that you had the need to talk about it, while I didn't.''

''Neeks,'' Hazel said softly. She used my nickname. My stupid childhood nickname. She must really be genuine. ''I get that you didn't wanted to talk about it. You weren't ready to tell others for reasons I don't know. I should have been more patient. And I definitely shouldn't have pushed you into telling others about her. She was your sister first.''

''But she was your sister too, and I should have thought of how it affected you. I just didn't think…''

''You are still grieving, Neeks, and you need time. You cannot do things you're not ready for and you cannot let anyone, not even me, push you into telling them. Okay?'' While speaking she gently cupped my face, making me face her. ''Promise to not let anyone push you around and to do things on your time, on your terms. Promise me that?''

I weakly nodded and she hugged me tightly.

I normally never let anyone hug me tightly, or actually hug me at all, but recently I have needed some hugs. After a nightmare. Or after the bad memories of B… that day. Hazel was there every time I had a nightmare. And Will was there when I told him about Bianca. He is a good friend. But it is still weird, I am so confused about my feelings towards Will. I haven't told him everything about me. He doesn't know about my… that I am gay. But he knows about Bianca, and he knows how it feels. That's what is so good about being with him, he understands and he is so very patient.

After about five minutes we break the hug and then Hazel made us some hot chocolate. Mom always makes hot chocolate if someone is upset, or if someone isn't feeling well (emotionally) and it always makes us feel so much better. We drank it in silence and then we heard the bell ring. Hazel opened the door and Annabeth and Piper walk in.

''You two need to make up… wait, is that hot coco?'' Piper says. ''You two already made up?''

''It looks like they did, so our visit is unnecessary. C'mon Pipes!'' Annabeth tells Piper. Then she turns to us. ''You two, just talk about it. You'll feel better!''

And then Annabeth and Piper leave, as abruptly as they came. Hazel and I exchanged looks and then we laughed.

''We have such weird friends!'' I laugh. I nearly never laugh, only when I'm with just my sisters or with Anna or Pipes.

''But they are the best. They came over just to make sure we talk it out and make up. They are so sweet!''

''They are.'' We talk some more and then we go upstairs, because homework doesn't wait and I don't want to get on the bad side of some of our teachers. I finished nearly all my homework by the time mom called me and Hazel down for dinner.

Simple mashed potatoes with beans and a sausage. It wasn't a first class dinner, but it tasted good and I ate some. Then we ate pudding together and talked about the day. I enthusiastically talked about the DNA experiment and mom told us the fruit sounded delicious. That's literally all she picked up about our DNA experiment. But the fruit had been delicious.

Then me and Hazel went upstairs and I, after finishing the last of my homework, played videogames for an hour and then I went to bed. I wasn't physically tired, but emotionally, that's a whole different story…

AN: Super sorry for not updating. I was planning to last weekend, but I got super busy. First gala, which is sort of like prom for you Americans, though for the upper three grades. And on Sunday we went to my aunt for an early birthday celebration, which meant we were away all day. I did have a fun weekend, though.

But then on Monday, I got sick. Flue. I was sick for multiple days and yesterday I was still not entirely well.

So here it is.

Unfortunately I am still stuck in the story, horrible writers block. I have tried to write some other stories, but nothing's working. I have only a couple more chapters, and after that we'll have a problem. But I hope to be able to write before that again.

I will post another one of the stories that I wrote to try to fix the writers block if you guys want. Just tell me.