CHAPTER 1
I am torn in two
Hold on, hold on
We're barely alive
I am faded through
Hold on, hold on
The fallen arise
I will fight this war for you
And let the dawn of love survive
Broken, I crawl back to life
-"Torn in two" by Breaking Benjamin.
- Third year of UA -
Katsuki Bakugou felt sweat dripping down his eyes.He didn't lose time cleaning it. He couldn't be distracted. The nerd was too observant, he fucking saw it all and it would use that split second as an opening to strike.
Ever since their fight after the provisional license exam, they had been meeting to spar every other Friday just before sundown. With Aizawa's approval of course, they didn't want to clean the dorms for all eternity.
Normally, they tried to make the other sweat and actually improve -not just let out steam-, they fought within reason to not completely wreck the school. Today though…the nerd was fighting for real, not as someone in a middle of a friendly match. But as someone that wanted to hurt. Katsuki felt as if the nerd wanted him to not be able to move for the next week. His hits were vicious, his kicks fast and almost too strong.
Any other day, Katsuki would be delighted to have a go at All Might's power, have his protégé fight him full on. Except, for all the focus on the nerd's eyes, his were distracted. Completely unacceptable, but after fighting for this long with no luck on concentrating, he had accepted that he might not win this one.
That didn't mean that he would just grant the match to the bloodthirsty nerd.The blond yelled before throwing himself at the other, missing the days when he had a good set of inches on him. Now, it was barely one and that meant that he had to use a lot more strength to physically overpower Deku.
Fuck, the green hero was built like a brick wall.
Deku mirrored his yell as they fell back to the ground and threw the first punch. Katsuki growled punching him in the ribs in return. Green-hair let out a war cry as he jabbed his knee on Bakugou's stomach and flipped their possition, punching the blonde in the face.
This fucking fight was turning into a full on quirkless brawl. And he was NOT. GOING. TO. LOSE.
"Okay, stop!" A voice rang out before a pair of hands pushed their shoulders away. They stopped fighting the second they saw a trace of a yellow suit. All Might was looking at them with a small frown on his gawnt face. "I think you two should cool off for a moment. This is a training excersice, not a bar fight."
"Tell that to Deku here." Katsuki said while cleaning the blood from his lip. The nerd kept quiet…never a good sign.
"Young Midorya, is everything all right?" The former symbol of peace asked."Y-yes!" Deku jumped, like he was getting out of a trance. "I just…I have a lot on my mind." He let out a small laugh before giving the hero a tight smile. "Thanks for stopping us, I think I will go change now. I need sleep for tomorrow, graduation day and all! Y-yes I will do that. Good night All Might! I will go, just now…rest yes…I need to rest." His next words were lost in a mumbling tirade as the hero got up and began walking to the dorms.
"I think you should go with him." All Might said, putting a heavy hand on his shoulder. "I believe he needs a friend right now. More than a mentor." He smiled before turning back to the teacher's quarters.Katzuki frowned and stomped in the same direction as Deku.
He was going to make that nerd talk.
- 2 years later–
"Tell me Takata-san" Aiyomi Tsukensu asked her co-host in a conspiratory voice. "Who do you think will crack the top ten this year? There are a lot of candidates that could do it, we have Tsukuyomi, IcyHot, Ingenium, Froppy, Red Riot, Maria, Creaty and some even add the amazing rescue hero Uravity in the mix. We're at the peak of UA's star generation! And we have the Shiketsu heroes too where Gale is a huge favorite. So many candidates! My personal favorites would be the explosive hero, Ground Zero, Beast Jeanist's protege. Or Deku, the wondering hero, who has no agency but has been known to work alongside Lemillion, Kamui Woods, Sun Eater and lots of other high profile heroes."
"Well Tsukensu-san, I would love to see either of those heroes on the list. If not both. Who knows, they might bring us a..." The older man answered before the TV was abruptly turned off.
"Hey! I was watching that!" Mina yelled from her spot in the sofa, where she was sitting while petting Kirishima's hair, who was happily drooling all over her legs.
Ugh, couples were gross.
"And this is my house and I don't want to watch that." Katsuki drawled from the kitchen.
"So, you don't want to hear about the possible rankings or just because they named a certain green eyed, freckled hero alongside you?" Mina smirked. "Seriously, I know break ups can be hard but…"
"For the last fucking time, WE WEREN'T DATING! AND I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT FUCKING DEKU!" The blonde began to chop vegetables before pouring them in the pot. Why was he even cooking for these two anyway? He should be resting, not getting into this fucking old ass argument.
"Of course, you didn't." The annoying alien girl sighed. "And of course, all the dates we know you had, were just our imagination."
"Shut the fuck up or I'll kill you." Fucking so-called friends. Why did she have to start questioning him now?
"Come on babe." Kirishima's voice mumbled. "Stop tormenting him while he's cooking for us."
"I will poison both of you." The blonde barked.
"Come on! We all saw how you were just before graduation. Everybody knew about your training sessions, we saw you hanging out after school and both of you were so…happy. What happened? What did you do to him?" This time, Katsuki couldn't even control the small explosion in front of him, as he felt a twist in the ever-present hole on his chest.
"Where the fuck is this interrogation coming from?" He asked trying to clean his head and not burn down his kitchen. He did not want to think about this.
"It comes…well…" And if that wasn't a suspicious pause, Katsuki didn't know what it was. "It doesn't matter! You're both my friends and I don't want a scene at our wedding!" Bakugou groaned and passed his hand through his face. The fucking wedding, of course.
"It might be hard to believe." He was surprised on how even his voice sounded. "But I was not the one that caused this…I will not ruin your day pink-face" His voice died down. So fucking embarassing.
At least, his off-character demeanor was enough for the comments to stop. He just received a couple of worried glances and the pair changed the topic to tell him how fucking pikachu had saved a building filled with people from an insect-like villain.
Who knew, the idiot was not completely useless.
A couple of hours later, just before his uninvited guests left, the redhead waved at his girlfriend as she walked out the door before turning back to face his best friend. "Deku is coming to the city. I think you should know." Katsuki swallowed before nodding, putting his hands on his pants as he thought about the possibility of asking for some vacation days. Ground Zero and Deku were heroes that moved around the whole area, he fucking knew that for one reason or another, they would be asked to work together and for all his bravado, he…he was not sure if he was ready for it. "I-I…" Kirishima scratched his head hesitating.
"Just out with it, shitty hair." The redhead smirked at the old nickname.
"I know things went sideways for you guys, I gathered enough to know that Midorya hurt you." The blonde grimaced remembering Deku's birthday almost a year ago, his first birthday after their…downfall. The green asshole had made a party at half n' half's house and Katsuki had only found out a week after. Knowing that he was officialy no longer part of Deku's circle had hurt so much, he had almost drank himself to death. Kirishima had found him drunk out his ass, with a puke stained t-shirt and babbling about the nerd. It had been quite mortifying on the next day, but at least the redhead knew enough to not ask much about it. And now that he thought about it, the nerds birthday was coming again, he really hoped he could cope better this time. "But…have you tried contacting him again? It's been years and he never…"
"Do you fucking think I'm the one that told him to fuck off?" Katsuki growled already knowing what the other guy wanted to say. "The bastard asked me to keep away." Kirishima's eyes widdened in shock. "Yeah! And like you said, after…fuck! After the shitty things I pulled out on him, I can't even think of not doing what his green ass asked me to. So fucking stay out of it because I'm not planning to even breathe the same air as that nerd without having to absolutely do it." He passed a hand through his face. "Are you fucking done ruining my free day?"
"Fine, we'll leave." The other man sighed. His eyes said that he would try to get more information later. Katsuki both hated and loved him for that. The hardening hero had been the first one to never be afraid of him, just happily stand beside him and become an ever-present force in his life.
It had been new and refreshing to actually have a best friend, and not just goons that followed his every command.
"I'm kind of regretting not asking about this when you were nursing that epic hangover…" The redhead mused.
"Don't. Your quirk wouldn't have been enough to protect you from that explosion." Katsuki tsked. He had been too shaken up and heart broken. His already short fuse had been almost non-existent.
That was why he had decided to go back to Best Jeanist. He'd needed someone to help him control all the emotions inside of him and not ask any uncomfortable questions.
"Okay, not thinking about uncontrollable explosions that might kill me!" The redhead smiled putting his hands up. "Dinner at our place next week BakuBro!" Kirishima waved before making an exit.
Katsuki sighed and went to the fridge. He fucking needed a beer, and if he'd known what the next day had in store for him, he would've taken something a lot stronger.
"HELP!" Ground Zero ran up a stairwell of an appartment complex. A crazy, gigantic Villain had decided that that day was a good day to destroy things. The asshole had been an easy kill (not kill-kill but he had been KO-ed so fast, Katsuki had even felt insulted that he had been needed to defeat him) but had left quite the devastation around the area.
"Hey! Where are you?!" He yelled looking around, trying to know the location of the voice.
"AT THE END OF THE HALLWAY! SOMETHING FELL ON THE DOOR!" Katsuki thought it was a teenage girl, but he could be wrong, it could be a pre-teen boy or a grown woman with a high-pitched voice.
"What's your name?! Are any windows around?!" We walked to the direction she (?) said but there was a lot of damage around, no entryway on sight. The room was exactly on the side of the building that had been hit by the oversized bastard.
"I'M AKANE! THE WINDOW WENT DOWN WITH THE WALLS!" She was interrupted by some coughing. "IT SMELLS LIKE GAS IN HERE! MY BROTHER IS UNCONCIOUS! PLEASE HELP US!"
Gas. Shit.
"Are there more people with you two?! How old is your brother?!" He looked at the mess around the room, there was a wall to the far right that looked stable enough to make an entrance. If the gas was not a problem, some quick AP shots would've been enough for that, but as it was, he could either try to move the left-over shit to clear the door, or he could call for help.
"JUST US! HE'S 15 AND I'M 12!"
"Is he bleeding?!"
"HE WAS BUT I STOPPED IT!" Smart girl. Katsuki grimaced looking at the blocked wall. He was strong, but he accepted the fact that he couldn't lift a fucking wall that size. So, help it was.
"This is Ground Zero, I need back up! Send Pinky or Uravity my way!" Katzuki yelled at his comm. "We have a fucking gas leak, so if they're not available, just fucking send anyone that's strong but no fire or electric! Also, send someone to close all the gas lines, judging from the building's age, those should be down the basement!"
"Roger Ground Zero! Backup on its way! Please hold ground! Over." The sidekick said. He couldn't even remember his name, but the guy was useful enough.
"Alert medical care too, there is someone unconscious, he was bleeding but not anymore, still don't know his full status!"
"Roger that!"
Katsuki tisked trying to think of a way to reach the next room without using his quirk. FUCK HE FELT USELESS!
"Akane-chan! Are you hurt?!" He yelled trying to get his head clear.
"NO! I'M OKAY!" There was a small silence. It felt loaded. "YOU WILL GET US OUT…RIGHT?"
"Fuck yeah I am!" Ground Zero spoke confidenty. "But I will need you to do something for me first! Do you know where's the gas leak?"
"I THINK ITS FROM THE STOVE! IT'S AN OLD ONE!" He heard some movement. "IT'S BELOW THE WALL THAT FELL DOWN!"
"Ok! Go back to your brother and try to tell me where you are, describe the size of the room! That way, you won't be hurt when the rocks get pulled down!" He asked looking at the angles of the debree, trying to pinpoint the weakest spot and the danger zones. One mistake when pulling all down, and the whole wall could collapse on the kids.
"OK! WE'RE ON THE MIDDLE OF THE ROOM! ABOUT 1 METER FROM WHERE THE DOOR USED TO BE! AND ITS SMALL…MY BROTHER IS BIG BECAUSE OF HIS QUIRK! HE TAKES UP A LOT OF SPACE!"
"What is his quirk? And yours!"
"HE'S A BEAR! HE TRIED TO SHIELD ME! THAT'S HOW HE GOT HIT IN THE HEAD!" Bakugou frowned. Animal quirks normally ran in the family, if she hadn't mentioned anything about helping with her bear strenght, that meant…
"You don't have a quirk, do you?!" A flash of bright green eyes filled his mind. He was quick to stomp it down into the fucking mental box he had for all things Deku.
"N-NO! I'M SORRY!" The girl was the first quirkless person he'd met since Deku. He was sure as hell not going to make the same mistakes with her.
"What the hell are you sorry for?! You have been the most useful rescue mission I've had! Some grown-ass adults just babble and cry! You are calm and know your surroundings! PRETTY FUCKING BRAVE AND HELPFUL FOR ME!" he was met with silence, but for some reason he felt that, for once, he'd said the right thing.
"Ground Zero!" Yelled a voice behind him.
OH, FUCKING HELL NO.
"Deku." He managed to say, not turning back. He was a fucking pro, he could keep it professional. And what the fuck was this timing? Did another quirkless in his world meant that Deku had to be summoned here? Fuck that. "There are two people behind the wall. No access points. This." He pointed at the lower right side of the wall. "It's the safest place to strike, not connected to any support beams. But we detected a fait smell of gas, the girl inside says it's from an old stove under all that, so be careful with the lightning." He didn't need to say anything else. He took a step back, motioning for the green hero to move forward. Fuck his life, but he trusted the green idiot to do his job.
"Akane-chan! Go to your brother and kneel close to his head, put his arms close to his body and cover your head! Tell us when you're ready!" There, all business.
He could do this. He would win this fucking twisted situation and not have a meltdown because he was seeing this fucking guy after years of complete avoidance.
"READY!"
"Ok. I got this." Deku spoke as he stepped in front of him and well, wasn't that a new suit. It was not far from his signature design, but a big thing was missing: No more extra strong gloves or boots, hardly any bagginess around his body. This style was more relaxed, more like…
More like All Might.
He saw the news, he fucking had all the Deku collectibles(would never admit it out loud). It wasn't like he didn't know that the nerd was mastering his power. But knowing something and actually seeing him there, in front of him, being the hero he had always meant to be, without Katsuki being a part of his life was…soul wrecking. So fucking painful that he had to restrain himself, keep calm and not fucking explode taking this whole shitty ass gas-leaking building with him.
He was no coward, but he knew that if it wasn't for Akane and his need to see that quirkless girl out of danger, he would've ran away. He had never been good with feelings, and the shitty nerd in front of him, always stirred a hell lot of them. And after a whole day getting people from under buildings, seeing their cries when they realized that the people they loved or their houses were gone, he was not in the mood to deal with more shit.
Deku touched the wall and spoke in a clear voice. "Here I go!" Deku pulled back his arm and fucking smashed through it. No lightnings in sight.
The hero in him jumped at the thought of sparring against this improved Deku. He'd had his share of strong ass villains, and he had training sessions with Kirishima and Todoroky regularly. But they were not Deku.
Fighting against him meant, not only fighting power, but fighting that huge brain of his. It was something he surely missed from their days in UA. But after what had happened the last time they had sparred, he was not too keen on even trying to have a rematch.
"I think you should get the girl, I'll carry the bear." The nerd turned to look at him. Even through his facemask, Ground Zero could tell that the green idiot was smiling at him. "You got to her first, after all". Katsuki set his jaw trying to ignore the smile and forget the last words Izuku Midorya had said to him.
I need to be away from you!
Katsuki took a step forward, focusing on controlling his breathing. He could not afford to cause lose control in this place. Once he felt calmer, he hurried through the makeshift entrance and saw Akane kneeling next to her brother.
"Time to leave this shit hole." He grinned, his arms akimbo. "Hop on my back, Deku will take care of your brother." He pointed behind him, like it was easy to talk about the other man. Akane smiled in such a way, that her tear-stained face lost all the shadows. Did all the quirkless people had to smile like rainbows and sunshine shot out of their asses? His thoughts were interrupted when the girl stood up and ran to him, hugging his middle.
"Thank you." She sobbed.
"Yeah, yeah. We already stablished that you also helped a lot in saving yourself." He put a hand on her auburn hair, before pushing her and turning around, so she could climb on his back.
"Don't worry." Deku spoke in a soft voice. "I'll take care of your brother." Katsuki walked without looking at him. It was easier like this.
"Thank you, Deku-san!" The girl on his back spoke as Ground Zero went back to the stairs. "And you Ground Zero." Her arms tightened around his neck. "No one in school will believe that I was saved by Ground Zero and Deku!"
Yeah. Their first job together as pros, and he ended up as a complete ass, running away from the nerd.
Fucking embarrasing.
They arrived to the medical station, Deku hot on his heels as they left the siblings to be cared for. It turned out that the brother had a small concussion but it was nothing to worry about, their tearful parents thanked them loudly for bringing their children safe.
"Thank you Ground Zero!" Akane waved as he walked away. He raised his hand at her and decided to call it a day. Maybe the Villan had been weak, but rescue work had always been specially tough for him.
"It was really kind what you said to her. About her being brave despite being quirkless." Deku spoke as he matched his step. "A great hero telling her…"
"The fuck do you want Deku?" Katsuki interrupted him. Unable to bear the thought of that particular conversation.
"Well I…" In a quick movement, Deku was standing in front of him and blocking his path. Katsuki halted and glared at the freckled idiot. "Do you want to have coffee with me?"
The fuck.
THE FUCKING FUCK!
"Hell no!" Ok. Perhaps that yell sounded more like a screech, but he was not in complete control of his body right now. How dared the nerd even think about inviting him to coffee after years of total radio silence? After dumping him to the side without a second thought?
"I figured you would say something like that." The idiot murmured while passing his hand through his hair. He let out a breath. "Then…can we talk?"
"No. Out of my way Deku." He pushed him aside, fully knowing that he was able to do it, just because the nerd let him.
"Kacchan…" It was a faint whisper, but it was enough for Katsuki's heart to take a painful trob. No one had called him that in years.
"Don't fucking call me that!" Deku took a step backwards, his face shocked. He had never denied that name to him, not even when he'd been a complete hateful bastard. But after the way Deku had left, the way he had avoided him. Katsuki felt selfish and hurt. He did not want to hear his name like that from his mouth, it was too painful.
"Ka..." The words were interrupted as Katsuki flung himself at the nerd and grasped his collar.
"Shut up. SHUT UP!" His breathing was jagged and his heart beating wildly. He did not need this. He couldn't stand this. And he was not going to let this asshole see how broken he had left him. He yelled pusing the other man away as he began to see some onlookers around. Fuck. Best Jeanist would have an aneurysm if they started talking, or worse, if anybody got a video of their interaction. "Follow your word and leave me the fuck alone." He walked back, refusing to look at Deku's face and flew himself away from the area.
When he arrived home, he undressed and got in his shower. His hands gripped the tiles as he let the ice cold water run on his back, trying to find his center and keep calm. Fuck he hated how he could never control himself around Deku. The bastard always wormed himself way too deep into his heart and just made things difficult.
Why couldn't he just stay away? Katsuki had managed to continue living after that clusterfuck of a day. He had learned to tie in his emotions, he'd become stronger, more in control and people fucking respected him for the person he had become. And now, he felt as if he was back at UA, back at that God awful first year where he'd been stomped on until he fucking learned that he was not the very best (yet).
The year he'd learned to see fucking Deku for the hero he could be, not for the loser he had been.
And after all that, he had finally accepted just how important the green idiot was to him.
-Third year of UA-Katsuki ran until he reached Deku. "Oi nerd!" He called and widdened his eyes when he saw the bastard walk faster. Oh, it was fucking ON. "Don't fucking run away from me!" And just as he began to see a trace of green lightning, Katsuki let out a proppeling explosion that sent him directly into the nerd's back, pushing him to the ground. He moved quicky to hold the bastard's head down. "Fucking talk to me Deku!" Deku trashed weakly for a couple of seconds before letting out a defeated sigh."Fine." He spoke."Don't even dare to think about running again." Bakugou threatened as he stood up and raised his hand for Deku to take.The nerd grasped it and stood, keeping Katsuki's fingers on his own. "This is our last night here." He mumbled after leting out a sigh."Is this what has your panties in a twist?""A part of it, yes." He traced a couple of patterns on the back of the blonde's hand. Like an invisible secret being written on his skin. Katsuki forced himself to control the urge to blush at that small action."Sorry for going crazy during the fight.""Fucking nerd, if it wasn't for All Might I would've beaten your ass. Dirty fight and all." The green haired idiot let out a small laugh. Katsuki raised an eyebrow noticing a trace of sadness in it. Maybe the nerd really was sentimental about the end of their UA years."We're strong, aren't we?" Bakugou frowned and refrained from talking because ¡DHU! Of fucking course they were. "I-I…" He started but slowly closed his mouth. He kept quiet for a momment, letting Katsuki try to understand what was going on in his head. Normally, they had no issues understanding the other. After years and years of fights, they had finally found their sync. It was frustrating to go back to the moment where the nerd's mind was a complete mistery to him. "You have very soft hands." Katsuki llet out a surprised sound as he felt heat run through his cheeks."Why do you have to be so embarrasing?" He groaned but kept his hand in place. Deku gave him a small smile, the little shit knew what he did to him."I know it's thanks to your quirk. Like your mom… but for me it's such a Kacchan thing." The idiot kept talking, passing the tips of his fingers through Katsuki's palms making him shiver. Such an inocent action that was making his heart go haywire. He was so pathetic.Kiss him!A voice in his head yelled, eager to be heard. Maybe, this was the moment he was waiting for. He could do it. He could kiss the nerd until he made him talk, it would probably work better than yelling.Feeling his heart beat wildly in his chest, he took a step forward. And with the care of someone handling a porcelain doll, he let his other hand rest against Deku's cheek, noting how the nerd's breathing hitched."Izuku…" The blond spoke, seeing the pair of unreal green orbs widen. He let his thumb caress the other's face before looking down at his lips."Kachan…" His name was little more than a whisper. The nerd's hands twiched while they grasped his own. Katsuki moved closer, as close as he could be without pressing himself into Deku. He moved his face forward, letting his nose touch the side of Izuku's before resting his forehead against his.Kiss him!!!!He swallowed and braced himself. This is it. Don't fuck it up! He sighed finally letting his lips go to his…until a hand found his chest and stopped him."I won't let our first kiss, be our last." Deku spoke against his lips, freezing him in place."…what." Katsuki whispered trying to understand. Deku took a step back. His hand firmly putting distance between them."I'm leaving.""Like hell you are…not after...""Kacchan." Izuku's voice felt like a slap. It was cutting. The nerd squared his shoulders and raised his eyes to meet a pair of confused red ones. "I'm leaving" The blonde felt his throat close.A part of Katsuki had been waiting for this. He had fucking known that Deku would want to go somewhere else to train, to follow All Might's footsteps and become a hero of the world.And a bigger part of him, had hoped to be there with him.The biggest reason why his mind had been elsewhere during their training, was because he had set a deadline for himself: he would not graduate without talking to the nerd to put his feelings on the table. He'd been ready to do it that night, before the nerd had decided to dust him in training.I want to travel the world with you. His mind whispered. I want to fucking kiss youSo, this was it. Maybe the nerd throught he wouldn't flllow him, all he had to do was say…"And because this…I think we should keep distance." What the fuck?"What the fuck are you on, Deku?" Katsuki growled."I-I…" The nerd's eyes looked to the ground. "Shit…" Katsuki frowned hearing him curse. It wasn't the first time he did it, but normally it was during a hard ass battle or that time he almost broke his pinky toe when he hit the living room sofa. Not like this."Spit it out already!" Katsuki started hearing his ears ring."I need to be away from you!" Deku bellowed as he looked at him with a steely gaze. The ringing went up a nodge."…what?" The taller man whispered, feeling his chest hollow. The ringing turning into static, like his body refused to continue hearing this conversation. No, no. This was not the plan. Maybe if he told him now he would…"I will leave after graduation. Please don't try to contact me." The ringing stopped. Deku's eyes showed the same resolution they held when facing a villain. He was not playing around.I need to be away from you!Katsuki felt his body temble. This was not happening, the nerd couldn't be saying that to him. Not after all this time, not after he had wormed himself completely into Katsuki's soul. He could not fucking do this to him. "Like I would!" Katsuki yelled, his anger getting him out of his stupor, like the fucked up defence mechanism it was. "Just fucking leave! I don't care!" His voice broke. Shit."K-Kaccan…" The green asshole looked at him, his expression surprised."And you better train your fucking ass off nerd! Because I will do it and I will become the best! I don't need you in my life to be stronger!" He glared at the other before turning around, unable look at the other. "Let's start now, don't fucking talk to me Deku. From this moment on, I don't fucking know you." He walked back to the dorms. Letting his heart hope for a call from the nerd, for a whisper of his name.It never came.
-Present day-
Katsuki groaned and turned off the shower. He needed to forget that idiot. He had to focus and stop dweling on the past.
He dried up and put on his boxers before walking to his living room. He saw his phone light up and he fucking knew it would be something from his outburst.
It was not like people didn't know he was a hot head, but Deku, was fucking sunshine and flowers for them, and no one could ever talk ill to the nerd.
The worst was that they had history. The press would have a field day if they found out.
Katsuki walked to the fridge and began taking out things to make dinner. He was not hungry, but sure as hell was not going to let fucking Deku get in the way of his regime. He had to be in top shape to be the best.
He hardly knew why he was feeling so fucking upset.
Yeah, he felt like shit for the lack of contact, but he thought that he had accepted it. Over time, he had come to terms with the fact that he had no right to even feel bad about it when Deku had said he needed to be away. He had convinced himself that he'd been doing it for the nerd, giving back a little of what he had taken during their childhood.
But of course, he had been too good at hiding the red hot rage he felt for being dumped to the side. He had tricked himself into only thinking about work and being a fucking amazing hero. Not about the pain.
Katsuki poured the chopped vegetables in the pan as he took a deep breath. That night, after arriving to his room and feeling like he had been hit by a ton of bricks, he had promised himself to put everything aside, that he was not going to let his broken heart get in the way of his goal. He would show the nerd that he didn't need him to be on the top. And that was exactly what he would do this time. He would call Jeanist, endure the pep talk and ask for a couple of days, the HR department would be delighted about him finally taking some of his acomulated rest days.
It had been a while since he had visited his parents and All Might, he would even conside droping by Inko Midorya's house if he didn't know he would most likely run into Deku there. Fuck, the nerd would probaly be with All Might too. But with the condition the hero was, he couldn't just pospone the visit a lot longer.
"Besides, I am the one that has taken care of his old ass, not the fucking chosen one." He growled before sighing. That wasn't fair. He knew for sure that Deku was always informed about All Might's situation, he fucking called him daily and went to visit him as much as he could. He shook his head a turned off the stove.
The moment he was walking to the table with a bowl of soup, he heard a knock on his door. He growled and sat anyway, he was in no mood for visitors.
"Open up asshole!" Mina yelled from the other side.
"We have booze!" Kaminari's voice rang next.
"Guys, I think he want's to be alone." Sero's voice carried through. Yes, listen to him.
"He always want's to be alone, but it's our job to make him socialize" Pikachu spoke. That idiot had a death wish.
"Yo Bakugou! We're getting in." Kirishima spoke before he heard the sound of a set of keys. Katsuki sighed and walked to his room to put some fucking clothes on. The self named Bakusquad wouldn't leave him alone until he either killed one of them, or bulged and told them what was up, he had learned that the hard way.
"Oh! I smell food!" Was the first thing out of Denki's mouth as soon as they walked in.
"Don't fucking touch my soup!" Katsuki yelled walking back to the living room. The electric hero was already serving himself a bowl. "What the fuck pikachu?" He walked to him but was intercepted by a very angry looking Mina. "The fuck do you want pinky?"
"You just told me that you wouldn't make a scene if you saw Deku, and now you're on the news telling him to fuck off! How do you expect me to believe that you will behave at the wedding?" She demanded. Well, at least that was confirmation enough that there was a video.
"Fuck off! I'm tired and that asshole kept shitting around! Not my fault people decide to make a fucking mess out of a 3 second talk!"
"Why are you like this?!" She put her hands up. "It's like first year all over again! Why do you always have to be so difficult?"
"Fucking don't!" His hand let out a couple of explosions.
"Let's just calm down and not burn the apartment, ok?" Sero put himself between them. "Here." He pushed a bottle into Katsuki's hands. "Lets just drink and calm down."
"I'm on duty." Katsuki pushed the bottle away. "Now listen to me you shit heads. I will say this once and this is just because I'm fucking tired of always being labeld as the bad guy: it's his fucking fault."
"How? What did he do to you?" Kaminari asked as he walked from the kitchen. "Is it because he dumped you? Is that it?"
"Mina." He said ignoring the idiot. The pink hero looked at him raising an eyebrow. "Imagine the time when you started dating Kiri, when it was nothing official but you fucking knew it was coming…" He swallowed remembering how fucking right things had felt. How everything seemed to make sense and how he was sure what their next step would be. "Then, one night. He just comes to you and tells you to fuck off. Tells you that he fucking neeeds to be away from you." Her black eyes widened, same as the throb in Katusiki's chest. "He goes off the grid for years and they one day he just fucking comes to you as asks you to have coffee with him…wouldn't you just be ready to murder his fucking ass?"
"Shit dude" Denki helfully supplied. Sero whistled and Kirishima sighed, probably piecing together the whole story.
"Why…didn't you say anything before?" She spoke, he could see a darker shade of pink in her cheeks. She was embarrased and probaly guilty about what she had said to him.
"Stop it with the pity fest. I'm not mad at you." He shook his head. "I thought I had accepted it. Moved on." He shrugged. "I fucking swear to you that this won't happen at your wedding. I will win, not the fucking nerd."
"You are such idiots!" She groaned before taking the bottle from Sero's hand. "I'm not on duty. I need a drink to think on how to fix this!" She went to the sofa. "We all know how shitty you and Deku are for this kinds of things!"
"Don't get your nose into this, woman! I'll fucking kill you if this goes around the rest of those fuckers!"
"Yeah yeah, we'll keep the secret of you having a heart." Pikachu laughed as he walked to sit next to her.
"It's not like the rest of the class doesn't already think you guys went through a messy break up." Sero mused.
"Why did you bring them here?" He turned to Eijiro.
"Hey, we were worried. It's been a while since you exploded like that…no pun intended" The redhead shrugged with a smile.
"Fucking idiots." The blonde shook his head before going to sit at the table. He took his phone and looked at the mess of messages he had.
My office 8:00 am – JeanistYou're supposed to be a fucking PRO you brat! Stop yelling at Deku and just fuck him already! – Old HagJust talk to him – Dad
And of course, the Bakusquad chat was filled with notifications.
KirishimaBROOOOOO!! YOU'RE ON THE GOSSIP SITESMinaWHAT THE FUCK EXPLODO BOY!PikachuDUDE! Way to break the internet!PikachuHas sent a picture.PikachuHAHAHA THERE ARE MEMES ALREADY!SeroHow are there memes already! I haven't even seen the video!PikachuHERE! Nothing new, Bakugou bitches at Midorya like normal, but now it was in front of people that don't know them./y 6ute6uoSeroI can't even tell what't they're saying!PikachuTHAT'S THE BEST PART! PEOPLE ARE GOING INSANE BECAUSE NOBODY KNOWS WHAT THEY'RE FIGHTING FOR! HAHAHAHAHAHAPinkyKnowing Explodo boy, it was probably something stupid.KisihimaDon't ignore us Bakubro!PinkyBABY GET READY! WE'RE GOING IN!PikachuMe too! Me too! Sero I'll pick you up!SeroWhy?????????I want to sleeeeeeep.PikachuGET BOOZE!
Katsuki rolled his eyes at the conversation, while his idiotic friends began fighting over the remote.
Whoever posts a meme of this. I will kill you.
He sent to the chat. Knowing full well that the idiot Denki would take it as a personal challenge to send him every single one of them. That would work to keep track on how much drama would be after the video.
At least people didn't know what they had said. So he could ignore it and just move on.
"Is jeanist mad?" Kirishima asked walking to sit next to him.
"Livid." He groaned passing his hand through his forehead. "The man might be in a wheelchair, but is still the same hardass hero he has ever been. I fucking know the type of dissapointed speech I'll get."
"Harsh. Fatgum is way more relaxed about things…and well, I don't go around yelling to the sweet hero Deku who might be as big as All Might" Katsuki growled darkly. "Hey, hey. I'm just voicing the press!"
"Fucking choosen one." Kiri frowned at him, not getting his words.
"Riiiight." He scratched his cheek. "In the other group…"
"Don't care!"
"Deku said to leave you alone." The blonde groaned and hit the table with his fist.
"FUCKING MARTYR PIECE OF SHIT!" He yelled hating this situation a little bit more. "Of course the whole fucking class will cuddle his ass even more. Fuck all of them!"
"Will you talk to him?" Mina said looking at them.
"Hell no."
"Aren't you curious?" Sero said taking the bottle away from Pinky. Sometimes he acted like the responsible father of the group, but other days he just joined the crazyness. Like that moment, where he just took a swing at the bottle. This was not going to end well. "I mean…Deku is so freaking hung up on you, it's embarrasing. Why did he tell you to leave him alone?"
"I don't care."
"YES! YOU DO!" All four of them yelled at him.
"Man…just give him a chance. He did give you like a million chances. You owe it to him." Bakugou glared at the other blonde. The idiot looked really fucking satisfied with himself. That was not acceptable.
"DIE YOU FUCKING PIKACHU!" He yelled jumping the couch to murder the idiot.
After a lot of yelling, laughs, a pair a bruises and a neighbor complaining for the noise, the squad left him alone with a growled promise of thinking about it. He saw them out and went the fuck to sleep.
Tomorrow better be the fucking best day of his life. He was tired as shit of this.
"You're suspended." Katsuki pressed his jaw but didn't say anything. Jeanist crooked his head and looked at him for a moment. "Or maybe not."
"Just make up your mind." Ground Zero glared at him.
"You've changed." The hero let out a small laugh. "Light years from the yelling kid that came for his internship."
"Is this going somewhere?" He had an inkling on what the other hero wanted to say.
"I'm just trying to understand. After years of behaving like a passable form of human decency, you cross paths with Deku and you dump it all to the trash." He pushed his chair to the window next to his office. "I talked to Eraser Head. He tells me that you have a history. I don't care about your personal issues, but I do care about the image of my agency." He drummed his fingers on the chair. "You are close to become one of our leaders, except for situations like this. So, I have a proposal for you." Katsuki braced himself. "A mission with Deku, having your best behaviour and actually letting the public see you working together and let them know that you're professionals that caan respect each other." Ground Zero felt his insides twist. He fucking knew that the next option would be something so low, he would have to choose to work with Deku. "Or a month suspension, no pay."
"Sounds like there's only one option to me." Ground Zero answered. Like hell he would stay one month without hero work, and having that on his record.
"Excellent." The hero moved to press an intercomm in his desk. "Send him in, please."
"Yes, Best Jeanist."
Katsuki took a deep breath. Fuck yeah. He could win this. He would be the best behaved hero in the country. The fucking nerd wouldn't even recognize him.
After all, he had been the one to say that ne needed to be away from Katsuki.
I will beat you, Deku.