Hi Guys! Here's the new chapter, my version of the season 1 finale and season 2 opening. Hope you like it!

Barry's head was buzzing. He replayed the last few days in his head, an activity that he'd been scared to do. It all seemed like some nightmare more than memory.

First, he'd gone back to that night. Saw his older self shake his head at him. He could still hear his mother screaming.

Then he had his fight with Eobard Thawne.

That made him shudder most of all. And he couldn't remember half of it!

The most he could do was just replay what Joe had told him. He saw the whole thing after all. Barry's eyes going yellow and glowing as the two fought, Hunter joining the battle and only making Eobard even angrier. Him and Hunter forming Al eventually.

One moment Al was staring at Eobard monologue about how they were different sides of the same coin.

"You can't live without me Flash." He has hissed.

"Watch me!" Al had yelled before all of their eyes started glowing yellow. There was a great deal of lightning before Al appeared on the other side of Eobard, his heart in hand.

Al had fazed through his body to kill him, just like Eobard had done to Cisco in the day Barry had erased.

Barry knew it wasn't technically him. It was Al that had done it, but he still made part of Al. Barry still didn't know how his eyes went yellow, or if that's why there were gaps in his memory of the fight. He shuddered again. What if it was some horrible part of his powers? Like some speedster version of the Avatar state, he couldn't control?

He was scared of it, of himself. He couldn't bear the thought of hurting people, indirectly or not.

Apparently, Al killing shocked them enough to unfuze, Barry staying in his yellow-eyed state until he and FIRESTORM had gotten rid of the singularity. He came back down to the surface carrying Stein and no one else. He didn't let a single tear drop until he saw Caitlin clutching her new wedding ring.

And that's where he was, sitting in S.T.A.R. Labs by himself. He was tired and hungry but didn't feel like moving from his seat on the big treadmill. He sat staring at the wall.

"Knock, knock" Barry tilted his head to see Hunter, a takeout bag in hand. "I figured you could use a refill after all of this."

Barry nodded, suddenly very aware of his hunger pains, lightheadedness, and the dry mouth he had.

"I know it was a lot to take in." Hunter started, not knowing what to say to his boyfriend.

"You don't have to do this Hunt," Barry said staring into his lo mein. "You don't have to act like everything's going to go back to normal."

"I'm not trying to...I just want to talk with you. You've been in here all day by yourself."

"We just killed someone, Hunter. Don't I get a little alone time to think?"

"Barry" Hunter sighed "he was going to kill everyone you love. It's the only thing Al could do."

"That doesn't make it better."

"I know."

He sighed again, rubbing his forehead.

"I'm not scared that I did it, Hunter. It's just-how I felt when I did."

"What do you mean?"

"When I went into that state when I made Al go into that state, my eyes glow and all I can feel is anger, fear...my hatred for Thawne and everything he's done. That's all I could feel. I didn't feel remorse at all. That's what scares me. What if I go into that again and I hurt someone without realizing it? What if I do something worse? Hunt if I hurt people-"

"Hey, hey, Barry. That battle was one of a kind. I don't think you'll ever fight against someone who murdered your mother, who you have been trying to get since you were 11, and who was saying he was going to kill everyone you loved. That's not going to happen anytime soon, and so those emotions aren't going to be there, at least not this intensely, for anyone else. We have time to figure this out okay? We'll work on controlling it if you're that scared."

"What if I hurt someone while we're training?"

"We'll be prepared. Train in a controlled environment so you can get the hang of it slowly. You can't go around having this power be a wildcard." Hunter hugged him. "I'll be here. I'm here, okay?"

"Okay." Barry hugged Hunter tight before his stomach growled. "I may want some more of that food now."

Barry walked into the CCPD with coffee in hand. It had a lot more alcohol in it than usual, but that was mostly for taste. It had been two months since the singularity and he still was no closer to controlling his state or cleaning up the city after the disaster. He looked at the television as he passed it, shaking his head.

Flash Day. Honestly.

He took occasional sips walking up to his lab when he almost rammed into someone.

"Oh-Sorry didn't see you there." The blonde said, smoothing out her brand new police uniform.

"It's no problem," Barry said, "you're the new recruit right?"

"Patty Spivot" she smiled brightly holding out her hand. It took a second to click that Patty wanted Barry to shake it.

"Barry Allen" he smiled "I'm one of the CSI's. I work upstairs."

"I'm here to join the Meta-human task force." Patty chirped, grinning excitedly.

Barry tensed under her grip.

"Task force?" He blinked. He knew he was out of the loop a bit with work, especially the with the officers, but if there was a Meta-human task force that was recruiting how did he not hear about it? It took months for special task forces to be approved, let alone for recruits to hear about it.

"Meta...task force?" He repeated, mostly for himself.

"There are some bad people in the world now. Someone's going to have to help catch them. I want to be part of the team that does that."

"Isn't...isn't that Flash's thing?" He asked.

"These people are committing crimes. The police take down people that commit crimes. It should be our duty too, not just the Flash."

Barry was getting uncomfortable. He didn't like the idea of people getting hurt by Metas. He got hurt, but he could shake off things that would normally kill a person. Patty and other police couldn't do that.

"I just hate to see people get hurt."

"Me too," Patty said, "well, I'll see you around Barry."

And with that, she walked down the stairs to Joe's and Eddie's old desks.

Barry sighed. He actually kind of missed Eddie being around. He had transferred to one of the stations on the outskirts of the county "taking a break from all the crazy. I don't need to be going grey before I even get married." He had said, smiling at Iris with her ring.

Barry silently wished he had his own as he sat down in the hollow feeling lab. Hunter had been gone for 3 weeks for his last training. He still had a week to go and it was making Barry go insane. He wanted March to come so Hunter could be done with the army altogether. He hated wondering what was happening to him as he spent close to a month in a Nevada desert, doing god knows what.

He wanted something physical to show everyone he and Hunter where together, even when he was gone like this. They knew their wedding date from what Gideon had told them so what was Hunter waiting for?

Or maybe Barry had just been spending way too much time in the time vault. He couldn't help it. Gideon was fun to talk to and was the only person he could vent to besides Hunter without thinking he was annoying. The AI didn't care how long he talked or what he talked about. She was a computer, she just nodded along and gave recommendations off the Internet when he was done (mostly for therapists near him, but he'd get to that hump later. He didn't need another bill to pay.)

"Bear," Joe said knocking on the opened doorway. "We got a murder case at one of the nuclear power plants."

Barry flopped into his and Hunter's apartment. It had gotten nicer over the past few months, thanks to Wells' inheritance money. That seemed to be the only time Barry stomached touching the bank account. It felt wrong getting money from his mother's murder and then spending it on himself right away. He wanted to help people with it, save it for when it was needed. He had always been stingy with his money from a young age. He had picked that up from his uncle in Paris. His uncle had to be stingy with his earnings to keep his vineyard running.

Barry smiled at the memories of his family all coming together for the harvest, helping gather and then squishing the grapes with their feet in the huge bucket. His grandfather even gave him some watered down wine when his parents weren't looking.

"I guess that's when the alcoholism started" he sighed, laughing a little. "A French guy that can't get drunk. Irony at its finest."

His uncle would be jealous Barry thought. Barry had always enjoyed being with his uncle. The man had prompted Barry to live with him quite a few times after his mother's death. But stubborn Barry Allen had to stay in Central City.

He did eventually take up his family's offer and moved in with him the summer after 8th grade. Paris was a dream for Barry. His chance to start over after getting emotionally driven to the ground so many times by Tony.

"That ended well" Barry sighed.

He flopped down on the bed, thinking about Dalton. He did things that he would feel guilty about for a long time, but he was happy at Dalton in the beginning. Happiest he could remember himself being.

That's probably what confused him most. Was he supposed to look back at Sebastian fondly or not dare look back at him from the shame?

A beeping on his phone made him come out of his mental rabbit hole. A robbery at 6th. Thank god for police alerts, otherwise, he would have been screwed these last few months without Cisco.

Yes, he was crime-fighting alone, but it had to be done. He couldn't bear to lose another person.

"Barry" Iris said coming into Jitters.

"If this whole superhero thing doesn't work out, you can be a contractor." She smiled

"I can be a lot of things, to be honest," Barry said, pulling his headphones down to his neck.

"You know there are rumors going around of places being mysteriously re-built." Iris gave him a look "mystery solved. Don't you sleep?"

"Not really" Barry sighed "I just-I want to to see the damage to the city be undone as quickly as possible, and that means me doing it."

"It will be" Iris went up to him, putting a hand on his shoulder. "You don't have to do this alone Barry."

"Yes, I do" he sighed "I can't have more people die because of me Iris...I'm not the person who saved the city."

"You are a hero to the city Barry. Ronnie made his choice. He could have stayed on the ground, but he didn't. Neither did you."

"But I survived...and they'll never know he gave his life."

"Yes, you did" Iris gripped his shoulder "and yes, they don't know. If you don't tell them how will they? Just tell them about FIRESTORM's sacrifice and maybe he'll get credit too."

"Tell them? Oh...you mean Flash Day."

"The mayor is giving you the key to the city. You'll have the whole of Central City watching. What better time right?"

"I can't give a speech! You know how easy it is to un-jumble a voice and put it through a database?"

"Then think of some other way. You're smart enough." Iris ruffled his hair. "Use that valedictorian brain of yours."

Barry chuckled "alright."

"So you're going?"

"Like I have a choice now?" He smiled, missing this. He hadn't set foot in the West or her and Eddie's house since the singularity, so seeing Iris was rare.

"I got to go. Eddie will be home soon." Iris stayed looking at her watch.

"How is Mr. Pretty Boy these days?"

"Bored, nothing happens in the country. He's looking into other cases in his spare time. Getting pretty interested in that missing Farris Air pilot."

Barry almost choked on air. Of course he was looking into Hal Jorden's case of all things.

Good luck, he thought. He smirked thinking of his last encounter with the glowing green space cop that was Green Lantern. It was last month that he and GL ran into each other and he figured out the Flash was Barry Allen, giving his name as a truce. They fought some aliens, saved some kids, Hunter was very jealous he'd gone to space without him.

"Barry...I know that look. That's the 'it has to do with my superhero work' look!" Iris poked him. "What do you know about Hal Jorden?!"

"He's not dead? Also very hot."

"Barry! You have a boyfriend!"

"I still have EYES!"

Barry raced to the Flash Day stage, typed letter in hand. He planned on slipping it in the Mayor's hand before he would be done with the speech. It was the only way Barry could think of to convey everything about what Ronnie did for the city without letting his voice be on record.

He flashed on the podium before the mayor was done. People cheered as he stood by the edge of the platform, and for the first time since high school he felt sheepish to be on stage.

The mayor read the note, thanking FIRESTORM for his sacrifice and all the others involved. It killed Barry that he couldn't actually name any names, Eddie's especially.

"...and so I present this key to the city to you Flash. The doors of this city will forever be open to you."

Barry reached out and grabbed the key, opening his mouth slightly before realizing he shouldn't talk. He just sighed 'thank you,' one of the few ASL words he knew.

People cheered, then it went south.

Of course a day named after him would go completely wrong. Did anything for him ever go right?

A few things about the changes I made. One, It always annoyed me that the hero tends to just stand there not doing anything while the villain monologues. So I fixed that (and Eddie's death) and I also always wondered why Wells had red glowing eyes when using his powers but Barry is never seen with yellow since they're reverses of each other. It just seemed like a cool concept to me.