The Sky Is a Mirror of My Emotions

Disclaimer: I do not own DN Angel or anything associated with DN Angel but please I do own Kira and anything in common with her and other fictional characters is purely coincidental

Warnings: Yaoi (malexmale relationships), occasional swearing, mild violence

"talking" - talking

italics – character thinking

'underlined' – Dark and Daisuke talking to each other

"underlined" – Krad and Satoshi talking to each other

Chapter 3: The Fountain of Sorrow

Kira watched the two boys while she wandered around Satoshi's apartment doing various cleaning jobs that never seemed to get done. She knew it wasn't Satoshis fault. Living with Krad inside him was probably hell, apart from the fact that he still went to school and was part of the police force.

She dared not go near his desk in the study, which was littered with assorted police forms, museum blueprints and broken pens. Half empty coffee mugs, that had been sitting there for God knows how long, were used as paperweights and the small lamp at the desk had collected so much dust it appeared to be grey instead of its usual black. She preferred to dust around it instead.

The whole apartment was stark white and he had indicated to Kira in various emails between the two that he wanted to paint it; he just didn't have the time. It was sad, she thought, because it made the entire place feel so hostile, so … lifeless. He really needs someone in his life and I know just who but nooo, he keeps ignoring the fact! He doesn't have to be alone ... he knows that, he's just afraid ... like always. Satoshi was afraid of being hurt again, and so he would crawl back into his emotionless shell when anyone drew near enough. The only people he had ever come close to letting past that emotionless façade were Kira, because he couldn't avoid her and her general happiness, and Daisuke, because he loved and needed Daisuke more than anything in the world.

The person Kira knew Satoshi needed the most was currently sitting right next to him, with a very confused look on his face. It was now almost beyond obvious that the two liked each other. You just had to look at the way Daisuke almost went as red in the face as his hair when Satoshi leaned over to point something out to him; or the way Satoshi would look over his glasses at Daisuke with an amused, caring look in his eyes that was easy to miss if you weren't watching. Sadly, Daisuke wasn't watching. He was staring blankly at the piece of paper on the table, his head cocked to one side as if that would make his brain function better.

"Well, if you have x over 10 equals 4 over 7 you just cross multiply, yes?" Satoshi asked calmly. Daisuke nodded but his nod was quickly followed by a 'no'. Kira smiled as Satoshi proceeded to explain everything all over again. Satoshi usually didn't have patience with people who couldn't understand what he was on about, but she knew he'd wait until the ends of the earth to explain something to Daisuke. How come they haven't noticed!? It's so obvious!

'Perhaps they have but they know it can never be,' Angel's soft voice drifted in from the back of Kira's mind like a swirling fog.

'Perhaps. Or perhaps they're just idiots,' Kira retorted as she watched the two boys accidentally bump heads as they leaned in to look at something in Daisuke's book.

"Ah! Hiwatari-kun, I'm sorry!" Daisuke quickly started rambling apologies whilst rubbing the front of his head.

"Niwa," Satoshi's face was emotionless but his voice wavered and a faint blush was showing across his cheeks.

"Yes, Hiwatari-kun?" Daisuke looked up at Satoshi hopefully. Kira had no idea what he was hoping for. An amazing confession of love because they bumped heads...? That would be nice, she thought dryly.

"It's okay, Dai- I mean Niwa-kun," Satoshi had regained composure somewhat.

"You can call me Daisuke…if you want…" Daisuke voice trailed off as he looked back down at the paper again.

"Alright … Daisuke-kun, but you would have to call me Satoshi, okay?" Satoshi was looking equally uncomfortable as if they were saying this over a microphone or something.

"Sure, Hi-Satoshi-kun!" Daisuke's face lit up. He had no idea why he felt so happy when Satoshi called him by his first name. It made him feel...

'Warm and fuzzy inside, Dai-chan!?'

'Shut up, Dark,' Strangely enough, Dark was right. Dark was never right! Well, not usually.

"Thanks heaps, Satoshi-kun! I would have never known what to do without your help!" Daisuke beamed one of his famous 'happy smiles' at Satoshi as he packed up his books.

"You're welcome," was all Satoshi could manage. He'd never really had anyone thank him with such sincerity before.

"Oh, you're leaving already, Daisuke-kun?!" Kira came out of the kitchen with a cloth and bucket of water in her hands. Somehow Satoshi knew this conversation wasn't going to end without Kira saying something to embarrass Daisuke and, most likely, him.

"Yes," Daisuke appeared happy like always on the outside but Satoshi could hear the annoyed undertones in his voice which meant he was arguing with Dark, "Satoshi helped me with all the math so yeah…I'm going now…"

'C'mon! Ask him out Daisuke! You know you want to!' Dark teased. He wanted to leave as much as Daisuke didn't want to, but he couldn't resist the chance to tease his little host.

'What! With his friend standing right there?! I mean, no! I don't want to go out with Satoshi! He's my best friend!' Daisuke retorted not noticing the silent eye battle between Satoshi and Kira.

"Sorry, did you say something?" he asked dazedly, wondering why they were now both staring at him.

"I was just asking if you two would like to show me around the town quickly, before it gets dark, because I've never been here before," Kira said before glancing at Satoshi.

"Would you like to, Daisuke-kun?" Satoshi looked in his direction but avoided eye contact. Again Daisuke's heart leapt when Satoshi said his name but he quickly gained control of himself before he floated into fairy land.

"Y-yeah, that'd be great!" Daisuke stuttered happily.

"You two better put jackets on; it's freezing out there. And it gets even colder when you're on the bike," Satoshi said donning his own jacket from the front hallway.

"...Bike?" Daisuke put his books back down on the table and followed Satoshi down the hallway, zipping up his jacket.

"It'll be the quickest way to show Kira around. It's going to get dark soon and we'll freeze if we're not back before then," there was a hint of amusement in Satoshi's voice as he handed a motorbike helmet to the very afraid Daisuke.

"Keys," Kira gently threw a pair of keys to Satoshi before wrapping her blue scarf tightly around her neck. Satoshi caught them without looking up.

"Oh, I love Satoshi's bike!" Kira said happily as she caught the helmet that had been thrown rather hard at her with ease.

'Dark … why do I get the feeling I'm not going to like this?!' Daisuke started panicking in his head.

'You'll be fine, you big cry baby. Creepy boy is there to protect you.'

Satoshi looked down and noticed that Daisuke was fiddling with his helmet nervously. He waited before Kira had gone out the front door before he leant down and whispered next to Daisuke's ear, "You'll be fine."

Daisuke nearly jumped out of his skin, again, when he noticed how close Satoshi was, "T-thanks."

Satoshi pulled back and smiled warmly at Daisuke … who thought he was going to faint with happiness.

"C'mon you guys! It's absolutely freezing out here!" Kira's voice broke the boys reverie and they quickly headed out, red tinting their faces.

"Considering that you come from Russia, I find it hard to believe you feel the cold," Satoshi commented dryly before putting on his helmet. He glanced at Daisuke who was having serious trouble getting his helmet on. Satoshi leaned over and firmly pushed down on the helmet which clunked into place on Daisuke's head. Kira stifled her laughter by going into a small coughing fit. Red hair sprouted from under the helmet on all sides, leaving Daisuke will very little room to see.

"Thanks, Satoshi-kun," Daisuke mumbled almost incoherently whilst trying to push hair out of his eyes.

"Hm, I think Daisuke needs to sit in the middle. He seems to have … very little experience with motorbikes, don't you agree, Satoshi?" Kira smiled 'innocently' at Satoshi.

"Hn."

'Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no! Dark! Help me please!' Daisuke was currently whizzing threw traffic, clinging to Satoshi like he was going to die. Which he thought was going to happen. He buried his face deeper into Satoshi's jacket.

'Why do I need to help you? You're happy where you are, aren't you?' Dark mumbled, having being woken up by Daisuke's yelling.

'Not really!' Daisuke closed his eyes tight as another car flew past. The biting wind suddenly stopped and he heard Satoshi and Kira speaking. This happened a few times but Daisuke was happier to just sit there, silently enjoying the warmth radiating from Satoshi.

'You're hugging Creepy Boy; what more could you want? Now leave me 'lone,' Dark rolled back over and went to sleep, oblivious to Daisukes verbal abuse.

Suddenly, after what seemed forever to Daisuke they stopped again. Looking up he realised they were next to the main park.

"Well, there's the park you wanted to see so much. If you want to see the water fountain you can hop off and see it but I think I'll stay here," Satoshi was saying, taking the keys out of the ignition.

"Thank you, Satoshi! I swear I'll be two seconds!" Kira jumped off the bike, discarding her helmet on the seat behind Daisuke. She walked off down the path and soon disappeared behind some trees. Daisuke let his head rest against Satoshi's back again.

"Daisuke? Are you alright back there?" a low voice filled with concern came from in front of him.

"Yes," he mumbled into Satoshi's black, leather jacket.

"I'll take us back after this. It's just that Kira really wants to see this fountain," a warm hand rested on the one Daisuke had wrapped around Satoshi's waist. Daisuke resisted the urge to pull back in fear before relaxing.

"Why does she want to see it so much?" Daisuke turned his head so he could see the park.

A picture of the beautiful fountain in the middle of the park came to him. It depicted, in white stone, a stunning angel in a flowing robe reaching her hands out to another angel, a man this time, who was on his knees and was turning away from her. The female angel had a mournful expression on her face and her long, fluid hair fell elegantly around her face. The male angel had long hair too, and looked a lot like the female. His face however showed a look of disgust as he turned away from the females help. His robe started at his waist and collected on the ground around his knees. Water flowed from the small platform they were on, into the fountain below. It was a beautiful statue, and Dark agreed with him. It was called the "Fountain of Sorrow". The male angel was familiar but Daisuke had never really thought about it. Dark, on the hand, knew exactly who it was.

"She's like us, Daisuke-kun. You know, the female angel on the fountain?" Satoshi explained as he looked down at Daisuke who nodded, "She is called Angel, and she lives within Kira."

"Kira-san?!"

"Yes. She is a creation of the Hikari clan but broke away when she refused to fight the Niwas. She lives from host to host, trying to do good for common people. I'm not sure if Kira knows or not, but it usually ends up killing the host," Satoshi's voice was low and his hand tightened unconciously around Daisuke's.

"T-the other angel?" Daisuke stuttered, not believing that there could be any other than the two fallen angels that resided within Satoshi and himself.

"Krad." Dark and Satoshi said simultaneously.

"Is it possible to be separate from Krad or Dark or Angel?" Daisuke looked hopefully up at Satoshi who looked away.

"Only at the expense of the host's life."

"Oh," Daisuke's face fell, "So, you're always going to be stuck with Krad until…"

"Until I die?" Satoshi looked away, "Yes."

Daisuke could not offer any comfort other than to hug Satoshi evenly more tightly around the waist. It wasn't so bad being stuck with Dark for eternity but Krad…surely it would kill anyone.

A/N:
Hopefully there was a bit more Sato/Dai fluff in there for you, and also that Kira's role in this story is becoming a bit clearer!

Sorry it took so long for me to update but school has becoming a nightmare lately. I will hopefully get the next chapter up and running in the next 2 weeks. Lots of ideas, so little time!

Edit: Just cleaning up grammar, spelling, really bad word choices etc.