The Sky Is a Mirror of My Emotions

Disclaimer: I do not own DN Angel or anything associated with DN Angel but please I do own Kira and anything in common with her and other fictional characters is purely coincidental

Warnings: Yaoi (malexmale relationships), occasional swearing, mild violence

"talking" - talking

italics – character thinking

'underlined' – Dark and Daisuke talking to each other

"underlined" – Krad and Satoshi talking to each other

Chapter 6: Ice and Snow

"Your eyes look into the darkness, don't they? Are those eyes really yours? Or is it the other you that is seeing through them?" Daisuke's father's words resonated through his uneasy sleep. Satoshi was suspended in darkness, and the figure of Kosuke stood in front of him in a small circle of light.

"I'm not originally from the Niwa family…but because of that…I believe I can see certain truths. Try to look into the light … as your real name implies," the man smiled at him.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Satoshi heard himself say. No! his inner self cried out, I do know! I do want to look into the light! Don't leave me in the dark with them!

"Gomen, gomen … it's just that I can't stand to see kids like you suffering," Kosuke smiled again and looked exactly like Daisuke when he was embarrassed. Which was most of the time. I suffer for what I am destined to be, Satoshi felt a crystal tear fall slowly down his face. It left a small trail of blood behind it. I don't want to suffer, but I must, so I suffer alone.

"Daisuke is always worrying too, just like you. I hope that Daisuke will be able to understand that the past has nothing to do with you now," Kosuke continued, unaware of Satoshi's thoughts. It has everything to do with us. We can't be friends because there are enemies living within us that wish to kill the other. The past has condemned us to this.

"You are not condemned Elliot, look past your curse to the person you love and you will overcome all barriers," Kosuke's eyes had glazed over and Satoshi knew this was no longer his memory. Elliot? But … Kosuke and the light began to fade.

"No! Don't leave me here! Please don't leave! What do you mean? I don't understand!" He cried out but the light faded to nothing and he was once again surrounded by the endless cold and dark with the faint sound of Krad's laughter floating in the background.

The darkness slowly faded away as Kira blinked. The world fuzzily came back in to view, but the sunlight coming through the window was retreating quickly. Dull pain thudded in her chest with every breath. It was suffocating and each small movement only led to more. She could feel the blood in her lungs rattle as she breathed slowly. It's getting worse…

Suddenly she noticed that her hand was warm. Looking down she saw Satoshi draped over the edge of the bed, facing her. His head was leaning on his hands which were tightly grasping hers. He was asleep and his breathing was calm yet she could see something in his face which told her he was troubled. The tracks of dried tears lined his face and his broken glasses lay next to him. Oh Satoshi…she sighed. Daisuke is gone… Dark must have sent a note. What time is fate calling tonight?

Carefully, she lifted her hand from underneath his and stroked his sky blue hair. You used to be so happy before you found out who you really were and what you had done… A tear rolled down Satoshi's cheek. I know you are thinking of him. Who else causes you so much pain?

"No! Don't leave me here! Please don't leave! What do you mean? I don't understand!" he suddenly cried out in his sleep. I've heard him call out 'please don't leave me' before but 'I don't understand'?

"K-kira?" a weary voice came from underneath her hand.

"Hey Commander, how's it going?" she asked gently in English. Satoshi wearily smiled up at her and wiped away the tears from his face.

"You've been living in England too long. It's gone to your head and now you're actually thinking in English," he smirked, smoothly avoiding the question.

"True. I forget which language I'm meant to be speaking and which to be thinking. It's all too confusing. Where's Daisuke-kun?" Kira refused to let him change the subject now. A faint blush crossed Satoshi's face but it left only desolation in its wake.

"Dark is stealing 'The Angel's Tears' tonight at seven fifteen," was the only answer she received. He did not meet her eyes. Kira's face fell.

"Of all the times to steal that," she sighed, "What time is it now?"

"Just past six o'clock," Satoshi glanced at his watch as he sat up in the chair he had been sitting in next to her bed and stared out the window.

"You had better go and find a spare pair of glasses then," she laughed, pain shooting through her, "How did that happen anyway?"

"You knocked them off and they must have broken. I found them in the snow after I dropped Daisuke home," he replied dryly, ignoring Kira sticking her tongue out at him in a very immature way.

"How on Earth did you manage to drive without them?!" she was shocked. He looked away. Slowly she leaned over and picked them up. Looking through them she could see the world perfectly except for the long crack down one lens, "They're just … glass."

"Yes," he was looking down and his hair fell in front of his face, obscuring her view of him.

"Then…why?" she asked quietly. There are so many things I will still never know about you, Satoshi…

"It doesn't matter. You had better rest and I'd better get ready to go," he made to leave.

"I'm coming with you tonight," she called after him, trying to sit up.

"Kira, no! You can't come in the state you're in. Do you want it to get worse?!" he turned to her. He sat down on the bed next to her and helped her sit up.

"It's getting worse anyway. Please, Satoshi…I want to see them steal 'The Angel's Tears'. I just need some cough medicine and I'll be fine for a couple of hours. Please…" she grasped his hands pleadingly. He looked away from her.

"…We'll have to leave soon," he mumbled, letting her hug him happily before she cautiously got up. He sighed after she had left. Something isn't right…

Elliot…

A/N:

I know this chapter is really short but its holidays here and I wanted to update for you before I left for a week and a half vacation.

Thanks for all your great reviews! I'm glad so many of you are enjoying the story. And enjoy my very lame page breaks 'cause I'll be using them for awhile.

And yes, the words of Kosuke's up the top in italics are straight from the anime series so I do not own them. Neither do I own the story of Ice and Snow which is where Elliot comes from.

Enjoy your hols, everyone is Aus! Ja ne!

Edit: small changes, nothing mega-huge