The Sky Is a Mirror of My Emotions
Disclaimer: I do not own DN Angel or anything associated with DN Angel but please I do own Kira and anything in common with her and other fictional characters is purely coincidental
General warnings: Yaoi (malexmale relationships), occasional swearing, mild violence
Chapter 10: Eternal Light
Fallen Angels will catch your tears,
Save you from your deepest fears.
Hear the pleas never spoken,
Keep your fragile soul unbroken.
Fallen Angels will be your light,
Give you silver wings for flight.
Hide you from the falling rain,
Hold you through all your pain.
Fallen Angels will catch your crystal tears.
Kira could not stop the copious tears from cascading down her face. She felt the piercing cold wind drying them as they fell. Opening her eyes, she was confronted with the panoramic scene of the ocean, a beautiful backdrop of stars heightening the vast feeling of the view.
"Beautiful, is it not?" Krad's voice was behind her.
"I-it is. I never thought you were one for true beauty, Krad, but I suppose I was wrong," Kira wiped her eyes before looking up at the blonde who was carrying her.
"Hn," he refused to meet her eyes, concentrating on the horizon instead. Kira could see the obvious pain in his face, and pitied the young man, but she dared not ask if he was alright. She still did not trust the Fallen Angel who had ruined her friend's innocence with his cold heart. "It is not that you are wrong… it is that you don't see every part of me… because you cannot. I will not allow it of anyone."
"I'm sure there is one person who has seen it," Kira smiled warmly as she looked over the ocean again. Boris has proved perhaps that not every single human being on the planet has the power to love, but at least the theory is not entirely lost…
"Hn. There they are," Krad glanced down at the town's fountain, which overlooked the bay. Three small figures, one purple, one blue and one red, stood below them. Krad pulled his wings in, letting him and his passenger fall towards the ground at an incredible speed. His long blonde hair flowed behind them, a small cross at the end.
Kira didn't scream. She didn't feel the need. She didn't feel safe but somehow she knew, for a brief moment, a kind of absolution with the world.
I'll never fly again… the simultaneous thought pierced the soul of every single one of them and left a vast sense of emptiness in its wake.
Krad pulled up at the last second, sending specks of snow flying in all directions as he landed gently on the pavement. Setting Kira down lightly, he looked up at Dark. Our time has come…
"It won't be long before the police find us again," Dark said monotonously, "Krad here isn't exactly the height of disguise…"
"Where is An- Rei? Is she alright?" Satoshi asked worriedly, putting a comforting hand on his friend's shoulder. Kira looked up at Satoshi, blinking back the tears. Her light blue eyes had turned a deep shade of navy like the night sky above them. Satoshi put his arms around his friend uncertainly.
"She's happier now, where she is," Krad said emotionlessly, looking at his tamer from underneath golden bangs. Satoshi's eyes turned cold as they fell upon the tormentor.
"He's right," Kira said firmly, looking around at Daisuke and Satoshi, "We'll all have time to mourn later. Right now you're running out of time." She looked up at Krad who was leaning against the town's fountain.
"You mean… we have to seal you now…" Daisuke said dejectedly. Dark nodded.
"We can't really let the Hikari artworks run wild, can we?," Dark joked before turning more serious as he saw Daisuke's face, "And we wouldn't want you guys to die…"
If I recall, far far away
The future was shining on everywhere
Beneath the beautiful blue sky
We were just a little afraid
Daisuke remembered back to when he first found out he was Dark. At first the thought of another person sharing his body, and that person being an art thief, scared him. He had rejected Dark. He didn't like the fact that another person was always talking to him inside his head, making annoying, and at times, perverted comments about his everyday life.
There had been times when he thought that Dark had cared little about how he felt. When the phantom thief had kissed Risa, or when he constantly made jokes about how stupid, clumsy or scared Daisuke was.
His mother had always promised the sacred maiden would turn Daisuke back. He looked forward to the day when he would be just Daisuke again but as time went along, Dark became less of an intruder and more a part of life. Stealing became fun; fighting Krad became destiny. Dark and he became one entity. Now, Daisuke could not imagine a life without Dark.
If I keep on looking forward
Will I meet you again?
Because the future really continues on forever
Underneath a large sign
I want to watch time change
Dark had watched time change for what seemed to be an eternity. Another generation of Niwa males became fourteen, another couple of years stealing and fighting Krad, another sacred maiden found, another goodbye, another stretch of darkness, another generation. Time, Dark had found, never stopped. It was eternal, it repeated itself, it stumbled, it continued to move.
Dark never though he would become tired of watching time pass by him. If he looked into the future, it was a never ending stretch of known pain that he no longer wanted to face. The only light left in the future was Krad. He unfailingly met his other half again and again through the changing time. But this was the last time. There were no more Niwas, there were no more Hikaris. Time had to end, here and now.
Daisuke was one of the best hosts he had had. True, the boy sometimes annoyed him with his seemingly slow intellect, but Dark knew there was much more to the boy than anyone could see. Daisuke was smart, if only he would realise it and use the brain he had been given, and courageous and strong. No one could see that but Dark. He rolled his eyes every time Daisuke stated the absolute obvious, and then mocked him but truly he wouldn't change anything about Daisuke if he could. He loved Daisuke for his earnest, caring nature and the fact that he would go against destiny at any cost.
Sometimes I just want to doubt
Our promises made long ago
I could never forget
My fears, my lies
Below the blue sky
Long ago, when Satoshi was four, he had an imaginary friend with long blonde hair, and pure white wings. He was Satoshi's guardian angel who had promised him that he would come and save him from the orphanage. He was still there when Satoshi was taken in by Commander Hiwatari. Satoshi's angel promised he would protect Satoshi from the man he was forced to call father. His angel held him through all the pain, but then he came to close and began to be the cause of the pain.
Satoshi eventually closed his emotions off from the world as Krad instructed him to do. The angel asked his little tamer to look only to him for affection and help. Satoshi cringed when he remembered how Krad's silken promises had fallen apart before his eyes. He doubted now whether the angel had ever meant any of those words.
He tried to find any emotions that were sympathetic to the blonde but nothing was there. An empty part of his soul was where everything that was Krad resided. The angel had always tugged at Satoshi's whole being, pulling him towards the darkness. Now that his guardian angel was to leave, Satoshi abandoned everything the angel had taught him and felt a wave of joy, tainted with sadness and regret, wash over him. After all, Krad had been the only one who had been there for him.
When I remember back far, far
The future was forever shining
Below the pretty blue sky
We slept endlessly
The Hikaris had never been sane. They were true artists, pouring their hearts and souls into their artwork. The only thing they had never put any heart or soul into was Krad. The angel has spent a hundred years in the shadow of affection. Krad loved beauty, and therefore loved every single Hikari, as they were true creations of cold beauty. Each host he had had over the years was a pure white marble statue. Each was as delicate as glass, and each hated him dearly as those before them. No matter how much he loved his dear works of art, they turned on him and he was cast aside.
Satoshi was his most prized 'artwork'. Krad admired the boy's cold beauty and his strength. He trained his Hikari to never feel anything for anyone besides him. Krad never foresaw that the boy would close himself from the world entirely. Eventually Satoshi became nothing to him but another useless vessel, like all the others. Although he still saw Satoshi as that, he could never ignore the fact that this was his most beautiful artwork. He did not want to break his most beautiful artwork.
This continual rejection was repeated every generation, turning Krad into the homicidal angel he was. Then there was Dark. His most hated enemy was the only person to show him any emotion. He had almost killed Dark three hundred years ago. He had held his other half at the point of a sword, convinced that the young man with purple hair struggling in pain beneath him was the reason the Hikari hated him. Krad was the last person to think that the three simple words he had longed to hear from his works of art, would come from the one whom he wished to kill. He was even more surprised to find himself needing those words each time a generation came along. Each time they lay watching the endless night sky, he needed those words. Now, he could have them for eternity.
Towards the people, the places
I will never see again
I open this window
Dong…The clock began to strike again. Each person awoke from their reverie to find they were staring aimlessly out to the deep blue ocean.
"Shoot! We can't possibly have been standing here for an hour!" Dark exclaimed looking up to the sky. The moon had moved around the sky since he last looked.
"Time is already beginning to be pulled by the artworks. The "Birds of Time" must have become unsealed," Krad towards the town and could see ghostly shapes appearing in the air.
"We have to be quick then. Are you ready?" Dark asked his other self, pulling out a black feather.
"As always," Krad replied with a thin smile across his face.
Dong…
"Daisuke, you need to take this," Dark pulled another feather from inside the one he was holding, "Hold it out towards mine and repeat what I say, ok?"
Daisuke carefully reached over and took the feather from his friend. Satoshi awkwardly received the same from his counterpart.
"Dark, I-" Daisuke started.
Dong…
"Stand across from me, in this," Dark said distractedly. He was drawing two circles in the thin layer of snow with his thumb. He pressed down and suddenly black feathers appeared out of no where to form the circle. They had a faint purple glow about them.
"Y-yeah," Daisuke stepped into the circle as Dark took his place. Daisuke looked over at Satoshi who was standing across from Krad in a circle of glowing white feathers. He was holding a white feather out in front of him and staring straight at his other half.
"I suppose this is goodbye, Satoshi-sama," Krad smiled at the blue haired boy.
Dong…
"I suppose it is, Krad," was Satoshi's emotionless response. Something in his eyes changed suddenly and he added, "Thank you… for being my guardian angel."
"Does this mean we part as friends?" Krad was still smiling but there was a sense of regret now.
"No. Not now. Not ever. We were one Krad, but you and I will never be the same," Satoshi looked down but his eyes were drawn back up.
"I know. What a pity. You were the best Satoshi, my most prized work or art. Remember that," Krad's smile faded.
Dong…
"Are you two ready?" Krad looked over at Dark and Daisuke.
"Wait! No!" Daisuke suddenly exclaimed.
"Wha-" Dark looked over at the red head and was almost bowled over by a hug.
Dong…
"Sayonara, Dark. I won't forget you…" a small voice came from beneath him. Dark smiled and hugged the young boy back.
"I won't forget you either… Daisuke," Dark held the boy out at arms length and saw the tears in the others eyes. The boy gave him his usual big smile before stepping back into the circle.
"Kira, you may want to get back a bit," Dark said sternly looking over to the girl sitting on the fountains edge, "And… I'm sure we will see Rei, with Kaworu, as they were meant to be…"
Kira smiled. "I'm sure you will," she replied quietly.
Dong…
"Signum Hikari professio officina absentis," Dark murmured, holding the feather towards Daisuke. Krad could be heard echoeing the words.
"Signum Hikari professio officina absentis," Daisuke and Satoshi repeated carefully.
"Signum Angelus prognatus of Niger Pennae. Solvo phasmatis of eternus," the Angel's monotonous sound resounded around them. Light began to collect from with in the feathers.
Dong…
"Signum Angelus prognatus of Niger Pennae. Solvo phasmatis of eternus," the tamers voices came together as wind began to pick up. Snow gently moved around their feet and the feathers in the circles began to dance around them.
"Solvo redomo of suum Angelus." Kira gasped as she was thrown back by some invisible force. An orb of light had formed around the four. Kira touched the orb but her hand was shocked backwards.
"Solvo redomo of suum Angelus." The feathers were moving faster and faster in their circles. The four began to lift from the ground. Their eyes are closed…Kira watched in fascination…do they know what's happening around them?
Dong…
"Transporto ut Olympus Angelus of vetus." The circles moved towards one another and slowly white became one with black. The feathers joined together and began send beams of light towards the sky.
Kira could hardly hear the sirens above the growing roar. The wind was like a caged beast that had been let loose. Shapes were appearing in the wind now. They were coming from the town.
"Transporto ut Olympus Angelus of vetus."
She turned around and suddenly a brilliant sight met her eyes. The city was lit up before her and thousands of ghosts were in the air, moving towards the orb, all in the shapes of different art works. She turned back to the orb to see the shapes being sucked in and begin spinning along with the other chaos with in it.
Dong…
"Permissum novus tempus of lux lucis adveho inter." Dark looked over at Krad who was floating right next to him. Black and white feathers along with hundreds of other images were whizzing past his view. This was the final step. He glanced at Daisuke and Satoshi who were in a circle of feathers opposite them.
"Sayonara, Daisuke," he said, drawing Krad to him. The blonde angel smiled up at him.
"Permissum novus tempus of lux lucis adveho inter," the tamers finally echoed. They opened their eyes, silently asking if there was something else to be said; anything to put off the final moment. Dark shook his head and Satoshi grabbed Daisuke's free hand with his.
Dong…
The entire world outside seemed to freeze for a moment. Kira looked up. The wind had stopped and all the shapes had been pulled into the orb. Nothing was left but empty silence. She could no longer hear the sirens. Everything inside the orb had momentarily stopped too. Inside no one was moving. Suddenly Dark turned to Krad.
"I love you."
Dong…
The orb exploded. The roaring sound was joined with screams and the force knocked Kira onto her knees. She covered her ears with her hands and shut her eyes tightly against the white light that had invaded every corner of the town. People everywhere were forced to the ground with the blast.
The souls of the Hikari art works burst into a million pieces, falling gently across the sea. The orbs golden glow faded before it too shattered. The last remnants of Krad and Dark faded into the sky as golden particles.
The last thing Daisuke and Satoshi saw were white wings fading into the night sky.
Daisuke opened his eyes slowly. Bright light was shining from beside him, making the already difficult task more painful. His head was resting on something cold and wet. He tried to move but his body refused to respond. He heard a groan followed by a rustling noise close by, and suddenly a shadow passed over his eyes.
"Dai-suke?" a familiar voice came above him. The speaker was obviously having trouble putting words together by the sound of it.
"Hm," Daisuke managed to open his eyes. Satoshi sitting in front of him and the bright light was coming from behind him. Satoshi gave him a hand and helped the younger boy sit up. Daisuke sat up but his head was spinning with the sudden movement and he immediately fell forward against Satoshi's chest.
"Try not to move too much. We've used a lot of magic," Satoshi said calmly. Daisuke nodded and put his arms around Satoshi's waist.
"What…what happened?" he asked, still having trouble thinking. Taking a look around Daisuke found that they were sitting on the cold pavement next to the town's fountain. Kira was lying motionless a few metres away from them. He could see her chest rising and falling steadily.
"We ... we sealed Krad and Dark," Satoshi replied wearily, leaning his head against Daisuke's. Memories of the night before came flooding back to Daisuke.
He felt a constricting pain in his chest when he remembered that he would never see Dark again. Silent tears began to fall. Satoshi could feel his shirt becoming soaked but he didn't need to ask why. He put his arms around Daisuke and hugged him tightly. They sat there in silence for awhile, grieving silently, with Satoshi gently stroking Daisuke's hair.
"How come the police haven't found us yet?" Daisuke asked after awhile.
"I don't know, but I think when the magic shattered, it must have knocked everyone out. They would have found us otherwise," Satoshi suggested. He shrugged the idea off. Their other selves were gone but they still didn't need to be found at the scene of the destruction.
"Hnnn," coughing, Kira rolled over and pushed herself off the ground. Sitting up she blinked a couple of times, wiping the blood off her mouth, "What the heck happened here?"
"Hello to you, too," Satoshi smiled at his ever blunt friend, "We sealed Krad and Dark and now we're here."
Kira looked at him. Then Daisuke. Then back to Satoshi. "God, I wish I had a camera right now. It's such a Kodak moment." Satoshi rolled his eyes at her, and he could feel Daisuke smile against his chest. But then the smiles faded again.
"I am sorry about Krad and Dark though…well, mainly Dark," she said solemnly. Getting up slowly and shakily she looked out towards the sea, over the stone railing of the fountain, "What a beautiful sunrise."
Daisuke tried in vain to get up but fell back down half way.
"Bit too much magic, no?" Kira asked as she put Daisuke's arm over her shoulder and heaved him up.
"Just a bit," Daisuke smiled at her as she leant him against the railing. Slowly he began to feel steadier on his feet and the world stopped swaying. Kira pulled Satoshi up and the three of them looked over the water to the sun, which was slowly making its way up the horizon, spreading rays of golden light tinged with pink across the sky.
"It is beautiful…" The world was silent. The blue sky was empty and crystal clear. The morning sun was bringing vibrant new colours into the picturesque scene and everywhere dark began to fade to light.
"Eternal light…" Daisuke muttered.
"Hm?" Satoshi raised an eyebrow at him. Daisuke glanced over at the boy. The sun was glinting of his blue hair and slowly drying the patch of his shirt soaked with Daisuke's tears.
"Nothing," he smiled and leaned into the blunette's embrace.
"I'm going to miss Angel..." Kira said sadly. She looked down and smiled, "But now, I can finally go back to England and raise my sister…and I can live. I can breathe."
"I know what you mean…" Daisuke sighed. He really was going to miss Dark's teasing and taunting, and presence. But I can live a normal life now…
"I'm not sure whether I'll miss Krad but living without all the pain he caused sounds pretty good," Satoshi smiled, giving Daisuke a nudge and a smile that said everything would be alright.
"We'd better get out of here. Everyone is probably waking up and that means they're going to be looking for us," Daisuke turned to face the town which, true to his guess, was just waking up.
"Do we have an alibi? 'Cause they really are looking for us all… especially you two. They actually caught footage of you on camera. There is no way your going to be able to deny that! Your hair is too…how should I say…noticeable?" Kira began as they made their way up the steps. She was supporting Daisuke who was supporting Satoshi in a rather odd looking line.
"Are you serious?" Satoshi froze for a moment and stared at Kira.
"Yep," she smiled and repositioned Daisuke's arm to be more comfortable.
"I might be able to explain us all out of that one…" Satoshi thought of the now imminent meeting that would take place between him and his father.
"Psh. Like how?" Kira looked up and down the road they had come too. It was still silent now but soon would be filled with flashing blue and red lights and screaming sirens.
"Say that Dark and Krad caught us up in the fight and used Daisuke as a hostage," he tried to think it through logically. It was a long shot, but then again, it was the police. Looking down he noticed the look on Daisuke's face, "It's nothing against Dark but we have to explain it somehow, ne?"
Daisuke nodded. He was also thinking of the explanations he was going to have to give. How am I going to explain this to oka-san? (1)
"Kira, why are we here?" Satoshi looked down the path at the park's entrance, "There's probably police all around here."
"I promised Angel I would come back to the 'Fountain of Sorrow'," she said determinedly down the path, "You guys can stay here if you want."
"Nah, it's alright. I think we can move a bit better now," Satoshi said as they followed the path to the fountain. They reached the fountain and found Rei's body still lying there in a pool of blood. There was a gaping wound where the sword had entered her body but the sword was no where to be found. Police tape surrounded the area and there were two policemen lying motionless on the ground.
"Rei…" Kira knelt down and ran a hand through the other girl's hair.
"Kira. Come and have a look at this," Satoshi motioned for Kira to look at the rim of the fountain where the angels were positioned. Three silver chains were hanging from niches in the rim of the fountain. At the end of each chain was a feather; one white, one black and one glass. Along the rim was written in water:
The last remaining Hikari magic left on this earth; our gift to you for eternity so that we may live on with you.
The three smiled at the gifts. The last Angel's to ever walk the face of the Earth were in Heaven where they belonged. Deep in their hearts they knew one day they would meet their Angel's again, far away, in the distant land of the departed but for now it was time to live.
For now, the happiness of the eternal light was here, on Earth, in their hearts.
- Owari -
A/N:
The lyrics are from the song Passion by Utada Hikaru. It's the English translation and I've jiggled the lyrics around a bit to fit better with the story so it might not be exact.
I made up the little poem up the top. That's why its so crumtastic.
(1) Mother in Japanese (I think)
So I'm a little melodramatic. Sue me. P
A huge thank you to all the reviewers for this story!! Your wonderful comments have kept this story going! I hope you all really enjoyed it!
I doubt I will do an epilogue cause what could I possibly write about! I'll leave it to your capable imaginations. But I get bored so keep a look out, ne? P
This story is dedicated to my two best friends, Anna and Michael, who have become completely addicted to this series and have been there to hear my pointless rants. Thank you to them for being inspiring.
It's finished! I can't believe it! Ja ne!
Edit: omg. yeah, omg. Just changed a couple of things. Not much. Hope you all enjoyed it.