SF: ok I know that I have been updating like every other day. But I'm
having some serious blockage. I want to apologies for last chapter.
Sesshomaru's castle isn't a Victorian style palace. It's more medieval.
Woops! Now about this chapter, it's going to be depressing. I'm not going
to say any thing more than after we left off Kagome went back to her own
time to get some much needed supplies. Well her portable c-d player for one
and more book and LOTS of batteries. Ok the group that I used for the song
is evanescence. I love them. I don't own Inu-Yasha or evanescence. Ok on
with the show.
What just happened
Kagome's heart shattered. The one thing she wanted the most wasn't going to be there for her. "Ok Inu-Yasha." She said while trying to hold back tears. "Just go. You wouldn't be able to handle it any way."
Inu-Yasha looked at her and then left.
Now to the real fun
3 months. 3 months since Inu-Yasha had visited her. She was going on her 5th month of pregnancy. The morning sickness had died down a little bit, but it was still there.
She didn't really feel anything. She felt like her heart was ripped out and stomped on. There was a time that all she did was lay in bed and cr. Rin had helped her get through that. No all she did was help Rin with her schooling and watch her play. It made her think of how if one of the children was a girl then she wanted her to be as free spirited as Rin. Her children. What was having children like? Maybe she should go to Kouga and have him be in her life. No. she couldn't do that. That would be betraying Inu-Yasha.
Inu-Yasha. Hadn't he betrayed her trust? Didn't he say that he didn't want her to get hurt? 'Well Inu-Yasha, I'm hurt. And it's because of you.' She laid down on her bed and cried. She was in love with Inu-Yasha, but she didn't want to be. Being in love could be good and bad. Good because she had some good memories to look at. Bad because she always hurt when she thought about him.
She was through with hurting.
"Kagome? Are you ok?" Rin poked her head in. Rin was always by her side.
"I'll be fine Rin," she said as she reached for her c-d player. "I just need to listen to some music."
"Can Rin listen too?"
"No. I need some time to think and to be alone." She knew that what she was going to do was going to break little Rin's heart. She had to kill the pain. She put her head phones on and grabbed a knife. She was going to end her suffering. She blasted her music. I tried to kill the pain But only brought more I lay dying And I'm poring Crimson regret And betrayal. I'm dying Fraying Bleeding And screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My god my tourniquet Return to me salvation My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation. Do you remember me? Lost for so long Will you be on the other side? Or will you forget me? I'm dying Fraying Bleeding And screaming, Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My god, My tourniquet Return to me salvation My god, My tourniquet Return to me salvation. (Return to me salvation) (OOOOHHH) I WANT TO DIE!!! My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation My wombs cry for the gave My soul cries, for deliverance Will I be denied Christ? Tourniquet My suicide
Kagome picked up the knife and attempted to slit her wrists. Tears were streaming down her face. "Inu-Yasha, damn you. Damn me for ever believing that I could live with you. You pushed me over the edge by leaving me."
Little did she know, Rin was outside her door watching her. When she saw Kagome trying to commit suicide she ran to Sesshomaru.
"SESSY!!!SESSY!!" Rin ran in to his room crying. "You must go to Kagome's room at once!!! She is trying to kill her self!!!"
This got Sesshomaru's attention. He got up from w here he was and ran to her room. Kagome was sitting up on her bed swaying. Tears were streaming down her face and she was muttering something. He could hear the music that was coming from that contraption. She finally heard what she was saying.
"Thank you, Inu-Yasha. You've just created my demises by leaving me." She put the knife to her stomach. Cutting her wrists was taking to long. She wanted to see where ever she was going. She raised the knife. She was about to plunge into her stomach when a strong hand stopped her.
"You don't want to be doing that." Sesshomaru said. He sensed Rin at the door. "Rin, go. I don't want you seeing this." Rin left. "What in hell possessed you to this?"
"Let me go! I want to die!" she tried to get her hand away from Sesshomaru's grasp. He wouldn't let her hand go. He reached over and took the knife out of her hands. She broke down and started crying. "I've lost every thing. My home, my love, my virginity. I lost Inu-Yasha. What did I do to deserve this? I just want to end my pain."
Sesshomaru took all of the pointy objects out of the room. He let Kagome sink on to her bed. He watched her lie there crying. He didn't want her to die. He loved her. Loved her like a sister. 'Damn Inu-Yasha for doing this. Damn him.' "I- I- I want to see my friends again. I want to be able to breathe freely. I want to feel again." 'Maybe I've kept her here too long. Tomorrow I will take her to her slayer friend.' Sesshomaru left the room. He went to Rin's room and found her on her bed crying. 'Oh great, now I have two women crying. One who is a little girl, and one very emotionally unstable woman.' He went over to Rin's bed and rubbed her back "Don't worry little one. Kagome will be ok. She just needs to get away from the castle." He got up and left the room.
The next day.
Sesshomaru walked into Kagome's room. When you looked at her you could tell that she had been crying all night. When Sesshomaru tried to approach her she got frightened. (AN: lol oh the forever changing powers of hormones.)
"Stay away from me." Sesshomaru was confused. 'ok now why is she acting so strange. "I'm coming over to take you to your friend. "No. Stay away." "Listen. You're going to go visit your friend." "No! Go away!" Sesshomaru had had enough of this. He went over to pick her up. She got scared and threw the nearest object at him. It happened to be a vase. It shattered against his head. (AN: LOL) Sesshomaru continued as if it was nothing. He picked her up a la bridal stance and carried her out the door.
End chapter
SF: ok a few things. 1) LOL I can't believe that she did that. 2) Poor Rin. She had too see Kagome try to slit her wrists and then she gets sent out of the room. 3) I'm sorry that Sesshomaru seems a little ooc. It happens. Ok well I didn't get very many reviews for the 6th chapter so I'm hoping this one will get me more reviews. Ok well next time Kagome gets to see Sango and Miroku. And a surprise gust. Ok well rember more reviews= faster typing and better chapter.
What just happened
Kagome's heart shattered. The one thing she wanted the most wasn't going to be there for her. "Ok Inu-Yasha." She said while trying to hold back tears. "Just go. You wouldn't be able to handle it any way."
Inu-Yasha looked at her and then left.
Now to the real fun
3 months. 3 months since Inu-Yasha had visited her. She was going on her 5th month of pregnancy. The morning sickness had died down a little bit, but it was still there.
She didn't really feel anything. She felt like her heart was ripped out and stomped on. There was a time that all she did was lay in bed and cr. Rin had helped her get through that. No all she did was help Rin with her schooling and watch her play. It made her think of how if one of the children was a girl then she wanted her to be as free spirited as Rin. Her children. What was having children like? Maybe she should go to Kouga and have him be in her life. No. she couldn't do that. That would be betraying Inu-Yasha.
Inu-Yasha. Hadn't he betrayed her trust? Didn't he say that he didn't want her to get hurt? 'Well Inu-Yasha, I'm hurt. And it's because of you.' She laid down on her bed and cried. She was in love with Inu-Yasha, but she didn't want to be. Being in love could be good and bad. Good because she had some good memories to look at. Bad because she always hurt when she thought about him.
She was through with hurting.
"Kagome? Are you ok?" Rin poked her head in. Rin was always by her side.
"I'll be fine Rin," she said as she reached for her c-d player. "I just need to listen to some music."
"Can Rin listen too?"
"No. I need some time to think and to be alone." She knew that what she was going to do was going to break little Rin's heart. She had to kill the pain. She put her head phones on and grabbed a knife. She was going to end her suffering. She blasted her music. I tried to kill the pain But only brought more I lay dying And I'm poring Crimson regret And betrayal. I'm dying Fraying Bleeding And screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My god my tourniquet Return to me salvation My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation. Do you remember me? Lost for so long Will you be on the other side? Or will you forget me? I'm dying Fraying Bleeding And screaming, Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My god, My tourniquet Return to me salvation My god, My tourniquet Return to me salvation. (Return to me salvation) (OOOOHHH) I WANT TO DIE!!! My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation My god My tourniquet Return to me salvation My wombs cry for the gave My soul cries, for deliverance Will I be denied Christ? Tourniquet My suicide
Kagome picked up the knife and attempted to slit her wrists. Tears were streaming down her face. "Inu-Yasha, damn you. Damn me for ever believing that I could live with you. You pushed me over the edge by leaving me."
Little did she know, Rin was outside her door watching her. When she saw Kagome trying to commit suicide she ran to Sesshomaru.
"SESSY!!!SESSY!!" Rin ran in to his room crying. "You must go to Kagome's room at once!!! She is trying to kill her self!!!"
This got Sesshomaru's attention. He got up from w here he was and ran to her room. Kagome was sitting up on her bed swaying. Tears were streaming down her face and she was muttering something. He could hear the music that was coming from that contraption. She finally heard what she was saying.
"Thank you, Inu-Yasha. You've just created my demises by leaving me." She put the knife to her stomach. Cutting her wrists was taking to long. She wanted to see where ever she was going. She raised the knife. She was about to plunge into her stomach when a strong hand stopped her.
"You don't want to be doing that." Sesshomaru said. He sensed Rin at the door. "Rin, go. I don't want you seeing this." Rin left. "What in hell possessed you to this?"
"Let me go! I want to die!" she tried to get her hand away from Sesshomaru's grasp. He wouldn't let her hand go. He reached over and took the knife out of her hands. She broke down and started crying. "I've lost every thing. My home, my love, my virginity. I lost Inu-Yasha. What did I do to deserve this? I just want to end my pain."
Sesshomaru took all of the pointy objects out of the room. He let Kagome sink on to her bed. He watched her lie there crying. He didn't want her to die. He loved her. Loved her like a sister. 'Damn Inu-Yasha for doing this. Damn him.' "I- I- I want to see my friends again. I want to be able to breathe freely. I want to feel again." 'Maybe I've kept her here too long. Tomorrow I will take her to her slayer friend.' Sesshomaru left the room. He went to Rin's room and found her on her bed crying. 'Oh great, now I have two women crying. One who is a little girl, and one very emotionally unstable woman.' He went over to Rin's bed and rubbed her back "Don't worry little one. Kagome will be ok. She just needs to get away from the castle." He got up and left the room.
The next day.
Sesshomaru walked into Kagome's room. When you looked at her you could tell that she had been crying all night. When Sesshomaru tried to approach her she got frightened. (AN: lol oh the forever changing powers of hormones.)
"Stay away from me." Sesshomaru was confused. 'ok now why is she acting so strange. "I'm coming over to take you to your friend. "No. Stay away." "Listen. You're going to go visit your friend." "No! Go away!" Sesshomaru had had enough of this. He went over to pick her up. She got scared and threw the nearest object at him. It happened to be a vase. It shattered against his head. (AN: LOL) Sesshomaru continued as if it was nothing. He picked her up a la bridal stance and carried her out the door.
End chapter
SF: ok a few things. 1) LOL I can't believe that she did that. 2) Poor Rin. She had too see Kagome try to slit her wrists and then she gets sent out of the room. 3) I'm sorry that Sesshomaru seems a little ooc. It happens. Ok well I didn't get very many reviews for the 6th chapter so I'm hoping this one will get me more reviews. Ok well next time Kagome gets to see Sango and Miroku. And a surprise gust. Ok well rember more reviews= faster typing and better chapter.