Okay guys seeing as my original idea with this story was to keep it a two-shot but it eventually turned out in so much more, I'm starting to wrap it up, there are still three chapters left and then the story will be ended. But I have some news I'll continue a story that's called Crushes originally written by mrs-captain-oats (Tanis) and I'm also starting a new story so watch out for that one.

Chapter 8: Being scared

Ryan was still leaning against the wall with Marissa next to him in only a sweat shirt, Ryan was shocked but then again who wouldn't be, he hadn't said a word after his last few shocking words. 'What did I do…what did I do?' he had said over and over again, but that had been twenty minutes. Nobody had said a word everyone clutched to their love ones for their dear life. Emily didn't dare to look at Ryan and neither did Luke, they were afraid that if they did he'd snap and do something to them. Seth and Summer however were a completely different story they eyed Ryan and Marissa, watching every move they made, Ryan hadn't attempted to move he had his arm around Marissa but that was it. Marissa kept talking to Ryan and she kept trying to tell him everything was going to be okay, that they all were going to tell the same thing to the police…that it was self defence and that the man was trying to kill him. Ryan didn't listen he didn't know what he had to do.

Yes on some level he thought the man deserved it, but then again he had killed him. The once very responsible Ryan turned into a maniac and had beaten the living hell out of another human being; he was not sure how Sandy and Kirsten were going to react if they were even going to have time to react, if he was going to jail. Never-ending scaring thoughts clouded Ryan's mind, and the realization of what he had done hit him so much harder.

Marissa felt uneasy in just Seth's sweatshirt, she felt exposed and dirty after being used so brutally she wanted to rid her self from this hurt, vulnerable, disgusting feeling, maybe she couldn't rid the feeling that was inside of her but she could at least clean herself from all the saliva that belonged to another man. She looked at Ryan who looked lost and scared and she knew what was going through his mind, he was scared for his future, he had yet again sacrificed his entire life for her. He could go to jail everything in his life could be taken away from him, and he could not experience some things in his life and all because he saved her yet again. Marissa couldn't help but feel a pang of guilt, this couldn't happen to Ryan and it simply wasn't she was going to do everything in her power to save him for once.

'Ry…' Marissa said softly in his ear, Ryan heard her scared and soft voice and got out of his trance slash shock, he turned his head slightly to look at his very scared girlfriend, it was then that he realised that he had saved someone else's life, he had not only killed a man, but he had also stopped him from doing god knows what to Marissa or the rest of them. She had yet again experienced something traumatic something that no one had to experience and she was calling his name, she was trusting him and Ryan knew he was going to do everything in his power to make her feel safe.

'Yeah' he replied hoarsely, it was then that all the heads turned towards the star crossed lovers. They all looked at Ryan and his eyes were not taken over by anger, but by sadness, remorse, guilt and regret it was also then that everyone realised Ryan was not a person to be scared of, he had thoughtfully given up his own life to protect the rest of them. What would the man have done after he was finished with Marissa, would he taken Summer or Emily next would he have killed them, there were multiple scenarios that could have happened but Ryan prevented it from happening.

'I need to shower…I need to wash all of this of off me….but I don't want to go alone…' the scared little girl in Marissa came to the surface. She locked eyes with her boyfriend's deep ocean blue irises and in that moment she knew she never wanted to leave him again, nothing was going to come between them no crazy teenage boys who liked her, no ex girlfriends with abusive fiancés, no yard guys, illegitimate love child, no siblings; nothing!

'It's okay I'll be with you…' Ryan said everyone looked frightened at Ryan and then back at the body that was lying motionlessly on the ground; Ryan took this as his cue to place the body somewhere else. He dragged the body to the closet and closed it. He looked at Seth and Seth looked at him. Seth got up and walked over to his brother for the first time in a while. They looked at each other and before Ryan could comprehend what was going on they were locked in an affectionate but brotherly embrace. Ryan choked back a sob, he was scared he would never admit it out loud but he was scared and being in this embrace with his brother made him less scared it made him feel the support he needed right now.

'I love you man.' said Seth as he clapped Ryan's back and looked at him, Ryan nodded his head in acknowledgement and Seth knew he wasn't going to say it back, that was just not like Ryan, but when Ryan walked away he pondered it over in his head, it was just his brother was it so bad to say that he loved him no it wasn't so before he left the room with Marissa he turned around slightly. 'I love you too bro…' he said barely audible, it was a little weird saying that seeing as he had never even said it to Trey but Seth and Trey were two completely different stories.

Marissa and Ryan just closed the door of the bathroom; they didn't lock it in case something happened. Marissa started to strip of her close and soon enough stood completely naked in front of Ryan. She did not feel weird nor did she feel scared, because being with him always made her feel safe. Turning on the tab Ryan held Marissa's hand and pushed her into the shower, she closed her eyes and let the hot water run down her bruised and battered thin body.

Ryan sat back on the toilet and made sure she was okay, while Marissa closed her eyes pleasant memories flashed through her mind, from the first time she met Ryan to the time he asked her to prom. Then not so pleasant memories started to flow through her mind, the memories she had tried to push away and memories that were still fresh, memories which had let marks on her body. Being on the beach with Trey completely hopeless, scared and alone and then later in a closet with a man she didn't know who had actually raped her violated her body.

Marissa felt like she was choking she started to breath heavily and the feeling of choking only kept increasing, dark dots kept dancing in front of her and she was sure she was going to pass out yet again, but this time Ryan was faster he had grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the shower grabbing something she could breath in and had calmed her down. He held her on his lap without even caring that she was naked and wet and leaving a wet spot on his leg, he just wanted to calm her down.

He succeeded after her breathing had turned to normal and she had cried on his shoulder she was calmed down breathing regularly again. Ryan knew he had to talk to her about this, he had to try and open her up to him, he couldn't do the same thing they had done with Trey simply forget that it happened, just move on and don't look back.

Ryan knew he had to talk about it, and talking about it meant drag everything back up also what happened between her and Trey if they were moving on from this they had to do so once and for all.

'Are you okay?' he asked when Marissa merely nodded he saw this as his sign to continue, so he did. 'Want to talk about it?' he asked again and this time Marissa looked at him with disbelief she wanted to talk about but only to him and she had told herself that he wouldn't want to talk about it so she just kept it bottled up just like she had with Trey but now he was offering to talk about it. Marissa again nodded; Ryan grabbed a towel and locked it around her delicate body. He got up and turned the tab off he then sat back down and Marissa again sat down on his lap.

'This what happened just brings back memories from with happened with Trey, and I'm just scared.' she said as she leaned her head back to rest on his shoulder. Ryan nodded and stroked her back with his hand. He kissed her temple and sighed.

'I know…I know, but I'm here I'll always be here…' Ryan said. Marissa locked her arms around him tighter and she let the single tear go and drop on his shoulder. 'And I'm sorry I wasn't there for you with Trey…I was just so mad and felt so much guilt to even leave you alone with him, I knew how he was…I was just scared too.' he said and again Marissa nodded, she knew she didn't have to say anything she just needed to listen to him for once let him unburden his soul so they could all move on and come closer together. 'But I promise you I'll never let something like this happen again to you…' he added.

After minutes of talking and kissing and telling each other how much they meant to one another they stepped out of the bathroom, both walking close to the bedroom. Ryan opened the bedroom door only to hear a nagging weird sound. The others were all sleeping soundlessly.

'Do you hear that?' he asked Marissa as if to want a conformation he was not going mad, she nodded her head and answered him with a 'yeah' both continued to listen closely and when Ryan discovered what it was he ran over to Seth.

It was his ring tone, 'I will follow you into the dark' by Death Cab for Cutie and it was definitely Seth's phone seeing as no one liked DCFC as much as Seth did.

'SETH WAKE UP!!!' Ryan yelled and within seconds everyone jerked up also hearing the sound Seth jumped up and searched his pocket for his phone fortunately he was not too late, but didn't have time to look at the ID. He opened his phone and held it to his ear.

'Hello?' he asked.

Okay suspense I hope you liked it! Let me know! Love Noor!