Emotionless

Chapter Nineteen

Tommy stood up form the table and walked toward the door. Jude ran after him. Michael followed them with his eyes but then turned back to Annabel.

"Tommy! Tommy, wait!"

Tommy grabbed his jacket, "So, Jude, tell me. Every time we have a kid are you going to hide it from me?"

Jude looked down. "I was going to tell you, later, when the kids were gone and we were alone. I didn't want to just blurt it out to everyone!"

"Why not?"

"Because I didn't know how you would react!!" She blurted, she immediately regretted it and put a hand over her mouth. Jude looked down and Tommy just nodded.

"I am never going to get your complete trust of forgiveness am I?"

Jude took a deep breath and looked down; she didn't know how to answer it. Tommy just nodded his head and turned around, walking out of the house. Jude sobbed and placed a protective hand over her stomach, "I'm sorry baby…" She whispered.

Michael stared at Annabel, "You wanna tell everyone what's going on or should I?"

Annabel took a deep breath, she grabbed Michael's arm and dragged him into the nearest bedroom. "It could be yours…" She said.

Michael sighed, "Annabel, we were together once; months ago. Three months in fact, I think. So the fact of the matter is, the baby is most likely Jesse's. So you need to straighten this out with my family, and with Jesse."

Annabel sighed and Michael stormed out of the bed room. He walked back out and Ava pulled him close. "Is the baby yours?" She asked calmly. Michael shook his head 'no.'

Ava let out a sigh of relief, "Okay good. Don't get me wrong, I would have supported you one hundred percent but this is a huge relief." Michael chuckled and nodded.

Annabel walked past them in a hurry and out the door. Michael sighed and ran a hand over his face, "She took my car…"

Ava sighed, "She can be such a drama queen…" Michael looked at her, "Well she's going through a lot. Give her a little time…" Ava nodded and kissed Michael quickly before heading toward the door, "I hate to leave now but I told my parents I'd be home early. Call if you need anything, alright?"

Michael nodded and waved as she left.

Jude walked back into the house after she saw both the girls leave. She walked over to Michael and sat next to him on the couch. He laid his head in her lap and she heard sobs coming from him. She took a shaky breath and started to run her fingers through his hair.

Michael started to pour his soul out to her, "The baby wasn't mine. I know everyone thinks it was…it's not. I don't blame everyone for thinking that. I am trying to be mature and balance Annabel and Ava but it's so hard. Everything is so hard mom!" He wrapped his arms around her middle and brought his face closer to her stomach, he was still crying.

"Oh honey…" She said, bending over and hugging him close. "I'm just seventeen mom! Everyone's always telling me how mature and how perfect I am but in the end I am just a normal seventeen year old kid!! I can't handle all of this!"

Jude nodded and continued to kiss his forehead, rock him back and forth, and stroking his hair. It's true; she'd forgotten how young he actually was. He was so mature and such a great kid that everyone put more pressure on him, figuring he could handle it, including her.

After Michael calmed down he eventually cried himself to sleep and Jude gently made sure he was comfortable on the couch. She kissed his cheek and wrapped him in a blanket. Luckily Vincent and Madison had climbed into her bed on their own and fell asleep, they knew when they shouldn't be present.

Jude walked into her own bedroom and smiled at the twins, their arms were wrapped around each other and Madison was snoring slightly. Jude chuckled and tucked the blanket tighter around them and kissed their foreheads.

Jude walked into the kitchen and made herself a cup of coffee as she was pouring it she realized she shouldn't be having it before of the baby. She groaned and dumped it out, settling for a cup of tea instead.

Jude heard the door open and close and Annabel walked in, "Can I get a cup of that?" She asked quietly, motioning to the mug in Jude's hands. Jude nodded and poured Annabel some tea. "The baby, if there is a baby, which I think there is, anyway, it's not Michael's. If that's what you were wondering."

Jude looked at Annabel and nodded, "I know, Michael told me…"

Annabel laughed slightly, "I wish he was the father. He would be a great dad as oppose to the asshole that got me pregnant."

Jude leaned forward, wrapping the mug in her hands and inviting it's warmth through her fingertips. "Do you want to talk about it?"

Annabel shrugged, "Not really, but I think I should…"

Jude nodded, knowing the feeling. Annabel took a deep breath, "Michael thought I cheated on him with this guy. Jesse, the guy, made some comment and it set Michael off and he went running with his imagination. I'm guessing that's why Michael made you guys leave so early. Anyways, Jesse said he just wanted to sleep with me after it was over with Michael. So after Michael left me, he took that as the time to do so, even though I didn't want to…"

Jude gently rubbed Annabel's cheek. "Honey, he raped you?" Annabel shook her head and she felt the tears coming. "I didn't stop him but I made it clear that I didn't want to, I just didn't know what to do…" Jude pulled her close and let her cry into her shoulder. "Honey, honey, shhh. That doesn't make it okay, just because you didn't say no. It's alright. You're safe here."

Annabel pulled away, "I want Michael to be the father! I can't do it without a father and Michael is the best choice!"

Jude pulled Annabel back to her, "Sweetie, Michael isn't ready for something like this. If you put too much pressure on him he will crack. And you don't want him cracking when you have a baby depending on him. Plus, his band is about to get big and do you really want a child wondering where daddy is when he's on tour and then they find out that he isn't even their daddy?"

Annabel nodded and looked down, "Well, maybe I should put it up for adoption then…"

Jude nods her head, "So, why don't you stay here until you have the baby. Maybe then you can decide if you want to put him or her up for adoption or not."

Annabel shook her head, "I already love this child. I need to do what's best for it. I'll contact an agency tomorrow and schedule some interviews. And I'll start looking for an apartment too. I don't want to go home."

Jude nodded, knowing that Annabel needed to be independent. She was the same way. When she first left Tommy, everyone offered a place to stay and a shoulder to cry on, but she knew she needed to get out and live her life…alone.

Annabel kissed Jude's cheek, thanked her and walked up the stairs to go to bed. Jude smiled and took the two mugs and dumped them in the sink, putting them in the dishwasher. She looked at the clock and sighed, "11:11 make a wish…" She closed her eyes and smiled when she heard a knock at the door. "It couldn't be…" She whispered as she made her way to the door.

Jude threw it opened and smiled, "I was hoping you'd come back." Tommy smiled and made his way into the house. Jude noticed a large box being dragged in behind him. "What's this?" She asked. Tommy smiled, "A crib, I just wanted to do something good for us."

"Us?" Jude asked with hope. Tommy nodded and leaned down to kiss her, "Us. Just one thing…"

Jude shook her head, "What?"

"When did you find out about the baby?" He said placing a gently hand on her stomach. Jude smiled, placing her hand over his. "This morning. I was going to tell you the good news after dinner, and everyone went home, and we were alone…" She said seductively and getting her lips closer and closer to his.

Tommy smiled and pulled her closer, "Well, you know what I think?"

"Hmm…?" Jude asked, concentrating on his lips.

Tommy smiled, "I think…" He got closer to her. "We should build this crib." He said quickly, and wearing a smirk.

Jude gently hit his chest and helped him pull the box into the extra room of their house. They worked all night to build the crib and fool around. After everyone woke up Jude crawled out of bed and put on some clothes. Tommy smirked and got dressed also, he wrapped her arms around her from behind and caressed her stomach. "We should talk about baby names." Jude nodded and turned around to kiss him, "I'm only a few weeks pregnant. We can talk about it a little later."

Tommy laughed and they both got up and walked into the main room. Michael was sitting up on the couch, his eyes dreary and half lidded like he just woke up. He had bed head, which Ava was currently running her fingers through his hair and smiling at him. They both looked up and smiled at Jude and Tommy, "Hey mom, hey dad." Tommy smiled; Jude smiled at them, "Hey, Hey Ava." Ava smiled and turned back to Michael.

Annabel came down the stairs and everyone turned to look at her. Jude gave her a reassuring smile, "Good morning Annabel. How'd you sleep?"

Annabel shrugged, "Um…for anyone that didn't know, the baby isn't Michael's. And I am putting it up for adoption."

Michael smiled at her, Jude nodded and Tommy breathed a sigh of relief, knowing he wasn't going to be a grandfather just yet.

The family went through the day just sitting around and watching TV together. The twins both had a play date and Jude and Annabel both started their cravings a little early. They asked for the weirdest things, Tommy was happy to get the things for Jude but Michael couldn't say the same. But, being the amazing kid he was, he went to the store with his dad to get things for Annabel.

Michael reassured Annabel that he would be there for her, almost as if she was the baby's father. Annabel started to cry and hugged him close.

All in all, the day was great. Now it was late, Jude was giving the twins a bath and Tommy was lying in their bed, going through some paperwork. Ava, Michael, and Annabel were sitting on the couch and smiling. Michael kissed both their cheeks and said he was going to go work in the studio and they can do whatever they want. Ava watched him leave, smiling. When he was out of view and earshot Ava turned back to Annabel.

"I want to adopt your baby."