Chapter 4.

What happened a one year ago?

Part 2.

Edward watched eyes wide and full of questions this man before him like he would have come somewhere where was no life. He remembered his well, really well, even if it was hours ago when he had seen him couple of minutes.

"You are…"

Envy smiled in the most charming way he could and put his empty beer bottle in the ground before he tapped the bench his little red face shining with joy.

"I very happy that you want to sit here with me and not someone else." He murmured looked this gold blond boy in that kind of way what would have made so many other peoples blush but not this one. Ed just snorted and looked around them.

"If your alcoholic full mind can remember anything and notice anything then you would remember that I said I wanted to talk with someone and you would see that here is not anyone other peoples near probably in miles away now." Ed said his voice cold but Envy didn't notice or actually he did somehow but he didn't want to notice it so he just watched around them his eyes half closed.

The place was really black and unwelcoming now when he actually paid any attention to it. The only light was coming from some lonely light pillar couple of meters away and it wasn't even working well because it's light get ones in a minute really dim for a couple of seconds. He looked behind him only to find that he couldn't see a lot more than little bit a green mass of long grass. bushes, tree trunks and lot of shadows what seemed to move. He turned to look on his left because he didn't want to look at the light pillar on his right again. It made his eyes hurt a little when he watched it. There on his left where nothing.

He smiled a little and closed his eyes.

"You can sit."

Ed didn't move for a couple of moment and neither did Envy and their both had good reasons for it. Ed was trying to decide if he should just walk away because he wasn't jet seen anything what would mean that this man was not different from those who usually where drinking here and Envy was trying to make himself really relax so that he wouldn't chase his talking partner away.

Slowly Edward sighed so quietly that no one could here him and sat besides the almost sleeping looking long haired man who smiled his heart starting to warm a little.

"Thank you…"

Ed blinked once and looked Envy for a second but didn't say anything for a moment because first tried to think himself why had he thanked him but when he couldn't think any reason he just opened his mouth to ask it out loud.

"Why are you thanking me?"

"Because you are not walking away from me…" Envy said his voice sounding happy and sad in the same time and that made Ed blink again before he just smiled.

"I actually was thinking it."

"Thinking is not same thing as doing. Usually peoples think and act in opposite ways and this time I am more than thank full from it." Envy wishpered in the same time when he opened his eyes and looked Ed eyes where he saw more than he had expected.

"I am surprised. You are not just a piece of flesh what is connected to brains what thing only sex and alcohol." Ed laughed and now smiled like Envy wanted to see everyone smile.

"We all are just piece of flesh." Envy wishpered and sighed hard. "And flesh we want."

Ed rolled his eyes and licked his dry lips in Envy's eyes really lovely way. 'He really is something what can't be something what he seem to be.'

"I don't understand what is so good about sex."

Envy's ears were almost going to stop working in the same time when his mind started to really work or actually not. There was only one sentence what repeated itself inside his private mind and faster than he had think could be possible he opened his mouth and said out loud in that kind of what would make anyone think that you are going to faint in any minute because it was so shocking.

"Are you a virgin!?"

Ed stopped moving and even breathing. His heart seemed stopped beating too for a moment before it started to work so fast that Ed almost thought that it would soon explode. He could feel his face changing so red that there would be soon almost half of his body blood.

"It's my business what I do and what not so Shut up!"

Envy closed his moth and swallowed his words what screamed to be free. How could this blond man with his charm, pleasant voice and nice body be untouched?! Well actually Envy was sure that at least someone had touched him in a pleasant way, have to had... But then again this life here in the earth was full some kind of miracles and thinks that were too much to understand if you don't really want to understand it.

"It's not… Everyone… Almost everyone who I have knew and wanted to be close have been in the ending something else what I have think they are… Even myself…" Ed wishpered suddenly quietly and closed his eyes in that kind of way what Envy know too well.

"I know what you mean…"

Ed didn't say anything but his head moved toward the ground and his hands travelled slowly their way on his face to cover it like some kind of protection shield.

Envy know that his lovely blond was almost grossing the line somewhere on his pain full memories and soon when his body started to shiver more than the cold wind would make it shiver Envy knew that he was crying hard and even if he wanted to he didn't tough the blond.

"Life is hard… But there are happy times… Times when we can truly smile and dance because there is a reason for it. We all have something what we want to hide and something what we want peoples to notice without saying it out loud…" Envy said just as quietly as Edward was crying and watched the forest like it would soon be something more beautiful than it was now.

"It doesn't matter that there is pain… Do you know why? Because if there is no pain then there is not going to be joy either. There always have to be the opposite that we could feel the other opposite what we want to feel."

Ed gulped and nodded before he tried to wipe his salty tiers away from his eyes and face. "It's like… Everything what we do is useless…"

"Yeah and it's really starting to piss me off because I don't want to feel this way. I hate it when I can't pull myself up to my self pity. I hate myself those times when I just can't stop crying over those things that I hope would be other way. I don't look others who cry like they where weak because I think that they are not but I just don't stand it from myself."

Ed watched Envy little while and could feel his lips starting to turn in to sad smile.

"Why?"

Envy didn't answer right away. He closed his eyes and just breathed the clear night air and that little smell what was floating on the forest trying to make his soul feel peace for even a short moment with someone who wasn't going to do nothing more than just sit besides him.

"What do you think… Will the sky drop water soon?"

"You are not answering in my question."

Envy's smile only got bigger by little and he watched Edwards eyes. He probably could never say it or do it but he really wanted now wipe those wet tear trails away gently and then kiss him over the head.

"Because one of my friends one told me that he hated see me crying… And every time when I cry I can feel him watching me his eyes starting to get wet too like they always did…" Envy whispered and turned his face toward the ground. He could feel Edwards eyes on him but it actually was not annoying at all and especially not when he felt his hand on his shoulder.

"I am sorry…"

"It's not your fault. You didn't know that that question would bring bad memories on surface… It's just…"

"I know…" Edward said quietly and caressed Envy's long hair gently and actually was a little surprised when Envy closed his eyes and leaned in to his thoughts.

"You still haven't told your name."

Envy just smiled and laughed licking his dry lips small blush in his cheeks.

"My name is Envy, mister Edward."