TT I KNOW! I'm sorry! My mom got my report card in the mail a few days back, and she wasn't exactly impressed with the big fat F after Advanced Geometry, so... I won't be able to update as often. AND I'm not going to be able to go on this really big trip to Florida I was supposed to go on later this week... and to top it all off, I'm grounded. Way to go, self.

Anyways, here's my newest emo-tastic chapter... Enjoy.

Disclaimer: If I did, the amount of angst would be offending.

14. Sora

I'm... sorry... Kairi...

So Sora thought as he sat at the top of the Gizmo Shop, looking down at his too-still feet. Tonight was the night he had dreaming of ever since he realized he loved Kairi... and he had been unable ot accomplish anything but make the girl of his dreams cry.

"It's not as if I want this!" Sora cried out in frustration, punching the ground with his fists. He wished he could go to her, explain, but the only rationally thinking part of his brain held him back.

You know you can't do that... Roxas said to him sadly. Sora ground his teeth together to stop the tears from falling. He was unsuccessful.

But... it's Kairi, he whimpered to his Nobody, trying to deny the logic in Roxas' reasoning.

You what'll happen in you do, Roxas told him for the thousandth time, and do you really want that?

When Sora didn't respond, Roxas continued with his persuasion. We both know you have enemies. The Keyblade Master will always have enemies. And you know what they'd do to Kairi if they ever found out she was anything more than a friend to you.

But then we'd hide it, Sora argued, so that nobody would ever find out.

Could you really stop that feeling you get everytime you look at her from showing on your face if you two were together?

Sora shook his head sadly after a moment. What Roxas said was true. He wouldn't be able to stop himself. And there was no way he was going to risk Kairi's life, ever, for anything. Not even his feelings.

So we can never be...? Sora asked his Nobody, though he knew the answer. Roxas didn't reply. After a long look at the butterflies and fountain he had created for Kairi only half an hour ago, Sora slowly stood up.

"Thought I'd find you here," A voice said from behind him. Sora looked to see Riku, whose face was falling at the degree of depression that seemed to resonate around Sora, manifesting itself in every feature of his face.

"What happened?" Riku asked, though he had a pretty good idea of what had transpired.

"Kairi..." Sora whispered, closing his eyes. He couldn't get the image of her tearstreaked face out of his mind.

"What happened?" Riku echoed, sitting down where Kairi had been moments ago.

Sora sighed, then recounted his tale, not a single excruciatingly painful detail forgotten.

"...And there's no way I'm ever risking her, for anything," Sora finished. Riku shook his head.

"That sucks, man. I can't even imagine what you're going through... to love someone that much, be unable to even tell her how you feel..." He muttered. A certain dark-haired person intruded on his thoughts for a moment.

"'Sucks' doesn't even begin to cover it..." Sora said mournfully, not even trying to keep the anguish out of his voice.Riku nodded in agreement.

"Come on, let's get you out of here. You need sleep," Riku said, helping Sora up. He had noticed that dark circles that shadowed Sora's eyes, making him appear more grim and haunted than ever before.

"Sure," he said, his eyes focusing on nothing in particular. He walked lifelessly through the Gizmo Shop along with Riku.

"Hey, why didn't you just fly down?" Riku asked, shooting Sora a quizzical look. Sora seemed to consider whether or not to answer. A flat, dead look crept into his eyes before he spoke.

"I can't," he replied tonelessly. Riku nodded, his hunch correct.

"Room for one, please," he told the receptionist. She nodded and handed him a key.

"Blue room, down the hall," she said, shooting a worried glance at the green door diagonal from her.

"Room for one," Sora murmered apathetically.

"Oh, Sora... Red Room for you. It's adjoining with the Green Room," the matronly woman explained, "and your friend Kairi is in there. Is that okay?"

Sora's eyes welled reflexively at the sound of Kairi's name.

"No, any other room, please," he said weakly. The lady hid her concern poorly and handed him a small key.

"Okay... Purple Room then, it's right next to the Blue Room. Get some sleep," she advised. Sora nodded inattentively and walked to his room. Opening the door, he kicked his shoes off and curled up into a ball on the bed, not bothering to change out of his clothes. Kairi's face, glistening with fresh tears, was the last thing he saw before sleep envoloped his thoughts completely.

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Angsty enough for ya?

By the way, read and review The Darkness of his Heart by Brightshadow 5. It's really good. xD

This was the only chapter I planned to write in Sora's point of view, but if you want more, than review! (Actually, just review regardless.)

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