Sirius Black's Journals

Author: Lily, pen name Flower 'n' Prongs

Dedicated to: my sister, for all of those discussions about darling Padfoot )

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. Didn't own it when I first wrote these, don't own any of it now either (sadly). If so, the epilogue for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows would be very different. If you recognize it, it belongs to JK Rowling… that is pretty much the first four chapters then folks.

Summary: Sirius Black wrote in a journal, which he kept hidden from the world to protect his ego. This shows you four of the biggest days in his post-Hogwarts life, (the Secret Keeper suggestion, the day the Potters die, a day in Azkaban, and breaking out). Recently added -- Harry finds the hidden book.

Notes & Rants: This is something I had to write for school after reading a novel (I, of course, picked Prisoner of Azkaban). I thought that I'd post it just for the sake of it, to see what people think about it. It's not that great, I could probably do better, but I still enjoyed writing it and think it would be interesting to read.

Please review if you read, so few reviews for so many hits is not fun as it makes me assume that nobody liked it and they didn't want to hurt my feelings. I would rather you reply saying what you didn't like, in fact, I would highly appreciate it so it would help me with other stories. I would prefer constructive criticism or positive replies, but I'll take what I can get.

For this chapter…

Pairings: Lily and James (mentioned)
Rating: K+
Warnings: minor language

Okay, here goes nothing. Hope you enjoy it! (By the way, it improves as the story progresses.)

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Secret Keeper

October 23rd, 1981

9:30 PM

He's lost it. Seriously, seriously lost it. I mean it this time. Of all the people in the world he's using me, Sirius "Padfoot" flippin Black, as his Secret Keeper.

Why? Okay, so I can see why he's using me. I am, after all, his best friend of… er… ten years, but still. It's me we're talking about! Probably not the most brilliant move ever if I do say so myself (which I do!). Also, has dear Lily Flower lost all of her common sense since she married Prongs? It's starting to seem like it. Those two aren't thinking straight! They can't pick me to do it, it would be too obvious. The first person that would be assumed to be the Secret Keeper is going to be me, no question about it. At least not if Prongs had a say in it. I'm his best friend, lived with him for a while when we were sixteen, I was the best man when he married Lilykins, and we're like brothers. It's just too bloody obvious.

Ergh! Stupid James… and I suppose that Lily is kinda stupid too. She should be able to talk some sense into him… he did whatever she told him to do at Hogwarts, and agreed with everything she wanted for the wedding! Yet she can't talk some sense into him now when it's a life-or-death situation?

Now I pity Harry… look who he's stuck with as his parents! Okay okay, they're usually really good parents, but this is an exception to the rule. Putting poor little Harry's life on the line because I'm James's best friend. I mean, I wouldn't be insulted if they hadn't picked me. Actually, I would be insulted. But, alas, that's not the point of this. They should always put his life before my temporary disappointment. Always. I'm sure even some exceptionally thick bloke could get that. But, it seems, that my friends have now turned into two very thick blokes. Er, girl and bloke. You know what I meant!

Okay, so what was I talking about? Right… Prongs Jr's safety first. Well, that's it then. I will refuse to be their Secret Keeper because it would be too obvious. Not that difficult… but if I refuse to do it, then who will they pick? I can't just leave them without a Secret Keeper. That would be even worse. Who else would they pick though? Hmm…

Well, I highly doubt that they'd pick Moony right now. I mean, he hasn't been around much lately and we don't know if he's gone to the Dark side or not. I don't think he has, but I could be wrong. Who else is there though who we thought to be trustworthy?

Well I suppose that they could always pick Wormtail. We've still seen him quite a bit and why would Voldemort and Company (cough half my so-called family cough) think of him? It's not like he's that amazing of a wizard or anything. I mean honestly… if he wasn't a Marauder, I don't think anybody would have even known who the kid was. Even though he was the biggest outsider of the group, if there was one, he's still the best option whether we like it or not.

So that's that. Tomorrow, I will go and tell Lily and James to make a quick change to Peter instead of me and life will improve. Simple as that. Then we can move on with our lives and I won't have to worry about them picking the most obvious one.

Ah… it's been a loooong day and I should probably sleep on this, see if I think of any other things that could cause some problems before I make the Peter suggestion.

--Padfoot/Sirius