Ok, so most definitely I finally got time and inspiration to get back on the writing track

But I'm guessing if your still sticking with me and reading this… you just wana hear the story

SUMMARY: Zim has vowed to help dib, and dib has excepted the help. But when Gaz finds out about their 'relationship' and Dib's problems, she tells the whole school. Now dib is in counseling, on the edge of loosing it, and Zim…well, Zim is doing everything that he can to keep dib alive all awhile dealing with his own newly found depression(he found out about the tallest). Through their ridicule and abuse…both mental and physical…by the homophobic community, they are falling into darkness. And they both doubt that they'll make it.

WARNINGS, this fic will include cutting, suicidal themes, violence, language, abusive or violent themes, sexual themes, mild to moderate psychosis, self hatred, and other violent or S.I., themes and SLASH

'thoughts'

'"voices"'

change of pov

And now…..

On with the story!

DIB

'I should've known' '"yes…you should've"' trying his best to ignore the ever pressing voice, he turned away, his tears blurring his vision of the control base

He couldn't make out much… but the one thing he could make out made him wish that he were blind.

"dib…thank tallness you're alright…why'd…"

Dib cut him off angrily. "don't talk to me" his harsh voce hiding the pain he really felt.

"but dib worm I love yo…"

"WELL I DON'T LOVE YOU!" dib shouted back, pain erupting in his heart at the sound of that horribly bitter lie. And he knew it was a lie. Even if Zim was just using him…he still loved him. Hot angry tears streamed down his face and for once he was glad when they blurred out Zim's beautiful form.

ZIM

He stared blankly, his heart shattering.

"y… you're lying" he said trying his best to convince himself that the hate in dibs voice was merely because he had stopped Dib's attempts at leaving this world. 'why'd he want to leave if he really loved you' his conscience asked, and he ignored it, trying to stop the weekend dib from leaving.

"you're hurt…you shouldn't move" his voice faltered weekly, having lost it's usual confidence. Corrupted by the nagging voice in the back of his head, he was trying so hard to suppress.

Dibs tears didn't stop, but his look of hatred faltered slightly at the broken tone in Zim's voice but was replace instantly along with a pained sob.

"didn't you hear me Zim? I said I HATE YOU! I always have… I just wanted to protect the earth… I figured that if I got close to you…you wouldn't destroy the earth." Zim was silent for a minuet, the hot tears he had been trying to suppress leaking out his eyes. He looked away, barley hearing Dib's next sentence. "though it seems that you were just after the earth the whole time"

Zim watched tearfully as dib turned away…not wanting to believe his harsh words.

It was only after dib was long gone did he actually understand what they meant.

'just after the earth.' the realization hit him like a ton of bricks. and instantly wished he had taken the time to explain… now he had lost everything.

An:

Ok, so I know it's short, but I figure it's better than nothing.

Want a lil preview of the next chappie?

Hmmm?

If you don wana know don read this

"preview"

"why dose it hurt so bad Gaz?" she looked at her brother in disgust, loathing on her face. "because you don't deserve love…you're nothing but a sick freakish faggot…and you and you're little …boyfriend will suffer" Dib looked at her in horror, realizing what he's just doomed both him and zim to… not that he cared…he deserved it…after all…fags burn in hell right?