The Truth

The next thing I knew I was laying on the floor and Emmett and Jasper were restraining Edward.

"Go home Bella!"

Jasper yelled at me. Not from anger he just found it hard to speak in his usual calm voice when he was trying to hold back his brother.

I felt a wave of obedience flow through my veins and I ran to my truck. I got in and brought the engine to life reversing out the driveway and speeding home. Well, not exactly speeding but for my old truck it was.

When I got home I did not get out of my truck I waited there breathing heavily and thinking of all the things that had just occurred. Why had Edward lost control like that? What did Jake's bite do to make him want to hurt me? I got out of the cab and walked slowly to my room. Charlie was away probably still at work so I had enough time to be alone. I walked into my bedroom and looked around. It looked so neglected since I had been spending so much time at the Cullen's. My clothes were spread out all over the floor from when I had been frantically searching for the right outfit to wear when I would be "transformed."

I grabbed my toiletries and headed to the bathroom. I felt rotten filthy and so I decided to take a shower. As I slowly stripped down I couldn't refrain my thoughts from returning to Edward. No doubt he would be in an awful mood once he was back to normal, if he ever did turn back to normal. I shook my head as the water ran letting that idea sink down the drain.

After I showered I took my time getting ready and decided just to put on my old sweats and a tank top. I could tell I wouldn't be doing anything special tonight. I walked back to my room, my towel hanging around my neck and one hand holding It running It across my hair. I felt a sudden breeze and it caught me off guard. The window had been closed when I went to shower. I gasped when I looked up and saw Edward standing in the way. I could tell by his face that he was incredibly remorse and felt horrible. I sighed and put my stuff down. I looked over at him and he was staring silently at his feet. He looked up obviously feeling my eyes on him and I opened my arms for him. He walked over and I held him as tight as I possibly could. Which was very weak compared to his death grip hugs. He started to hug me back but then I realized he was lifting his arms to pull me away from him.

I looked up at him and he was looking into my eyes thoughtfully.

"Bella, you know I didn't mean to-" I put my finger on his lips shushing him.

"I know Edward. I know you would never hurt me on purpose. But I must admit I am deeply confused." He nodded and stared off into the mirror behind me. I looked back as if expecting to see someone else standing there. But there was no one. I spun around "Edward?" I looked all around the room and the window was closed. I sighed thinking he had left but then he was by my side again. "Sorry I had to call Jasper. He's making me check in. I feel like a little kid."

I half smiled and then looked back up at him again. "What umm… what happened? Why did Jake's bite make you want to ki-" This time it was him shushing me.

"I was never going to kill you Bella. The bite made me lose control and for a moment I saw everything through his eyes." He could see the cloud of confusion sparkling in my eyes and he answered my question before I was even finished thinking it. "Jake's eyes Bella. I could see everything he sees. And believe me he sees a lot."
"So…you saw what he was seeing at the time?" I asked still confused.

"No Bella. I saw you through his eyes. The amount of admiration and love he feels for you even when he simply looks at you is astounding."

So that was why he had been staring at me so profusely. He had been in pain seeing and feeling the way Jake felt when he saw me.

"I have to admit it is relatively close to the way I feel when I look at you Bella but his is more powerful and it truly pains me to say that."

"Oh my God."

"What? What is it Bella?" He grasped my hand and played with my fingers. "What's wrong?"

"Imprinting." I murmured. I knew he hadn't imprinted on me. It would have happened the first time he saw me after becoming a wolf but it was the closest thing. Jacob was still in love with me.

"What is imprinting?" Edward dropped my hand suddenly looking serious. I walked over to my bed and he followed me. I told Edward the same story Jacob had told me months ago about imprinting. All the time Edward was nodding obviously piecing everything together.

"But he hasn't imprinted on you?" He asked looking at me for the first time since I mentioned the word.

"No. He said it happens the first time you see the person after becoming a wolf and Jake has seen me several times since then."
He nodded again and looked away. I took his hand and entwined our fingers. He raised our hands and kissed mine putting it on his cheek.

"He truly loves you Bella. And it was such a powerful feeling. That's why I lost control. It made me so angry that he felt more love for you than I do. And I know that sounds awful because you know how much I love you Bella. But if this imprinting thing is all true then his love is supernatural. I don't quite understand it."

I nodded knowing how he felt. "I didn't understand it either at first but Edward, I do know how much you love me and I know that if he were just an average human you're love for me would by far outdo his own. You don't need to feel any kind of sorrow for not loving me as much as he does he can't help it any more than either of us can."

"I know Bella but the feeling I felt when I looked at you made me want to just jump at you and never let you go. It scared me. I could have killed you so easily if Jasper and Emmett hadn't caught me first and then what would I do? I would be forced to live with the knowledge that it was my fault you died. I couldn't live with myself you know that."

I shivered at the memory of seeing Edward in the home of the Volturi about to step into the light and reveal the existence of vampires to the Italian population.

He knew why I shivered and he held me tight. I knew that Edward still felt truly horrible about what had happened. I hated that. He would probably live on for all eternity still regretting his choice to leave me…for my own safety but that plan turned on him so that it almost led to our destruction.

"What are we going to do, Edward? How can you turn me with the pack eyeing me so carefully? I just sent Jake away with a broken heart but I know that won't stop him."

Edward sighed. "We have to leave Forks."

I felt the blood drain from my face leaving Forks meant leaving Charlie…leaving Forks meant faking my death.