Hi, i decided i didn't really like this chapter so i changed it. I also made small changes to the first two chapters. please reread if you are interested. thx sav. ps. any random unexplainable letters randomly about the page are because my kitten now thinks she can type. i really appreciate her help.

EPOV

I did what I thought was best, I really did. Bella was never supposed to know that the monsters living under the beds of five-year-olds were real. That wasn't the plan for her life. She was supposed to grow up, get married, have children, and die. However, when I saved her that day in the parking lot, I took that away from her; drastically changing the course of her life. Alice told me once that by doing what I did, I took away her happily ever after. I am a selfish creature and therefore I wouldn't change my actions even if I had a chance to do it over again.

So I went from wanting to suck her dry to doing anything, and everything, in my power to keep her alive. So wouldn't I remove myself from her life if I thought she was in danger from knowing me? It was the pattern of our relationship. It felt good to have someone need me as much as she did. And .the hardest thing I have ever done was walking away

I know now that I made a mistake. I left her without thinking what it would do to me, I can't function without her. I have to know what she is doing and where she is in order to live my life. The last six months have been like an initiation into hell. The only time i was able to function was when i was attempting to track Victoria. And i wasn't even very good at that.

Now she won't even look at me. I can tell by looking at her that the last six months have been as hard for her. She has lost an alarming amount of weight, her skin and hair is dull, and she has a constant panicked expression in her eyes. I am afraid to reach out for her like I want, afraid that any sudden movements on my part will send her running away from me.

"Edward," she whimpered in her sleep, her head which had been resting against my shoulder suddenly turned toward me. If I didn't know better I would think she was awake, "please don't."

Edward, you better wake her up Alice thought from the seat behind us on the plane.

"Bella, its time to wake up" I said gently shaking her shoulder. She turned her head sharply away and opening her eyes.

"Ed-" she said groggily, "where are we?"

"Almost to Seattle."

She quickly pulled away from me and rested her head against the back of her own seat. I could actually feel my useless heart rip in half at her actions.

"um..." she said after several minutes, "you need to make sure Charlie doesn't see Emmett or Rosalie at the airport. I told him they were in a car accident."

"why is he picking you up?"

"because if he didn't I would be stuck at the airport? You guys don't live there anymore, I assumed you would be flying back to where ever you're living now." she said quietly. "you are not obligated to make sure i get back home. I do have a father."

"Bella you are being absurd. Of course, we would have made sure you got home safely." i said barely holding back the hurt and anger in my voice. "do you really think so little of us?"

Her eyes immediately teared up, making me feel like the jack ass that i was. Alice reached of the back of the seat to slap me in the back of the head. Way to go, Edward.

"i'm sorry Bella, i didn't mean for it to come out that way. You know that we care about you. We would never have left you hours from your home."

she simply turned away from me and looked out the window.

APOV

I don't think Edward could be making a bigger mess of this situation if he tried. How can he be so out of touch with Bella? He is going to have to work really hard to make this one up to her. But i know he can. She loves him almost as much as he loves her. Its a close race between the two of them. It always has been.

I wish Jasper was here to tell me what she is really feeling. It doesn't take an idiot to see that she is pulling away from him to protect herself. But i cant tell if she still loves him or not.

"attention passengers, we will begin our descent into SeaTac International Airport in just a few minutes..."

ok i have had a really crappy day (i burned my finger really bad twice, caught a piece of paper on fire, and got wax all over my jacket), so if your review requires you to translate it for me , do me a favor and don't submit it for this chapter.. i don't read monkey and i am not about to learn now...anyway that was my rant...i have also changed my mind about the direction of this fic so deleted scene be darned!! hahah...it will be what it will be...sorry for sounding b()&(& but i have had a really really really bad day...really bad...quit my life bad...