Chapter 4 part 1

BPOV

The trip to Italy and back plus the talk with Charlie had exhausted me and I had slept like the dead for most of the day. The first thing I did when i finally got out of bed was go outside to check out my new car. Though the new Nissan was quickly forgotten after I noticed the wreckage that used to be my truck. Grudgingly, I now understood why Charlie had sold it for scraps. There was currently a very large tree wedged into what used to be the cab, the damage was so extensive that the doors had to be wedged open with a crow bar. There were also some very large and deep scratches to the steel of the hood, the kind caused by very large claws. I would bet the balance of my bank account that all of the damage had been caused entirely by the very immature, very volatile teenage werewolf sitting in the rocking chair behind me. The damage to my property, added to the stuff he had told Charlie, put him at the top of the list of people I really didn't want to talk to right now.

"Bells" Jake said I could tell that he was annoyed with me for ignoring him.

"What do you want Jake?" I asked standing in front of my closet trying to decide what I wanted to take with me on my trip. Or exile as I had begun to think about it.

"To see if you were still you." he snarled.

"Would it be any of your business if I wasn't me?" I asked several minutes later, after I realized what he was talking about. Three days, the three days I had once longed for, would have changed my entire existence. "What I decide to do with my mortality is my own business Jake."

Jake didn't say anything for several seconds after my comment. I could see that there was now a fine tremor going through his entire body. I turned back to my closet and continued to look through my clothes. Taking several shirts off the hangers I began to fold them.

"What the hell is the matter with you? Flying half way around the world for that worthless filthy leech-"

"There is nothing the matter with me! And its none of your business what I do or where I go,Jake," I said cutting him off. Turning I slammed my clothes in to the open suitcase on the bed. "just like it was none of your business telling Charlie about the motorcycle or the cliff diving. If I recall correctly, you didn't protest too much when we were doing those things. I thought that we were friends, that I could trust you. One day I hope I am smart enough to stop trusting people."

"Why do you keep forgetting that I am the one who was here for you. I am the one who stayed."

"No you weren't! You left me too, remember? Just because you came back first doesn't make you any different from him! And would you have come back to me, if i hadn't chased you first?"

do not start crying Bella, I thought to myself.

"I left you because I had to. Not because it amused me to do it. He left you because he didn't love you, because he got tired of playing with you. Then suddenly one of those leeches tells you he is in danger and you go flying halfway around the world to save him." he said snarling.

"I did what I had to do. If it had been you I would have done the same thing. I did do the same thing for you. The trip to your house that day was just as long and difficult as the trip to Italy."

"that is such crap."

"Whatever, Jake. I am really tired of having this conversation with you." I said turning back to my closet. "and stop trying to make yourself sound so innocent."

"what the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"Want to explain the damage to my truck. The tree didn't fall because of any storm, what did you do punch it? And what about the claw marks in the hood and the dashboard? You had no right to damage something that didn't belong to you."

"your truck was an accident."

"no, the tree might have been an accident. The rest of it wasn't"

"Not like Charlie didn't replace it."

"Charlie shouldn't have had to replace it! If you would have just controlled your temper or left, then it never would have happened. I loved that truck, Jake. And you destroyed it. Then what you didn't think you did enough damage to my life? You had to go tell Charlie what we were really doing in La Push? Thanks to you I have to spend a month in god forsaken Walla Walla."

"oh poor Bella," he mocked standing and walking a crossed the room to where I was standing. He began to shake lightly. "you have to leave your precious Cullen's. How will you survive? You know you haven't changed that much from when you were twelve. You always were a self centered spoiled little brat."

"I can not believe you just said that to me!" I screamed at him, thankful that Charlie was still at work. "I have always put everyone else's feelings and needs before my own. And the one time I didn't put you first, you act like the world is ending. I would have done the same thing if it had been you, you jerk. I am really tired of having this conversation with you. Please leave."

"Not until you promise me you wont see him again," Jake said grabbing me roughly by the arms. Thankfully he still had enough control over his temper not to hurt me deliberately.

"No! Its none of your business. GET OUT." Jake's attention suddenly turned to the window and he abruptly let me go. Tripping over my own feet I stumbled sideways and hit my cheekbone on the side of my dresser. Gently i lowered myself down the wall until i was seated on the floor.

"Oh Bella, I am so sorry. I didn't mean it, any of it." Jake began, suddenly not angry anymore. He tried to touch the growing bruise on my cheek but i slapped his hands away.

"GET OUT!" i screamed at him. "When I want to speak to you again I will find you and waive a snausage in front of your nose!"

Jake turned and ran down the stairs, slamming the door behind him.

Great another bruise to explain away i thought as i touched my head gingerly, thankful that i didn't feel any blood.

Turning i went to the window, peering outside to see if i could figure out what had distracted Jake enough to let me go. Unfortunately it was too dark to see anything beyond the backyard. Closing the window I went downstairs to make sure the doors were locked.

i reserve the right to change this chapter at will...

ok this chapter sucks i don't care...in case you cant tell they are yelling at each other but the only way i could figure out how to convey that was to do the entire chapter in caps but i had already typed it...and i am lazy...

also this is one of those fights that you say stuff you don't really mean and so they will both feel bad later and maybe make up...but i am not going to write that so use your imagination...finish it however you want, but plese include a snausage...

now Halloween is my birthday so you should review...its like a gift to me...and i have already gotten and used all my gifts this year...i want more!!!!