Here is the next chapter ... A big thanks to Wander52 who read through this for me and made some changes ...
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Looking at the clock on her wall, Sara began to feel uncomfortable as she knew it was now three hours since Grissom's shift had ended.
Sara knew that he would often pull doubles, even triples to solve a case, but after yesterday she thought he would make an exception.
Hearing the door knock, Sara felt giddy and didn't hesitate to run and open it, but felt disappointed when she saw a delivery man instead.
"Sara Sidle?" the man asked.
Nodding her head, Sara signed for a bunch of beautiful white roses and closed the door.
Knowing this was his way of telling her he would be late, she happily got out a vase for them.
After admiring them, she suddenly found a card attached.
"Sara, what happened was a mistake.
I took advantage of you in your time of need.
I am sorry,
Gil."
Reading the card, Sara felt her whole body become cold.
She felt her knees go weak and she sank to the floor.
Feeling tears rip through her body, Sara screamed in agony – for one moment she was happy and now she was nothing, but a mistake.
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Relieved that she had the week off, Sara spent the next two days on her sofa.
She was in too much shock to sleep and couldn't bring herself to going into her bedroom knowing what had taken place.
She felt like her whole life was crashing down around her and there was nothing she could do about it.
She knew Grissom…. once he had made a decision that was it and nothing could change him.
Feeling another wave of sadness come over her, Sara decided she needed some fresh air before she self destructed completely.
Getting dressed, Sara found her car keys and headed out to her car.
Not sure where she was going, Sara found herself walking along the strip watching all of the happy couples and feeling sad that she was not one of them.
Looking up at the lights Sara looked back down only to see Grissom and Sofia walking together.
Not wanting Grissom to see her, Sara's heart started to break as she saw Sofia lean into him.
He wouldn't have her, but he was quickly onto his next conquest.
Unable to look, Sara quickly walked the other way and managed to get to her car before collapsing.
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Managing to get Grissom to leave his office was a struggle, but Sofia was happy when she finally convinced him to have a drink with her after shift.
Walking together, Sofia smiled as she saw Sara looking at them.
Quickly moving into him, knowing it would tear Sara's heart to shreds, she then pulled away as she saw Sara run down the road.
Seeing Grissom look at her, she quickly rubbed her fingers together, "Sorry, eyelash" she said grinning as he started walking again.
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Feeling her body start shaking with tremors as she cried, Sara quickly brushed away her tears as she decided to needed to feel nothing – fast.
Walking into the liquor store, Sara grabbed a bottle of whiskey and a six-pack of beer before driving home.
Walking into her apartment, she felt calm as she put down her alcohol – only to see Grissom's flowers on the counter.
Feeling anger surge through her, Sara grabbed the vase and threw it against the wall as she sunk down into the floor sobbing.
Feeling her body become numb, Sara knew it was time to start drinking, knowing that once she was through she could at least pass out.
Getting a glass and poring out the amber liquid, she grabbed the bottle and headed over to her couch.
Sitting down, Sara was about to down the drink when she started to feel ill.
Not sure what was happening, Sara only just managed to reach the toilet as she started throwing up.
Feeling even worse, Sara felt the tears roll down her cheeks as she started throwing up bile – the only thing left in her stomach.
Knowing her body was punishing her, Sara sat motionless waiting for the sensation to come again.
After a while feeling she was safe, she lowered herself to the cold floor and closed her eyes.
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Unable to feel anything, Sara sat on her sofa doing nothing but stare into space.
Cursing herself again, she was angry that she could not drink.
After throwing up the day before Sara was not brave enough to touch the whiskey thinking it might bring her nausea back.
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With only one day left of her week off, Sara breathed in and dialed the number.
"Willows," Sara heard back.
With all of the courage she could muster Sara spoke.
"Catherine, I am sorry for what I did, I …" about to continue Catherine cut her off.
"Thank you Sara I appreciate it. I know how it is some days, so don't punish yourself."
Thanking her, Sara listened to Catherine as she told her everything that had happened at the lab over the past week.
Smiling as Catherine suggested they go for coffee when she got back, Sara put the phone down happy that not everyone in the lab hated her.