Lilly sat soundlessly on her bed, staring of her bedroom window with a distant look in her eyes. She felt so scared. She couldn't sleep, she barely ate, all she could think about was Miley…She felt like crying, but she had no tears left. She felt like screaming, but she couldn't open her mouth. Her mother was in the living room with Lilly's daughter, who offered to take care of her so Lilly could have a little time off. Lilly had been doing that a lot, leaving Miley with her. She wasn't completely sure she was going to be able to handle all this, taking care of Miley. Once again her thoughts trailed to California. That's where she should be. She jumped slightly as her cell phone vibrated gently in her pocket. She took it out and answered it with a soft, barely audible hello.
"Lilly?" came the gentle voice from the other line and her face lit up with surprise.
"Kevin" she asked, her voice rising a little.
"Hey" he replied and she grinned.
"Hello" she said, quickly forgetting about the dream she had about Miley.
"Uhm…" he stuttered, sounding nervous. "I'm in New York, and I was wondering if we could talk…" he said after a slight pause.
Lilly suddenly felt scared. "About what?" she whispered, and she heard his light laugh from the other line.
"About Miley" he replied, and she felt at ease once more.
"Sure, when?" she asked, and he suggested tomorrow. She accepted and hung up, letting her thoughts go back to Miley.
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Lilly flung open the door to see a slightly embarrassed Kevin standing out with his hands in his pockets. She smiled lightly and grabbed her coat before stepping out and closing the door behind her.
"Wanna go for a walk?" she asked, finally meeting his eyes.
He nodded wordlessly and followed her back out of the apartment.
"So you came all the way to New York just to talk to me?" she questioned, raising one eyebrow.
He nodded again, smiling slightly. "Joe and Nick say hi" he replied and she smiled in reply.
"So..." she said as they walked awkwardly down the streets of New York.
Kevin stopped her from moving and stared at her for a moment. She felt a small tingle run down her spine and quickly looked away.
"I want you to move in with me" he said finally and her jaw dropped.
"What? Huh? Why? What?" she stammered, her eyes widening.
"I want to be a part of Miley's life, and I can't do that with us living in different states" he replied and she nodded slowly.
"My parents…" she muttered and he nodded.
"Just ask?" he said hopefully, and she nodded, smiling weakly.
They continued walking and ended up sitting in a small park by Lilly's apartment.
"Lilly, I wanted to say sorry" Kevin said softly, staring at the ground.
Lilly shifted uncomfortably on the grass and stared up at the sky. "For what?" she asked.
He smiled sadly. "For getting you into this mess." He replied and she felt her heart break at the miserable look on his face.
"Kevin…it wasn't all your fault, I didn't stop you." She said, turning to face him.
He shrugged slightly and avoided her gaze, staring at the setting sun. She followed his gaze and sighed, staring at the slowly darkening sky.
A long silence stretched out between them as they silently watched the sunset. She felt her heart pace quicken and she willed it to slow down. She smiled to herself as the watched the sun peek slightly over the horizon. New York's buildings were in the way of course, but it was beautiful all the same.
"So Lilly…" Kevin said and she looked at him for a moment, waiting. He didn't say anything, just stared back at her. She felt it again, the same thing she felt when she met Joe. Her palms got sweaty and she felt like her heart was about to burst through her chest. She felt butterflies in her stomach and wanted to punch herself.
You're with Joe she thought to herself.
She moved slightly closer, ignoring the surprised expression on his face. She leaned into him and watched the sun slowly disappear. She felt him nervously shifting before placing his arm around her shoulder. Placing one gently hand on his ribcage she twisted around and crashed her lips against his. She felt him stiffen before placing his hand delicately on the back of her head. She moved her hand off his chest and wrapped her arms around his neck as they shifted positions so he was on top of her. He angled himself so he wouldn't crush her, but found it hard when she kept pulling him closer. Her head was pounding and she felt small tingles running up and down her. She pulled away breathlessly, and Kevin seemed to have just realized what had happened. Before he could say another word, Lilly pulled him back into a passionate kiss.
A/N; I bet y'all hate me right now. xDDD
"Lilly? Where have you been!?" came the tired and frightened voice of her mother as soon as she opened the door to her apartment.
Lilly felt the color drain from her face as she saw Joe and Nick sitting on her couch, both looking at her with worried looks. "I uhm…." She muttered as her mother pulled her into a tight hug.
"How could you do that to us? Where were you?" she exclaimed, pulling away and staring at her daughter.
Lilly looked at the clock hanging on the wall and her lip quivered. 10 am. 10 am. Which meant she had been at Kevin's hotel room for the past…six hours? She avoided Joe's gaze as he walked over and pulled her into another tight hug.
"I fell asleep in the park" Lilly lied and everyone stared at her.
"I thought you were out with Kevin?" her mother questioned, gazing curiously at her daughter.
"I was, but then I went for a walk, and fell asleep in the park" Lilly replied, glancing over at Nick who was staring at her.
Her mother let out a muffled sob. "You could've gotten hurt Lilly, never do that again." She said, grabbing Lilly's hand and looking at her with pained eyes.
Lilly nodded, covering her tears and letting go of Joe's hand. "I'm going to see Miley" she muttered, walking into her bedroom where Miley was laying in her crib silently.
She turned around to see Nick follow her and shut the door quietly behind him. "Where's Kevin?" he asked her, staring at the small child in the crib.
"Hotel." Lilly replied softly.
Nick watched her closely, and she shuffled nervously over to Miley, picking her up gently.
Lilly rocked her child gently, kissing her forehead repeatedly. "Nick, do you miss her?" she whispered, suddenly, regretting it as soon as she saw his face.
He looked away, and Lilly whimpered to herself. "Everyday" he muttered, and she set Miley down once again in her crib before moving over to Nick and wrapping her arms around him.
"Don't be sad anymore" she muttered, resting her head on his shoulder.
He laughed lightly. "When you're no longer sad, then I will no longer be sad."
"I'll always be sad, she's my best friend" Lilly replied, pulling back and looking at him with sad eyes.
"Exactly." He said with a shrug, looking at the floor. "I know what you did with Kevin" he muttered, and Lilly moaned, leaning against the wall and sliding down.
He sat next to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulder comfortingly. "I'm not saying I support it Lilly, Joe loves you and you're hurting him. You just got to make up your mind" he said softly.
"I can't…help…it" she coughed between sobs.
Nick frowned slightly pulling his arm off her. "I used to like you." He muttered, and Lilly looked up, shocked.
"But Miley…" she said, gasping slightly.
"Before I really got to know Miley. I thought you were cool." He said, shrugging slightly. "No offense or anything, but I'm so glad I got to know Miley. She was just so…I don't know there was just something about her that made me want to spend the rest of my life with her" he whispered, and Lilly started to cry again.
He looked surprised. "I'm sorry I'm sorry." He said quickly, and she just shook her head.
"I miss her so much" she said wiping her eyes.
He nodded. "I think we all do."
"I'm sorry Nick. It's my fault she's dead"
Nick's eyes widened and he shook his head. "Never say that" he muttered, and she leaned into him.
"Oh Miley" she muttered, curling into a ball in the middle of the floor. Nick absently played with her hair as silent tears ran down his face.
A/N; I bet you hate me for that thing with Kevin. xD Anyways, nothing official. And by the way, if any of you think something is going to happen between Nick/Lilly it WON'T. NEVER EVER EVER. Just wanted to make that clear. Review please; I'll try to get another chapter up today hopefully. 8D