A/N; Ok. So first I wanted to explain why its taking me so long to update. Well, I didn't update last week, because I was sick. This week I haven't updated because my friend is in the hospital, so I'm really worried, and totally not in the mood to write. But now that I have a day off, I decided I better update. Sorry if this chapter isn't great, -And yeah, this chapter will probably be kind of short- I'm just not really…all here xD anyways, thanks for the reviews. -Oliver

Lilly sat at the kitchen table, a glass of milk placed directly in front of her. It was around 3 am, and she couldn't fall asleep. She felt like she was stealing, taking the milk out of their fridge, but their mother told her she could help herself to anything. She swirled the milk around with a bendy straw she found in one of the drawers.

"Lilly?" a voice asked from the kitchen doorway, and she jumped up, knocking over the milk.

"Oh my gosh" she said, quickly grabbing a rag and attempting to wipe it up before it went on the ground.

Nick quickly hurried over with a towel and helped her. "You found Joe's bendy straw" he noticed, smirking slightly.

Lilly grimaced. "I'm sorry…I was snooping" she said, immediately turning a deep shade of red.

"What you doing up?" he asked after they had finished cleaning the mess.

"I couldn't sleep" Lilly replied, shrugging slightly. "I'm going to go to bed though" she said, waving and running back downstairs.

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The pain of losing someone you love is so unreal, sometimes it doesn't really affect you until you really realize that the person is truly gone forever. Losing a love, a friend, or maybe even a pet, always scars people. You can pretend you're fine, you can move on with you life, but you'll always have the slight longing to see that person again.

Maybe something makes you think of them again, or maybe they never left your mind in the first place. As Lilly leaned against the doorway, listening to Nick quietly playing his guitar, she realized her world was crumpling around her. Besides the fact that she had let the one guy she truly loved get away, she had lost her best friend, was living in the love-of-her-life's house taking care of the baby she had with his brother. As hot tears ran down her face, and Nick hugged her and attempted to comfort her, all she wanted was to give up. She was so tired of it all.

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As Lilly paced around her "room" with Miley held close, she stopped beside her crib, gently placing the sleeping baby down. Lilly swept her hair out of her face and let out a soft moan, leaning against the wall.

"Lilly? You alright?" Joe asked, walking downstairs and staring at her curiously.

Lilly paused, watching him cautiously. "Why don't you hate me?" she whispered, staring at him.

Joe gazed at her, frowning slightly. "Why would I?" he asked finally.

"Because I slept with your brother?!" Lilly said, her jaw dropping slightly.

"I forgave you for that. I'm not going to break it off with you just because of that"

Lilly shook her head, letting out a cold laugh. "Why not? You don't deserve me." She exclaimed, confused.

"So you want me to dump you?" Joe asked, watching her closely.

Lilly paused, her lip quivering slowly. "No…You just deserve so much better" she whispered, tears forming in the corners of her eyes.

"It doesn't get any better than you" Joe replied, and Lilly felt like someone had punched her in the gut. Butterflies fluttered, her palms got sweaty and she felt like jelly.

"No…" she murmured, stepping back slightly.
Joe looked at her, unsure of what to say. "Lilly…I want to be with you, you just keep making it so hard." He explained, reaching for her hand.

She stepped back again. "Then break up with me!" she exclaimed, tears now streaming down her face.

"No." Joe replied firmly.

Lilly glared. "Fine, I'll do it for you. I'm breaking up with you" she said, regretting the words as soon as they left her mouth.

Joe nodded wordlessly and walked back upstairs, closing the door gently behind him.

Lilly whimpered softly, collapsing on her bed, sobbing.