To Forget

Disclaimer: I don't own FMA or any of the characters. I only have a lot of fun with them. But don't worry Ms. Arakawa, I promise I will return them safe...once I'm done having my fun!!!

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Chapter 5: Eavesdropping

AN: The parts in italic are the thoughts of Edward. Hope no one gets confused for that. Well that said continue enjoying the story.

The sudden movement of the bed had made Edward awake from his sleep, but he remained still with the hopes of falling asleep once more, but life can't be complacent, can it? "What the fuck-" Huh? Roy? Why is he shouting at this hour? Damn you Roy…!!! Can't you see I'm sleeping or at least trying to…?! Due to the fact that he had his eyes closed he was totally oblivious to the other people in the room and to what was happening. He was going to get up and give Roy a piece of his mind for awakening him but what he heard next made him change his mind.

"Don't worry, Roy. We all knew about you and Ed. We were the ones that assisted Edward the night you brought him here. Don't you remember?" Wait a minute I recognize that voice! Vallye? But what the fuck is she talking about? And, what the hell is that of Me AND Roy? What's happening here? Has Vallye gone mad? So in order to find what was happening there, he decided to pretend to be asleep.

"Well obviously no…!!! And what the hell… you were taking PHOTOS…!!!???" Huh? Photos? Of Whom? And why? Now he was really confused, after all, Why would Vallye take photos of someone in a hospital?

"Well YES…!! You need to have this moment on film…!! Isn't it wonderful..?? It's not every day that you have the opportunity to have your first move on pictures..!!" Huh? What movement is she talking about? Didn't she know that everybody moves??!! God she is a nurse, she took anatomy and biology, she more than anybody should know that every living being move in order to be classified as 'alive'…!! Yup, Valley has definitely lost her mind!

"B-but how did they found out? I mean, about my feelings? This is very embarrassing, you know…!!" And then he heard more women laughing." What???!! There are more people??!! And what feelings is Mustang talking about? Great! If this is what I'm thinking, then I will have to endure Mustang flirting not with one but with a bunch of silly women…!! Stupid Bastard…!! 1

"Ok, first of all they are Clare, Kaira, Anne and Mel. We are friends and we all work together here. So those are the names of those bitches. Bastard, he can't be happy with one? No…! He needs 5…!!

"Like I said before, we were the ones that tended Ed the night you brought him here; and well, just like me, they figured out as much as me that night. From there it only took one look at your behavior, when it was something concerning him, to know it." Yeah right…!!Stupid silly bitches…!! YOU are the reason he is here not me...!!

"And about the photos, well, we just thought you would have liked to have photos of you two together like that." Ha…!! Now they are taking photos with HIM in MY room…!! And like 'THAT'…!! God!! Knowing the pervert he is I swear I don't even want to know what she mean by 'THAT'…!! And to think she looked so nice and innocent!

"Because I'm sure you don't even have a single photo of him, right?" What. The. Fuck??!!! Him?? Haha…!! Now I have the perfect blackmail against that bastard…!! You are mine Mustang…!!

"Well …no. I have no photos of Edward but…" Awww, poor Mustang, he has no photos of Edward. Awww, don't cry you b- WHAT???!!!PHOTOS OF WHOM???!!!! Calm down Edward, there are hundreds of Edward in the world so calm down!! Now I really NEED someone to explain me what the fuck is happening in here…!!

"You see…!! Ha..!! And, don't deny it, you are happy we took photos for you…! What would men do without us women…!!" Ha! She must be a friend of Winry..!!

"Ok, fine! Part of me is happy, but, well you see, is just too embarrassing. I never thought I was being so obvious and it's not pleasant to wake up and find people taking pictures of you. And I too must admit that the only reason you are not all incinerated to death by now is because you are women and you were with Vallye." Awww come on you don't have to act, we all know you are more than happy to be surrounded by those women!!

"B-but don't worry, Roy! Your secret is safe with us! We are like tombs! Oh, and don't worry about if you were obvious or not. You were just worried about the person you love! It's normal to act like you did. Hey, no one is that strong! Everybody would act the way you did if they were in your place. So don't worry about it anymore, ok?" So it is true!! He is not in love with one of those women or with another Edward, he is in love with ME! But how? And why me? Why of all the people in this fucking world he had to fall in love with ME??!!

"You'd better be if you don't want to be BBQ" He heard Roy laughing. "Just kidding! I would never hurt a woman. But please the next time you plan to be 'creative' don't scare me like today! Next time I don't guarantee I will restrain myself from incinerating you, cause like I said, it is not pleasant to be awakened by five women taking photos of you in such a …compromising …position. Oh and by the way I'm sorry to disappoint you but I haven't made any moves yet. I was just taking a shower when I heard Fullmetal crying so I came out to check him and to try to comfort him, nothing else." What?! Then they were taking photos of US?! Oh I will definitely kill them!! But wait that means that HE was the one with me last night?! B-but why? Why being nice with ME? Why fall in love with ME? ME of all the people in this fucking world! Me, when I'm only a sinner! I don't deserve anything, much less love!! I don't even deserve to be alive..!! Al…why….WHY??...

He was so deep in thought that he forgot about the other people in the room and their conversation. A sob escaped from his lips as shifted his position in the bed rolling to his side drawing their attention towards him. Fortunately they didn't notice he was awake.

When he finally came out of his thoughts the only thing he could hear was the shower. Slowly his eyes fell on the chair at his side where the jacket of Roy laid forgotten. A little silver artifact caught his attention: a little pocket knife.2 Thoughts of what happened with Al filled his mind again while his eyes were still fixed in the pocket knife.

I will finish this once and for all…I'm sorry Al, I can't kept my promise to you…I hope you can forgive me some day…..

He silently took the knife from the jacket and brought it to his wrist while fighting the tears that were threatening to fall. "I'm really sorry…" He slowly made cuts along his veins in both arms. He stared in awe the blood running down his arms to paint the pure whites sheets. He stared in awe as his own life left him.

A single tear made his way to his cheek: his requiem. His requiem for his brother, his requiem for his mother, his requiem for all that had happened, his requiem for the life that he was leaving behind, his requiem for himself.

His vision became blurry, he started to felt dizzy and his body felt numb. His consciousness started to leave him. I guess this is it…it wasn't so bad after all…But why I feel sad…why I feel regret?...I'm doing the right thing after all and you forgive me right Al…you never blamed me for anything, not even when it was my fault that you lost your body...you forgive me right…then why do I feel like I left something behind?... In that moment he heard the door of the bathroom opened far away, and he remembered that he wasn't alone. In that moment he remembered Roy and his feelings of regret came again this time accompanied by a sharp pain in his heart. I guess I'm really leaving something behind…I guess I always loved you too...that should explain this pain in my heat knowing I will never see you again…I'm sorry…

"I'm …so sorry…. Roy, I….I guess I… really loved you…. after all…" He said, his voice merely a whisper, as he felt another tear made his way to his cheek: his requiem for a friend, for his new found love, his requiem for Roy. Before his consciousness abandoned him completely, and as darkness surrounded him, he thought he felt a pair of arms engulfing him in a soft and warm embrace. Guess it wasn't really so bad after all….at least I feel warm…I have to go now...Wait for me mom, Al… And with that darkness embraced him.

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1 Remember Edward has his eyes shut so he doesn't know they are nurses too.

2 The knife is like the ones that Hughes always has. Here in this story every member of the military use them as protection apart of the guns, and in this case alchemy, you never know when they can fail.

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AH: Well finally chap 5 is finished. I must admit I had this chap posted months ago but I couldn't make up my mind as to how to finish it. Anyways, another cliffhanger!!! But plz don't kill me for how the chap ended!!! If you do I can't do the next one right…!!! I do expect a lot of brownies and Oreo-pies and chicken-pies..!! But plz don't flame me!! Only MY Roy can flame me!! Oh I sad that aloud? E heh heh oops…! (sweat drop) Anyways thx to those who reviewed…! And hope you enjoyed this chap as well!!

Special thx to silverkiss for being my beta in this chap..! I owe you another one..!! XD