A/N: hello there! (Obi Wan reference implyed.) I am really looking forward to this sooo, yeah. updates will be slow, but chapters long. also I am not used to first person POV so, if it randomly switches to third, yeah... I am working on it, so sorry.

"You were my brother Anakin! I loved you!" Loved not love… I love anakin but anakin is… dead. Sadness filled my heart. How could you do this to me? I couldn't stand it. It tore at my heart, shredding it to pieces. I couldn't live anymore. Couldn't do anything. I watched helplessly as Anakin died...

No… Anakin, Why… why… Why… How could you do this to me?!

Broken, I turned and left. Leaving… Anakin- no, darth vader to die. It tore my heart and riped it to peices and bruned it. Oh, how irconic. Burned. I borded the ship and checked on Padme.

"Obi Wan? Is Anakin alright?" I didn't have the heart to answer. She passed out soon. I set the chordanates on the ship for where Bail told me, then lied down on the soft mattress. I knew I couldn't sleep, but also knew I needed to meditate.

"You were my brother anakin!"

"I see though the lies of the jedi!"

"Then you are lost!"

"I will do what I must"

"My new empire!"

"Anakin, my allegiance it to the republic! To democracy!"

"It's over anakin, I have the high ground!"

"I HATE YOU!"

I shook myself trying to get away from the memories. Oh how they haunted me. I found it impossible to meditate. Impossible to even close my eyes. Every time I did I saw those yellow sith eyes on my brother...

brother...

"You are stong and wise anakin, and I am very proud of you."

"Obi Wan- May the force be with you."

"You too, my friend."

"I HATE YOU!"

My thoughts were spiraling out of countrol. I couldn't do this. Or anything.

"Oh Anakin…" I whispered softly to myself.

"I failed you… I failed you, and you payed for it… I failed you…"

"Then go back in time and fix it… bring back him back… prevent it from happenening… turn back time…" Whispered a voice… the force?

My vision swam and I blacked out.

When I came around, everything was white. I was in the halls of healing. Healer Master Che aprotched me, seeing I was awake.

"Ah, Master Kenobi, I am glad you are awake. Master Windu has a request for you… And after that, Your padawan would like to see you."

I gulped. padawan.

I accepted the comlink, and answered the call from Mace.

"Good job on the border dispute on Ansion- I am glad everything went well. I take it you are well and recovered?"

"Yes master." Oh, this had taken me far back. Wait. Anakin… no, no, no, I wasn't ready!

"Good. we need you and your padawan to protect Senetor Amidala. The chancellor felt it would be good for her to be with jedi she knew."

"Yes master."

The call ended, and Healer Che walked in. "Should I let your Padawan in then?"

"Y-yes." But I secretly didnt what that. I couldn't face Anakin. No matter what age, again. Ever. But I didn't have a choice. Did I?

Anakin walked though the door, no, no, no, don't look, don't look… i cant. I cant. I cant i-

"Master! Are you ok? I heard that you were injured- is everything alright?"

"Y-yes…" I wanted to add Anakin, but found I couldn't say the name. Out of habit I looked into Anakin's eyes.

They were fighting on Mustafar, Anakin's eyes flickering between their familiar blue, and sith yellow.

"This is the end for you, my master."

"Have you noticed the shields are still up?"

"I'm not leaving without you master"

"Don't try it."

"Master? Is everything ok?"

"Yes, Anakin. I am… Perfectly fine."

Anakin gave me the most, 'if you say so.' look ever. Dang it! I looked at his eyes. Again.

"I have failed you, Anakin!"

"From my point of veiw, the jedi are evil."

"You were the chosen one!"

"My master…"

"Anakin." I whispered.

"What did you say?"

"Erm, nothing."

"Ok… Are- are you ok?"

"Y-yeah…" We lapsed into silence. It was awkward.

Finally, I got up. "We have a mission to protect the senator… An- Pada-" I couldn't bring myself to say it. Choking back a sobb, I forced myself to say, "Anakin."

Anakin looked at me suspiciously, but said nothing. We left.

Later in the elevator, Anakin Was restless, which, wasnt saying much, but he was sweating and seem very much on edge. I wanted to say something- but what would i say? 'You remind me of when you were trying to kill me in the future?' 'I hate you for killing the younglings?' 'relax?' 'take a deep breath?' so, we laped back into akward silence.

"What should I do? I haven't seen her in ten years, master."

"Relax. Take a deep breath, you will do fine. She will be happy to see us." no, she wont be. I won't be. She will get pregnant with your baby. You will do horrible things in the name of 'love' you and i will never, ever, be fine again. You hate me- remeber? Oh, there were so many things to be said. But first, makeing sure the senetor was not killed.

The elevator stoped, and we got off, after a gureling confrontation with Jar-Jar, we went into the senator's room.

"Hello, mi'lady. It is a pleasure to see you alive and well."

"You too, Master Kenobi, I am so glad our paths have crossed again. However, i feel your presence here is highly unnecessary."

"The jedi council has their reasons."

Padme did a double take on Anakin. "Ani? My goodness you've grown."

"Why, you seem to have grown younger, mi'lady… but still just like an angel."

"Oh, Ani, you will always be that little boy I knew on tatooine."

I shook my head, knowing that Anakin had deep rooted love for Padme.

…

"You look tired."

"I don't sleep well anymore."

"Because of you mother?"

"I keep on having nightmares- visions if you will, about her. She dies. She is tortured. She dies again. And every time I wake up in the dead of night… I wish to go to tatooine and save her, master."

"I can watch over the senetor. Alone."

"Are you…"

"Yes. Take a medical capsule with you. If she is being tortured as you say…"

"Thank you, master."

And with that, Anakin left. Leaving me, to reflect on what to do next, and how to help… Well, him. He was a complex one.

That's for sure. Now, if I recall correctly, Anakin said there was a disturbance in the force, then I felt it, then we charged in to save her… only problem is I can't feel the force. So… I guess I will sit in her room?

I walked inside her room, and R2 didn't seem to care. So I sat down. But oh, how much do I wish I hadn't looked at her.

"Liar!"

"Is anakin alright?"

"You turned her against me!"

"Let her go!"

"I see through the lies of the Jedi!"

"Then you truly are lost!"

Then, the force shifted… and showed him something else… it had never happened, so maybe the future?

"There's good in him…"

A man in black armor…

"You did not kill Anakin Skywalker… I did…"

"I have accepted that you were once Anakin Skywalker, my father."

"Tell your sister, you were right…"

"No, I am your father."

"Your father was killed by a former apprentice of mine. A man by the name of Darth Vader…"

"I am a jedi, like my father before me…"

"Noooooo! Ben, why didn't you tell me!"

"It seems in your anger, you killed her…"

Darkness… then, The man by the name of Darth vader… then the voice of the force…

"Darth Vader would have survived… with a deep hatred for the man who condemned him to eternal suffering… stop it from happening… fix what has been broken… use me…"

Mechanic breathing…

I gasped. I had fallen asleep! But… checking the time, well, no time had passed. I looked up to see snake-like creatures withering through the window. I ignited his lightsaber-

They were fighting on mustafar-

"Don't try it."

As Anakin, no. Vader twirled above-

Shaking himself, I slashed at the creatures, and woke the senator.

The senator's handmaid rushed in.

"Are you alright, milady?"

…

A few days later, Anakin returned, with his mother.

She was alive, and well- recovering from injuries, but alive. And that was all that mattered. Shmi was to have an apartment, on coruscant, and to get a job at the temple. While not as force-sensitive as Anakin, she possessed slightly above normal midi-chlorian count, so she would work as a temple guard. Even now, I could see Anakin was overjoyed, and he was much more calm. More than that, the deep Anger he felt since childhood was fading. With his mother safe as she could be, he was calm. I smiled, knowing I had just eliminated one of the key reasons Anakin hated him and the Jedi, and one of the main reasons he… turned to the dark side.

...

"Master, let's spar."

"Later, padawan."

"Master, come on, you love sparring."

"I-"

"Please? Let me show you how much I have learned."

"I… can't."

"What do you mean?"

"I… fine."

They went into the training rooms.

"Real sabers?"

"Ok, but Amp them down to power level 1."

"Ok."

we ignited our lightsabers, and my head pounded, threatening to overwhelm him with memories.

"This is the end for you, my master."

"Anakin, Chancellor Palpatine is evil!"

Maybe, if I wasn't so caught in my thoughts, I'd notice Anakin's look on his face then. But, I didn't.

"Master…?"

"Yes, Vade- Anakin."

"Can we do this later?"

"Sure."

Maybe, just maybe, if I hadn't been so caught up in my thoughts, I would have noticed it then.

But no.

I didn't.

And the whole galaxy would pay for it.