A/N: This is a songfic from Edward's POV when he goes to Volterra. This is based off of the song Like You by Evanescence.

Thanks to clairxdexlune for the awesome beta.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. I also do not own the song Like You.

Walking into the office, for lack of anything better to call this room, I think of Bella. How I wish she was still here. Not just here, but with me. I wish I could see her beauty one last time, to kiss her soft lips, to tell her I love her, to see her smile. I hate myself for the look I put on her face as I left. I hate myself for doing this to her.

Stay low soft, dark, and dreamless. Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness. I hate me for breathing without you. I don't want to feel anymore for you.

She's gone. Suicide. Dear, sweet Bella, how could you leave me? It's my worst nightmare. Yes, I left her first, but only because I thought it was best. I hate myself for all I've done, not just to Bella, but to her family. And mine. I've made everyone I've ever loved suffer. I don't want to be "alive" without knowing she's not alive as well. I don't want to feel knowing she's no longer feeling.

Grieving for you, I'm not grieving for you. Nothing real love can't undo. And though I may have lost my way, all paths lead straight to you. I long to be like you, lie cold in the ground like you.

I can't grieve for her. How can I, knowing that I'm going to join her? All it takes is a simple yes from the Volturi. Oh, please let them say yes. I can't go on living without her. It takes all I have to make it through the days and nights. Opening the door, I see Aro sitting in a luxurious high backed chair.

"Hello, Edward. What can we do for you today?" Aro greets me with a smile on his pale, almost transparent, face.

"I want you to kill me." I reply. Why bother with pleasantries when I find there to be nothing pleasant in life?

After a few moments of careful, hidden thoughts between Aro and his brothers, Marcus and Caius, he gives me my answer. "For what reason do you wish to die?" he asks, holding out his palm to me. I touch it, allowing all of my past, most importantly the months with Bella, and those after I left her, and now her death, run through his brain. Seeing it all over again just makes the pain that much stronger. A few more moments of careful discussion between the three occur and Aro gives me their final decision.

"I realize that this is painful for you Edward, but you deserve to be punished for allowing a human to know your families', and the rest of our kind's, secret. Also, I still feel a great deal of affection for Carlisle. I'm afraid this would upset him greatly, and I'd rather not do that. I'm sorry Edward, but we will not kill you."

Halo, blinding wall between us, melt away and leave us alone again. Humming, haunted somewhere out there, I believe our love can see us through in death.

Agony races through my body with their decision. There has to be way. Leaving the 'office', I sit in the waiting area with Gianna sitting behind her desk, smiling at me. I contemplate the many ways I could go about exposing our secret to the city of Volterra. I could go on a killing rampage, but no, I'd rather not kill any humans. It would be a betrayal to Carlisle and the family. Even to Bella. That's when I remember the celebration tomorrow. The city will be packed with people, and it will be sunny. I'll walk out into the crowds in sunlight. The sun reflecting off of my skin will be enough to make them retaliate against my behavior. It has to.

I long to be like you, lie cold in the ground like you. There's room inside for two. And I'm not grieving for you, I'm coming for you.

My love, my Bella. I long to be dead like you, so in death, we may join each other once more. There has to be a way for you to forgive me in death. There has to be room in your heart to forgive me the heartache I've caused you. So I refuse to grieve your death, because I'm coming to join you.

You're not alone, no matter what they told you. You're not alone; I'll be right beside you forevermore. I long to be like you, lie cold in the ground like you did. There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you. And as we lay in silent bliss, I know you remember me. I long to be like you, lie cold in the ground like you. There's room inside for two. And I'm not grieving for you, I'm coming for you.

Walking towards the light, I feel someone run into me. Thinking it to be a member of the Volturi guard, I open my eyes to see my beautiful Bella's face, looking into mine. Her eyes are scared and worried, and full of love for me. "It's even better than I thought." I say to her, not knowing she's still alive, and saved me, for once, from an almost certain death. Now, the hard part comes in facing Aro for the second time. Only this time, I have Bella to worry about. Kissing her, and taking her into my arms as if I'll never let go, I turn, with Alice, to follow Jane back into the depths that will lead back to the Volturi castle.