hello there! hope I kept you waiting long enough! (yeah, uh, sorry, I was at a camp with no connection for a few days) anyways enjoy the chapter.
Contains A line from OWK ep.2 but it js fine if you havent seen cuz... well, it doesn't give away much.
Ch. 2
He and Anakin walked over to the gardens. They found rocks, side by side, and went into meditative pose. Tentatively, Obi Wan reached out with the force, finding a strong black wall surrounding his mind. Fear. His fear. All of it. He tried desperately to reach out, but found that he couldn't.
"Come on, let's… um, see what the Senetor needs."
"Um… are you ok? Master?"
"Yes, why?"
"Well, it's just, you love meditating, and, well, um, it hasn't been even three minutes…"
"I am… not feeling my best, Padawan."
"Ok… maybe we should go to the Halls…"
"Padawan-"
"Master, I am getting Master Che." And with that, Anakin ran off.
Sighing, Obi Wan sat down.
…
Later, Anakin came back with a healer, and Obi Wan was escorted to the Halls of Healing. Oh how he Hated the place.
A while later, Healer Che walked in.
"So i take it you are not feeling well?"
"I feel fine."
"That's not what told your Padawan."
"That's what I told you."
"Obi Wan- at least open up your mind so i can see what is wrong…"
"I… I can't."
"Yes. you can."
"No- I literally can't."
"What… do you mean."
"I… I can't even meditate."
"You need to go to the mind healers."
"I can't do that either."
"Why?"
"Can't say."
"What can you say?"
"I… that I am not crazy."
"Um. sure. Ok." I sighed. She didn't believe me.
"I- I have to speak with Master Yoda…"
"Ok. I will call him."
A few minutes later, Yoda walked in- I motioned for Healer Che to walk out.
I sat in a meditative pose, so did he…
"You were the chosen one! It was said you'd bring balance to the force! Not destroy it!"
"I HATE YOU!!!"
"You were my brother Anakin! I loved you!"
"Is Anakin alright?"
Snapping out of my own demons, I realised that I had tears streaming down my face.
"Master Yoda, please… search my mind… see what I have… help me."
"Reach you, I cannot. Blocked, you are from the force. Unblock yourself, you must."
"How, Master?"
"Let go of your fear… release it into the force you must."
"How can I release it into the force if I cannot feel the force?!"
"Hehehe training bond with young Skywalker you have, yes?"
"I cannot enter Anakin's mind. And I refuse to. Even if I could, just would not…" it would be too painful
"Enter you must! Release your fear towards everything you must!"
"I… cannot enter Anakin's mind, and I cannot even feel the remains of Qui-Gon'S bond… I have no force."
"Hmmm a serious matter this is. Talk about what did this to you, you must."
"I cannot do that. You would think me to be insane."
"Ahaha! But insane you are not! Tell, and deem you not insane, I will."
"Where to start…"
…
Later that day, I was in a horrible mood. Being so blocked from the force, i didn't even sense Master Plo coming up from behind.
"You seem quite distracted, Master Kenobi."
"What!? Oh, yes, quite so, I am afraid."
"Come with me to the gardens. They are quite beautiful this time of year."
"Oh… yes, ok."
We walked together into the gardens; I was dreading the thought of maybe having to meditate.
Master Plo took me to a place, which I had not seen before; it was in the gardens, however it was behind what everyone else thought to be vines. He took me into a cave and out into the most beautiful waterfall ever. With grass, and wildflowers.
"I like to come here to meditate when it seems to world is too loud, or chaotic; even in the temple… so I go here. There is a certain feeling a peace, here which I find helpful when i am troubled… I think everyone knows by now that you are most definitely troubled. Your force signature is very strange and unusual for you."
"Wh-what do it feel like?"
"You… you cant…"
"I have been blocked off in a way."
"It feels fearful, and saddened. Quite depressing. But if one were to try to reach out to you, they'd find a thick wall of fear and depression surounding your consiouness."
"Ah. well, I am not suprised. I find myself… unable to reach the force…"
"How is such a thing possible?"
"I… do not know."
"Hmm, well, I hope you can find peace here. When you are ready to leave, call me, and I shall lead you out. There are many vines here, each leading to a different place in the temple; I feel it would be best to emerge the same way we came."
I nodded, and went (not for the first time) into a meditative pose. Breathe in, out, in, out, in, out, in, out, in-
"The jedi are evil!"
"You were my brother Anakin!"
"This is the end for you, my master."
"I saw a security hologram, of him… killing younglings."
"Rise, Lord Vader! Fufill you destiny!"
The memorys changed again. To what he presumed to be the future.
"Anakin Skywalker is Alive, Obi Wan."
"Anakin."
"Anakin Skywalker is dead. I killed him… just like I will destroy you!"
"OBI WAN!"
It changed again.
"Show no mercy! Fulfill your destiny!"
My eyes snapped open. "ANAKIN!"
Plo ran over. "Is everything alright?" but I was already curled up in a mass of robes, ashamedly crying. I was unable to stop myself. The sobbs came, one after another.
"I will go get Anakin…"
"No. don't. Whatever you do, don't bring Anakin."
I am sure Master koon was very surprised; however, he did as i asked. Plo bent down a rubbed my shaking shoulders. Slowly i calmed down. After a while, i said, "sorry about that…"
"Do you want me to get Anakin?"
"S-sure…"
A while later Anakin sat down on a rock next to me.
"Anakin."
"Master; are you ok? You seem kind of… off today."
"Yes, padawan, I am fine… just concerned."
"About what?"
"You."
"W-what for…" Anakin sounded afraid… was this the right thing to do?
"Yes… tell my son… warn him…"
"Anakin."
"Well, tell me; can you reach the force?"
"N-no… what is this all about?"
"Why can you not reach the force?"
"I start have- wait; you- you, you…" he whispered something I couldn't understand.
"What?"
"You…" he looked shocked. And afraid. Very afraid. What was this all about?
"Anakin, just spit it out. What is it."
"I…" Anakin looked panicked; afraid. "I… Have to go." And with that he ran off. Oh well. I mean, at least he's not killing everyone I know.
…
Later that day, after hours of meditating (or, you know, relieving PTSD) I was in a horrible mood. Normally, after meditating, I was in a good refreshed mood. Well, not today. Today, I relived my trauma twice. I walked out and Master Koon walked over.
Oh no, not now…
"Obi Wan, you look stressed."
"I am stressed."
"That is unusual for you… is there something wrong?"
"Yes!" I snapped "everything is wrong! I can't even reach the stupid force! Of COURSE I am stressed!" I immediately felt bad, for lashing out in emotion was forbidden, and I had done it to the kind, Kel Dor. "Plo… I am sorry, it has been a rough couple of days… and being unable to release into the force… or even feel it has gotten to my head. I am sorry for lashing out."
"It is ok, after all, these trials come to all of us, and none of us follow the code completely."
I nodded my understanding, and walked off, to find somewhere to sit, and possible sleep.
…
I had settled down in my quarters, and slept for an hour. Well, I had nightmares for an hour. By this point I had a splitting headache, and was feeling a little bit dizzy. I pushed it aside.
My comlink beeped, and I winced at the abnormally loudness of it.
"Yes?"
"Obi Wan. The senator has a senate meeting at 0100 today; you and your padawan are to watch over her, and prevent any assaianation attempts."
"Ok, thank you. Master Windu." I called Anakin.
"Anakin;"
"Yes?"
"Get over here now, if you get going now, you will be able to eat, and leave for senator Amidala's apartment on time. We are to escort her to a meeting… be there by 1245."
"Yes, master." I unwillingly flinched at; master.
"This is the end for you, my master."
I shook my head. A BIG mistake, as my world tipped dangerously, and my head pounded profusely.
Your fine, Obi, your fine…
Well, I was not fine… but I didn't know it then!
…
"There was a third assaination attempt, masters."
"Hmmm, troubling this is… yes. Have a lead on who is behind these attacks, do you?"
"Yes, masters. The attacker dropped this." I held out a small dart, "however, it is not in our archives."
"Hmmm, investigate this, you should." Yoda chimed.
"Yes, Masters. But may I inquire; who is to protect the senator?"
"Could we send Young Skywalker and the Senator to Naboo?" questioned Mace, in his blunt voice.
"I… dont know I trust Anakin with such a thing… he has, um, feelings towards the Senator…"
"Good. It will help him get over this uncanny attachment of his."
"Yes, masters." With that, I left.
"Anakin- you are assigned to protect the senator while I investigate. You are not to leave her side."
"Then we came to rescue you."
"Good job."
"Ok, Obi Wan, uh, I mean master."
"Padawan, be safe, take her to naboo, and please, do not leave.