As they stood outside the dark clouds rolled in. Jacob noticed that she was quieter than normal. He wondered what had happened in the little time they had slept. Bella stepped into her truck. "Well, i'd better get home, school's tomorrow and...well you know." she said. Jacob gave her a hug and closed the door. Bella stared at the steering wheel for a moment and then started the truck. The roar overlapping everything ealse. She was about to pull out when she felt a quick moment of fear. She heard a sudden crash and she jumped. Only to realize it was the thunder outside. And with it came the rain. Quietly she calmed herself and looked out the window. She was surprised to see Jacob was still there, laughing. "SHUT UP!" she yelled through the glass and she smiled. Then she pulled out of the drive way and headed home.

-- 3 weeks later --

Bella was confused. Edward had not come back yet. He was suppose to come back last Friday. And all of the Cullens seemed to be avoiding her. EVEN ALICE. She was confused and hurt. Why wasn't he back? Why were they avoiding her? So many questions. These thoughts were running through her mind as she took her shower. And her tears started the moment hshe thought, He is either dead, or he isn't coming back. That night she cried into her pillow muffling the sobs that racked her body. A little bit past 2:15 she felt Edwards cold hands press on her back shaking her. "Edward!" she cried. "Shhh!" he quickly put his fingers to his lips. And they both instinctively turned their heads towards the door.

Upon hearing nothing not even a stirr of movement he turned abck to Bella. "Edward where have you been?!" she silently exclaimed. He looked back at her solemnly. Bella quieted. "What's wrong?" she asked him. "Me Bella. i'm all wrong for you. You shouldn't miss me the way you do." Bella sighed. "Will you get over that! Your what I WANT! How could you be wrong for me!?" she silently exclaimed. Edward reamined silent. "Are you itleast going to stay with me tonight?" she asked. Edward looked at her and pain was in his eyes. "No." he whispered. "And...I'm leaving tonight." Bella was stunned. "no..." she whispered. "No No NO NO!" she cried frantically. "SHHH! you don't want to wake Charlie! he quickly whispered. "but you promised me! You promised you wouldn't leave me again!" She grasped his hand. "I wish you would quit thinking your wrong for me. You love me right?" she continued. Edward was quiet. Bella sat back on the bed. "You can't fool me this time Edward Cullen. You can't say you don't love me." She protested. "...Your right." he said. "But I have a chance to love someone ealse." he continued. "These past weeks I've been spending in Alaska with Tanya. She is happy with me and I am happy with her. Not as happy as I am with you. Never will I ever be as happy with her as I am with you. It's just..."

Bella had sat stunned unbelieving untill this moment. "So what? Your going to leave me for her?" she asked brokenly. Pain filled Edward eyes. After a few seconds he uttered, "Yes...But it is only for you. I think we can bothe be happy this way. You and Jacob and me and Tanya." He quieted. Bella just stared at him. Finally tears began to fill her eyes. "But...I don't want Jacob. I want you." she told him brokenly. Edward was quietly thinking. Then, "But I don't want you Bella. With Tanya I can be myself. And I don't have to worry about hurting her."

"But I'm going to be a vampire soon. In JUST A FEW WEEKS!" she stressed. "Bella...do you really think I was going to ruin you that way? To kill you for my benefit? Think Bella. I would never do that to you." He looked at her and she turned away. Soberly she told him, "fine. Now can you just go?" she asked. Edward looked helplessy at her. He approached her and hugged her. "It's for your own goo-" Bella cut him off. "Whatever. When are you leaving?" she asked. " In a few hours. It's for th-" "Just go." she said. Edward released her, and he went to the window. "Good-Bye Bella." he said. And he was gone.

Bella fell back onto the bed, the tears pouring down before she hit the pillow. The pain seemed to be 10x worse this time. Maybe it's because this time...he really doesn't want me. She thought.